So long...

Not long now. So here I am at last... What a journey its been. I'm finally going to do what I've dreamed of doing since childhood days. I'm 23, going to be traveling the world, hopefully being a positive influence on people and doing good things with my life I have left. I've done a lot of wrong that I wish I could just erase but it'll never be gone. i'll remember it forever. Truth is, I don't even know who I am outside of the web. When I went to college I did it out of curiosity more than a deep desire to finish and be given an easier life. I need it now having seen just how beneficial it is. But at the same time i feel that the worlds changed and all these old ways of learning are starting to be less effective and necessary. For instance, I'll be trained in computers in the mil. Now what if I finished up college with a degree in psych? While the devry grads in computer programming would be licking up jobs left and right since those guys are needed, I'd be struggling to pay off my loans and all while trying to find jobs as a psychologist or somethig like that.

Then there's just plain screw it all gosh darn, Jesus Christ. I believe in Jesus, but it's hard to keep the faith when I'm out there and I got people pushing me around and it's like if I push back, I'm the bad guy. Really we all are evil bastards. Thank God for children. They truly keep us from acting like big dumb stupid beasts because as adults it's our job to care for them.

Let this be my final post and lastly a message of hope for the future to all who have been reading. Life will test you but if you keep your faith strong, do what's right in your heart, there will never be any man who can break you down completely. God Bless you all. And i mean that.