Full scale water detox

I like being me, always finding smart ways to enhance the body and stuff...

I'm declaring today that I will not quit on a 30 day water detox.

Going to drink nothing but water for 30 full days.

It's going to be hell.

I've been trying to get this diet going for the last few days and all I've ever done is eat and jack off to satiate myself during the constant cravings.
If I just had something to do I'd be cool. Hell, yunno what I'm going to do. I'm going to study spanish and, nah no need to continue learning after effects. I'm good enough with that shit. but I do have to continue improving myself in order to get better jobs than the shit I usually get. I can get manual labor jobs any day. It's the tech stuff that I hope to get into.

I just typed this without looking at the keyboard. That's a hard skill a lot of people don't have, but I took the time as a kid to learn how to type. And that's the name of the game really. These jobs are looking for people who know specific skills. Photoshop, After Effects, programming.... And I'm no fucking good at that shit yet. But if I put my mind to it, I know I can do it. And I don't have kids, and I'm free, just wathcing tons and tons of porn.

Porn is amazing. It's just kinda strange to have been a kid once sitting back watching cartoons and then now you're looking at a chick eating dick with her ass hole. It's a strange twisting of perspectives....

Is that RIGHT. Is that NORMAL. I can imagine that we as people are just doing what is supposed to be done.... but that's not the world i come from. We were taught to believe in GOD and were taught squat SHIT about sex and all that shit. Mind you, one day you're 14 or whatever and you see some ass and you have a wet dream. After that you end up 27 with a bunch of people getting personal with you about YOUR potential to spawn kids even though you don't know anything about that because this shitty society doesn't give you a clue about it.

So you may think, oh this guy's going to have a horrible time as a parent one day. But All I can say is that I don't know a DAMN THING about girls and pussy and kids. So what the fuck.... there's no like actual shit like that going on here. And I like it that way. Problem is I can't shut the fucking fountain of semen off no matter what I do....

I hope that it dies down eventually but I read about guys in their 50s who are still pumping tons of semen like nobody's business so I'm kinda not hopeful in that regard. If you want this shit, this sex drive? You can have it.

I'd LOVE nothing more than to go back to being a fucking kid. Not having to go to school, but to just relax and not worry about anything would be wonderful.