the things I miss most about the golden years

I have to say being alive is good but being here in this time is bad, beyond measure.

What are the golden years? Well, the years when I was still in high school and hanging out watching call for help and fucking xplay every day during the summer time.

I'm still here but now I'm a black guy, not a black kid. There's a night and day difference between the two in this world. You're a black guy? Oh well fuck you! You're a black kid? Oh well have a nice day...

I used to watch star wars movies all day prettymuch during my teen years. That's when lucas and shit was making the prequels and so I remember fondly I just fucking watched phantom menace and Attack of the clones again and again and just really got deeply entrenched in those universes for hours and hours. Little did I know I was watching a movie made by an angry racist old white man, but that didn't matter, those years of star wars fun was so awesome, I can't believe it's gone.

And it's truly gone, there's no going back to the days when we were young kids looking forward to star wars. It's like, I'm having to just make sense of getting older and having to accept fucking adult life in some form.

But yeah I mean that's all life is, now that I look back on it. Really life is just you don't have any idea how good your life is until you get older and you wake up and life is totally different.

I mean I got people I never met all up in my face and talkin shit to me for whatever reason I can't figure out...

What kind of world is this where a dude has to live with people starting shit with him? Not even just for yucks, I mean some guys I meet are serious and shit like they really fucking want to shoot me dead or some shit...

I just think to mysef ok good for you, I've got my plans in life, but you want to hang around fucking acting like a badass in front of me for whatever reason. anyway... got things to do pal!!!

End of the earth

thinking about the end of the world as we know it.

Yep something I learned about when I was a kid one day watching some fucking show. Actually it was in an astronomy book. I studied astronomy around the clock as a kid, wanted to be an astronaut.

Well, to my utter shock discovered that very smart people have figured out that the sun has a life span.

It will indeed burn out in about 5 billion years. So we have plenty of fucking time to figure out an escape plan...

Makes me horribly sad though about the outlook for the human species. It's like, REALLY? We can do all kinds of shit with our lives, but it won't amount to shit in the end, this world is doomed.

I mean truth be told if you study philosophy, everything is doomed. I don't think anything lasts forever anyway does it...

Even if we get off this planet and find another one to continue our species, guess what, that sun has a life span too.

I have to concede then that there's really only one answer to this question: accept it. There's no fighting it. just as we all have to accept that one day we'll grow old and die, we have to accept that in 5 billion years this planet will be no more and that's all for us and our species.

Very sad thing to say, sad thing to think about, sad notion to live with, just knowing that our lives are never going to really amount to much in the end.

I mean, not totally true, I'm damn sure the smartest white elite are figuring out how to live for eternity.

Eternity, is it even possible is the question... LOL what a fine and dandy idea to be able to find another earth, hang out there for another billion years before that sun explodes too, then just keep that whole thing going.

Not really. What the guys working on space travel are doing is basically trying to create all that shit you saw in star trek. Gene Roddenberry was WWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY ahead of his time with that show. Indeed, that show is exactly, really think about it, what we humans are hoping to accomplish some day. Just flying through space exploring different solar systems. Not really relying on one single planet.

Can it be done. I've been watching astronomy programs left and right and such and it's like, I yeah there are a lot of smart fucking guys working on how we can create space crafts that are fully self sufficient.

I dare say it will happen one day. All throughout my childhood I've seen lots of movies about space ships in space completely self reliant and not depending on any outside resources.

So most likely we'll build something like that one day and get it going. If indeed we can simply fly through space for decades and decades without needing to refresh supplies, there's no doubt that we'll survive beyond the limitations of this planet.

We'll get it done, have to. I look at life and see it so small, so restricted. Life's about fucking figuring out the next stage for humanity, not simply relishing the here and now.

It's like, when you really think about it, we should have never gone to the moon. We wanted to accomplish it, and figured out how it's done, but look at what it meant in the end, NOTHING. We gained nothing from the millions of dollars spent on that project. Fucking got some badass moon rocks didn't we, but not much else.

So I'm hesitant to suggest we go find a new fucking planet, what's the point of that really? Going to hang out on it and do what? Lord knows. This universe is still too GIGANTIC for us humans to comprehend and perhaps we can't ever comprehend it, perhaps we shouldn't.

Not saying I'm a lazy fuck, but I think to myself live simple. Don't get embroiled in too much heated mess in this fucking world. I'd like peace and quiet, thank you very much.

xmen days of future past more thoughts

just thinking about this movie right now. Really, isn't it awkward as fuck that we now have an xmen live action movie that features goddamn time travel? WTF?

I've been seeing xmen movies since I was 14, and never once thought, Oh one day we'll be seeing some kind of fancy sci fi time travel element to the franchise. Mind you the film is so good you don't dwell on the fact that you just saw time travel and indeed the xmen world is full of hokey powers  what's the big deal with time travel, THE BIGGEST DEAL.

That's above and beyond a mutant power and indeed could lead to the destruction of the universe, how can one little mutant have that kind of power so casually, it's outrageous truth be told.

Really think about it. Yeah we have tons of mutant powers that are physical abilities and manipulation of physics and weather and energy and generally biological physical powers. But never something as monumental as breaking the time barrier, although you can argue teleportation is similar to it, but teleportation doesn't completely twist the laws of physics inside out and backwards and upside down.

Time travel is almost more or less a mystical power, not a mutant power. So I'm thinking in my head now days of future past is where Xmen movies jumped the shark, not xmen 3. Say what you want about x3 but it still stuck with the same universe we saw in x1 and x2. Xmen days of future past is a great movie, but one that completely rapes the realistic tone of the first two xmen movies by introducing wacky time travel powers that really are ridiculous.

