Black Film Making matters

At least that does. Won't get me running around the street part of the black lives matter hoopla going on... been mugged, beaten, teased, bullied by black folk all my life. No, sad to say, no, black lives don't matter that much to me considering my experience.

Only thing important is my life, my life matters.

Cuz I'm making this movie.

It's just as I said, when you make this shit, you hate it, you curse it, you want to quit, then that eureka moment happens and you discover brilliance and pursue it tenaciously.

I've gotten some really stellar ideas going as I craft these scenes for the opening of the film. Don't want to spoil it though I'm tempted...

Getting out of the house and into the neighborhood around here is no good to do.... cops were never this prevalent around here. I guess it's an attempt to scare off the hood rats. Like that'll work. I mean, sure they can't just do nothing, they have to protect the stores and the subway system from the gangs and thieves roaming the bronx, sure, but I grew up here. There were no cops there all my childhood. Barely saw them. What the hell is different now. And no, if those guys want to steal something badly enough they'll fucking find a way. No cop presence is going to deter them. Seems like a weird pointless gesture to throw cops all over the streets for no reason. Only thing it's going to do is escalate matters in my opinion. One of these cops is going to get pissed off and knock some dumbass black kid's teeth out at some point cuz he's got a stick up his ass that day for getting the shit assignment. Just saying, I know this town. Rowdy black kids live here, do what they do, having a cop up those guy's asses isn't going to make things better at all. Some times you have to decide when to let things play out in my opinion...

Anyway, exhausted. What a crazy game, boy, life... We'll see how this goddamn movie thing works out....

so someone tried to run me over with their car tonight

Yunno, I should be dead... Dude literally didn't give a flying fuck, hit my scooter with his car then kept blazing his trail like he had somewhere to be at midnight on a fucking monday...

What the holy fuck was that about...

Second time too. Probably was the same asshole. I remember riding down the side of the road trying to avoid the traffic and one of the cars was trying to edge me off the road and honked at me.

Now this is far worse and legit if I didn't jump out the way he would have creamed my ass and gone to jail for murder... I can only hope. Maybe he'd get away. Maybe he wouldn't have given a fuck and gone on with his life... I don't know. He didn't stop. He smashed my scooter up and just kept flying away in his car. Couldn't get a good look at the plate and of course was too dazed to think straight afterwards.

People are shit in this world, aren't they... I mean, damn. Would you really have no soul enough to just slam a guy trying to get home from work like that?

Honestly yeah, considering all the shit Isis is pulling and that vid of that guy killing an innocent old man. All the stabbings going on and such. I shouldn't be surprised by such behavior. It's just out of the clear blue sky... surprise surprise, a jackass wants to fuck around today.

Makes me realize I am indeed mortal... If I want to get static shock finished, get it finished. I could be gone tomorrow and it'll be over for sure... did. not. expect. to be sitting here contemplating whether I'd still freakin be breathing this very moment...

Indeed. Filming will be expedited... I will get it done faster now.

As for the current events.... I mean I'll be honest. I think about it, is it wrong for Lord and Miller to have wanted to deviate from the script. Han Solo's best most memorable line was never written by kasdan. Ford just goes on tangents at times and it works... I have to also say, the PT was exactly as written on the page, no one dared question God himself, Lucas. So we got Yipee and goddamn Noooooooooooo! Did that work? Although Kasdan would never be as shitty at writing as Lucas, sigh, I don't know. Whatever was happening on that set was some dark shit, some bad bad bad karma between the duo and the studio. All I'll say is that I don't have a problem with them improving, that's the least of my worries. Apparently the thing that really pushed them to get canned was their choices in regards to Han and maybe Lando's characterizations. Alden wasn't acting like Han, needed to be coached etc. I can definitely imagine Glover bombing and looking just terrible as Lando... If they couldn't get Han right, pfft, fuck... lando forget that shit...

Word on the street is that they're going to back to the future this movie for real. Re-cast, reshoot shit loads of the film. It's unprecedented, but maybe they'll do it if indeed they want to kinda remove most if not all of Lord and Miller's choices for the film now. Thing is, bttf was shooting for under a month before they finally got Fox to do it. This has been shooting for 6 months... Nearly done.... there's no plans so far to re-cast, Han and Lando as far as we know... but the new news story says that what footage they have actually sucks. So they will probably reconsider completely reshooting EVERYTHING.

