first day of work

well that was a trip.

What can I say, never really in my life had much interaction with hospitals. And never intended to. What goes on in there must be some deep level shit. They have fucking tons of drugs, radioactive machines, nursing facilities for aging people, it's a big place, a lot of stuff is going on, and ultimately if they can't fix what's wrong with you, YOU DIE. And you go to the morgue. It's a very depressing environment, literally because you're standing on top of hundreds of dead bodies.

You're not even allowed to mention the morgue while on the floor because no one wants to be reminded of it.

I think to myself whether I can handle this job. Some of the guys in there have horror stories about the things they've witnessed working as fucking security guards in a hospital.

It'll be an interesting learning experience for me personally if indeed I decide to go into the medical profession in the future, and more or less good to get out and be amongst people and see exactly what goes on.

I mean I'm not oblivious to reality. We as a society are built and dominated by very super smart people. They're the ones who are in charge of life and death in this world and you can see what has been going on lately with all the wars, all the complex political dealings between super smart people doing super smart things...

I think to myself, don't get in their way and they won't have anything to say to me...

And hopefully that works out. I'm just hoping to look good to the company that hired me. The lady was so like kinda anxious about how I was going to work out long term. Sure I may get through these first days but when you're in a fucking hospital for days and days and the pressure mounts and there's maybe even a fucking psychopath running around, what the fuck are you going to do? I have VERY LITTLE knowledge about how to deal with mentally ill people. So what the blue hell am I going to do when that time comes, I do not know...

Take it day by day, and when things get interesting, we'll find a way to hack through it. That's all...