The stuff that defines me.

Goddamn, gotta say with a passion I wish I could rewind the clock and be 11 years old again. Goddamn, being out in the world as an adult in this kill or be killed society is really hard. And it's just a strange life to be suddenly thrust into. And I don't get to feel safe at all or even know where to begin with getting a girlfriend or how to go about that whole thing. You can't tell a guy who's still figuring out sex and girls the ins and outs of pregnancy and kids. That's waaaay off in the distance, for me. Still is. I was never focusing on that stuff when I was checking out tits and ass in 8th grade... So I'm still not thinking about that. Sue me...

But yeah this world is the wild west. Kids don't see it yet, but it's the jungle for real. Very crazy world, full of very big things and just insane big industries doing what they do and me trying to get little jobs and supposedly I've got a bunch of people I've never met before and I don't know, hovering over me and looking at me and judging my actions etc.

But there's nothing to see here. Just a guy trying to figure out how to live and go through life like anybody.

The stuff that I try to hold on to as I get way too mixed up in the world we live in, is the stuff I enjoyed most as a kid.

Star Wars, Ninja Turtles, Batman, Home Alone, Superman, X-men. These things are the true center of my being and give me personally some sense of peace because just hanging out in my living room as a kid watching badass movies like terminator etc, was the best time of my life as a child. Just to be hanging out and watching a really great work of art is just everything to me. Makes me feel good and I love and hope that the film makers these days are going to really make cool fucking movies in the future because the stuff I remember watching was awesome, and it'd be great to get more of the same as we advance into the future.

Life has taken a dark turn for me. Although it's not all bad. I mean, even though I've been cursed with the whole condemnation towards my potential offspring, I still love a pair of titties, I still have no problem enjoying the goddamn abundance of titties and ass on the streets.

Nothing wrong with that and Yeah, I guess the dude's right, a guy like me, handsome, muscular, cool, wrather sizable package, will indeed one day be slamming some girl's booty.

Uh, let's hope so. I don't care if they got a camera on me while I'm fucking some girl. I just want to do it. I just want to actually get the experience, then I can say I'm one of the regular guys in this fucking world.

Virgin for life is not what I ever thought I'd personally end up becoming...

Just not even began to think that was going to be who I was. But that's exactly how it seems. Just never going to happen, forget about it, go work on the time machine or whatever else...

 Go get a degree and shit. Yeah you can take that fucking degree and shove it up your ass.

I'm not buying into the bullshit games this world is playing. I got my intentions and they're set in stone. I don't even care if the end result is not to the best outcome, hell I don't even think that's like actually something to hurt someone with, EVERYBODY'S KIDS don't like them that much. That's one of the most like common things in this world you'll find is the whole angsty kids thing. I've helped raise several kids, and I'm still an uncle to my niece and nephews, so the prospect of being not particularly liked by kids isn't really new to me. I've gone down that road and it is what it is. You break bread and live with them deal with them best you can, that's all...

Hell, I'm no expert on dealing with kids, but I understand the way kids think having been one and I dare say, leave them the fuck alone. Don't be all up in their face all the time and shit. I hated when adults were getting in my face as a kid. I just wanted to play basketball, watch movies, videogames whatever, not have some asshole in my face and bothering me.