Fucking ridiculous, sorry to say. That and the sentinels. Both those things make the xmen movies we knew into far too cartoony a universe. Really you need giant robots to beat mutants. How about fucking terminator style robots that aren't easily identifiable, goddamn...

I mean as a big ass xmen tas fan, I didn't mind. I liked seeing wolverine take on a giant sentinel for once in the movies. Something I've dreamt of since I was a teen going to see x1 at the theaters. And now fuck yeah finally seeing wolverine going toe to toe with a giant ass fucking sentinel. It's awesome and I loved seeing it, but it's like, I grew up watching a fucking serious normal xmen movie that by golly TOOK ITSELF FUCKING SERIOUSLY. The thing I loved most about x1 was that it wasn't a straight up rip of the comic books. It was practically a normal movie but included badass mutant powers and stuff. But fuck that noise these days, if it's stupid and ridiculous and colorful and awkward, throw it on screen!!!

How to return to the old days and thoughts on Mark Hamill

I can't believe it but God willing I'm still here, still alive and Mark Hamill my IDOL is making Star Wars episode 7.

I wonder what he thinks about the movie. Is it that he always felt like he was going to make the last star wars trilogy or he's like thinking, he's lucky that they're making it.

I don't know what kind of movies they're going to be. I followed every scrap of news about the prequels as a kid, saw the movies, enjoyed the HUGE phenomenon that was the re-emergence of star wars in the popular culture. I know EVERYTHING about what happened during that time period. Ask me anything, I can tell you about the super shadow scripts, the debates people had at force.net, jedi.net, all of them. I was there, I was a kid on the internet having a blast talking star wars. Which is why I have to impress upon mods across the web, RELAX, the fucking boards you're guarding are full of fucking 12 year olds all day... Just like I WAS!!!

I'm 28 now. When I was 15, I was at jedi.net, force.net, superherohype. Sadly and pathetically I'm still here on the web today instead of digging DEEP into my girlfriend's ASS HOLE like I should be.

I remember when I jacked off for the first time, it was AMAZING. Now it's NOTHING. What the hell happened?

I don't honestly know. Shit's like feels kinda good then it's gone. Used to be a fucking cannon shot, now it's a little spoot of semen and I'm done. Still enjoy jacking off, who the fuck doesn't, but it's not what it once was which is awkward and don't make no fuckin sense to me...

I wonder if maybe slamming an actual flesh and blood female would make me shoot hard core again and make me feel awesome. There may be some truth to that.

It's like, I don't know a damn thing about fuckin and stuff, sucks for me. But ultimately I doubt anyone out in the wide blue world gives a damn if I ever get to experience sex. Shit.

thinking about the system and what it means

Lord knows who devised it, truly I'm infinitely impressed with the way this world works. What we do basically as a society is figure out if some kid is a super genius, then he's wisked off to val halla to join the elite upper crust and never has to deal with ordinary people for the rest of his life.

It's amazing how the world works.

I just can't make sense of what was or should have been expected of me in particular. Certainly just go knock around in college for 4 butt fucking long years playing harry potter even though you're a grown fucking man, and then get a cushy corporate job somewhere making a shit load of bread.

That's the dream man. When I was in college, sure it was a fucking backwater, barely above devry fucking University, but it was fucking college, it was the thing that men and women in 3rd world countries would give the left nut for or their fucking whole dick, whatever.

I did what people dream of and that's getting into college, at a naive young stupid completely idiotic age of 18, but I did indeed make it to the level of college student and was on my way to earning a degree in computer science that would lead to a very nice pay check one day. 

All I can say is that, I have no interest in going and playing harry potter anymore. I'm damn near 30 years old. Can't even begin to fathom going back to college where I'll be hanging out all day with a bunch of young fresh high school grads who don't know shit about the world yet.

Certainly I myself don't know shit about the world yet either but I'm older now and can't go back to being a fucking punk fresh out of highschool kid that I used to be. Certainly I do indeed want to experience sex and learn about that whole part of life. Even though I've been cursed and shit by Mr happy pants Airforce badass.

That doesn't change the fact that I'm fucking stuck right now in this pit and can't get out. It's like I wake up and I feel like I got to fucking bust a nut or I'm going to die. Yunno. And how exactly am I supposed to live like that. Just always feeling like I gotta fucking jack off. Yunno, that's backwards in every way possible. And I'm just basically pull up some porn video and go to town.

Why the flying shit is it expected for me to go knock around in university all day instead of doing what I want to do and find a girl and pound her ass.

Cuz life as an adult is BAD. You will come across people especially white guys who wish your black ass death. If there's one thing I've sadly discovered about this world it's that, there's no mercy, no sympathy, no interest in the welfare of any fucking black people. You at the fucking bottom in this world.

 It's like, I was at work and I kinda made fun of a white lady making it seem like she was into dildos, and she basically talked to me like I was this fucking ant beneath her boot.

There ya go. That's what it means to be a black person. You are like, just so fucked in terms of how exactly the world is concerned with your potential to get laid. In fact, if the white, asian, and hispanic world had it their way I'm pretty fucking sure they'd prefer black people just fucking disappear.

But they'd never get what they wanted done without an entire race of people to do the shitty stuff they don't want to do, so yeah when you get down to the reality of it, white people NEED blacks, by the bucket fulls, absolutely. Can't have all that luxury and extravagance without negros to wipe your ass.

