thoughts on kids and adulthood

Gotta say, life and the way it changes as you get older is very interesting. Yeah I still jack off all day prettymuch, that's what I've been doing since I started high school. So in that sense I still feel like I did back at the age of 15. Back then I jacked off like there was no tomorrow and here at 28 I still jack off.

I wonder to myself is that what being an adult is? An older version of a teenager? Well Shit, I guess that's all adulthood is being a fucking older teenager.

I guess that's why there's like mad 20something girls being pimped as Teens in porn because there's really no fucking difference.

Indeed quite striking is when I go to the store and see a good looking young woman and she could easily pass for a high school girl or some shit, because she's still young and fresh and not one of those girls who's had 3 fucking kids yet.

This world makes no sense. You telling me that I have to ask a girl to pull out her ID and show me her age before I go thinking about digging deep into her booty. Because girls these days look fucking like high school girls well into their late 20s. You betchya...

Indeed it's tough, it really is. Like I was at the ball park earlier today and there of course, damn, now that I think about it they have basketball games EVERY day for the kids over there. Which is great, I don't have a problem with that, but damn, never really thought they'd have so many and every day. But never the less, what that means is that all the girls come out to watch the game etc and play in it, but the thing I realize is that the girls are all teenagers in high school. They're hot, yes. I'd so fuck them, but they're off limits and that sucks for me personally. I guess I really missed out on the fun.

Heh, what can I do? Or should I do? I mean, yeah I'm not going to skirt around it. An Airforce guy told me that when the babies come wriggling out of my girl's vagina, they'll spew fires of hatred at me for the rest of my life.

Never thought as a kid watching Michael Jordan own the Jazz in the NBA finals that I'd be told this little prophecy or that I'd be important enough to be fucking cursed by big time military people. But alas, I was wrong with a vengence.

I don't know, maybe he's right. Let's give it a shot and see... by all means give me some ass to pound and let's put his theory to the test... Let's go!

*crickets chirp*

Yeah, a guy like me is going to get laid. I'm MORE giving thought to the potential for me to fucking die off without ever getting laid than I am to one day being a father.

I don't know how or when or a goddamn thing about girls, and sex, WHY? because this world never taught me about it. And of course white people generally don't give a damn if blacks learn about it anyway...

Anyway, not really knowing if I'll ever go down that road. Don't really like kids. I mean it's hard to know who I am in a kid's eyes honestly. I never liked kids as a kid. They sucked ass to me. Honestly think it's smarter to NOT be hanging around with them as I get older... Why would I want to go back to grade school for the rest of my life? Why?

Sigh, it's hard to know...