no strike

looks like I'm not going to be earning diddly squat at this new job. Whatever strike they were hiring for isn't going to happen. They've reached a tentative deal that benefits everyone who was complaining about low wages. Amazing, a doorman can make more money than a police officer. How does that make sense? I guess their job is really tough?

Hey if you can get away with making a shit ton of money, DO IT.

Got nothing to do now until CBP comes a knocking. I didn't want to have everything pin on getting into the CBP, but there's nothing left. I don't have delta, don't have fucking security job or nothing right now. Just have to squeeze my ass into the CBP and stick that shit like fucking super glue...

Goddamn, I pray I get in. I also hope that there's not going to be any hoopla or whatever. I don't like the way there seems to be some spotlight on me for whatever reason as if I'm somebody special. I guess it's a black thing. When you're black, you're the outside element in this world. You'll be watched the moment you come into a white guy's store or whatever. I mean, it struck me when I was going to stores in the mall that I worked in. I had white guys following me around even though I'm clearly a guy who works at target in that mall. Fucking they still followed me around and it was really like just to me awkward as hell.

Am I going to steal something? Then go back to my job a few stores away and shit? Certainly it'd make sense if I stole something and bolted out the fucking mall and never came back. But I work there... It would make 0.00 sense to steal a damn thing in that place.

I don't know. Gotta walk on egg shells around very rich, very powerful white people.

I mean I'm already on their hitlist, yunno. It's like, wow, they've got nothing else to do all day but figure out how to shit on my life. Fair enough. But let me get laid first before you pull out a gun and shoot me dead, how about that....

I'm not yunno oblivious to how the white man's world works. You piss them off. You get on their bad side, you're gone. You'll end up very very dead.

 It's like they don't even look at black people as human beings. We're things. Meat. Useful tools for their big industries.

Can't fly a plane without a bunch of blacks to fill it up with bags. I realize that's what's going on. Whites love black people. Because we are good for business. If there a day to come where a bunch of white guys are lifting bags, they'd NEVER settle for fuckin 11 dollars an hour. They'd ask for 25, plus better equipment, working conditions, all that shit.

But blacks don't fight. Corps love that. They hire a piss poor shit head black guy to lift bags for no money. And he does it, day in, day out, without complaint.