How to get and keep a job.

I'm 20 motherfucking 8 now.

Not the end of the universe but not as awesome I would say as still being a little kid. Never did I have much respect or appreciation for being a young teenager, than when you start to get older and you get wrinklier and fucking everything slows down and you get fatter....

Fucking stupid, the way life goes.

I'm hopefully going to get a good job, respectable job, and simply keep it for long long time. And then fuck one of the bitches I work with or some shit. I don't know what to do to suddenly get to the other side of life where you've skeeted all over a girl's butt cheeks. I just don't...

I'm fucking lost right now. I remember living my life and being just an ordinary guy obsessed with sports, michael jacksons, all the movies that were coming out. And now I"m this nothing person going no where fast.

I don't know what to do anymore honestly. The only thing I think is truly worth doing is getting a good job and lots of money so that I can have some sense of security. This is basically a white man's world, they own it and operate it, and build design and prettymuch are the I think instigators of all the wheels spinning in this world, I realize. So as a black dude, what can you do. I honestly always thought as a kid, I'd work a little piece of shit job and live off of that and not be trying to make millions. And I still think that way.

If I get into the CBP and I'm signing in passengers for their flights, GOOD. I don't want to be nobody special, just a little fucking ant in this big world doing nothing!!!!

We'll fuckin see.... We'll fuckin see if I ever ever ever get to the fucking point where i'm driving my penis hard and deep into a girl's ass too...

That's what I'd like to try out, just a while, yunno. Give it a good hard slam. And then it's done. It's like inserting that thing into Neo's head in the matrix. It's a way of entering a new universe, when you slide a dick into a girl's pussy. you're jacking in to another fucking whole new world basically Imo.