Anyway I wake up every day and miss my childhood. Certainly I don't miss the bullshit from it, but it was certainly 10 times better than dealing with the dipshits out here in the world who think they're somebody.

Really I don't really think in my head "I have to act like some totally different now that I'm over 18." I basically prettymuch act and behave like I always do, this guy floating along on a cloud in life. But other people, they bought and ate fully all the shit they were taught about what being an adult means. Some people I should say, I've met grown men and women who actually are no different than who they were at the age of maybe 13. It's like wow, kinda cute really. I kinda find it hilarious that like I come across a fucking totally grown dude who's still the same person he was as a teenager, but that's me too. I'm still a porn crazed son of a bitch hanging out watching porn and fiddling with technology all day...

I mean it's not totally true. My teenage self is gone, not ever coming back, but yeah I'm still me to a large degree. Just back then I didn't have to deal with the real world at all. Was just basically only dealing with high school bullshit. But now all bets are off, I'm just as much of a bag of meat as the next guy here in this world.

What can I say about the world, it's a giant high school that's all it is... I never really knew it, but that's all life as an adult entails, being a horny fucker who wants to pound ass. And indeed that's all there is to life, lord knows why we as a society are trying to keep everyone stagnated sexually, what the hell is the point of that, I'd like to know...

But man do I miss being a kid sitting back relaxing playing super mario world. I don't want to go to work and have some douche bag try to be a tough guy and shit on me to make himself feel big. I want to play videogames and watch cartoons just like I always did as a kid. Sue me...

Or truth be told grab a pair of titties and fuck the shit out of my girlfriend till she can't think straight. godddamn that'd be great...

Further thoughts on David Yost

I honestly should shut the fuck up about David Yost. He's a hasbeen. The ultimate hasbeen. He's got NOTHING to do with power rangers. Even rejected an invitation to return to the Power Rangers for the reunion special.

I'm just sitting here trying to make sense of shit. I do indeed wonder what stormfront thinks about him. He's their ideal, blonde, blue eyed, white, intelligent. In fact, I always admired him and looked up to him as a kid.

So sad it's like daaaaaaaaaaaamn to have him be homo.  That's truly a fuck in the ass.

I honestly forgot he existed, but then he comes roaring back into my life and rips every shred of digntity he had from under himself in my eyes.

What the hell? You're going to tell a guy who watched you kick so much ass and be awesome on the original power rangers that you like dick in yo butt?

Life is bad son. I never knew life would be this horrible when I got to adulthood but I was infintely wrong.

I got drama I got old heros becoming homo. I got to make sense of this awful racist world we live in. Where yeah there is a group of white people hanging out in this world who don't give a fuck and will erase your black ass from the world real quick.

 But damn this is horrible. I mean I feel like everything is backwards now. I really remember power rangers embodied toughness, bravado, heroism, basically everything about what it means to be a hero, to be a man.

So it's just ultimately like a true reversal on everything I believed about power rangers and stuff from my childhood to have Yost be gay.

Now is it the end of the world? To the military it is. I mean, right way wrong way military way. He's brave to come out in the public eye but he's coming out of the closet TODAY. If he was a flaming homo back in the 90s, he'd have problems. More or less. But he's a white homo. Ya see, a black guy being homo is the end of the universe. A white guy being homo is WHATEVER...

White people have this card in their pocket in this world, "do whatever you want and get away with it."

I realize that now. I don't have that. If I dare act a fool around a bunch of white kids, I'M DEAD.

No if ands or buts, I'm OUT.

I almost got killed just from acting a fool at a silly message board. Imagine if that was reality. Me a black guy going into a white community for any length of time and acting stupid, they'd just fucking crush me to a pulp and move on with their lives.

 So he's super gay and out and letting us all know how much he loves dick? WHO FUCKIN CARES? OMG keep that shit to yourself.

I mean it's great to I guess make a joke out of it. Oh you thought that blue ranger guy was awesome when your were 10 huh, well guess what, he's gay.

Oh so is someone else I liked from the fox kids line up gay now? Is goddamn the guy from blues clues gay? Is maybe the guy from beakman's world gay? Is Doc brown gay?

Wtf do white supremacist think about these guys? They must be tripping out about it honestly. The sheer silly weird inconsistency with their own people turning fucking gay these days.

I do indeed wonder what goes through their heads? It must be kinda hard to keep grasping onto your feelings of superiority when NO there's a mountain of evidence to the contrary.

Not that it matters. I don't and shouldn't have anything to do with what's going on in the big wide political world. In fact I truly hope to divorce myself from it and go right back to not having any idea of what is going on politically in this world. I shouldn't. I'm a grown man now, I should actually care about politics, but not really. I'm not feeling like I belong there discussing the big sweeping complex political debates going on today. I just don't...

Sadly the reality is that when you're still hoping to lick a girl's nipple for the first time in your life, you can't feel obligated to read the New York Times every day.

Trying to understand High School

Just don't know just don't know. How was I fooled. How did I let the people running this world trick me into staying outside of a girl's body for this long. Now I'm encountering the complexities of the political real world where grown men and women fucking act retarded consistently vs being a teen going to high school and generally enjoying the abundance of titty meat all over that place.

And now I sit here 28 years old and having a bunch of old people trying to control my dick or even worse insinuate that even if I get laid it'll be a bad end. Why the hell did I go through my childhood just to end up here. Lord knows. I kinda wish I could make sense of the utter preposterous quality of it all.

