gotta say something on this although who cares what I think. But I have been going to see x-men movies since they started so I'd know what to say or not say about them although I think we're all getting kinda over the x-men movies by now. Honestly I don't have much interest in them anymore as I get older. But I have a connection to the cast and the story and all that since I was 14 and went to go see the first ever live action x-men. Should have kept my ticket stub for that. Cuz now it'd probably be worth something on ebay. That kinda stuff, ticket stub for phantom menace, or any really big movie that came out at a certain time would have been good to hold on to. But I never really thought they'd make fucking like 10 different x-men movies by now.
Lol, future is a funny place... but whatever, just enjoying the fact that I can go hang out at the movies and still see x-men with the original cast, and they still prettymuch look the same except for Ian who no way in hell was going to still look the same as he did, but thankfully he's still alive and that's all that matters.
Great movie, not going to do well on repeat box office because it's a smart film. And those never ever do well on repeat business. Better than Man of Steel like I predicted. Singer > Snyder. There's really clever shit in this movie. Quicksilver and his stuff is great. The whole retconning of the Last Stand is great. Now basically you can ignore X3 or someone can make a fan-edit to keep the good shit in Last Stand and ignore all the other stuff as it can be somehow bent to lead towards Days of future past.
As much as sites claim that this film is about Xavier and Magneto, I disagree. We started the x-men franchise focused on wolverine's story and it basically ends with his story coming to its close... It's never been about the other characters as much as its been wolverine's journey, and this movie is no different. Unless they go ahead and make a movie without hugh jackman in it, it's never going to be a non-wolverine focused film.
ever...
I'm sure it'll be a monumental success and deservedly so, but it has a ton of complex holes that are impossible to fill. Like still not getting any info on where nightcrawler is or what happened to him. I was hoping since singer said he'd "fix shit" that we'd get a line saying nightcrawler is out doing missions far away or dead or whatever. You can't have such a pivotal and useful, he's one of the most motherfucking useful x-men ever and then say "he's on vacation."
They fucking did it. This movie basically exists to be a reunion film. Everybody who's ever been in the x-movies prettymuch comes back for this one. And it brought a goofy ass smile to my face to see
spoiler
Cyclops at the end of the movie. It just hit the right note for me personally because he was such a prominent part of the original film and the second, then suddenly all the good feelings of my life back when I saw x1 came back. It was like I returned in time to my older 14 year old body and nothing changed, I was just the same young punk hanigng out at comic shops and looking foarward to star wars, not this 28 year old loser with no future.
Goddamn you don't know what ya got till it's goneeeeee.... fuck. I mean I was really in the best years back in 2000 when x1 came out. I went to see x-men after anticapating it like a mad-man. That and spiderman. And then it was just a snowball till this day 14 years of comic book movie awesomeness and tv cartoons and stuff. Now what kind of world are we in? What are they still making x-men movies for as its audience gets too old for them?
I'm an old man. Saw X1 when I was a little stupid kid. Still seeing x-movies instead of fucking a girl? That's the saddest thing in the universe gotta say.
Most likely going to still be a virgin as we continue making movies that mean a lot to me personally because I grew up on them. Honestly I'm starting to think I should just stop. Just stop. Don't go see the new star wars cash grabs JJ is making. Don't go see any more of these big nostaligic movies that they keep pumping out or sequels or reboots.
It's time to just get over this stuff and move on, probably do this thing called sex. I don't know....
And that's all folks. I'm done with this blog. Can't be posting all the time like it matters.
Tuesday, May 27, 2014
Monday, May 19, 2014
Alright life is going places
You'll see. I mean, I think I'll stop this blog from here on out. I honestly don't think I matter that fucking much, so why make a blog like I'm some fucking trust fund wealthy blonde blue eyed white guy.
Saturday, May 17, 2014
Getting in shape for Star wars
Maybe you all out there in the world think I'm a weirdo or whatever, but this is how I do things. I like to have fun with life and look on the bright side like Goku in dragonball.
You can have your opinion about me all day, doesn't matter, man. I'm just going to do what I know to be true.
And what I'm going to do is make myself into a GOD for the final Star Wars movies.
I NEVER fucking would have even began to think we'd get more star wars after the last trilogy, but here I stand, not dead yet, and they're forging forward shooting new star wars with the original cast. It's both very exciting and very potentially going to be a disaster. I mean, you can't bring back the old cast and then make a giant pile of shit. You just can't.
I'll let you all have a little clue about me. I've been into star wars since 97, began using the web heavily for star wars info around 99. I'm 28 now. I started this kind of star wars shit back around the age of 12.
I'm still here to this day at 28, and the internet hasn't aged a day. One of the saddest aspects of online life is that you can honest to GOD go back to an old forum and hang out there just like you did at the age of 12.
I could if I wanted to go back to all the old forums and hang out there and just post just like I did back as a kid. And that's who's on these boards. You mods out there have to take note that the boards like for superheros and star wars are going to be filled with kids on a daily basis. That's their whole life, they go fuck around in school, then all they want to do after that is have fun discussing bullshit. So the idea of hammering people online like some lawyer will never fly in the face of the fact that there's like fucking 11 year olds hanging out at most of these boards.
Hell I'm in that same I think vein although I'm considered a full grown adult but I'm still figuring out life all the same, really and truth be told, this world is above and beyond massively complex for me to make sense of . You get old enough and suddenly you have to dodge bullets and just recently I nearly got run over by a car and so on and so forth. I don't know what to do with time and life except for my passions which is time travel and star wars AND ASS.
Nothing else I honestly want to do more than rip a girl's clothes off and just fuck her silly. Yunno. Who doesn't? Everybody wants to have sex. I don't know why we're even discussing that like it's any kind of political issue. It's like, discussing fucking whether you want to eat a burger or something. Sex is MANDATORY. You can't fucking say no to it. Nobody can. And dammit we try, but it's not possible. From the moment the fluids start flowing as a kid, to the day you find a mate and eventually get her pumped full of sauce. It's inevitable. It's like a universal thing. EVERYBODY has to submit that sex is EVERYTHING. There really HONESTLY is nothing else to do with our lives but pound booty.
But anyway I'm ging to get in massive fucking SHAPE for the final star wars movies. GODDAMIT i WILL!!!! I have to look good for Star WARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You can have your opinion about me all day, doesn't matter, man. I'm just going to do what I know to be true.
And what I'm going to do is make myself into a GOD for the final Star Wars movies.
I NEVER fucking would have even began to think we'd get more star wars after the last trilogy, but here I stand, not dead yet, and they're forging forward shooting new star wars with the original cast. It's both very exciting and very potentially going to be a disaster. I mean, you can't bring back the old cast and then make a giant pile of shit. You just can't.
I'll let you all have a little clue about me. I've been into star wars since 97, began using the web heavily for star wars info around 99. I'm 28 now. I started this kind of star wars shit back around the age of 12.
I'm still here to this day at 28, and the internet hasn't aged a day. One of the saddest aspects of online life is that you can honest to GOD go back to an old forum and hang out there just like you did at the age of 12.
I could if I wanted to go back to all the old forums and hang out there and just post just like I did back as a kid. And that's who's on these boards. You mods out there have to take note that the boards like for superheros and star wars are going to be filled with kids on a daily basis. That's their whole life, they go fuck around in school, then all they want to do after that is have fun discussing bullshit. So the idea of hammering people online like some lawyer will never fly in the face of the fact that there's like fucking 11 year olds hanging out at most of these boards.
Hell I'm in that same I think vein although I'm considered a full grown adult but I'm still figuring out life all the same, really and truth be told, this world is above and beyond massively complex for me to make sense of . You get old enough and suddenly you have to dodge bullets and just recently I nearly got run over by a car and so on and so forth. I don't know what to do with time and life except for my passions which is time travel and star wars AND ASS.
Nothing else I honestly want to do more than rip a girl's clothes off and just fuck her silly. Yunno. Who doesn't? Everybody wants to have sex. I don't know why we're even discussing that like it's any kind of political issue. It's like, discussing fucking whether you want to eat a burger or something. Sex is MANDATORY. You can't fucking say no to it. Nobody can. And dammit we try, but it's not possible. From the moment the fluids start flowing as a kid, to the day you find a mate and eventually get her pumped full of sauce. It's inevitable. It's like a universal thing. EVERYBODY has to submit that sex is EVERYTHING. There really HONESTLY is nothing else to do with our lives but pound booty.
But anyway I'm ging to get in massive fucking SHAPE for the final star wars movies. GODDAMIT i WILL!!!! I have to look good for Star WARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
money money money
Going to promptly be earning a substantial amount of money soon.
Hopefully well enough to put into affording an apartment.
Certain things I wish to dedicate my time and energy to in the ensuing years perhaps is my interest in programming. I always found it amazing how you can create anything from computer programming and to me, it's hopefully going to pan out. I don't know dick about it, but it's not too hard to grasp. Simply decide what you want to have happen, and create the program to make it happen. Of course this stuff is not for the impatient person, and that's why those guys get paid out the ass, simply because having to learn the complex ins and outs of a computer is above and beyond tough and most people will never be able to grasp it.
We'll see, more or less. All I do know is that I'd love to be one of those guys who's got a good fucking paycheck coming down the pipe. Don't get it, why do I get a job, and suddenly I've got issues keeping the job, or some fucker comes starting trouble at the job or whatever. Not a big problem truth be told. I don't care about having a job. I care about fuckin a bitch. I'm not even thinking about kids or whatever. I'm thinking about the thing that everybody thinks about for a minute, what's a titty taste like, what's a girl's ass feel like.
You can't possibly tell a guy like me, who's NEVER fucked a girl, such and such about when the kids come flying out of her vagina. I don't know a dick about that. I just don't. Yeah I get it, this world is run built and made for the propogation of white people. I get it. You guys don't give a damn about blacks and the wellfare of blacks, except for the very few elite smart white people who are thinking about the benefits that can be had from using very smart blacks in top jobs.
That doesn't change anything. I'm still trying to come to grips with what a girl's booty feels like betwene my dick.