Jesus Christ.... We shall see... we... shall see....

Further thawts on the Han Solo Movie Debacle

I think about it often now, why after all the good vibes and cheerful pre-movie stuff did it all fall apart.

Reports are that it was just stubbornness. Lord and Miller didn't budge on their intentions to do things their way when ordered to stick to the script.

I'm going to wildly guess, they gave Lucasfilm a giant middle finger and said if you don't like it, we're gonna walk and your movie is boned.

I don't want to think Kennedy is that ruthless, but MAYBE, maybe she let them work for months and decided to drop the bomb on them NOW to dig the knife in deeper.

So tragic... I actually predicted all this shit. Did I not cite back to the future?

Who is Ron Howard and why does he deserve to make this movie? He does have a much greater more intimate history with Lucas and Ford than the Lord and Miller can EVER begin to dream of, that will benefit the film, yes.

So yeah, this movie will be as if Lucas himself was directing it, take that any way you want. Ron practically is like Lucas' son. That's what we're getting now, it's s if Lucas' freakin offspring was making a star wars movie.

That's an exciting premise... However, Ron Howard doesn't have an ounce of flare to his directing. It's straight down the middle, bland, unexciting, normal stuff.

What I wanted from Lord and Miller was their shoot from the hip directing style, the way they would amp it up for visual flare now and then. They know how to work a camera for maximum visual power... We will not get that from Ron Howard...

But he may surprise us. This is a man who was there, working with Lucas himself. Got into directing because of Lucas most likely, we'll goddamn see. I beg him to actually grow a pair of fucking balls and do something new and exciting with this shit. Don't Ron Howard this movie...

SOLO a Ron Howard Film...

That's that, it is confirmed in stone, Ron Howard will finish the Solo movie.

I love Apollo 13, other than that, he's the definition of serviceable and decent director. The term is "workman." Will this be a good or bad thing for the movie. Shit on grits, my friends. Poor bastard has to some how cobble together a movie in time for its release date and has to do it with a bunch of people who will curse through their teeth for having to work with him instead of the original guys, of course this will not end very well. The actors may sabotage the film in protest, who knows...

I'll grab the popcorn and sit back and watch the show, then say hello to pirate bay in the end LAAWL... not going to waste my time seeing it after all the floppy doopy poop it's been through...

Lord and Miller have been fired from the Han Solo movie.

Damn...

What did they do... I feel sorry for them yes. I'm not that evil. But they get no tears from me. You cast the movie wrong. Probably filled it to the brim with pop references and the movie just looked like it was going to be shit. Apparently it is shit. Lucasfilm saw the dailies or rough cut and knew it was garbage. You simply don't fire directors if the movie is okay. What they were making was utter nonsense.

Fuck... And it's impossible for them to recast lando now. This movie will forever be in the dollar bin at Kmart. Good job guys.

Got to get a car

In case you haven't figured it out, I do indeed have a job. Joke more like it, not a job. I mean it's money, that's all it means to me, nothing more nothing less. I could care less about it... I need money, this is the only way to get it pretty much...

Sucks to take the subway to work. I mean, it just makes you feel bad about being black.

Not something to feel any way about, but when you hang out and see the 100th piss soaked homeless retarded black person on the subway, yeah you feel like you're on the wrong team that's for sure.

I'd rather be dead than hobbling around all damn night asking for pocket change from people on the train as my daily career. Fuck that up its ass.

Push come to shove, yeah I'd hit the library and improve myself some how, find a way to make bread some how. Not fuck around in front of innocent people on the train like that.

But I'm not surprised. I hate to admit it, but I've lived with black people a long ass time. They're not the most quality human beings. I'm not afraid to admit this. I've lived it, been a part of this underground hand me down situation all my life, hanging at the coat tails of the upper class... it's like, I'm so used to expecting some stupid shit to happen in regards to blackitude on the daily basis, it's just inevitable. Oh my father's going to do something dumb today. Oh my mother is going to be completely self righteous and ignorant as hell today. Just clockwork.

Yep, my mother is one of those black women. Self righteous thick headed and without a shred of reason. No doubt the most annoying kind of black person, a super duper ignorant as balls one.

