What to say... she's my cousin's best friend, or former best friend, whatever. We went to school together every day back in 2004. I liked her. Not the way I liked Alicia, but she was a good girl, smart, not bad on the eyes. Still the killer for me was her age. She was 14 and I was 17. I'd never been around girls much back then so I didn't know what the best age ranges were for a relationship. I thought about it a lot, she was definitely single same as me, but I didn't think I was good enough for her and the age difference really messed me up since I don't want to go to jail for pedo stuff....
Well she's 20 now. in college. Sigh... It's been 5 years, 5 long years since I last saw her. No doubt she's been around the block, probably a completely different person now. My cousin's certainly changed now that she's a wife and mother. I was absolutely floored by that revelation. I thought she'd end up married later on or something not so soon...
Still I'm so confused. One minute I'm thinking about the mil, which I'm SO scared of doing, but determined to succeed in or *shrugs* go back to my blue collar nothing life, and now I have Alicia on myspace, Holly in NY somewhere, tons of airforce women who will go nuts for a man in uniform... I'm just losing my mind from it a little bit. I NEVER thought I'd have this many girls to choose from at my whim. How strange... I guess it does pay to be patient. I'll have to move quickly though. IF I finish basic and tech and get settled, i'll definitely consider all this courting stuff. I realized too late that girls LIKE being chased by boys. So here I am trying to get my shit together enough to start doing it myself...
God help me.
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