money money money

Going to promptly be earning a substantial amount of money soon.

Hopefully well enough to put into affording an apartment.

Certain things I wish to dedicate my time and energy to in the ensuing years perhaps is my interest in programming. I always found it amazing how you can create anything from computer programming and to me, it's hopefully going to pan out. I don't know dick about it, but it's not too hard to grasp. Simply decide what you want to have happen, and create the program to make it happen. Of course this stuff is not for the impatient person, and that's why those guys get paid out the ass, simply because having to learn the complex ins and outs of a computer is above and beyond tough and most people will never be able to grasp it.

We'll see, more or less. All I do know is that I'd love to be one of those guys who's got a good fucking paycheck coming down the pipe. Don't get it, why do I get a job, and suddenly I've got issues keeping the job, or some fucker comes starting trouble at the job or whatever. Not a big problem truth be told. I don't care about having a job. I care about fuckin a bitch. I'm not even thinking about kids or whatever. I'm thinking about the thing that everybody thinks about for a minute, what's a titty taste like, what's a girl's ass feel like.

You can't possibly tell a guy like me, who's NEVER fucked a girl, such and such about when the kids come flying out of her vagina. I don't know a dick about that. I just don't. Yeah I get it, this world is run built and made for the propogation of white people. I get it. You guys don't give a damn about blacks and the wellfare of blacks, except for the very few elite smart white people who are thinking about the benefits that can be had from using very smart blacks in top jobs.

That doesn't change anything. I'm still trying to come to grips with what a girl's booty feels like betwene my dick.

And I don't CAAAAAAAAARE if you want to prophesize about my kids or offspring. Good for YOU. But I'd just like to not DIE off without having experienced a fucking girlfriend ONCE in my goddamn life...

It's I guess a cruel world and there's people out there hoping that blacks just fucking piss off and not go spreading their goddamn blackness to everybody. Maybe I was really not aware of how the world operates as a kid. And just had no inkling whatsoever of the sheer amount of  backlash I would recieve for being a black person. Goddamn was I lied to as a kid or what. I mean there was nothing but blacks living it up in Amercia on tv and in movies. So what the fuck is supposed to be my concept of being black in this world now as an old man. Hell I got white guys saying, no, you're  smart black guy, you got no criminal record, hell not even touched a girl yet, you should just hang out at college for a couple years and get a degree and then make shit tons of cash and live like a goddamn king.

Hell, don't need college my friend. I'm going to be very very wealthy. Um, CBP is a good career, very nice job. Going to be pulling down tons of cash in that motherfucker.

Really. I'm going to have a lot of money as I get into my 30s. And the hope I have is that I just yunno, make the smart choices with my money. And bone some hawaiian girl down there. Me and my bitch and just living like GOD. That'd be nice...