thoughts on bullies

Yeah hardy har har, I guess my antics at superherohype influenced the captain america movie. Very nice. And avatar, the whole "go away" meltdown...

Stop it. I don't want to be a part of some screen writer's jokes.

I grew up having NOTHING to do with big mainstream hollywood and I would much prefer to live and die that way. Though it is flattering. As I sat at my desk as a kid drawing and dreaming of star wars and ghost busters, I did have this thought that maybe someday I'd get to do something great like lucas and my other idols. Not going to happen, but hey, I made my mark in some way didn't I...

But getting back to captain america, he goes on about how he despises bullies because he was seriously picked on as a weakling before getting the roids...

I got picked on incessantly in school. Every year I'd have to deal with some asshole guy. On and on it went...I ultimately got into a fight with some douche in high school before leaving the school for good after that.

Now it continues in life, at work, online, assholes all over the place though I could care less. I'm much wiser now. I know how things are, but that still doesn't make me feel very optimistic.

I simply wish it didn't ever happen. And now I'm getting made out to be the bad guy because I'm not a bully myself. Well, no i don't want to be. I've played that role, I've retaliated against my cat I didn't like. I've bullied my sister for fun when bored. I KNOW it's fun to pick on others. Which is why I strive not to do it, and be a hero. And not out of some "oh I'm older, and have to act like an adult" reason. I'm just not a bad person. Believe it or not, there are people in this world like me who are good people. We have no desire to destroy others. We want to be a force for good.

It makes me feel good to help kids. To help people. I genuinely enjoy it. Why is that so wrong? If I see any kid in trouble or hurt, doesn't matter if that kid's an asshole, I'll most likely help him. That's just who I am.

I'm a soldier I guess, born from the same warrior blood as my father. Warriors are supposed to defend people, like jedi. Or I hope so anyway, can't say I agree with what we're doing military wise, but I don't know much about that shit.

All I really want to do now is get some pussy. Ya know what I don't get. Why do kids bully the crap out of you all your life, then when they discover this thing called the female, they're all like "You're such an immature guy, grow up..." Hello, dude, I've always been grown up, you just finally stepped up to my level.

Sigh... Anyway, I love women. I just realized that now, they're goddamn beautiful things to me. Makes me almost forget how much shit I've been through. But yeah, they're like a perfect work of art. I've seen great works of art, yet nothing compares to a female body in its prime form. Why is that? It seems so simplistic to be completely fucking overjoyed by the sight of a gorgeous girl. But that's just the way it is. I see a hot babe and I'm thinking "life is good." It shouldn't be that easy. Something's wrong with that...

Really though, it's about that bond you develop. The superficial is good too, but the deep emotional bond to a woman is where the good shit is... I mean, I'd love to get with a gorgeous blonde big tittied blue eyed white girl, but if she's a psycho bitch I can only tolerate her for so long, ya know... It's not about that. It's about having a girl with you who you can play a session of call of duty with and she sucks your dick if you win, that kind of shit.

soul mates. I gotta get me some of that before I fuck off this planet yall...