Thoughts on Star Wars

New image posted on Aicn featuring behind the scenes stuff from Star Wars Episode 7. Uh, wish I wasn't banned from the site, but honestly I understand. You stick around online long enough you're going to piss these guys off who are making money off these sites. It's their livelihood. I still live at home. I'm basically just getting odd jobs to get by and that's all. Hopefully I get into the CBP and I'm a fucking real deal career kinda guy from that point forward.

What's there to say about star wars. It's probably the singular thing that's made my life more interesting. For me, discovering star wars was like a match made in heaven. I never knew what it was until the special editions came out and from that point forward, I was believing life was FUCKING GOOD.

You don't get it. My life as a child was shitty. school sucked. Parents being idiots sucked. Generally just the complications of being a kid growing up in this black neighborhood was tough. So to have star wars to help make life less burdensome was everything to me. I got into the star wars movies, then all the other things. Prettymuch from the time TPM came out to now, to this day, my life has been dedicated to Star Wars. And through that, a lot of my interest in film and film making. I mean I studied how exactly Lucas came up with Star Wars, the movies he made prior to it, the group he was a part of while trying to figure out the ins and outs of the studio business.

And it's amazing. Nobody fucking involved with Star Wars was thinking at all that it would be this huge massive in a lot of ways life changing fucking movie.... And it's hard to think that anything that was going on today was going on back then. Was there tons of ass fucking going on back when they made star wars? WTF? I mean I don't honestly know. I would hope that back then people were a hell of a lot more civilized than today. Goddamn. I don't know what kind of movie star wars would be in todays butt fucking world we're in now...

Not that I give a damn. I love the fact that girls are eating so much dick with their butts to give us guys a good show... They deserve all the love and respect and good things they can get. Ultimately, yeah they're eating cock with their ass, but yunno, there's supposed to be babies coming out of that pussy hole at some point. So be mindful of the real purpose behind sex, yunno... it's not just about pounding butt holes. It's supposed to be the start of a whole new world of humanity.

Anyway, back to the main point of this posting. I LOVE STAR WARS. Unabashedly. It's the single thing that I personally hold on to to remind me of when life was good... I dare say the most blissful moment of my childhood was watching these star wars movies one by one. And just discovering the story with each film.

Sucks that my life is full of crap now. But I remember. I remember sitting back and watching power rangers the movie and just really living on a cloud in that moment in time. In fact I still do that today. It's just that I jack off and then watch a movie. But back then as a kid, just you have all the time in the fucking world to get lost in a movie. And that's all I really ever did. Played basketball, watched movies. Those two things.

I'm very simple minded person. I don't think I have to do anything special. In fact I look at life as eat. sleep. shit. Anything else is extra...

The world is a funny place. So much drugs, sex, and rock and roll. And Death. One aspect of life that children don't have any understanding of yet is that millions of people die every single day.

Whether from old age, or whatever injuries, or some shit. There's A LOT of death going on every day. I mean I just never saw it. I saw 9/11 on tv, man. At 17. All I heard was that 3000 odd people died. Not really taking it in fully or understanding that that's how the big wide world works. But yeah, ultimately this world is a big one. Very very smart people will decide if you get to live or die. Because life is disposable.

millions of people die every day. And of course everybody is going to die. So the real question is who deserves to keep on living long and prospering as spock would say...

I know I"m not the guy who's going to decide who deserves to live or die. I'm just a dorky nerd trying to get laid at this point in my life. And yeah I know that it's been said to me for whatever reason that my kids will fucking hate me. Let's put that on the table for a second. Ok, you sat there mr. Fucking Airforce guy and played hard ball. Instead of shooting me dead which is likely what you wanted to do, you made it so I'd get to live and of course not live the dream that men typically want in their life, good life with their wife and children.

BUT I'M STILL A VIRGIN. You can't POSSIBLY put that much shit on my  plate yet. Goddamn. I'll take the hit. I'll submit that maybe you're right. Maybe yeah, I'm already somehow having the spirit of my kids in my balls or something and their whole personality is already decided inside my nuts, but I don't know ANYTHING about sex, and all that shit. I don't.... Haven't even gotten to the point of understanding what a female's body feels like and shit. So that's truly awkward to have gone through your teen years jacking off and still jacking off really, and being told some shit about not having a good life with the kids or some shit. If that's how sex education works in this world. FUCK.