It's kill or be killed out here in the wild. Sad to say. I get it. White people are fucking utterly trying to stay white for as long as possible. Why is that my problem? Yunno? I just want to get a goddamn girlfriend, black, whatever, doesn't bother me. Why do I have to sit and be told by a white guy that I have to wait until marriage so they can make sure I don't go blasting white chicks with my dick sauce.

Hell while going to high school there, a white lady said, here's a list of black colleges to apply to. And of course I thought in my head, well why do I have to go to a black college? Why not a white college? Well because white people are trying to make sure blacks aren't spreading their blackness to the white population in this world.

I wonder wtf am I supposed to do with this idea of being herded like an animal and told to stick with black people only, don't go thinking you can go get any kind of other girlfriends...

And what was the point of high school? Why is there this place to cram a bunch of teenagers into on a daily basis? Why did I blindly forge forward through that whole mess only to be told "LOL life's just about fucking ass! You moron!"

Oh you betchya this world's a fucking free for all anything goes mess where people who have no business being in power get massive amounts of power anyway and through money and rewards convince people to do things. People are a dime a dozen indeed. One of the most brilliant words ever composed... I mean it cost nothing to get businesses running, things built, people will do ANYTHING for a fucking dime in their pocket. ANYTHING. It's sad beyond words how easy the wealthy upper crust can control and manipulate everyone.

I mean I watch porn night and day, sad to say, it's become far too much of a fixation. But yeah, adulthood is not what I thought it was. I saw adults acting like mature well adjusted people as a kid. Now I see adults fucking ass and dripping with oil as their kind of behavior, not that I have a problem with that. I LOVE naked bitches. Bring on a mountain of them if possible. And God bless girls for giving us the best show on earth this day and age. It's just amazing. White girls, spanish girls, asians, blacks, everybody fucking NAKED and shit on the internet 24/7. Shit's crazy.

But I don't get it, I just don't get it. I don't think I'm supposed to get it and indeed I don't fucking care about high school, college, or the work world. I just want to get laid, that's it. That simple little desire, hope, dream, something I figure shouldn't be too much of a hard concept to grasp. A young male wants to get laid, fall in love, all that shit.

This is just out of hand, it really fucking is. It really shouldn't be THAT hard to get some booty meat on your dick. It really shouldn't.

But it is. You got mad people acting RETARDED about the simple fucking equation that is sex. It's so simple, take out your dick, stuff it into a girl's mouth. But people want to make it seem like you have to have a wedding, fucking barmitzpha or some shit before you can perform a simple act as shoving your dick down a girl's throat. I just don't even begin to understand that fucking shit....

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me looking pretty good. Like I said I always was a thin kid, so naturally I've maintained that into my old age now 28. Fucking balls, being 28, what a trip this is.

what to say today

I guess I'm only using this blog for cathartic reasons. Just need a place to let out my swirling mass of conflicting emotions and shit.

Life outside of high school is a lot more stupid than I even would have begun to imagine. The thing that is most fucked up is the the way I'm noticing the KKK's prominence all over the world and media. It's like something I never really thought about much as a kid, not something I ever thought would be a problem or a big deal, but no, it's the biggest deal. Basically, they're still active, still powerful, still vehemently hate all blacks in this world. From the days I was a kid going to school to this very day as a grown man, I've been monitored by the KKK. Why? Dunno, but they've been keeping an eye on me for YEARS.

I guess it's because I'm a mulatto negro. Straight up jet black negro, they don't feel threatened by, but a guy like me, some sort of mixed up cocktail, they have to worry about a bit.

Life as an adult is bonkers beyond measure I must say. Life just doesn't make sense to me really. Why is it that there's this group of KKK dudes holding white people up above everyone when I can check out gay tube any day and see two white guys fucking each other like there's no tomorrow.

What the fuck am I supposed to think about that?

Yanno what, I'm not going to think about that. Life's too short and gay people mean nothing to me at all... really that's all I'm going to say. I'm just going to get older. My sister just turned fucking 30 years old today. I mean I never thought EVER that I'd be alive and my sister would be 30 but here I am and my sister's 30 and I'm fucking 28 and we're getting up there and shit... it's a fucking messs the aging process. It's like you don't know what you got till it's gone. I SOOOO miss being a kid. Teen years were a mess, can't really say I was fond of them, but being a kid was a blast!!! Just life was a joy every moment. Sucks that I have no choice but to leave that behind now and become a fucking old dude in this world...

 Hopefully I'll be pounding my girl's ass and not even giving a damn about anyone else or all the shit going on in the world. That's what I want most personally, just to have some goddamn peaceful fucking time with my girlfriend. Don't talk to me about kids and fucking garbage etc. That I'll think about maybe when I reach 50, but now Virgin boy all I can say is I just want to finally get some ass!!!!!

I did everything this society asked of me and all I get is a hearty FUCK YOU after all is said and done. Ain't that a bitch...

Yeah I did it all. I lived the dream. I watched Michael Jordan dunk all day over fucking Stockton and Malone. I watched fucking home improvement. I watched fucking Dawson's Creek. I look back on my childhood and realize me as a black kid watched a shit load of shows and movies about white people's problems and complexities. Still doing that today. Sadly here today there really is a serious lack of black people on tv and in the movies and generally everywhere. The KKK ressoundingly won in that they fucking made it so that only white people will be all over the media. There's NOTHING on tv anymore about black people. We have the fucking thousandth sitcom on tv about a group of young hotshot white people trying to get laid with other white people. NOTHING about the lives of black people in America or Anywhere. I'd love to see a show about homosexual black people. What the fuck kind of life do those motherfuckers live...