And I don't CAAAAAAAAARE if you want to prophesize about my kids or offspring. Good for YOU. But I'd just like to not DIE off without having experienced a fucking girlfriend ONCE in my goddamn life...
It's I guess a cruel world and there's people out there hoping that blacks just fucking piss off and not go spreading their goddamn blackness to everybody. Maybe I was really not aware of how the world operates as a kid. And just had no inkling whatsoever of the sheer amount of backlash I would recieve for being a black person. Goddamn was I lied to as a kid or what. I mean there was nothing but blacks living it up in Amercia on tv and in movies. So what the fuck is supposed to be my concept of being black in this world now as an old man. Hell I got white guys saying, no, you're smart black guy, you got no criminal record, hell not even touched a girl yet, you should just hang out at college for a couple years and get a degree and then make shit tons of cash and live like a goddamn king.
Hell, don't need college my friend. I'm going to be very very wealthy. Um, CBP is a good career, very nice job. Going to be pulling down tons of cash in that motherfucker.
Really. I'm going to have a lot of money as I get into my 30s. And the hope I have is that I just yunno, make the smart choices with my money. And bone some hawaiian girl down there. Me and my bitch and just living like GOD. That'd be nice...
Hopefully well enough to put into affording an apartment.
Certain things I wish to dedicate my time and energy to in the ensuing years perhaps is my interest in programming. I always found it amazing how you can create anything from computer programming and to me, it's hopefully going to pan out. I don't know dick about it, but it's not too hard to grasp. Simply decide what you want to have happen, and create the program to make it happen. Of course this stuff is not for the impatient person, and that's why those guys get paid out the ass, simply because having to learn the complex ins and outs of a computer is above and beyond tough and most people will never be able to grasp it.
We'll see, more or less. All I do know is that I'd love to be one of those guys who's got a good fucking paycheck coming down the pipe. Don't get it, why do I get a job, and suddenly I've got issues keeping the job, or some fucker comes starting trouble at the job or whatever. Not a big problem truth be told. I don't care about having a job. I care about fuckin a bitch. I'm not even thinking about kids or whatever. I'm thinking about the thing that everybody thinks about for a minute, what's a titty taste like, what's a girl's ass feel like.
You can't possibly tell a guy like me, who's NEVER fucked a girl, such and such about when the kids come flying out of her vagina. I don't know a dick about that. I just don't. Yeah I get it, this world is run built and made for the propogation of white people. I get it. You guys don't give a damn about blacks and the wellfare of blacks, except for the very few elite smart white people who are thinking about the benefits that can be had from using very smart blacks in top jobs.
That doesn't change anything. I'm still trying to come to grips with what a girl's booty feels like betwene my dick.
And I don't CAAAAAAAAARE if you want to prophesize about my kids or offspring. Good for YOU. But I'd just like to not DIE off without having experienced a fucking girlfriend ONCE in my goddamn life...
It's I guess a cruel world and there's people out there hoping that blacks just fucking piss off and not go spreading their goddamn blackness to everybody. Maybe I was really not aware of how the world operates as a kid. And just had no inkling whatsoever of the sheer amount of backlash I would recieve for being a black person. Goddamn was I lied to as a kid or what. I mean there was nothing but blacks living it up in Amercia on tv and in movies. So what the fuck is supposed to be my concept of being black in this world now as an old man. Hell I got white guys saying, no, you're smart black guy, you got no criminal record, hell not even touched a girl yet, you should just hang out at college for a couple years and get a degree and then make shit tons of cash and live like a goddamn king.
Hell, don't need college my friend. I'm going to be very very wealthy. Um, CBP is a good career, very nice job. Going to be pulling down tons of cash in that motherfucker.
Really. I'm going to have a lot of money as I get into my 30s. And the hope I have is that I just yunno, make the smart choices with my money. And bone some hawaiian girl down there. Me and my bitch and just living like GOD. That'd be nice...
Thursday, May 15, 2014
How to get and keep a job.
I'm 20 motherfucking 8 now.
Not the end of the universe but not as awesome I would say as still being a little kid. Never did I have much respect or appreciation for being a young teenager, than when you start to get older and you get wrinklier and fucking everything slows down and you get fatter....
Fucking stupid, the way life goes.
I'm hopefully going to get a good job, respectable job, and simply keep it for long long time. And then fuck one of the bitches I work with or some shit. I don't know what to do to suddenly get to the other side of life where you've skeeted all over a girl's butt cheeks. I just don't...
I'm fucking lost right now. I remember living my life and being just an ordinary guy obsessed with sports, michael jacksons, all the movies that were coming out. And now I"m this nothing person going no where fast.
I don't know what to do anymore honestly. The only thing I think is truly worth doing is getting a good job and lots of money so that I can have some sense of security. This is basically a white man's world, they own it and operate it, and build design and prettymuch are the I think instigators of all the wheels spinning in this world, I realize. So as a black dude, what can you do. I honestly always thought as a kid, I'd work a little piece of shit job and live off of that and not be trying to make millions. And I still think that way.
If I get into the CBP and I'm signing in passengers for their flights, GOOD. I don't want to be nobody special, just a little fucking ant in this big world doing nothing!!!!
We'll fuckin see.... We'll fuckin see if I ever ever ever get to the fucking point where i'm driving my penis hard and deep into a girl's ass too...
That's what I'd like to try out, just a while, yunno. Give it a good hard slam. And then it's done. It's like inserting that thing into Neo's head in the matrix. It's a way of entering a new universe, when you slide a dick into a girl's pussy. you're jacking in to another fucking whole new world basically Imo.
Not the end of the universe but not as awesome I would say as still being a little kid. Never did I have much respect or appreciation for being a young teenager, than when you start to get older and you get wrinklier and fucking everything slows down and you get fatter....
Fucking stupid, the way life goes.
I'm hopefully going to get a good job, respectable job, and simply keep it for long long time. And then fuck one of the bitches I work with or some shit. I don't know what to do to suddenly get to the other side of life where you've skeeted all over a girl's butt cheeks. I just don't...
I'm fucking lost right now. I remember living my life and being just an ordinary guy obsessed with sports, michael jacksons, all the movies that were coming out. And now I"m this nothing person going no where fast.
I don't know what to do anymore honestly. The only thing I think is truly worth doing is getting a good job and lots of money so that I can have some sense of security. This is basically a white man's world, they own it and operate it, and build design and prettymuch are the I think instigators of all the wheels spinning in this world, I realize. So as a black dude, what can you do. I honestly always thought as a kid, I'd work a little piece of shit job and live off of that and not be trying to make millions. And I still think that way.
If I get into the CBP and I'm signing in passengers for their flights, GOOD. I don't want to be nobody special, just a little fucking ant in this big world doing nothing!!!!
We'll fuckin see.... We'll fuckin see if I ever ever ever get to the fucking point where i'm driving my penis hard and deep into a girl's ass too...
That's what I'd like to try out, just a while, yunno. Give it a good hard slam. And then it's done. It's like inserting that thing into Neo's head in the matrix. It's a way of entering a new universe, when you slide a dick into a girl's pussy. you're jacking in to another fucking whole new world basically Imo.
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
new batman picture
What can I say, I'm the biggest batman fan in the world. Never have I seen and loved and really felt a huge monumental appreciation for such a character as batman. A man who embodies limitless potential of humanity if we push ourselves to inhuman levels of excellence.
I've been a batman fan for so long and now it's still cool to me and I'm definitely all about seeing batman continue to kick ass.
New pic posted of batman from Superman vs batman or whatever the fuck this new movie is. I gotta say, looks great. Ears being so nipply is strange. They get rid of the nipples and prettymiuch put them on his mask now.
OK, lets do this. Let's get it done. Let's make a badass really cool batman/superman film. It's amazing now. We've now traveled all the way around the world with superman. One minute we have superman having a kid and now he's going toe to toe with batman on film. What a fucking strange turn of events. They hopefully know what they're doing and not going to fuck us in the ass batman forever style.
Seems like these movies are getting really crowded these days. Like that's what happened to the old batman. They made 2 fucking good ones. Then made batman forever, and whatever shit they were smoking, they made batman and robin.
But yanno, I still have a serious fondness for batman and robin because it not only reminds me of when I first saw it as a kid and how awesome my life was back then to be able to chill and just watch batman and robin on vhs, oh so wonderful vhs tape, but it takes the edge off me. I feel like the world is a very dangerious bloody terrible place and I consitantly get scared and anxious of dealing with the world, but then I remember sitting back and just having a fucking good time with batman and robin.
sucks that all the glits and glamour has been swept from under me nowadays and I don't even know why. Why am I so fucking important, that I got fucking so much shit on my plate, but the adult world is truly a world in which nothing is certain. You don't know what may or may not happen every single day of your life.
Oh well, all I do is not give a shit, and drift through life like it's a fucking log in a river, that's how I roll...
I've been a batman fan for so long and now it's still cool to me and I'm definitely all about seeing batman continue to kick ass.
New pic posted of batman from Superman vs batman or whatever the fuck this new movie is. I gotta say, looks great. Ears being so nipply is strange. They get rid of the nipples and prettymiuch put them on his mask now.
OK, lets do this. Let's get it done. Let's make a badass really cool batman/superman film. It's amazing now. We've now traveled all the way around the world with superman. One minute we have superman having a kid and now he's going toe to toe with batman on film. What a fucking strange turn of events. They hopefully know what they're doing and not going to fuck us in the ass batman forever style.
Seems like these movies are getting really crowded these days. Like that's what happened to the old batman. They made 2 fucking good ones. Then made batman forever, and whatever shit they were smoking, they made batman and robin.
But yanno, I still have a serious fondness for batman and robin because it not only reminds me of when I first saw it as a kid and how awesome my life was back then to be able to chill and just watch batman and robin on vhs, oh so wonderful vhs tape, but it takes the edge off me. I feel like the world is a very dangerious bloody terrible place and I consitantly get scared and anxious of dealing with the world, but then I remember sitting back and just having a fucking good time with batman and robin.
sucks that all the glits and glamour has been swept from under me nowadays and I don't even know why. Why am I so fucking important, that I got fucking so much shit on my plate, but the adult world is truly a world in which nothing is certain. You don't know what may or may not happen every single day of your life.
