progress and expectations

Well so far so good as the old proverbial saying goes. We are moving forward without much problems here. I will be doing this job for like the next probably 7 months as I forge forward with applying to a real fucking job, real fucking money, real fucking life and potential for true wealth and security. That's the joke about life. If you don't have money when you get older, things will get fairly complicated. It's not a nice world. I've seen so many old dying people in my time in the hospital. It's not going to be a fun journey, those last years of your life unless you have the money to get people to provide for you. Especially if you're black... that's another thing. I can definitely understand the friction between races now because we're all going to the same fucking place, death, and we can't all get there together on the same level. The idea behind society is that your class level is determined by your accumulation of knowledge etc. The harder core you work in school the better outcome you'll get much later as you get older.

At least that's good in theory. I don't believe white people give a flying fuck about the welfare of aging blacks. I'll put it this way. I've seen what black kids are like and ultimately yeah there is a legitimate reason why when white people get up to 60 plus years old, they stop giving a damn about blacks because when I was in grade school you wouldn't believe the shit black kids were trying to pull on white faculty. So yeah I'm not surprised that whites are feeling no sense of fucking interest in black problems as they have their own to worry about.

Does that affect or bother me? I'm not really worried about that right now. Like I say. Yeah it sucks and it is bad, but the thing I'm thinking about all day is NOT the friction between whites and blacks. I'm going to work and I see ass. Hot bubbly fucking ASS. And THAT is what I'm thinking about...

You may have your opinion about my youthful exuberance and interest in fucking the shit out of a female. But I DON'T GIVE A SHIT about you or what you want. That's the fucked up thing about people. You go to work or you go anywhere and people want to fucking talk shit to you alllllllllll day... and all YOU want to do is grab some titties and slide your dick in some Asian bitches ass, right.... I can't even begin to fathom why there's this crazy expectation to somehow just ignore the fucking giant elephant in the room called sex... and be all about other things... but shit, that's what I'm dealing with constantly. I know what I WANT TO DO to a girl's body... but apparently other people are like more interested in other things or whatever is up their ass at the moment...

I don't know whether to try to fight it or just relax and not worry about it. If you're that much of a psycho to try to limit everyone's sexual development, then you're on your fucking own. I can only say that as a kid, I never ever understood why bullies would rather piss in your face than get some ass, which was always around. There was never a day when there wasn't ass and titties at school. Yet the guys would rather be concerned with starting shit. And it's become even worse now as that's how the world fucking works. Two people might want to have a peaceful night of sex and just relaxation, then a fucking bunch of retards come running in and trying to stop them from doing what nature demands...

Makes.

No.

Sense....