Anyway If you wanted to know what I'm up to, I"m constatly modding GTA IV. It's a complicated bitch, you have to practically know how to write computer code to get the mods to work. Truth be told I'm not on the advanced level where I know how to create scripts and mods, but from what I've been doing lately to get my mods to work, I certainly am getting to understand the complexity of computer code. I can't even imagine to genius motherfuckers who make these games and what kind of fucking shit they studied at MIT or wherever to be able to create this stuff. It's waaaay above my head. I'm just lost trying to make sense of the complex physics involved with car handling data.

LOST I tell ya. But one good thing that came about is that I know how to keep the game running without crashing now. Basically just use game booster and close all the fucking background programs that were taking up system resources. I just got rid of all the background shit and the game is running without a hitch now. Ya live and learn when you do shit like this. I'm really focused on creating a totally different GTA experience than you can ordinarly find. I want to make it into a semi-matrix game. Huge matrix fan as a teen. So it's only appropriate that I'm now working on creating a matrix GTA game. It's pretty darn cool I have to say. It's tough to figure out the proper way to change the ped skins, etc. But Now I know how it's done properly and it all seems to be working great and smoothly. I mean really I got everybody in there. Robocop, Terminator, it's awesome to play the game and suddenly you're being chased down by Robocop and the Terminator. Nothing more cool than that shit.

We'll see how this all turns out. Really I put shit in there that Rockstar should have put in already Jets. I mean I love flying the jet around and generally just flying in the game. It's perfectly suited for flying. The visuals are beautiful. So why did Rockstar limit us to playing the game on foot and in cars and helicopters when it's a huge map and flying would actually benefit you. You'd travel much faster similar to SA. The thing about playing SA I can tell you from experience is that after you drive from one place to another for miles and miles for the thousandth time, you never want to do that again. And I certainly just got so fed up with the long drives in that game. What a beast of a game that was. And yunno they pulled that same shit again with GTA V although they made the map a little more distinctive this time so that you can't get too lost. It's a big world but becomes smaller the more you play the game and just get to know where everything is. Although I still don't know the streets not like GTA 3. To this day I memorized every fucking street in that game because they made that map perfect for game play. It's about creating a fucking videogame, not a real world simulator. That's the failing of these GTAs these day. I'm finding useless interiors and just places that have no purpose in the new GTA games. They wanted to show off how super smart their team of computer engineers are and create a massive huge fucking world, that you'll never have to use in the game. You'll always be basically doing roof top rumble or something stupid, not going to go hang out in some corner of the map whith a bunch of hill billy shit in it, but hey they put it in there. I guess somebody will like it.

thoughts on dungeons and dragons

You know you're getting old when you constantly look back to old movies you used to watch and review them.

Son of a bitch, it's been a long time hasn't it. But yeah as a kid, i watched Dungeons and Dragons on VHS when I got it from blockbuster. I loved that movie, loved the cast, felt the film was fantastic, and it was like my pseudo star wars. I had star wars as my main meal and on the side was Dungeons and Dragons.

But yeah it was an interesting time to be alive. I feel infinitely attatched to this hokey 90s (semi-00s) movie beecause so much about it was the beginning of all the stuff we have today. Really as weird as it sounds the silly little 90s movie was the precursor to A LOT of the big stuff hollywood's been making these days. I remember. I mean Dungeons came out just as the Phantom Menace was gearing up for its big theatrical release. So I kinda view Dungeons as being connected to that film and what that film brought to the world. Also harry potter. Just around the same time Dungeons came along they were making Harry Potter another huge theatrical sword and sorcery film.

And on the side I'd say this was my intro to Marlon Wayans and I followed all the movie he and his brother made after dungeons.

So let's get into it shall we..

What  a big epic amazing film Dungeons is. I loved it, and was over whelmed by its awesomeness as a kid. I watch it today and it still holds up. I dare say it was ahead of its time. Makes me sad that Dragon Ball Evolution wasn't given as much care as Dungeons. I never looked at Dungeons as a huge epic film but compared to Evolution, it definitely is...

I'm amazed that such a film got made and that they got so much right about it. It's just a lot like star wars. Really the thing I like about the film is that it came out just around when star wars was in production again and you can tell everyone involved with the movie was kinda feeling that star wars vibe a little. That's what really made me gravitate to the film as a kid the fact the movie kinda is a semi-star wars movie. It's just the same spirit. We've unfortunately lost that these days... Every movie has to be EMO to no end. But back in my childhood movies were actually DARING to be FUN.

What a concept, a movie made for kids to watch that DOESN'T have blood and guts flying everywhere.... what a NOVEL IDEA!!!

But yeah the movie is definitely a trip back in time for me. It came out 14 years ago. Which is a big long span of time to me, yunno. I should have written a retrospective back in 2006 at least, not today. Then I can legitimately say oh it's only been fucking 6 years, not this giant canyon of 14 shit long years since Dungeons came out. And a lot has changed since I was a kid hanging out watching tons of movie son VHS.   A LOT.

I'm fucking getting older. I'm not young kid and I got so much drama in my life now vs just being a kid watching dungeons. That's why I like to watch the movie, it makes me forget I'm in the future. My brain still kinda remembers my first viewing of the film and kinda puts me back in that time period a bit more.

Of course back then as a kid, I had no sexual interests, so watching the film was just about the action, and the drama. Now I watch the movie and I'm getting a boner for all the girls in it. Quite a distraction I must say...