Oh well, all I do is not give a shit, and drift through life like it's a fucking log in a river, that's how I roll...
Saturday, May 10, 2014
END OF AN ERA
Little bit of a sad posting tonight. I gotta say I realize something now. All that shit that was awesome back when I was 14 is now coming to an end. It's all declining.
Certainly I'm looking forward to Xmen Days of Future past with giddy excitement but it's like fucking the goddamn 8th time I've looked forward to a x-men movie in theaters. I've been going to see X-movies since I was fucking 14 and I'm 28 now. It's been goddamn 14 years.
Still haven't gotten Pussy either!!!!
Now I'm living with being told my kids will hate me and shit!!!!
What a life to live, but I don't really give a shit. Live laugh and fuck, that's all you can do!
I mean this is it, that burst of comic book movies is now coming to its close. Hugh jackman says he's going to lay down the claws after the last wolverine movie, if that ever gets made.
Sucks cuz I was really like all about the first x-men when I was a kid and love his wolverine most of all. Can't believe I've lived to see the perfect wolverine in live action. But I did, lucky fuck I am...
What else. Looks like Peter Jackson's done with LOTR. After finishing the hobbit, that's IT. It's over. He's got nothing left to rape from the lord of the rings franchise.
So that whole thing is done too. You be a teen enjoying fucking great cinema then it's all BOOM done after all the fun has been had.
Star Wars will finially be put to bed too after the last trilogy. But that's a long way off honesltly. I will indeed be in my 30s by the time star wars closes. Which is what it is, don't really feel like I should be fearful of aging. It's just whatever to me. As long as I still have a dick, that's all that matters...
I don't know yo.... I've made a mess of my life, gotta say. I had no clue I'd end up where I am today by this age. I had no fucking clue at all. Goddamn, it's just a big crazy party once you get out of high school or college, this world is just a fucking pinball machine. Anything goes.... shit...
And of course all people do is fuck and fuck and fuck like monkeys in the jungle. Quite dissappointing. I'm a proponent for intelligence and classiness, yet apparently all people do all day is eat dick and pound ass holes.
Quite a shock... then all you do after that is grow old as shit and slowly die.
tragic...
Certainly I'm looking forward to Xmen Days of Future past with giddy excitement but it's like fucking the goddamn 8th time I've looked forward to a x-men movie in theaters. I've been going to see X-movies since I was fucking 14 and I'm 28 now. It's been goddamn 14 years.
Still haven't gotten Pussy either!!!!
Now I'm living with being told my kids will hate me and shit!!!!
What a life to live, but I don't really give a shit. Live laugh and fuck, that's all you can do!
I mean this is it, that burst of comic book movies is now coming to its close. Hugh jackman says he's going to lay down the claws after the last wolverine movie, if that ever gets made.
Sucks cuz I was really like all about the first x-men when I was a kid and love his wolverine most of all. Can't believe I've lived to see the perfect wolverine in live action. But I did, lucky fuck I am...
What else. Looks like Peter Jackson's done with LOTR. After finishing the hobbit, that's IT. It's over. He's got nothing left to rape from the lord of the rings franchise.
So that whole thing is done too. You be a teen enjoying fucking great cinema then it's all BOOM done after all the fun has been had.
Star Wars will finially be put to bed too after the last trilogy. But that's a long way off honesltly. I will indeed be in my 30s by the time star wars closes. Which is what it is, don't really feel like I should be fearful of aging. It's just whatever to me. As long as I still have a dick, that's all that matters...
I don't know yo.... I've made a mess of my life, gotta say. I had no clue I'd end up where I am today by this age. I had no fucking clue at all. Goddamn, it's just a big crazy party once you get out of high school or college, this world is just a fucking pinball machine. Anything goes.... shit...
And of course all people do is fuck and fuck and fuck like monkeys in the jungle. Quite dissappointing. I'm a proponent for intelligence and classiness, yet apparently all people do all day is eat dick and pound ass holes.
Quite a shock... then all you do after that is grow old as shit and slowly die.
tragic...
Friday, May 9, 2014
future the future the future
Goddamn, life is turning around swimmingly for me I must say.
If you're still around 18/19 and things look grim for you, don't give in and just stick with it a little while longer and life will eventually turn around.
I'm about to start making A LOT of money. Which is great. I do indeed intend from way back in high school to live like a goddamn king if I could. I'm 28 now. A lot of black guys my age are in jail. Getting it in the ass. Or Dead. That's prettymuch what the military exist for to kill people like me. 28, and not white. = taking a bullet from big muscular white men.
But I'm not dead yet for whatever reason. I don't know what the fuck they want from me. I don't give a shit about anybody else in this world but myself, I will guarantee you that. And I'm pretty damn sure that's how everybody else around me thinks too. I honestly could care less about you or your life. Might as well be dead, little negro...
Yunno, white people got this world on lock down. They go through all kinds of measures and systems and they have the whole wait until marriage thing in place to hopefully curb the amount of racial mixing going on and in fact they've been watching me since I was born since I'm one of those black kids who could slip through one day and impregnate a white girl at some fucking point.
I basically could cut my hair and pass for a spanish guy and bone some white girl and ruin that person's hopes of survival in this world.
Makes me wonder what kind of fucking world this is, hell of a thing to be born into, just going along as a black kid going along, no big deal, then one day after all the childhood has passed, you get punched in the face by a bunch of angry white people. I'd have much preferred to have been punched and kicked by white guys as a kid, vs now. Now it's like, a shock, yunno. I didn't see this coming. I've always been watching fucking goddamn golden girls and lots of shows about white people, full house, fucking growing pains. I watched every show white motherfuckers put on tv about their problems, and now as a man, I'm being told, stay out of the white life and white world, don't even think you can get involved. No problem. I don't want to get involved with your stuff. Don't want to fuck white girls. Don't care a shit about spreading my blackness, at all. I could. Ya think I can't swoon a white bitch and make her pussy wet. Shit, that's something I've discovered about being me, a black man. It's like I'm a white woman's fucking kryptonite. The way they look at me some times like they want get fucked by me. It's interesting to say the least. I mean I never really thought I'd have a chance with white girls but they're the ones actually spreading their legs for ME for whatever fucking reason. I mean I know kinda how white girls think, just the sort of like jungle fever thing they have before they wake up and realize, yeah turning black is a BAD IDEA.
Ultimately I have to suggest white parents don't treat your daughter badly because that's EXACTLY why she goes for black dick when she gets older. She wants to piss you off.
Ah well, life is good. Yunno despite the numerous issues still happening in the world, Fucking really bad stuff, things are turing around.
I don't know how others think, but I believe that a way to gauge the current collective mood of society is to see what kind of movies are being made.
All these movies coming out soon are indicitave of how positive and upbeat life is turniing after all the shit tha we've personally experienced as a society. We're going forward and getting more awesome cool movies.
I'm going to see Expendables. Ninja Turtles. So; fucking weak sauce man. Ya can't make a fucking CGI turtles movies try to make a mint off of that and then turn around and say YEAH that was stupid. We should have actually made a good live action ninja turtles movie. I'm hoping that the movie is perfect, and is just right on the money. But lord knows if they're going to hit this out of the park or it's going to be just as shitty as the 2007 movie. I mean it's got to be a great film. It can't be MEH. It can't be decent. It hast to truly capture the spirit of the comics and be fun and of course be intelligent.
I think a lot about what makes a great film great vs just normal. And I believe it has to be smart film making. And of course artistic. That's what I like in movies. I can't imagine why there's people who are arguing fucking movies should just be technically sound and nothing more and not actually be works of art, but that's weird and those people are nuts. Truth is there's fucking smart people in this world who only see things as numbers and that's why they don't understand the abstract aspects of film making. Probably could never sit through a tim burton movie. His movies typically are very awkward for the sake of being awkward and if you can't understand why an artist like him would make abstract art, don't watch his movies at all.
But I do. I love movies that are actually thought provoking and somewhat unconventional. Not saying I can't enjoy a normal straight forward film, but what kind of world would this be without Superman The Movie. Real art. Real deep meaninful art on display. The day I saw that movie, I believed in GOD for real, yunno? That the power of God was real and true. Because he can make men make movies like that.
That's what I'm talking about. Hell, the bible itself is considered by many to be the biggest most awkward and abstract work of art of all time. I definitely see that being true. As a kid, it was just so fucking weird, the bible. Everything had ten different meanings and it was just no way of making logical sense out of anything in it, but it's the truly the corner stone of art in this world, the bible stories.
I don't know man, hard to hold on to the things I believe in, when so many people want to force their opinion down your throat like it fucking matters.
But I believe it's right to put biblical imagery in films. I grew up on movies that were prettymuch centered around my upbringing, lots of church, lots of jesus, lots of that stuff. And no surprise, the whole world is basically coming from that perspective of believeing in being a hero, struggling and fighting, and one man can stand up and fight and make a difference. Those things I believed in were merely universal concepts inherent to many philosophies around the world.
If you're still around 18/19 and things look grim for you, don't give in and just stick with it a little while longer and life will eventually turn around.
I'm about to start making A LOT of money. Which is great. I do indeed intend from way back in high school to live like a goddamn king if I could. I'm 28 now. A lot of black guys my age are in jail. Getting it in the ass. Or Dead. That's prettymuch what the military exist for to kill people like me. 28, and not white. = taking a bullet from big muscular white men.
But I'm not dead yet for whatever reason. I don't know what the fuck they want from me. I don't give a shit about anybody else in this world but myself, I will guarantee you that. And I'm pretty damn sure that's how everybody else around me thinks too. I honestly could care less about you or your life. Might as well be dead, little negro...
Yunno, white people got this world on lock down. They go through all kinds of measures and systems and they have the whole wait until marriage thing in place to hopefully curb the amount of racial mixing going on and in fact they've been watching me since I was born since I'm one of those black kids who could slip through one day and impregnate a white girl at some fucking point.