Boy do I sound racist as hell. Try not to be... but when you are in the trenches with black folk, you gonna end up being that way, can't damn do anything about it.

Nuff of that, just blowing steam. I mean it's such a frustrating thing to get on the train and some dude fucks your day up out of no where like an asshole. Keep your piss smelling ass to yourself, don't put it out for the world to see... my fault, just don't take the subway, avoid that shit, my bad.

Only thing good I have to say about work is that there are nice looking bitches working where I work. Not doing my job, but the desk stuff. I mean, it's like, mmmmmm good looking little hottie I get to see once in a while. She waved at me all happy go lucky like she's aware I'm checking her ass out. Hell yeah I'm looking at your ass. You wear a thong and tight pants, what the hell do you think I'm going to do...

Just constantly searching for a car. I work with cars all day, so I'm dead set on getting the Hyundai Accent . It's exactly what I need. Tiny car, 4 doors, good for parking in a crowded city etc.

I want to run amazon flex and maybe uber for extra money... Going to need a solid 1000 dollars to afford a car. Then have to pay for insurance. We're talking 1500 saved up. And if I was in a reasonable intelligent house hold, my father would help me get a car immediately to get to work on time nicely and of course start making extra money running app based jobs. But he's going to go into his fantasy universe where he's the center of the whole world and be a melodramatic douche about it, and just whine so I'm not going to have that advantage unfortunately. It's the way it is... sigh...

I mean just how horrible is my father, eh. Think about it. I have a steady stable fucking job. I need a car to get to it and could easily in freaking NY run uber and amazon flex. But he won't help me get to that point... He won't and sadly I know it. He'll do what he always does, WOE IS ME!!! Scrunch up his face and growl to himself and just bitch and moan about it while refusing to help me, a person who's just trying to do work and contribute to society! Of course helping me would some how some way under the fuck all sky be a bad thing!! :? shrugs!

That's blacks!!! You want to know why my father won't just say "yeah cool, I'll help you out until you're fully secure in your job and are capable of paying me back."

Cuz black people LOVE sticking it to other black people. It's just odd shit. It makes him feel good to some stupid extent to see me suffer. No joke, that's what he wants to do. Make me have to struggle to get to JFK when I could just drive there like everyone else does.

Ain't no loyalty between two black people, NOT A SCRATCH.

Ah well, don't know what to do now but keep pressing on with the static shock shit I'm making. Wow though, have to say you "adults" are pussies. I just want to kick half of you assholes in the face every day. Give you a taste of reality.

You all act so damn sensitive and weak, it offends me as someone who's NEVER had the luxury of living life feeling safe.

Always scared of the black guy in the room, on the train, whatever. Always a little pussy and scared of the black guy around your kids. Grow some balls and stop being a pussy, it's insulting to me. I've never gone a day feeling like the world was my play ground and everyone should conform to my expectations. Shit was just the way it was. Deal with it.

Alright, gonna be going through hell to afford a car. Wish me luck...

STATIC Concept poster

Going to basically create 4 posters... The first one already done, but that's just the preview I've had up for eons.

Here's going to be the final main poster, keep it simple which is the best way to do posters. I'm not fond of how amature photographers always just have the model look directly at the camera in EVERY SINGLE freakin image they capture. It's just too personal. You should not be concerend with teh personality of the person, but the subject matter of the photo alone.

But I want personality in this as to give you something of static's personality. And it just helps draw the parallel between his logo and the static shock character...

Trump blocked Stephen King

I honestly am getting sick of going on about trump. It's like beating a dead fat blonde horse. It's like too easy, even for a guy like me. It's like hard to watch the news as anchors take shots at trump. He's probably qualified to be labeled mentally incompetent and should be left alone to live his life in some way that could be considered decent.

Do you go after mentally challenged people and shit on their lives? Of course not, same here. I do indeed know how his story will end. Boring... let's get some real news going.

But yeah so he blocked Stephen Freaking King...

That's just... WHAT? Is he that much of a "snowflake" as is popular to throw around. When did snow flakes become the new sissy boy or faggot...

I don't know. It's just so overused makes me want to get a sled and go sliding down a hill through all of them...

Wild times goddamn...

Playing GTA Gunrunning stuff. If you haven't gotten on it, it's just videogaming bliss and I've not even gotten through the deeper parts of it. I sure am glad to be able to do these things today... Sure as hell am... Amazing gaming world we're in right now... just never would have thought I'd fly across GTA in a rocket bike with mach 5 pop out wings, honestly never saw that coming.