 And what a nice collection of ass this movie had. I always knew the movie was kinda sexy, but seeing it today yeah, I'm noticing how fucking hot the girls are in it. There's no explicit sexual scenes though. Which is how things were done in my childhood. They had some class back then. Not like today, not in the least. We got fucking goddamn ass and titties being blasted in our faces 24/7 these days, but surprise surprise back as a kid, there was actual attempts made to make movies and shows that were about actual intelligently written stories. What a shocking idea.

Still there's plenty of booty meat to enjoy. I know I'm like feeling hot for that elf girl Norda in the movie. I always liked her, but she had such a small role in the film. Truly you'd have to sit through hours of shit until that gorgeous mulatto bitch showed up.

So yeah this fucking movie. It's a fine film, and it's very well made, certainly higher production values than the sequels they eventually made.

Currently making Back to the Future 4

gotta say, when I began using the internet heavily I was into star wars, back to the future, and of course spiderman. My first intro to the world of comic book movies online.

And so, one thing you'll find online as a kid or a grown man or whatever, is a lot of love for the back to the future movies.

And I found shit loads of fan films about bttf back when I began using the web for just general star wars info. It really was awesome shit, the stuff the group 7-0-five made. I remember the bttf fan film they put together. Generally a lot of them online.

Everybody's moved on from that fanboy youthful craziness now. They're having sex instead of making fucking fan films for star wars and back to the future.

But not me. I'm going to hopefully get this mod for GTA IV working and then I'll script and put tother an official back to the future Part 4 and release it on Fanedits.org. So stay tuned.

Barnes back as Spidey

well daaamn, this is great news. I mean it's not like he's back as spidey for good. But I grew up on his spiderman, so to have him back to voice spidey in this new show is great. I wish they'd finish Spiderman TAS instead of all these fucking cock teases we keep getting, goddamnit.

Thoughts on Family Matters

I'm 28 now. Which is weird. I feel awful. I shouldn't feel like an old man yet, should I? But I feel like everything's going down hill already. Weird. I don't know what to do or not do at this age. I'm in the process for being hired for my new job and I'm praying that I get to keep this job and stay nice and secure in it. I've earned it. I did indeed finish high school. Have no kids. Have no nothing really preventing me from getting and keeping a good stable job at all.

And I'm bored as balls all day. The thing that pisses me off the most I have to say is the way people are like fucking really crazy in this world. After the hustle and bustle of high school and you finally get out into the real world, it's bad, especially if you're black. White people are NOT worried about their survival in this world. But black people are infinitely like just the opposite,  running around in life like chickens with their heads cut off, not knowing which way is up.

The reality of this world that's been presented to me after having lived as a kid here in the rather sweet and blissful 90s period, is utterly shocking. But yeah I walk the streets and it's like 9 times out of 10 you'll see shit loads of old crazy black guys hanging out homeless and lame and smelling of shit. Never noticed that before, but that's life for most blacks in this world. If you can't stand toe to toe with the super elite smart white guys running this world, they'll leave you to rot in your own shit.

I just started noticing something about like all the old movies I watch. I never really cared about whether or not there was any malicious ill will from the kkk in this world, not much of a thought, not something I ever really thought about as a kid. Just enjoyed film, cartoons, tv shows, and of course ass and titties. But I'm noticing quite the trend. So i'm a huge power rangers fan. But it's no doubt now that there is racism in the power rangers and maybe even my personal hero JDF is not as noble as I once thought. Apparently it's some kind of expectation in the KKK to wear all white, something of a cult thing. And I'm noticing a lot of white guys in movies wearing all white clothes. Luke skywalker. Is Mark hamill in the KKK? That would really kill me if that were true, but I have to say the fact that in the original star wars, he's wearing all white, as is Carrie Fisher, kinda makes it seem like yeah he's one of them. In fact the whole star wars films basically are about anything "dark" being evil. Kinda sends the message point blank in the end...

Lotr. Is peter jackson and co. in the KKK? I'd hope not, but apparently even him. Half the Lotr movies are about white guys running away from and killing tons of big ugly black guys. That's prettymuch the whole purpose of those films is to send this message of white supremacy over the evil dark peoples. And like Gandalf becomes more powerful when he becomes Gandalf the white.

So I've been constantly watching family matters these past few months to kind of hopefully remind myself of better days. Little did I know but the KKK was making family matters. Really watch the show, it's FULL of subtle racism. Wow, but it's a fantastic show, best show on the TGIF Line Up, how is it racist. Well half the time there's constant references to fried chicken in the show. That's the reason why the cast members were dissatisfied with the show, not because of just "being bored with it." They knew that the people running the show were in the KKK.

But I loved family matters, it really is my favorite show, sadly I realize now how racist the shit is.  I mean, what was the point of creating a show about classy middle class black people? Why make a show about prettymuch my life style, if they were actually not giving a damn about blacks in any capacity whatsoever and indeed the show is being run by the kkk.

I just get a sense of the KKK's pressence a lot more now as I get older. It's interesting. you'll see if you look out for it, lots of white guys in movies wearing all white. And there's the indicator of who you're seeing, you're seeing a KKK member.

Is it even matter to be in the KKK anymore? I mean with all these gay white people in the media, do white people still believe they're better than everyone?