I basically could cut my hair and pass for a spanish guy and bone some white girl and ruin that person's hopes of survival in this world.
Makes me wonder what kind of fucking world this is, hell of a thing to be born into, just going along as a black kid going along, no big deal, then one day after all the childhood has passed, you get punched in the face by a bunch of angry white people. I'd have much preferred to have been punched and kicked by white guys as a kid, vs now. Now it's like, a shock, yunno. I didn't see this coming. I've always been watching fucking goddamn golden girls and lots of shows about white people, full house, fucking growing pains. I watched every show white motherfuckers put on tv about their problems, and now as a man, I'm being told, stay out of the white life and white world, don't even think you can get involved. No problem. I don't want to get involved with your stuff. Don't want to fuck white girls. Don't care a shit about spreading my blackness, at all. I could. Ya think I can't swoon a white bitch and make her pussy wet. Shit, that's something I've discovered about being me, a black man. It's like I'm a white woman's fucking kryptonite. The way they look at me some times like they want get fucked by me. It's interesting to say the least. I mean I never really thought I'd have a chance with white girls but they're the ones actually spreading their legs for ME for whatever fucking reason. I mean I know kinda how white girls think, just the sort of like jungle fever thing they have before they wake up and realize, yeah turning black is a BAD IDEA.
Ultimately I have to suggest white parents don't treat your daughter badly because that's EXACTLY why she goes for black dick when she gets older. She wants to piss you off.
Ah well, life is good. Yunno despite the numerous issues still happening in the world, Fucking really bad stuff, things are turing around.
I don't know how others think, but I believe that a way to gauge the current collective mood of society is to see what kind of movies are being made.
All these movies coming out soon are indicitave of how positive and upbeat life is turniing after all the shit tha we've personally experienced as a society. We're going forward and getting more awesome cool movies.
I'm going to see Expendables. Ninja Turtles. So; fucking weak sauce man. Ya can't make a fucking CGI turtles movies try to make a mint off of that and then turn around and say YEAH that was stupid. We should have actually made a good live action ninja turtles movie. I'm hoping that the movie is perfect, and is just right on the money. But lord knows if they're going to hit this out of the park or it's going to be just as shitty as the 2007 movie. I mean it's got to be a great film. It can't be MEH. It can't be decent. It hast to truly capture the spirit of the comics and be fun and of course be intelligent.
I think a lot about what makes a great film great vs just normal. And I believe it has to be smart film making. And of course artistic. That's what I like in movies. I can't imagine why there's people who are arguing fucking movies should just be technically sound and nothing more and not actually be works of art, but that's weird and those people are nuts. Truth is there's fucking smart people in this world who only see things as numbers and that's why they don't understand the abstract aspects of film making. Probably could never sit through a tim burton movie. His movies typically are very awkward for the sake of being awkward and if you can't understand why an artist like him would make abstract art, don't watch his movies at all.
But I do. I love movies that are actually thought provoking and somewhat unconventional. Not saying I can't enjoy a normal straight forward film, but what kind of world would this be without Superman The Movie. Real art. Real deep meaninful art on display. The day I saw that movie, I believed in GOD for real, yunno? That the power of God was real and true. Because he can make men make movies like that.
That's what I'm talking about. Hell, the bible itself is considered by many to be the biggest most awkward and abstract work of art of all time. I definitely see that being true. As a kid, it was just so fucking weird, the bible. Everything had ten different meanings and it was just no way of making logical sense out of anything in it, but it's the truly the corner stone of art in this world, the bible stories.
I don't know man, hard to hold on to the things I believe in, when so many people want to force their opinion down your throat like it fucking matters.
But I believe it's right to put biblical imagery in films. I grew up on movies that were prettymuch centered around my upbringing, lots of church, lots of jesus, lots of that stuff. And no surprise, the whole world is basically coming from that perspective of believeing in being a hero, struggling and fighting, and one man can stand up and fight and make a difference. Those things I believed in were merely universal concepts inherent to many philosophies around the world.
Thursday, May 8, 2014
what to dooo
I'm at a cross road now, goddamnit.
I could stay here in New York, work jobs here or go fucking to hawaii to be CBP. I don't know. I do indeed want to go to hawaii and live down there permanently.
Good to get away from fucking New York forever imo. I look like a hawaiian so I'd fit right in down there...
Shit, hard to say. I can't just live free, got to get some job and be slave to it, what a joke this world is..
I could stay here in New York, work jobs here or go fucking to hawaii to be CBP. I don't know. I do indeed want to go to hawaii and live down there permanently.
Good to get away from fucking New York forever imo. I look like a hawaiian so I'd fit right in down there...
Shit, hard to say. I can't just live free, got to get some job and be slave to it, what a joke this world is..
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
what I need to get
Life has its rewards. If and when I get into the CBP and I'm working a magnificent glorious paycheck, that I earned through hard studying and of course sexual awesomeness.
I will buy certain things:
I need new glasses.
I'm going to get a new cell phone with solar power panel built in.
I'm going to get a new hat.
I'm going to get some cool stuff really.
New gas scooter. Nothing against the goped but riding over any kind of bumps in the road is hell.
Yep, that's all I can think of at the moment. Going to continue studying computer programming and of course spanish so that I can have more skills to present to future employers.
I mean I hate how people want to put a big block in front of you once you reach a certain age. Studying and working hard is all that matters, you can master anything with time and patience. And unfortunately i do not have the vast luxury of time that I had as a kid, but all things taken into consideration. Not like I'm licking some girl's asshole right now am I? If I was, wouldn't be able to do a damn thing in this life. Too focused on the fun stuff.
I will buy certain things:
I need new glasses.
I'm going to get a new cell phone with solar power panel built in.
I'm going to get a new hat.
I'm going to get some cool stuff really.
New gas scooter. Nothing against the goped but riding over any kind of bumps in the road is hell.
Yep, that's all I can think of at the moment. Going to continue studying computer programming and of course spanish so that I can have more skills to present to future employers.
I mean I hate how people want to put a big block in front of you once you reach a certain age. Studying and working hard is all that matters, you can master anything with time and patience. And unfortunately i do not have the vast luxury of time that I had as a kid, but all things taken into consideration. Not like I'm licking some girl's asshole right now am I? If I was, wouldn't be able to do a damn thing in this life. Too focused on the fun stuff.
POWER RANGERS IS BACK
HOLY SHIT.
This is good news for me. I mean shit, it's been a LOOOOOOOOOOOONG fucking bunch of years since I was a power rangers nut as a kid. But today's kids will most likey be all about the new power rangers movie that they're making.
Fuck yes. If they can somehow get the original rangers involved with this, I'd lose my mind.
I don't know shit about the new power rangers show they got on. Kids love it, just like I did. It's funny. I was talking to some kid at Toys R Us, and he's like totally about to go nuts for his power rangers toy for christmas. I'm thinking, well shit, if you only were around for the original shit. You little shit, you don't know about the old school...
That fucking aggrivates me personally. That these new generation of kids are not really educated in the older versions of things. They're all about these new fucking versions and that's kinda ok, but I'm personally dissappointed because they just are so ignorant to the original. Like I was on the bus and two kids are fucking have a blast fighting with their ninja turtles toys and talking about their love for the turtles. but I can only think you little fuckers don't know a damn thing about the original stuff that I grew up on or even the superior 2k3 show. I honestly felt like throwing those kids out the window on the street to get slammed by the cars, but I said, no, that's not right...
But fuck, man. It's a good thing that they're going to make a new hopefully GOOD power rangers movie. This is great. I grew up watching power rangers, and now I'm 28 and here I stand potentially going to finally actually see the power rangers movie in theaters vs back as a kid where I just got it from blockbuster.
I hope they go for broke with this movie. I'll have no say in what kind of movie it is, but I personally as a kid at school playing with my red ranger toy wanted the power rangers movie to be a lot more complex and deep.
If they can take the power rangers and mold it into an ACTUAL real deep meaninful film, oH MY FUCKING GOD.
Will they? It's up in the air. This is not now nor ever going to be about quality. It's about making fucking money, lots of if it. Is the pwoer rangers still popular? Lord knows. Yes kids like it still, but it's not the phenom that it originally was back in my childhood. So it's very possible they make another power rangers film and it tanks. The only thing that could potentially make this movie a huge success is if they include a bunch of the old rangers. And that'd make it really monumental film. I mean bring them ALL back. Yost, Jason, Fucking Nigga ranger zack, Bosch, every single ranger from the original cast making a cameo would make this movie MONUMENTAL.
I don't know a fuck about these new rangers and I don't care. Because you get attached to these guys and then the next season they bring in a new bunch of nigga rangers. and fucks everything about the show that you liked. They changed everything to new shit.
So I don't have a single bit of interest in a power rangers movie based on the current crop of faggy new gay ass pussy rangers they got. you can't beat a nigga like Jason David Frank. That is A REAL motherfucking NIGGA right there. I like him a lot as a kid. And in fact the original cast hated his guts to some extent because he was a no bullshit kinda guy, but that's the world. I identify with his personality. He's a true warrior and that's what I believe in and identify with ultimately.
gooooooooooooooooooooooood motherfucking live I've lived son. Can't really complain. I mean I had a fun childhood with tmnt and power rangers and ghost busters and now I'm getting more cool shit as I get old.
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUCK YEAH. FUCK.
Shit, sucks I gotta fucking kkk on my back, and all this bullshit at my jobs but that's ok. I'll be sitting back watching power rangers and new Star Wars so fuck you guys.
This is good news for me. I mean shit, it's been a LOOOOOOOOOOOONG fucking bunch of years since I was a power rangers nut as a kid. But today's kids will most likey be all about the new power rangers movie that they're making.
Fuck yes. If they can somehow get the original rangers involved with this, I'd lose my mind.
I don't know shit about the new power rangers show they got on. Kids love it, just like I did. It's funny. I was talking to some kid at Toys R Us, and he's like totally about to go nuts for his power rangers toy for christmas. I'm thinking, well shit, if you only were around for the original shit. You little shit, you don't know about the old school...