And more to the point. Why would anyone want to have kids these days. Can't even watch batman peacefully. Some asshole will come in and shoot you. Hell, I love going to the movies still. I see parents bringing their kids to the movies all the time, just like my dad brought me to the movies and it's awesome see that tradition being handed off to the next gen. I hope these kids are really going to be as happy with the world of film as I was. Sucks that people want to politicize movies and shit these days, But movies are really at their core fodder for stupid kids to enjoy.

You as a grown mother fucker may not like that, but you're a grown mother fucker, You SHOULD have other obligations...

 Anyway. I don't know, you beat me down. You really beat me down. You told a guy who's NEVER touched a girl's pussy or even put his finger in her butt hole, that one day, ONE MIGHTY DAY, he'll get laid and it won't turn out too good for him. You fucking basically shot a fish in a barrel.

Doesn't bother me. Why? Because despite all the attempts being made to shit on my good feelings, and my good nature. I believe that there's still some good things in life. I don't even think it's about the evils of corrupt powerful men at the top of the world. It's just something I hold on to. Why is star wars such a magnificent, well made film that pure at its heart, the way it is. It's pretty great film. Ultimately nowadays it's basically a joke. Like how jar jar represents Lucas' feelings towards blacks. Etc. Very clever. I never really would have seen that coming. Is that how white people roll. Be racist undercover. That's damn good. Because I just thought oh, fuck, jar jar's an annoying fucker ruining star wars. But NO he's lucas' opinion of black people. Here I am biggest star wars fan in the world, and I'm being blasted with 2 hours of an old white man taking a dump on black people. So it kinda is a little disappointing to look back on that whole thing... I mean wow. What am I supposed to do, stop loving star wars. I wish lucas had more class than that. That's really low. To sell this racist caricature to millions of kids and everyone and no one called him out on it. Very very few news sites were talking about jar jar being a racial thing. It was pretty much I think a running gag to the people who are actually in the KKK back then. And it's interesting, like for me to have been into star wars and online and every part of my childhood dedicated to it, and yet here I stand getting the full brunt of the racism straight to my face...

How does a black guy feel being not shitted on by powerful white people as a kid and then suddenly being shitted on later in life. It's like, to me, I don't really know what to do. It's like, I didn't have any kind of like fucking instruction manual on how to be a black dude in a white society.

You can't know... I don't know now, didn't know as a kid, and I honestly don't know what the fuck is supposed to be my feelings on things. It's just really the real problem is that white people isolate themselves from everyone. I don't really know a damn thing about white culture, white life, because everyone in my neighborhood is black and I grew up going to black schools. So I'm guessing all that anti segregation shit was just a lie.

Honestly, I'm not giving a shit about racism. Cuz that's not what I'm concerned with. I wanna jump onto a hot naked oiled up Asian girl and just fuck her silly. That's prettymuch my thought process.

Honestly, I like girls of all races. I grew up with black girls. They are something else. Ass like a motherfucker. Titties generally in fine form. Yunno. Didn't really get a taste of other females until high school. But I don't hate on any ass. I'll fuck any bitch, if I can ever get to that point.... And I think a lot of people generally think that way. If you like ass and pussy, that's all that needs to be said. Fuck race...

Motherfucking faggots ruining everything these days. I mean, shit. I think honestly they're worse than blacks. Sure black people are like not the most liked people. But at least there's some good to be had from us black people. Halle Berry for one thing...

That a fucking WOMAN goddamn. And because of her blackness she's going to look good for quite some time. Whereas a white girl would never last as long. Just saying, not trying start shit, but because she has built in sun screen, she won't age as fast.

But faggots, sorry. I don't want to be a guy who's looking to step on someone else to make himself look good. Not at all. But I don't want anything to do with those people at all. And yunno, it's just maybe a huge part of my childhood being the whole gay insult, that's still a part of me today. But yeah, not interested in getting to understand the complexities of man on man fucking. I just never thought as a kid I'd want to make sense of two men fucking each other..

It's not even my fault. Despite the media's attempts especially nowadays to include gays in the media and expose them to children. It just isn't going to happen. You're not going to convince me, nor any body else that that life is the way to go. 

Every single thing I ever watched on tv, or at the movies, was generally about a guy trying to bone a girl. EVERY FUCKING THING.

I don't care what degree you got from Ivy league level. You can't possibly spin and twist and contort logic and reason enough to make sliding a dick in another man's asshole seem like a good idea.

 Heh, whatever. Just hope that JJ makes star wars fun again and I don't think he likes blacks very much either, but certainly it'd be nice if his personal feelings weren't too much a focal point in the movie.

This is it, curtain call. I think my life will truly be complete after I see the final star wars trilogy...