I don't know. White pride baby! White Power! White power to get fucked in the ass!!!

thoughts on new Battlefront

So there it is. If you know anything about me beyond the massive amount of bullshit I've gotten into after dropping out of college... I'm a HUGE star wars nut. Love the series more than anything in the world. I've been into it since the age of 12. I believe in star wars, and I think it can unite us all under one banner, the idea of creating a society where people are like more or less viewed on the level  of their capabilities more than any racial concerns. Although I damn well never will ever think that the world at large will ever embrace black people. Not gonna happen, although when you really think about it, why not? Why can't black people be considered normal regular people on the same level as everybody else? What's honestly wrong with black people? A LOT is wrong with black people. They're not organized, not civilized, not aesthetically pleasing, and generally not as smart as the other races over the course of their life spans, sadly. So when I look at the world and see the way black people are tossed under the bus in this world, I don't even bat an eye, I know why the world works that way. It's not going to change...

 So anyway, looking into the potential for this new battlefront they're making. I have the highest hopes for it. I loved battlefront 2 when I got it back in high school. that game was just better then the prequel films. If the effort put into making that game was spent on the prequels, those movies would be lasting classics. I mean really play the single player missions in battlefront 2, it's a genius work of art, the war journals thing that they did for the whole clone trooper parts, brilliant.

So here we are today 2014. New star wars movies on the horizion. I'm here, waiting anxiously for them. I don't know what the fuck kind of movies they're making but I personally hope they're putting everything into those movies because star wars is my life. I love it, it's my crack. I don't care about anything else in this world except star wars, and if they really love star wars, they'll put a fine polish on these new movies like no other movie ever made. I mean you see like how they made lotr, yunno. Those movies were made with just passion and love and geniuses at work crafting masterpieces. The movies aren't perfect but they were trying to be. Yunno, you ever see how some films aren't that great but parts of them come so close you wish every part of the movie was as good as those scenes. Well that's Lotr. I can't believe I lived long enough to witness those film as a teen. And I saw Lotr 1 when it came out, yunno. I was THERE MAN. I was fucking there when the FIRST Lotr movie came out. Sadly, I didn't keep my ticket stub for that shit. DUUUUMMB I just witnessed a classic film in theaters that will go down in history for ALL TIME, and I didn't keep the stub. I'm not going to play around when these new star wars come out. I'm going to keep all my ticket stubs for them bitches. Frame um and everything... Not going to play...

So what the FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK are they going to do with this new battle front game. They have like a blank check to make this game and they KNOW that it's going to net MILLIONS in dollars for them, so SPARE NO EXPENSE make the best star wars battlefront game EVER.

well I hope the guys making the game read my blog because I played ALL the battlefronts back as a kid. so I know where they can improve things. First of all make the HERO an ELITE player. I mean the thing about the hero in battlefront 1 was that when you heard the words "luke skywalker is on the battle field." You shit your pants. I mean that was the signal, that shit was going to be rough in the game for YOU. Heros in the original batllefront were FUCKING INVISIBLE. you had to strategize to beat those sons of bitches. I put down mines, I did what I could and those guys were TOUGH TO BEAT, but that's what made the game fun. Battlefront 2 comes along and they rightfully made the hero playable this time, but they seriously downgraded his power. I hated playing as a hero and then five minutes into it I'm dead. WTF. I mean it took 5 mines, I remember the number, it took 5 fucking mines to kill a hero in bf 1. Now it takes 1 mine. I hope in the new one they kinda balance it out. When you're playing as a hero you put the fear of GOD into everyone on the map, not like how it is in bf2 where you don't feel that scared, you only feel scared if the guy playing as the hero is a badass and knows how to use him. Otherwise, it's like whatever, not a tough guy to beat. Like I shouldn't even think for a minute that I have a chance in hell against luke skywalker in battlefront 2, but at times playing it, I'm like, yeah all I got to do is shoot him a lot and put a mine down and he's dead.

In the new battlefront what they need to do is make it so that he has an immense amount of health so that it takes forever to kill him. Then we're talkin.

Ugh what else. Make it kinda like battle field imo. When playing battlefield 3, I feel like I'm REALLY in a combat situation, serious yunno. I'm really in the shit and going down with a bunch of troops into a military operation and trying to defeat some fucker. If they can achieve that level of realism with fucking star wars game, that would be cool.

One aspect I think would be cool to put in would actual real light saber combat mechanics. After playing battlefront 2 forever, people decided to create dueling clubs for light saber duels. And that's great but the game doesn't have a dueling system. When you fight you basically hold the block button until you get a chance to defend yourself. If it actually had some kind of dueling fighting system that'd make it so much more awesome. Imagine, your in the middle of a battle and your a jedi and there's a sith there and you two go at it and duel amidst the gun fire and smoke and bombs, would be badass.

So of course I know they're going to simply make an ordinary big impressive star wars shooter game, but this is star wars, you have to put in light saber fighting capabilities or it just won't work.

I'd love to see some better space ship battle capabilities in this one. what do I mean by better? Well I played the space portion of the game and it just doesn't feel like star wars. It feels like star trek. It has to have that star wars feel. Very old school fx kinda thing if they can put that in, cockpit views which is a staple of the films. ynno. Make fucking feel like you're in a star wars film and not the new star trek movies perhaps.

How about we fly the millenium falcon into battle at some point. Let's have an entire space battle for something more meaningful than the shit they had in bf2. Capture flags, fucking meaningless crap. I mean have it be like the movies, you have to shoot the death star port. You have to blow something up and it'll open a hole for the troops to get in and then you have access to defeat the thing, and have actual heros in the space battles too. Have like darth vader in a space ship and he's got the elite class space ship and you fear having to deal with him. Oh and much much much better dog fighting cpaabilties would be awesome. I mean like they give you the chance to do flips and shit for a little while to dodge missles, but that typically doesn't really work and you get blown to shit anyway. I  say make it so that you fucking like do lots of complex maneuvers all day instead of having some kind of stamina bar for it. It's a machine, it doesn't need to recharge to do flips. An actual jet fighter can do evasive maneuvers all day, how does an advanced super star fighter have limits on that, I don't even begin to know...

