Wednesday, February 5, 2014

is it bad to stay where you are?

I honestly don't think so. Is it within the possibility for me to go to some shitty community college and aquire an associates degree? Sure...

I think I might just go down that road. That I know I can get without issue. It's the whole big fucking 4 year degree that I don't really have the patience for honestly. If you want to ask me to go jack off for 4 years in some dorm all day, not gonna happen pal.

So I'm just going to knock around in this security job and lose all the fat on my body now. It's remarkable. To really regain what you had as a kid. I was ALWAYS thin. So to get to 20s and be ballooning in size is just really damn degrading.

But there's always a way sportacus.

I'm good. I've got a decent little job, I'm not worried about just going nowhere and having no money at all. It's a good place to sit in life I think. I don't really give a shit about going after big money. Cuz really more money does indeed = more problems.

When you're moderately wealthy with a job like TSA, all kinds of thoughts enter your mind about maybe getting with a girl and starting a family and all that jazz.

You start thinking about buying a house, getting a delorean. Not that I wouldn't want to get that fat fucking paycheck back, but I don't mind living on just 8 bucks an hour. It's humbling really. You know you're going to have to make the most out of that check vs tsa where I got the pay and just blew through it in a couple of days because i knew I'd get more...

not bad to be me right now. It really isn't. I mean, I wish I was younger and knew better about what to do with my time and also wish I didn't have to deal with the complexity of being a white/black person. It's hard because when all is said and done, life is about getting some ass. And when you're me, you're not very desirable by most people except maybe some fucking straight out of africa girl who's trying to get away with turning brighter.

It's a truly and undeniably damning situation to be born black. You live your life hoping that some white/spanish/or asian person is dumb enough to give you a better shot next generation.

why do they, why do some people go after blacks in the end. What the fuck? I wish I wasn't me. That's for sure... Why would you want to join the club I'll never fucking know...








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