Luke Skywalker

My favorite star wars character.

My hero in fact.

If there's one person I can say has been the biggest influence on my life, it's Luke. Which is why I don't like the whole (Omg this black guy hates white people) thing. It's like, I grew up idolizing this man, and now you're all saying oh this guy's got a thing against whites or something. I'm struggling to make sense of my beilefs these days. I wish I could go back to being a teen hanging out at the mall listening to my Star Wars CD and not even being the least bit concerned about race.

What can I say. I look exactly like Lando Calrissian. I'm like the perfect person to be a star wars fan.

Too bad about how there's this sense of fear and doubt and dread in white people about having to deal with blacks to this very day. You didn't see the deep hatred whites have for blacks back in my childhood. Which makes the reality I've been given so hard to make sense of. I grew up seeing blacks being involved and having a good life in every aspect of the world. Now I'm supposed to think that blacks are slaves still and have to suck whitey's dick to get by etc.

But hey that's the real world. It's a cruel world we live in. Nobody's got it easy, NOBODY...

It doesn't make sense, a lot of things in the political world don't make any fucking sense. I don't really know where to begin trying to make sense of the goddamn tangled mess of bullshit that is politics.

I just sit back and watch some porn and not really give a damn about it honestly....

I can't understand why so many people are concerned with winning debates all day and creating cryptic and manipulative use of words like a lawyer. I don't get it. You know what I'm doing right now??? Jackin off!

 So my hero is Luke. I believe in Star Wars, the message behind it. It's truly a film series that at one time aspired to be the best of its kind. Too bad about how things turned out. One wonders how someone could be nearly perfect then, suddenly fuck it up for himself like Lucas did.

It's been an interesting life I've lived. I basically am the Son of Star Wars. Everything that film series generated, I grew up seeing. Whether its the various roles Hamill took after the movies. Or the influence star wars had on muppet babies. Or the re-emergance of star wars back in 1999 which I remember fondly. I was taking a shit on the toilet and was reading a magazine full of star wars facts.

Should have kept that shit. It'd be valuable today. Live and learn. Don't throw anything away... Imagine if a kid from the 70s still had all his star wars stuff today... motherfucker would be rich...

I mean you had to be there. It was MOMENTOUS when star wars was being re-invigorated as a series. Hell I think it would lift people's spirits tremendously to make more star wars. Hopefully they'll be good. I just wish I was still a fucking kid. So that I wouldn't be giving a shit about all the complex crap about life while watching.

It sucks to get older... it really does. I want to go right the fuck back to childhood honestly. It's just been a hell of a few years since the Superman thing came and went. You think to yourself I'll just innocently talk superman on a silly messageboard, and then it becomes fullscale war in iraq for some reason...

Life is stupid sometimes, I just never imagined it'd be THAT stupid.

So I don't veiw myself as a racist honestly. Maybe there's some ill feelings towards whites within me but I AM WHITE. I CAN'T BE racist. No matter how hard I try, I belong to the white race and the black race at the same fucking TIME.

So honestly I look at myself and see myself as Luke Skwalker, just his personality. I love what Hamill did with his performance. He's the ULTIMATE HERO. Purely innocent and wanting to to good and save lives and all that shit. I always viewed myself in that context. Maybe it's corny to YOU, but I grew up believing it to be true. Believe in God, help people, save lives, do the right thing. Why is everyone against that message these days?

Why are we in this hell hole of a world right now that doesn't believe in the messages of Jesus etc that most of us were taught as children? Why are we trying to OVER THINK every thing to little bits?

I'm not saying live like a caveman. But there is some value to believing in the power and the spirit of Love and Goodness. There HAS GOT TO BE.