so what now

well... here we go. I mean I'm hoping only to get enough money at this point saved up to feel quite secure enough financially. Then my full intentions from here on out is to get an FSD License and shit. I'll attempt to get it without the 3 years requirement. Since that's just retarded to me. Supposedly if you stick to your grits and work hard for 3 years in a fire guard capacity, you can go and get the FSD license and you're all set. Which is what I'm actually hoping for, but if they say, nah, forget that bullshit and just take course and the exam and get the license and get the money. Cuz really I'll be earning MORE as a Fire safety director than as a fucking TSO. So might as well.


That would be the bomb. I mean if I was actually earning like 16 to 18 bucks an hour. And I was able to get myself a nice big apartment and just live nice and safe and clean. I would be in heaven. As for right now. This job is actually a cake walk. I go in, I sit down, I look at the ceiling and then it's over after 8 hours. Not a bad way to go. Supposedly it does get beast mode at times. Let me be clear. This is not kid stuff. This is grown man and grown woman HOSPITAL. All that shit you see on tv where they rush a body in and have to fix that person before they die. IT'S FUCKING TRUE.

It's WAR.

Balls up and take that shit or Go HOME.

I mean I hope and pray I'm not going to witness the serious levels of shit that these people dedicated their lives to dealing with, but who knows.... who fucking knows.... goddamn you don't really respect the fact that America is a place where you can go through your whole fucking childhood without seeing gruesome shit until you get older and you're put into the shit with everybody else.... you really don't...