That fucking aggrivates me personally. That these new generation of kids are not really educated in the older versions of things. They're all about these new fucking versions and that's kinda ok, but I'm personally dissappointed because they just are so ignorant to the original. Like I was on the bus and two kids are fucking have a blast fighting with their ninja turtles toys and talking about their love for the turtles. but I can only think you little fuckers don't know a damn thing about the original stuff that I grew up on or even the superior 2k3 show. I honestly felt like throwing those kids out the window on the street to get slammed by the cars, but I said, no, that's not right...
But fuck, man. It's a good thing that they're going to make a new hopefully GOOD power rangers movie. This is great. I grew up watching power rangers, and now I'm 28 and here I stand potentially going to finally actually see the power rangers movie in theaters vs back as a kid where I just got it from blockbuster.
I hope they go for broke with this movie. I'll have no say in what kind of movie it is, but I personally as a kid at school playing with my red ranger toy wanted the power rangers movie to be a lot more complex and deep.
If they can take the power rangers and mold it into an ACTUAL real deep meaninful film, oH MY FUCKING GOD.
Will they? It's up in the air. This is not now nor ever going to be about quality. It's about making fucking money, lots of if it. Is the pwoer rangers still popular? Lord knows. Yes kids like it still, but it's not the phenom that it originally was back in my childhood. So it's very possible they make another power rangers film and it tanks. The only thing that could potentially make this movie a huge success is if they include a bunch of the old rangers. And that'd make it really monumental film. I mean bring them ALL back. Yost, Jason, Fucking Nigga ranger zack, Bosch, every single ranger from the original cast making a cameo would make this movie MONUMENTAL.
I don't know a fuck about these new rangers and I don't care. Because you get attached to these guys and then the next season they bring in a new bunch of nigga rangers. and fucks everything about the show that you liked. They changed everything to new shit.
So I don't have a single bit of interest in a power rangers movie based on the current crop of faggy new gay ass pussy rangers they got. you can't beat a nigga like Jason David Frank. That is A REAL motherfucking NIGGA right there. I like him a lot as a kid. And in fact the original cast hated his guts to some extent because he was a no bullshit kinda guy, but that's the world. I identify with his personality. He's a true warrior and that's what I believe in and identify with ultimately.
gooooooooooooooooooooooood motherfucking live I've lived son. Can't really complain. I mean I had a fun childhood with tmnt and power rangers and ghost busters and now I'm getting more cool shit as I get old.
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUCK YEAH. FUCK.
Shit, sucks I gotta fucking kkk on my back, and all this bullshit at my jobs but that's ok. I'll be sitting back watching power rangers and new Star Wars so fuck you guys.
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
The stuff that defines me.
Goddamn, gotta say with a passion I wish I could rewind the clock and be 11 years old again. Goddamn, being out in the world as an adult in this kill or be killed society is really hard. And it's just a strange life to be suddenly thrust into. And I don't get to feel safe at all or even know where to begin with getting a girlfriend or how to go about that whole thing. You can't tell a guy who's still figuring out sex and girls the ins and outs of pregnancy and kids. That's waaaay off in the distance, for me. Still is. I was never focusing on that stuff when I was checking out tits and ass in 8th grade... So I'm still not thinking about that. Sue me...
But yeah this world is the wild west. Kids don't see it yet, but it's the jungle for real. Very crazy world, full of very big things and just insane big industries doing what they do and me trying to get little jobs and supposedly I've got a bunch of people I've never met before and I don't know, hovering over me and looking at me and judging my actions etc.
But there's nothing to see here. Just a guy trying to figure out how to live and go through life like anybody.
The stuff that I try to hold on to as I get way too mixed up in the world we live in, is the stuff I enjoyed most as a kid.
Star Wars, Ninja Turtles, Batman, Home Alone, Superman, X-men. These things are the true center of my being and give me personally some sense of peace because just hanging out in my living room as a kid watching badass movies like terminator etc, was the best time of my life as a child. Just to be hanging out and watching a really great work of art is just everything to me. Makes me feel good and I love and hope that the film makers these days are going to really make cool fucking movies in the future because the stuff I remember watching was awesome, and it'd be great to get more of the same as we advance into the future.
Life has taken a dark turn for me. Although it's not all bad. I mean, even though I've been cursed with the whole condemnation towards my potential offspring, I still love a pair of titties, I still have no problem enjoying the goddamn abundance of titties and ass on the streets.
Nothing wrong with that and Yeah, I guess the dude's right, a guy like me, handsome, muscular, cool, wrather sizable package, will indeed one day be slamming some girl's booty.
Uh, let's hope so. I don't care if they got a camera on me while I'm fucking some girl. I just want to do it. I just want to actually get the experience, then I can say I'm one of the regular guys in this fucking world.
Virgin for life is not what I ever thought I'd personally end up becoming...
Just not even began to think that was going to be who I was. But that's exactly how it seems. Just never going to happen, forget about it, go work on the time machine or whatever else...
Go get a degree and shit. Yeah you can take that fucking degree and shove it up your ass.
I'm not buying into the bullshit games this world is playing. I got my intentions and they're set in stone. I don't even care if the end result is not to the best outcome, hell I don't even think that's like actually something to hurt someone with, EVERYBODY'S KIDS don't like them that much. That's one of the most like common things in this world you'll find is the whole angsty kids thing. I've helped raise several kids, and I'm still an uncle to my niece and nephews, so the prospect of being not particularly liked by kids isn't really new to me. I've gone down that road and it is what it is. You break bread and live with them deal with them best you can, that's all...
Hell, I'm no expert on dealing with kids, but I understand the way kids think having been one and I dare say, leave them the fuck alone. Don't be all up in their face all the time and shit. I hated when adults were getting in my face as a kid. I just wanted to play basketball, watch movies, videogames whatever, not have some asshole in my face and bothering me.
But yeah this world is the wild west. Kids don't see it yet, but it's the jungle for real. Very crazy world, full of very big things and just insane big industries doing what they do and me trying to get little jobs and supposedly I've got a bunch of people I've never met before and I don't know, hovering over me and looking at me and judging my actions etc.
But there's nothing to see here. Just a guy trying to figure out how to live and go through life like anybody.
The stuff that I try to hold on to as I get way too mixed up in the world we live in, is the stuff I enjoyed most as a kid.
Star Wars, Ninja Turtles, Batman, Home Alone, Superman, X-men. These things are the true center of my being and give me personally some sense of peace because just hanging out in my living room as a kid watching badass movies like terminator etc, was the best time of my life as a child. Just to be hanging out and watching a really great work of art is just everything to me. Makes me feel good and I love and hope that the film makers these days are going to really make cool fucking movies in the future because the stuff I remember watching was awesome, and it'd be great to get more of the same as we advance into the future.
Life has taken a dark turn for me. Although it's not all bad. I mean, even though I've been cursed with the whole condemnation towards my potential offspring, I still love a pair of titties, I still have no problem enjoying the goddamn abundance of titties and ass on the streets.
Nothing wrong with that and Yeah, I guess the dude's right, a guy like me, handsome, muscular, cool, wrather sizable package, will indeed one day be slamming some girl's booty.
Uh, let's hope so. I don't care if they got a camera on me while I'm fucking some girl. I just want to do it. I just want to actually get the experience, then I can say I'm one of the regular guys in this fucking world.
Virgin for life is not what I ever thought I'd personally end up becoming...
Just not even began to think that was going to be who I was. But that's exactly how it seems. Just never going to happen, forget about it, go work on the time machine or whatever else...
Go get a degree and shit. Yeah you can take that fucking degree and shove it up your ass.
I'm not buying into the bullshit games this world is playing. I got my intentions and they're set in stone. I don't even care if the end result is not to the best outcome, hell I don't even think that's like actually something to hurt someone with, EVERYBODY'S KIDS don't like them that much. That's one of the most like common things in this world you'll find is the whole angsty kids thing. I've helped raise several kids, and I'm still an uncle to my niece and nephews, so the prospect of being not particularly liked by kids isn't really new to me. I've gone down that road and it is what it is. You break bread and live with them deal with them best you can, that's all...
Hell, I'm no expert on dealing with kids, but I understand the way kids think having been one and I dare say, leave them the fuck alone. Don't be all up in their face all the time and shit. I hated when adults were getting in my face as a kid. I just wanted to play basketball, watch movies, videogames whatever, not have some asshole in my face and bothering me.
the ancient fear
the fuck..
that is a terrible title...
It's just about as shitty as the phantom Menace. But at least that one sounded like a smarter more cryptic title. Hell in fact the ancient fear just seems like some kind of offshoot of the the phantom menace. Not something very good or new or interesting.
I don't know. This whole thing is shaping up to be exactly as shitty as the Star Trek sequels they made back when Shatner and Co. Were getting old and they wanted to make the most out of it before they became way past the point of no return.
that is a terrible title...
It's just about as shitty as the phantom Menace. But at least that one sounded like a smarter more cryptic title. Hell in fact the ancient fear just seems like some kind of offshoot of the the phantom menace. Not something very good or new or interesting.
I don't know. This whole thing is shaping up to be exactly as shitty as the Star Trek sequels they made back when Shatner and Co. Were getting old and they wanted to make the most out of it before they became way past the point of no return.
Monday, May 5, 2014
Exciting times...
I've been applying and applying and applying for jobs left and right as usual. Only job that seems to be going anywhere is CBP.
If indeed I become a Customs Officer, I think it's by the graces of God. I believe in God. I pray to God. I think everybody should. But I'm not going to try to shove my thoughts down everyone's throat. If you are so inclined to live without faith, then that's your life.
But I don't believe we as a collective, and we're all together on this. All of us. White, black, asian, hispanic, we're all together under the umbrella of God. And his will. Whatever he wants, he'll get. Fuck humans.
I just don't know whether this is going to go up or down for me, but if I get in and I have the job and I'm making a good paycheck, and I get an apartment and all the things men dream of, I'll finally be able to relax and not feel anxious all day which is the norm for me. I just feel lost in life...
