black guy with a gun

thinking about this shit now... I will most likely pass all the initial requirements for the customs job. May or may not pass the background check. I mean, people still get the job even if they have a minor crime on their record, so considering all I have is one write up and a little disclosure thing from TSA, that's nothing. I mean, who would you hire, a guy who's got a little fucking silly blemish on his record or a guy who's got caught stealing shit from a store? I just don't know the magnitude of the TSA thing, I just don't know how big an impact that will have on future jobs or even if it's in my record in terms of the overall work history or whatever. I mean, if I try to get a job at fucking toys r us or something and they do a background investigation, and that comes up, will it be detrimental. The lady said that it'll be a problem if you try to get back into TSA, then it'll come up and you'll have to fight it, but I'm not applying for fucking stupid TSA, I'm trying to get a REAL job.

If they find out about it, I'll explain what happened and that'll be the end of it. I'm not interested in going to supreme court over making a stupid ass mistake and getting disqualified from TSA. Hell, it'd make me feel worse if the thing meant permanent ban from TSA. But it didn't. You'd think it would, it's almost like joining TSA and you let your terrorist buddies get through the checkpoint without an issue. That could be a big big monumental fucking problem if you do something like that and I understand why they have all this sense of security and worry about people getting too close to their top secret info or some shit. It's just, a weird situation to end up coming across in life. Like, I don't really give a damn about their policies and their expectations. I'm just thinking about getting laid, not my fault. I'd LOVE to not be burdened by this dick, but it's there and it's always a problem.

As far as the gun thing and race goes. It's a concern. I think that if I have my customs uniform on and I'm rolling with a gun, no one will feel threatened. But the moment I go out in the street without my uniform and I'm a black guy with a gun, my life is fucking over....

So that's what I'll have to keep in mind. I'll only rock the gun when I have my uniform on, period... It's like there's no one feeling like a black guy with a gun is a good thing to have around at any point of the day. Hell, that's who they're dropping over in these third world countries. Blacks with guns...