Found it

Think about it..  how can you lose a wallet in a highly trafficed area and still get it back. Some honest muther funkers at this spot.  Got lucky. I lost it once before at lunch at LGA when I worked TSA there. The cops had it. This time I just didn't follow my instincts and decided not to put it in my bag while I did my shit... I went through stages of some psychological shit you need a degree to understand and came to terms with the loss. Got it back sure but feel dumb for giving up on finding it so fast.

Getting blazed by the sun now so with my blackness comes complications. I will get blacker now making the static film complicated to keep in sync if indeed my bright white self suddenly looks like he's had a day at the beach next shot. Will have to figure out that stuff but maybe I can fix it in post 

Gotta move faster on the project.  That's all I know.  Hard to stay motivated. Do I care about making this for black people... Not really. Sure as fuck know whites won't give a shit about it  but I think it's a universal truth if you can do something good. Do so. 

Make a better tomorrow

Lost my FN wallet... God am I stupid. I've never felt so lost and hopeless as I do now. I mean I still have hope but to have my life gutted so fast is just unbearable... I feel like I'm dying. But no... I won't die yet. I must press on. I must make a better tomorrow...

Will it matter?

Comey's testimony... Thing is, I lived through bush's term. The guy was a straight out dumbass, blatantly unqualified to be president, yet he still got to go running the country into the gutter all the same.

Trump might stand a chance of getting impeached only because he's actually dumber than Bush. Bush at least had a decent grasp of the job of president. His father must have gave him pointers. I never thought of Bush as being a person foreign to us gov practices. He was born into it. Trump has proven he doesn't know anything about being president, just jumped in without a parachute.

I mean it's plain as Jet blue what Trump does.... He screws up, then pulls up twitter, tweets "salute our troops" and people suddenly start liking his tweet. He's doing that on PURPOSE, you fools. He knows if he puts the patriotism shield on it shuts people up...

Gotta love that stuff. It's the ultimate debate ender. Just have to say I love the military, yadda yadda, you get a giant gold medal from the mindless masses.

Too bad no one actually researches what Trump has been doing. Got a navy seal killed pointlessly. Does not want newer, better, tech in Warships because he doesn't like it and preferes the sound of the steam driven version... is blabbing to russians and fucking duerte about military positions of nuclear subs. Has pissed off 2 of our allies with his idiotic tweets.... Fired a seasoned long standing patriotic highly intelligent FBI director on a spur of the moment gut reaction after trying to sway him over dinner! There's a mountain more stupidity from him to come....

And funnily enough, even if he burned the flag in front of people's faces, they'd kiss his ass if he went to a west point award ceremony the next day to make a speech. That's the sad fact about Trump.

I do question his allegiance to America. The man seems to actually not care about the country, the millions who will lose health care, there's a evil to him that at the root of his actions and convictions that we're not going to understand until it's too late.

The fight it real

Not gonna lie. getting up and going places again, has wreaked havoc on my body... Feel like complete ass for no good reason.

Forgot how much I hate NYC. Homeless this, homeless that, that's all you're going to get in this town. Smelling of piss, literally the piss of someone else is going into your nose. Think about that.

I feel sick having taken the subway so much recently. Probably fucked me up.

Aw well, if I shed pounds from all this calorie burning, it'll be worth the pain of dealing with the garbage beneath these city streets.

just need money, just need to keep forging forward filming bits and pieces of this static shock fan film thing.

Yeah though, if you live away from all this bullshit, don't come here to live. Stay healthy and safe where you are and raise your kids away from this shit.

Don't have a damn clue why anyone would want to live in the city. It's garbage. There's nothing good about going out to walk the streets and suddenly feeling like you're in the middle of a mental ward.

I don't think myself above anybody. I'm black. You LITERALLY can't think of yourself above anybody. But yeah, I'm lightyears above a psycho hanging out smelling of piss all day instead of attempting to get a job, make some cash doing something.

I struggle now. Fight to keep motivated in finishing static shock. But it sucks cuz my body is SHOCKED by the sudden exposure to germ infested subway.