It's like, as a kid, I didn't know what was going to happen as I got up there in age. I didn't know. I just was going to school and that was everything. The only thing that seemed like it might be fun to try was fucking some girl at some point. Now I'm goddamn 28 years old and I haven't gotten fucking anywhere close to sticking my dick in a girl's body...
Hell it's even worse considering I'm a black dude. Ultimately the greatest joke you'll get when you get older as a black person is that you're a parasite in this society. Very fucking minority of the upper races wants and desires black genetics.
But don't dwell on it. I implore black kids not to think about it too much. Nature finds a way. Spielberg was so fucking right about that. You can try to say blacks suck and are no good and should just fuck off, but nature created black people and whatever nature wants nature will continue to get no matter what very powerful smart white men want or think.
And I think they know that. They fucking know it's not that blacks exist to be this shitty race of people who make life complicated for white people and asians etc. It's fucking nature at work. Creating a race of people designed to survive in harsh climates. And in fact, scientifically, people like me, mixed people, are the future of humanity.
I look at race from a scientific perspective honestly, not an aesthetic one. Problem is, that the social, economic, and financial outlook for being a black person is very complicated one. You have to have skill or get an ivy league degree as a black person to make it in this world. Or you're fucked.
Really, what the fuck ya gonna do against very super smart white guys out there. What? Shit, that's what ya gonna do. Shit...
If indeed I become a Customs Officer, I think it's by the graces of God. I believe in God. I pray to God. I think everybody should. But I'm not going to try to shove my thoughts down everyone's throat. If you are so inclined to live without faith, then that's your life.
But I don't believe we as a collective, and we're all together on this. All of us. White, black, asian, hispanic, we're all together under the umbrella of God. And his will. Whatever he wants, he'll get. Fuck humans.
I just don't know whether this is going to go up or down for me, but if I get in and I have the job and I'm making a good paycheck, and I get an apartment and all the things men dream of, I'll finally be able to relax and not feel anxious all day which is the norm for me. I just feel lost in life...
It's like, as a kid, I didn't know what was going to happen as I got up there in age. I didn't know. I just was going to school and that was everything. The only thing that seemed like it might be fun to try was fucking some girl at some point. Now I'm goddamn 28 years old and I haven't gotten fucking anywhere close to sticking my dick in a girl's body...
Hell it's even worse considering I'm a black dude. Ultimately the greatest joke you'll get when you get older as a black person is that you're a parasite in this society. Very fucking minority of the upper races wants and desires black genetics.
But don't dwell on it. I implore black kids not to think about it too much. Nature finds a way. Spielberg was so fucking right about that. You can try to say blacks suck and are no good and should just fuck off, but nature created black people and whatever nature wants nature will continue to get no matter what very powerful smart white men want or think.
And I think they know that. They fucking know it's not that blacks exist to be this shitty race of people who make life complicated for white people and asians etc. It's fucking nature at work. Creating a race of people designed to survive in harsh climates. And in fact, scientifically, people like me, mixed people, are the future of humanity.
I look at race from a scientific perspective honestly, not an aesthetic one. Problem is, that the social, economic, and financial outlook for being a black person is very complicated one. You have to have skill or get an ivy league degree as a black person to make it in this world. Or you're fucked.
Really, what the fuck ya gonna do against very super smart white guys out there. What? Shit, that's what ya gonna do. Shit...
Saturday, May 3, 2014
Thoughts on GTA V
Well I'm just hanging out in my room as usual. It's like this, been using the web since 8th grade. You may not like it but the majority of the people using forums across the web are punk kids like I was back then. They come on line, search for porn, and then search for movie news or some shit.
So even though I'm damn near my 30s I still do the same shit. Look at movie news and porn.
And play videogames. Ain't nothin changed about me gotta say, still doing the same old shit. Playing videogames, and jackin off.
But at least now I have somewhere to post my thoughts on them. Don't know if you care, probably don't. I realize it's like, there's no gurantees in this world. Nobody owes nobody nothing. Everythings money, and that's what I'm going to bank on. Earning a substantial amount of money as I get older so I don't have to worry about shit. Like my cousin. He's extremely wealthy, has it all. And he has a daughter etc. If I can be like him, FUCK YEAH.
28 motherfucking years old motherfucker. Gotta say, I don't feel no different. Still just a horny fucker trying to pound ass. Goddamn. Yunno, I just want to dip my dick into some girl's ass hole so fucking bad, man. And I want to just give her a good goddamn time, that's what I want to do.
It ain't about animalistically raping a girl. No, what I want to do is make her happy. I want to give her a good life, all that crap. Cuz I've seen what guys do to girls all the time. And I wasn't taught to be like that and I don't condone it either. I want to fucking treat a girl with love and respect and all that shit....
So I got GTA V and I gotta say as a true fan of the GTA Series and let me be clear, I know EVERYTHING about GTA. So I'm the guy to come to to understand the complexity of the series etc. It's a monumental game, and that's putting it lightly. This singular game changed EVERYTHING about gaming to this very day. And that's not even half of the full specttrum of what GTA has given to the world of gaming. To create a game where you choose to either play the mission or sit back and just relax and do nothing is absolutely amazing to me. I played every system growing up, that I could find and to this day nothing has amazed me more than what Rockstar has been doing with GTA. I mean, fucking I've played Mario 64 and thought that was the best game ever. Hell, even super mario world I thought was a truly amazing game that couldn't be topped. As well as Metal Gear, but no. The day I got GTA3 for my Ps2 was the best day ever. I played the fuck out of that game. Because for me back then, kids today don't know it, but for us teens back when GTa3 came out, it was like the first time ever in a videogame that you could hang out and do nothing. Everything single super nintendo game every sega game, every fucking playstation game you had to be moving and fighting or something. But in GTA, there's no time limit, you can do whatever you want and the game was so incredibly huge. Yunno... So that and I bought Vice City back then. Man, I really lived it up in my teen years gotta say. I tried to aquire a lot of cool toys for myself because as a little kid I had NOTHING. My friends had all the cool stuff and I just had shit so when I finally had some kind of money from 5 bucks a day for lunch, I saved every day and got around 30 dollars and went to go buy videogames. I got the Ps2 for christmas and was just always about buying new games etc.
And I played all the good shit that I could get. Now I just basically get games with my own money and shit, from my jobs.
And that's alright with me. I love gaming, if it's worth it, I'll spend the money on it. And this GTA is the BEST GTA we have gotten. I loved San Andreas to death when I got that game and so basically we now have a really supped up San Andreas. That's basically what GTA V is, it's GTa San Andreas but with HD graphics, but goddamn, is it more than that. It's not just this big fucking shitty map with nothing special going on, it's full of fun and yunno, it's like they finally perfected the art of making GTA games with this one. All the flaws from the previous games etc have been polished out. The game is for me, it's kinda like yeah they realize that the people who are going to buy this GTA are people like me, who have been playing the games from day one. So to just have the game feature the same old running around to do missions kinda shit, wouldn't be as interesting. So what they've done is included a bunch of other things to do to make the standard GTA template more fun. Stock market is great. Now I think I understand the stock market because GTA taught me how to use it. Hopefully it's very much the same when I do indeed start buying stocks. I've alreayd earned a lot of money buying stocks and it's great that they put that in.
And now we have a legit GTA Multiplayer online experience. It's like the developers are lookinga t the GTA scene and seeing what modders are doing and just giving us the real deal. Like, this is how I hoped GTA 4 would have done things, but it didn't. GTA 4 took out planes and shit. You can't do that. I look at GTA 4 as a huge wasted opportunity. Sure they intended to create a game that was essentially not a big bombastic gta game, that would bring it right back down to the roots that it came from, sure, but unfortunately the game became really stale after playing it initially... just fell flat. Nothing to do especially when you can no longer jump in a jet and fly all over the place firing at motherfuckers. Now that's back and it's damn good that it's back. Cuz, if I have to drive across the fucking huge map, I'll lose my mind...
It's a great fucking game and the whole 3 player switching thing is really nice. It's like you're playing 3 different games. Seeing 3 different complex social levels in the gta world. Which is interesting, ya gotta little slice of how life in this world works. Rich people, blacks, hillbilly people all living going around working together to make money and live rich. It's interesting how the complexity of life is captured in the game.
For me, I like playing as franklin. He's basically me, and I identify with his struggle as a black guy trying to squeeze by in the white world we live in.
Shit is the truth. I mean it's not the end of the world to be a black guy in America, but it's not easy. You'll be trapped in your body and can't get out no matter what you want to do about it. Hell, that's why I live here in this side of the bronx. There's no real substantial white pressence around here. It's prettymuch a black neighborhood and it's not terrible, but it's no where close to the white neighborhoods and what kind of life style they probably live over there...
Fucking living in disneyland, white people.
Niggas live in fucking shitville.
Nigggggggggggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Fuck man. But just saying, GTA V is a great fucking game. I don't have any real problems with it. It's got all the shit you could want in a GTA game so far. I'm only 20% into it and so far so good, it's been a good fucking game. I mean, there's just so much fun to be had playing this one and the little things are what make it great. Just being able to sit and eat potato chips and shit like that. That's what makes this game a masterpiece. That right there is how you make a fucking videogame. Give a nigga some fucking chips.
And that's what's beautiful about playing the game is that you can just enjoy the serious deep levels of detail that they put into the game. Every little thing in the game has been given the finest polish. Seriously. It's like I was just in awe of the detail put into fucking little tiny rocks and bits of crates around the pier.
If there's a flaw it's that they put the game out only on PS3 when we have the PS4 on the horizon. If indeed there's actually more power they can pump out of the system to make things better, maybe it would have been better to toss it on the ps4 instead. But nevermind that, most likely we'll get a big amazing super awesome GTA for the PS4 some time later. As for now, this game looks unbelievable. Every fucking thing is OVERLY detailed in this game. It's like it kinda does itself a disservice being so realistic really. Since the graphics are never going to look photo real, yet everything has the tiniest detail to it. But it sells the immersive quality of the game so that's fine.
