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Goddamn, life is turning around swimmingly for me I must say.

If you're still around 18/19 and things look grim for you, don't give in and just stick with it a little while longer and life will eventually turn around.

I'm about to start making A LOT of money. Which is great. I do indeed intend from way back in high school to live like a goddamn king if I could. I'm 28 now. A lot of black guys my age are in jail. Getting it in the ass. Or Dead. That's prettymuch what the military exist for to kill people like me. 28, and not white. = taking a bullet from big muscular white men.

But I'm not dead yet for whatever reason. I don't know what the fuck they want from me. I don't give a shit about anybody else in this world but myself, I will guarantee you that. And I'm pretty damn sure that's how everybody else around me thinks too. I honestly could care less about you or  your life. Might as well be dead, little negro...

Yunno, white people got this world on lock down. They go through all kinds of measures and systems and they have the whole wait until marriage thing in place to hopefully curb the amount of racial mixing going on and in fact they've been watching me since I was born since I'm one of those black kids who could slip through one day and impregnate a white girl at some fucking point.

I basically could cut my hair and pass for a spanish guy and bone some white girl and ruin that person's hopes of survival in this world.

Makes me wonder what kind of fucking world this is, hell of a thing to be born into, just going along as a black kid going along, no big deal, then one day after all the childhood has passed, you get punched in the face by a bunch of angry white people. I'd have much preferred to have been punched and kicked by white guys as a kid, vs now. Now it's like, a shock, yunno. I didn't see this coming. I've always been watching fucking goddamn golden girls and lots of shows about white people, full house, fucking growing pains. I watched every show white motherfuckers put on tv about their problems, and now as a man, I'm being told, stay out of the white life and white world, don't even think you can get involved. No problem. I don't want to get involved with your stuff. Don't want to fuck white girls. Don't care a shit about spreading my blackness, at all. I could. Ya think I can't swoon a white bitch and make her pussy wet. Shit, that's something I've discovered about being me, a black man. It's like I'm a white woman's fucking kryptonite. The way they look at me some times like they want get fucked by me. It's interesting to say the least. I mean I never really thought I'd have a chance with white girls but they're the ones actually spreading their legs for ME for whatever fucking reason. I mean I know kinda how white girls think, just the sort of like jungle fever thing they have before they wake up and realize, yeah turning black is a BAD IDEA.

Ultimately I have to suggest white parents don't treat your daughter badly because that's EXACTLY why she goes for black dick when she gets older. She wants to piss you off.

Ah well, life is good. Yunno despite the numerous issues still happening in the world, Fucking really bad stuff, things are turing around.

I don't know how others think, but I believe that a way to gauge the current collective mood of society is to see what kind of movies are being made.

All these movies coming out soon are indicitave of how positive and upbeat life is turniing after all the shit tha we've personally experienced as a society. We're going forward and getting more awesome cool movies.

I'm going to see Expendables. Ninja Turtles. So; fucking weak sauce man. Ya can't make a fucking CGI turtles movies try to make a mint off of that and then turn around and say YEAH that was stupid. We should have actually made a good live action ninja turtles movie. I'm hoping that the movie is perfect, and is just right on the money. But lord knows if they're going to hit this out of the park or it's going to be just as shitty as the 2007 movie. I mean it's got to be a great film. It can't be MEH. It can't be decent. It hast to truly capture the spirit of the comics and be fun and of course be intelligent. 

I think a lot about what makes a great film great vs just normal. And I believe it has to be smart film making. And of course artistic. That's what I like in movies. I can't imagine why there's people who are arguing fucking movies should just be technically sound and nothing more and not actually be works of art, but that's weird and those people are nuts. Truth is there's fucking smart people in this world who only see things as numbers and that's why they don't understand the abstract aspects of film making. Probably could never sit through a tim burton movie. His movies typically are very awkward for the sake of being awkward and if you can't understand why an artist like him would make abstract art, don't watch his movies at all.

But I do. I love movies that are actually thought provoking and somewhat unconventional. Not saying I can't enjoy a normal straight forward film, but what kind of world would this be without Superman The Movie. Real art. Real deep meaninful art on display. The day I saw that movie, I believed in GOD for real, yunno? That the power of God was real and true. Because he can make men make movies like that.

That's what I'm talking about. Hell, the bible itself is considered by many to be the biggest most awkward and abstract work of art of all time. I definitely see that being true. As a kid, it was just so fucking weird, the bible. Everything had ten different meanings and it was just no way of making logical sense out of anything in it, but it's the truly the corner stone of art in this world, the bible stories.

I don't know man, hard to hold on to the things I believe in, when so many people want to force their opinion down your throat like it fucking matters.

But I believe it's right to put biblical imagery in films. I grew up on movies that were prettymuch centered around my upbringing, lots of church, lots of jesus, lots of that stuff. And no surprise, the whole world is basically coming from that perspective of believeing in being a hero, struggling and fighting, and one man can stand up and fight and make a difference. Those things I believed in were merely universal concepts inherent to many philosophies around the world.