It's actually gotten used to not being in the subway for so long, my body thought things changed. So it's like I just up and dunked my head in a shit filled toilet bowl right now. That's how much I've been shocked by the shift in life style.


I feel like crap.

STATIC

Finally took the best pick of me in costume... Hope the visuals in the final film I cobble together will do it justice... keep tuned for this puppy. It's been a 4 year project. Release date, some time before the Last Jedi hits... I've got practically all the scenes ready to be filmed, just need to do it. Editing and fx work will be the next hurdle and that will take several weeks.

Once finished, it will be the only static shock live action fan film that will be worth watching, I promise that...

 

STATIC SHOCK

The saddest thing about Trump's covfuckup on twitter

Just got thinking about it... The saddest thing, is that he could have just made it a non-story. Could have just said it was a phone glitch, dropped his phone... EVERYBODY has that happen at some point. Even lying would have been a better choice than his decision to delete it, which some say is a crime since every post by him has to remain on record.

Hell, push come to shove, just say your kid stole your phone mid tweet and messed with it. Something...

But no, he predictably tried to sweep it under the rug and get it to die by turning it into a joke.

What joke? You have power to end all life on this planet. The fact that you apparently can't handle twitter, is a sure sign that you shouldn't be a position of serious power, that's why people took it and ran with it.

And this is the second time...

First Trump makes a speech at congress and gets people to actually start thinking he's somewhat competent enough to handle being president.

Then he goes home, fucks around on twitter the next fucking day and ruins his good press with an impeachable offense and false accusation against obama.

WOW....

This time, he goes on a foreign trip, does a decent if odd trumpish job of making speeches and trying to win favor amongst people he campaigned against, fine.... we get the script, go act presidential, fine....

comes back home, and fucks around on twitter and ruins all his good shit he might have done...

I'm just wowed by this man's ability to shoot his own self in the foot.

I declare it's not worth it to troll trump. Make controversial comedy bits about him. He literally will destroy his own presidency at some point, it's just a waiting game.

Thawtz on Trump's Covfefe of paris

As a black guy what do i think about what white people are yacking about today?

Looks bad... Trump pulling the trigger without giving things time to be fully understood as usual.

I guess it doesn't matter if he does start world war 3, his actions seemingly have set in motion, not today but way in the future, the decline of civilization.

Wow. Elect the wrong guy, get the wrong results indeed.

Static shock poster concepts

This is an approximation of my final static shock posters...

Last one is my favorite. Thats what movie posters should be, goddamit, art.

Well getting back into the works yee mighty!!!

Exciting times... I've through youtube learned much about dieting and shit. I hope I can get this fat off my ass so that not only can I do the stunt stuff better but look as good as possible for the last stuff I got to do. I've been a fitness nut since I was a kid. Sadly diet and nutrition were not priorities in this house at all. Candy, soda, garbage, ate it all day... so I worked out intensely for no reason all those days...

Apparently you can't starve yourself on a diet, dieting simply means eating properly. Not abandoning every meal.

I simply eat a lot protein and carbs and avoid sugar and trans fats. I hope I know what I'm doing.

Could I consult people on this stuff online, probably... don't want to go bothering people though... I'm an annoying prick when I get going...

Wouldn't mind going down to the park to play basketball, but I'm not stupid. I go there, the hood rat assholes living over there will harass me, then I'll just have to bounce. Either that or the cops will be stalking my ass trying to prevent me from potentially slipping over a banana peel and landing my dick in a high school girl's booty. God forbid that happens.

Welcome to adult blackhood.

At least I got porn.. well anyway....


My whole point of posting right now was just to get my head on straight with how I'm going to tackle the static shock film I'm slowly putting together.

I both love and hate doing this shit to be honest. It's like you look at it from this point of being 3% finished and hate having to shoot it, figure out how to work the shots, then when you finally edit it add music, it's like too awesome and you love what you accomplished. That's the bullshit of this process.

What I'm working on hopefully shoot a good bit of it today is the part where static goes to the chemical plant and gets messed up by the gas. I'm gonna need to figure it out extremely well...

Listening to the x3 soundtrack, might use some of that music in it. I'm constantly trying to find good music to toss in the film... My vocal and musical skills are non-existent though I do plan to heavily dedicate myself to learning an instrument some point. Can't believe people are dumbfounded when I say that. As if, wow, you're life is so over once you get over 18. What the hell?