Anyway, if you're going to get a game for your Kid, do not get GTA fucking IV, get V. This game is the best GTA game EVER goddammit... It's just perfect. It works, the story is genius. The world is very nicely designed. I gotta say they finally hit the sweat spot. GTa 4's world was shitty because it just didn't have any real like geometry to it that was fun to interact with. It was basically flat and uninteresting. But GTA V's map is full of complex intertwining little passages etc that make it far more fun to play, similar to Just Cause. Certainly that game's map is ridiculous in its scope and size, but GTA V is no slouch, they did a good job creating a similarly vast expansive an just generally huge map that makes you feel like you're in a different world and not a videogame at all.
So get this shit.
So even though I'm damn near my 30s I still do the same shit. Look at movie news and porn.
And play videogames. Ain't nothin changed about me gotta say, still doing the same old shit. Playing videogames, and jackin off.
But at least now I have somewhere to post my thoughts on them. Don't know if you care, probably don't. I realize it's like, there's no gurantees in this world. Nobody owes nobody nothing. Everythings money, and that's what I'm going to bank on. Earning a substantial amount of money as I get older so I don't have to worry about shit. Like my cousin. He's extremely wealthy, has it all. And he has a daughter etc. If I can be like him, FUCK YEAH.
28 motherfucking years old motherfucker. Gotta say, I don't feel no different. Still just a horny fucker trying to pound ass. Goddamn. Yunno, I just want to dip my dick into some girl's ass hole so fucking bad, man. And I want to just give her a good goddamn time, that's what I want to do.
It ain't about animalistically raping a girl. No, what I want to do is make her happy. I want to give her a good life, all that crap. Cuz I've seen what guys do to girls all the time. And I wasn't taught to be like that and I don't condone it either. I want to fucking treat a girl with love and respect and all that shit....
So I got GTA V and I gotta say as a true fan of the GTA Series and let me be clear, I know EVERYTHING about GTA. So I'm the guy to come to to understand the complexity of the series etc. It's a monumental game, and that's putting it lightly. This singular game changed EVERYTHING about gaming to this very day. And that's not even half of the full specttrum of what GTA has given to the world of gaming. To create a game where you choose to either play the mission or sit back and just relax and do nothing is absolutely amazing to me. I played every system growing up, that I could find and to this day nothing has amazed me more than what Rockstar has been doing with GTA. I mean, fucking I've played Mario 64 and thought that was the best game ever. Hell, even super mario world I thought was a truly amazing game that couldn't be topped. As well as Metal Gear, but no. The day I got GTA3 for my Ps2 was the best day ever. I played the fuck out of that game. Because for me back then, kids today don't know it, but for us teens back when GTa3 came out, it was like the first time ever in a videogame that you could hang out and do nothing. Everything single super nintendo game every sega game, every fucking playstation game you had to be moving and fighting or something. But in GTA, there's no time limit, you can do whatever you want and the game was so incredibly huge. Yunno... So that and I bought Vice City back then. Man, I really lived it up in my teen years gotta say. I tried to aquire a lot of cool toys for myself because as a little kid I had NOTHING. My friends had all the cool stuff and I just had shit so when I finally had some kind of money from 5 bucks a day for lunch, I saved every day and got around 30 dollars and went to go buy videogames. I got the Ps2 for christmas and was just always about buying new games etc.
And I played all the good shit that I could get. Now I just basically get games with my own money and shit, from my jobs.
And that's alright with me. I love gaming, if it's worth it, I'll spend the money on it. And this GTA is the BEST GTA we have gotten. I loved San Andreas to death when I got that game and so basically we now have a really supped up San Andreas. That's basically what GTA V is, it's GTa San Andreas but with HD graphics, but goddamn, is it more than that. It's not just this big fucking shitty map with nothing special going on, it's full of fun and yunno, it's like they finally perfected the art of making GTA games with this one. All the flaws from the previous games etc have been polished out. The game is for me, it's kinda like yeah they realize that the people who are going to buy this GTA are people like me, who have been playing the games from day one. So to just have the game feature the same old running around to do missions kinda shit, wouldn't be as interesting. So what they've done is included a bunch of other things to do to make the standard GTA template more fun. Stock market is great. Now I think I understand the stock market because GTA taught me how to use it. Hopefully it's very much the same when I do indeed start buying stocks. I've alreayd earned a lot of money buying stocks and it's great that they put that in.
And now we have a legit GTA Multiplayer online experience. It's like the developers are lookinga t the GTA scene and seeing what modders are doing and just giving us the real deal. Like, this is how I hoped GTA 4 would have done things, but it didn't. GTA 4 took out planes and shit. You can't do that. I look at GTA 4 as a huge wasted opportunity. Sure they intended to create a game that was essentially not a big bombastic gta game, that would bring it right back down to the roots that it came from, sure, but unfortunately the game became really stale after playing it initially... just fell flat. Nothing to do especially when you can no longer jump in a jet and fly all over the place firing at motherfuckers. Now that's back and it's damn good that it's back. Cuz, if I have to drive across the fucking huge map, I'll lose my mind...
It's a great fucking game and the whole 3 player switching thing is really nice. It's like you're playing 3 different games. Seeing 3 different complex social levels in the gta world. Which is interesting, ya gotta little slice of how life in this world works. Rich people, blacks, hillbilly people all living going around working together to make money and live rich. It's interesting how the complexity of life is captured in the game.
For me, I like playing as franklin. He's basically me, and I identify with his struggle as a black guy trying to squeeze by in the white world we live in.
Shit is the truth. I mean it's not the end of the world to be a black guy in America, but it's not easy. You'll be trapped in your body and can't get out no matter what you want to do about it. Hell, that's why I live here in this side of the bronx. There's no real substantial white pressence around here. It's prettymuch a black neighborhood and it's not terrible, but it's no where close to the white neighborhoods and what kind of life style they probably live over there...
Fucking living in disneyland, white people.
Niggas live in fucking shitville.
Nigggggggggggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Fuck man. But just saying, GTA V is a great fucking game. I don't have any real problems with it. It's got all the shit you could want in a GTA game so far. I'm only 20% into it and so far so good, it's been a good fucking game. I mean, there's just so much fun to be had playing this one and the little things are what make it great. Just being able to sit and eat potato chips and shit like that. That's what makes this game a masterpiece. That right there is how you make a fucking videogame. Give a nigga some fucking chips.
And that's what's beautiful about playing the game is that you can just enjoy the serious deep levels of detail that they put into the game. Every little thing in the game has been given the finest polish. Seriously. It's like I was just in awe of the detail put into fucking little tiny rocks and bits of crates around the pier.
If there's a flaw it's that they put the game out only on PS3 when we have the PS4 on the horizon. If indeed there's actually more power they can pump out of the system to make things better, maybe it would have been better to toss it on the ps4 instead. But nevermind that, most likely we'll get a big amazing super awesome GTA for the PS4 some time later. As for now, this game looks unbelievable. Every fucking thing is OVERLY detailed in this game. It's like it kinda does itself a disservice being so realistic really. Since the graphics are never going to look photo real, yet everything has the tiniest detail to it. But it sells the immersive quality of the game so that's fine.
Anyway, if you're going to get a game for your Kid, do not get GTA fucking IV, get V. This game is the best GTA game EVER goddammit... It's just perfect. It works, the story is genius. The world is very nicely designed. I gotta say they finally hit the sweat spot. GTa 4's world was shitty because it just didn't have any real like geometry to it that was fun to interact with. It was basically flat and uninteresting. But GTA V's map is full of complex intertwining little passages etc that make it far more fun to play, similar to Just Cause. Certainly that game's map is ridiculous in its scope and size, but GTA V is no slouch, they did a good job creating a similarly vast expansive an just generally huge map that makes you feel like you're in a different world and not a videogame at all.
So get this shit.
How to not lose the CBP job
I don't want to go down and join the cbp and then oh after working there for a few months things get stupid and I have to quit or bail on it.
I will stick to my ticket no matter what happens. I swear to GOD.
This is it. Life is about that moment where you have to decide whether you're going to be successful or you're going to fucking accept failure. It's kinda the same thing a soldier goes through before he decides to pull the trigger or not. Am I going to go for blood and survive in this world or just fucking go nowhere...
I know who I am. As much as others want to tell me who I am. I grew up watching Rocky, Superman, Star Wars. All these things are about men who act on the side of GOOD or of GOD.
So whenever people try to make me feel bad about myself. I just know that it's not true. I was aaaaaaaaallways the kid who tried to be good instead of a shithead. So to get to adulthood and just be labeled as this black guy who's just shit in this world, is so weird to me. But that's the name of the game. In fact I don't think ANY black people are highly regarded in this world these days. So it's more because of that whole race issue than whatever my true personality is...
But you do for God and God will do for you... So that's what I'm hoping works things out for me. Is that I just still believe in the shit I was brought up on and it'll actually pan out, that when you actually be a good person, things will turn out good. Cuz like just a week ago my bike was stolen and all the parts for my e-bike were stolen. I think and I hope that the people who stole them are going to grow old and be poor and have nothing when they leave this world. VS me, who'll have plenty of money and a nice house, pool, boat, whatever I want.... Maybe indeed I will have a daughter and she'll be a sweet good looking girl or whatever... Because I tried my best to be a good person.
I don't know, but we'll see how the future unfolds. I just would hope that I get into the CBP and whoever's hunting me down gives me some time to get into the flow of the job and doesn't immediately start making things complicated.
I will stick to my ticket no matter what happens. I swear to GOD.
This is it. Life is about that moment where you have to decide whether you're going to be successful or you're going to fucking accept failure. It's kinda the same thing a soldier goes through before he decides to pull the trigger or not. Am I going to go for blood and survive in this world or just fucking go nowhere...
I know who I am. As much as others want to tell me who I am. I grew up watching Rocky, Superman, Star Wars. All these things are about men who act on the side of GOOD or of GOD.
So whenever people try to make me feel bad about myself. I just know that it's not true. I was aaaaaaaaallways the kid who tried to be good instead of a shithead. So to get to adulthood and just be labeled as this black guy who's just shit in this world, is so weird to me. But that's the name of the game. In fact I don't think ANY black people are highly regarded in this world these days. So it's more because of that whole race issue than whatever my true personality is...
