Kids again

wow, I'm shocked.

So I'm back from work. What an interesting thing, children.

I don't know, honestly. As a kid, I didn't think any of the other kids were even "kids" as in in toddlers...

I felt grown up quite a bit as a kid...

But I'm at work, and this little girl, probably 8 or something, just tells me she's getting her brother an angry birds plushy because he plays the game.

I'm all like "wow, you're real deal little girl." Just telling random people things...

ya know, me, the big goofy guy I am, just told her that she's "the best sister in the world."

I don't know. I'm the youngest in my family line. I've never had to be a big brother. So I don't know shit about that kind of thing. I've only ever really helped raise my niece, and I'm cool with her. ya know... she's really my daughter in a lot of ways. I wiped her ass. I'm there for her. Ya know... that's all it is. She's a bitch now that she's in her teens. And I try to maneuver around her bitchiness as much as possible.

But kids are killing me at work. I'm thinking, damn, that bitch is fine. Then she turns around and she's a child... I'm like whoa...

It's ok though. Ya know... I'll get used to it. I have to be a man about things. And what does that mean? I'll tell you. It means you always care about kids. ya know... All this job, college, war, shit, whatever... all comes down to one thing. Making a kid smile, laugh, be happy. Enjoy their life. Because it's gonna be over, man... And what scares me the most. What kinda pisses me off, is when I can't do enough. I can't help or entertain a little kid. Or I say something stupid or I fail at being impressive... ya know how it is... But I try. I want to give them the life I sorta had. Those moments as a child, when I was really happy, totally content. Whether it was watching cartoons, playing with toys, or like, dancing to music. That's exactly how I think kids should be, all the time. Not just those brief moments after school. But I'm just a little fish in a big pond. And I'm not going to change the world...

But yeah. That's what I try to do. I'll be damned, if I ever harm a kid. That's the bottom line for me.