the method to the madness

So I have one last shot to get before I'm finished making my static Shock fan film.

I'm now thinking about how to go about getting in shape for this scene. I think maybe get muscular. And I don't have a problem with that. I've lost 3 pounds in the last 2 days and the weight continues to drop steadily as I drink nothing but water as my only food for the next couple of weeks.

It's above and beyond difficult to do this stuff. I feel terrible and hungry, but I know in the end it'll all work out.

I mean, I really can't understand why I see so many homeless people in the world. I went through a few channels and got a job working security, and I like it. It's great to just go to work and relax and not really be lifting things and fucking touching guys. I have nothing against TSA, it was a great job, but there's too much drama to be had and ultimately not worth it. Should have stuck with Delta. Swear to God I got to get my ass back in there. You live and learn in life.

Some guy came to me and said, he knows how shitty the company I'm working for is, and that I should definitely pursue better employment.

But I think to myself, WHY? I know it's a shitty job. I know that the company wants to get away with murder by having us work for no money while they get paid the real deal. But at the same time, I'm not against going to work and sitting back and watching a movie on my phone and getting paid for it.

It's really the only bad part about it is the low pay. Otherwise, this is the job people dream of getting. A job where they don't do shit.

And that's exactly what I do. I go there and I don't do shit. I'm not interested in giving a shit about the job.

I just am not. 

Ultimately I'll just use the job as like something to do to pass the time and also to help me lose weight as I forge forward with my Static Shock Project.

And it's a fun thing to go on the train to work nowadays and get an eyeful of hot bitches in this world. It's not a bad thing. I'll never again understand why I got so deeply embroiled in the internet world. Because I actually do this thing called "going outside" and suddenly I'm seeing titties and ass. Real ones...

It's a glorious thing I must say. What a wonderful world... You internet tough guys should probably get on this little thing called girls....