But you do for God and God will do for you... So that's what I'm hoping works things out for me. Is that I just still believe in the shit I was brought up on and it'll actually pan out, that when you actually be a good person, things will turn out good. Cuz like just a week ago my bike was stolen and all the parts for my e-bike were stolen. I think and I hope that the people who stole them are going to grow old and be poor and have nothing when they leave this world. VS me, who'll have plenty of money and a nice house, pool, boat, whatever I want.... Maybe indeed I will have a daughter and she'll be a sweet good looking girl or whatever... Because I tried my best to be a good person.
I don't know, but we'll see how the future unfolds. I just would hope that I get into the CBP and whoever's hunting me down gives me some time to get into the flow of the job and doesn't immediately start making things complicated.
Thursday, May 1, 2014
bob hopskins is dead
well fuck. My whole childhood is just falling into pieces before my eyes. Harold Ramis dead. Super Mario Dead.
What kind of crap is going on here...
What kind of crap is going on here...
bought a cowboy hat
why? Because I think it'll make me look more dashing I suppose.
I am part white. Which means that I look like there's a white guy trapped inside of me.
I look very much like that James Garner actor. We're brothers from another mother I suppose. He's a legend. I like watching his movies nowadays as I become an old man. He's like a REAL MAN. And if I gotta get old, I'd like to be like him.
You might think that's no good. A black person looking up to and wanting to be like a white person. But I feel like it's right. I've always felt comfortable around white people and white culture and watching white people on tv I suppose because I'm actually white too... So it never registered in my mind that I was separate from them.
But I am. There's no getting around it. I can NEVER hang out with white people and feel fully like I'm on their level at all.
Granted, White people have ruined their reputation to no end these days. Mind you, they'll still hold on to their superiority stuff in the end but goddamn, never thought I'd see the day when white people were shitting all over themselves in the public eye like this...
It pisses me off personally. I kinda like thinking white people are above everybody. To see them tripping out and fucking up their rep like that is just weird to me...
I hope it doesn't mean this world's going to the dogs. If white people want to continue to fight the good fight and make the world awesome and cool, by all means... Don't just accept all the shit we're stuck in these days. Kick ass and save the world.
Anyway I'm just bored today. Rambling on and on about nothing at all. I'm going to either get into the CBP or just get a job at subway making sandwhiches.
If I get into the CBP, GODDAMN. Yanno, as a kid, I always felt like I was a soldier and like my father and would one day be like him and be in the military and working on aircraft or even flying planes. Now I can kiss that dream goodbye and I don't give much of a shit really, that's fine. I just hope that the people in charge of the CBP give me a good spot in there and understand who I am, I'm not just some fucker looking to make waves. I'll do my job and be cool and make shit tons of cash and won't make a mess of it, I swear to God. That's all I want. I'm not interested in getting on anybody's ass in this world. I always as a kid hoped my life would be rather smooth and uneventful. But I was WRONG in every way possible. From the day I was born to this very moment, I've had drama and stress on me constantly. It's just something you can't fix no matter how hard you try. Some people say that's life. Nobody has it easy. It's just going to be a rough ride till the day you grow old and drop fucking dead.
I can see that... Mind you, people generally enjoy fucking each other nonstop... which is wonderful. i love watching a girl take dick in every hole she has till she can't fucking think straight. That's fun.
But yeah mind you, this world is the wild west.
You can be sitting down eating a sandwhich. A car will come flying into you and splatter you all over the pavement.
You can go watch fucking batman with your kids and someone will come in and blow you off the planet.
We're a nation at war at this very moment. There is someone shooting another person in the face with a fucking M-3 rifle right now...
It's not a nice world we live in.
I've never had the opinion that I personally would never see the war zone. In fact, I've been preparing myself for that moment all my life.
Every day I think about how to react to very hard situations. I guess it's just warrior instinct. We all have the ability to get beast mode when the situation calls for it. It's called killer instinct and in fact that's what the military activates in soldiers before deploying them. Can't send a nigga into combat without turning on his killer instinct. just can't...Not trying to sound like an expert on combat. I honestly know dick about it. So don't get all fussy about me trying to explain military stuff. I don't know shit about what they do in there before they go drop 50 sand-niggers. And I don't want to know...
But I am enlisted in their ranks. They're keeping an eye on me. Hell, honestly I think they keep an eye on EVERYBODY who has ever enlisted or anything. Because the whole damn thing is dependent on that everybody is doing whatever they're expected to do by the book. (which I personlly don't like.) There's never going to be a situation EVER where doing things by the book will always work 100%. I know I've met people who swear by the book and say that's all there is. Then there's fucking REALITY. Yunno. When shit hits the fan and the book don't have a solution, you gotta go with the flow. That's how I personally roll...
And I'm not pulling that out of my ass. If a pilot is reading this shit right now. Because I went with my Gut one day, I saved your flight.
It's like with women. I gotta say, the one thing that I've discovered about life that has truly been a deep shock, is the complexity of females and just general idiocy of women.
They will have a fucking lengthy debate with you till you're blue in the face, and it'll be for no good reason and have no purpose, but that's how girls typically are. They want to fucking talk talk and talk and talk till we're just gonna drop dead.
They think in their little head that that makes sense. That a man wants to sit there all day and have a debate on some political issue.
Sorry but I'm just here taking a gander at your massive titties, that's what I'm doing... I WANT TO FUCKING RIP YOUR GODDAMN SHIRT OFF BITCH AND SUCK ON YOUR FUCKING NIPPLES TILL THE MILK SQUIRTS OUT BITCH.
I am part white. Which means that I look like there's a white guy trapped inside of me.
I look very much like that James Garner actor. We're brothers from another mother I suppose. He's a legend. I like watching his movies nowadays as I become an old man. He's like a REAL MAN. And if I gotta get old, I'd like to be like him.
You might think that's no good. A black person looking up to and wanting to be like a white person. But I feel like it's right. I've always felt comfortable around white people and white culture and watching white people on tv I suppose because I'm actually white too... So it never registered in my mind that I was separate from them.
But I am. There's no getting around it. I can NEVER hang out with white people and feel fully like I'm on their level at all.
Granted, White people have ruined their reputation to no end these days. Mind you, they'll still hold on to their superiority stuff in the end but goddamn, never thought I'd see the day when white people were shitting all over themselves in the public eye like this...
It pisses me off personally. I kinda like thinking white people are above everybody. To see them tripping out and fucking up their rep like that is just weird to me...
I hope it doesn't mean this world's going to the dogs. If white people want to continue to fight the good fight and make the world awesome and cool, by all means... Don't just accept all the shit we're stuck in these days. Kick ass and save the world.
Anyway I'm just bored today. Rambling on and on about nothing at all. I'm going to either get into the CBP or just get a job at subway making sandwhiches.
If I get into the CBP, GODDAMN. Yanno, as a kid, I always felt like I was a soldier and like my father and would one day be like him and be in the military and working on aircraft or even flying planes. Now I can kiss that dream goodbye and I don't give much of a shit really, that's fine. I just hope that the people in charge of the CBP give me a good spot in there and understand who I am, I'm not just some fucker looking to make waves. I'll do my job and be cool and make shit tons of cash and won't make a mess of it, I swear to God. That's all I want. I'm not interested in getting on anybody's ass in this world. I always as a kid hoped my life would be rather smooth and uneventful. But I was WRONG in every way possible. From the day I was born to this very moment, I've had drama and stress on me constantly. It's just something you can't fix no matter how hard you try. Some people say that's life. Nobody has it easy. It's just going to be a rough ride till the day you grow old and drop fucking dead.
I can see that... Mind you, people generally enjoy fucking each other nonstop... which is wonderful. i love watching a girl take dick in every hole she has till she can't fucking think straight. That's fun.
But yeah mind you, this world is the wild west.
You can be sitting down eating a sandwhich. A car will come flying into you and splatter you all over the pavement.
You can go watch fucking batman with your kids and someone will come in and blow you off the planet.
We're a nation at war at this very moment. There is someone shooting another person in the face with a fucking M-3 rifle right now...
It's not a nice world we live in.
I've never had the opinion that I personally would never see the war zone. In fact, I've been preparing myself for that moment all my life.
Every day I think about how to react to very hard situations. I guess it's just warrior instinct. We all have the ability to get beast mode when the situation calls for it. It's called killer instinct and in fact that's what the military activates in soldiers before deploying them. Can't send a nigga into combat without turning on his killer instinct. just can't...Not trying to sound like an expert on combat. I honestly know dick about it. So don't get all fussy about me trying to explain military stuff. I don't know shit about what they do in there before they go drop 50 sand-niggers. And I don't want to know...
But I am enlisted in their ranks. They're keeping an eye on me. Hell, honestly I think they keep an eye on EVERYBODY who has ever enlisted or anything. Because the whole damn thing is dependent on that everybody is doing whatever they're expected to do by the book. (which I personlly don't like.) There's never going to be a situation EVER where doing things by the book will always work 100%. I know I've met people who swear by the book and say that's all there is. Then there's fucking REALITY. Yunno. When shit hits the fan and the book don't have a solution, you gotta go with the flow. That's how I personally roll...
And I'm not pulling that out of my ass. If a pilot is reading this shit right now. Because I went with my Gut one day, I saved your flight.
It's like with women. I gotta say, the one thing that I've discovered about life that has truly been a deep shock, is the complexity of females and just general idiocy of women.
They will have a fucking lengthy debate with you till you're blue in the face, and it'll be for no good reason and have no purpose, but that's how girls typically are. They want to fucking talk talk and talk and talk till we're just gonna drop dead.
They think in their little head that that makes sense. That a man wants to sit there all day and have a debate on some political issue.
Sorry but I'm just here taking a gander at your massive titties, that's what I'm doing... I WANT TO FUCKING RIP YOUR GODDAMN SHIRT OFF BITCH AND SUCK ON YOUR FUCKING NIPPLES TILL THE MILK SQUIRTS OUT BITCH.
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