Make it SEXY. I want to see some ASS AND TITTIES all over the battlefront game. When I think star wars, I think about how sexual the movies are. They're very very sexual movies. If there's one thing I've learned as a black guy about white people it's that they WORSHIP sex. Every movie by white people is about sex, ALL OF THEM. You will not come across ONE film thoughout history that doesn't feature sexuality in some degree.

 Let us play as slave fucking leia. Yunno. I want to see my girl Carrie Fisher looking HOT as shit, none of that fucking bullshit princess garb she always sports. Bikini baby. Looking GOOD. As a kid, I loved carrie fisher. I still love her, it's just that not really looking at her anymore sexually, but I had the princess leia poster on my wall, I looked longingly at her body. I memorized every curve. I yunno dreamed of one day rubbing her ass. And of course like every star wars nerd, I replayed the slave leia scenes again and again so that I could hopefully catch a glimpse of that ass of hers that she had. I mean goddamn what a female. Love tough white girls. She's the toughest there is. Fucking Natalie portman sadly is a little shit stain compared to Carrie Fisher. I was dissapointed as hell with her perfomance as fucking padme. She was just stiff as a board throughout that whole fucking film and just sucked. Everybody sucked in those films. No body loved what they were doing or put any kind of serious passion into their perforamnce. They just slept rhough the movies and that killed everyting in the end. Really, you can't do that. I don't care if you think youre above star wars, people are paying money to see this shit you have to give it your all or go home. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU if you think you can get away with giving a shitty performance in a star wars movie. FUCK YOU!!

Ugh black people part 2

I always knew white people hated black people, but now as a grown man, shit, I get exactly why they hate us nowadays.

So I go to the ball park to throw down some hoops, nothing special. I go there all the time. But today is a different day. I got nigga feeva on me today... Ya ever met the "ghetto wild child" You ever see uh, riley from the boondocks.

If you sit and study black personalities, you will probably read a profile on the wild child black kid.

This kid is a black kid who thinks he's fucking THE SHIT. I mean, he'll go up to the blondest bluest eyed white guy and attempt by any means necessary to shit on him.

So I'm hoping to have a fucking peaceful day at the ball park, but NO. I have to fend off against some retarded ass black kid. And he's REEEEEEEEEEALLY fucking black. Not even a drop of white or asian blood in him. Yet he's jumping around in front of me acting like he's the whitest kid in the world!

Insulting me, trying to aggravate me, etc. I know where he's going in life... I don't even need to defend myself against him, he's going to be getting anal in jail when he hits his 20s.

It's one thing to be born in this world as a fucking black as dirt negro. It's another to be that fucking black and be an asshole on top of it. I mean, you just can't run around being an asshole when you look like a walking talking piece of shit. You just can't...

That's all I have to say about that. White people don't know what they have. Certainly they're annoyed by black people, but to be able to stand up and say "you mean nothing to me." is something I can never do to other black people. I'm still fucking black too... And that sucks. I wish I could like basically laugh at that idiot kid and say to myself, I'm above him, he's garbage. But unfortunately I'm in his fucking like similar world to some extent.

Good luck in life to him. Lord knows how someone that fucking black is going to make it in this world. But good luck...

Even me a light skinned black guy, walks on egg shells around white people or asian or whatever. I just know that if I end up annoying them, they'll put on their fucking KKK hoods and lynch my ass.

Is it worth it to have children

I kinda have some smidge of  resentment towards the condemnation as it were, of my whole potential offspring.

I think to myself, well, is it even worth it to have kids. certainly that's the idea. You HAVE TO, there's no fucking other thing to do in life. Despite all these knuckleheads running around telling everyone how to live their lives, we really fucking are not here as human beings to do anything more than procreate. And of course identify super intellectual kids and put them to work on massive big shit nasa etc. That's the hope anyway, lord knows if the system truly works or not. I hope it does. I hope that they're identifying really super smart people and putting them on shit like the next genearation of massive complex computer tech or something. I know I've been well aware all my life that there are indeed really genius people in this world and they're the ones coming up with all the shit that we have these days and are still working on the next level of technology. Makes me sad that tech tv was ultimately changed to G4 because it was a true pioneer of the new world we're embarking on these days. This new frontier yunno. To take that whole thing and side line it and focus on videogames solely just defeats the purpose. I wish they'd yunno, make a new tech tv and just bring all the cast and crew back to make more of that shit. Because it's like, I miss it so much. Seeing all the guys hanging out. I took it for granted I have to say, the fact that there were a group of nerds hanging out talking technology and I was just a teen enjoying the rather blissful world of tech which was presented. No black people on tech tv though. besides laura swhisher to fill the black quota. I realize now that all that stuff that nerdy shit is primarily being done by bunch of smart ass white people, not many blacks in the tech field.

It's just that's the joke of this world. It's like, yeah we had urkel back in my childhood but the reality is that like there's a majority white presence in the big elite corporate tech world.  In fact they run the ship. Now that i"m older I see it clearly as fuck, I'm basically surrounded by very very smart white people running this world. Not a happy thought.

So I've been told that one day My black ass will get laid with some fucking girl. And My black kids will hate me and say I'm a bad father and shit...

I don't know... I kinda think to myself  that's fine as long as i have my mouth full of titties, that's fine. Go hate me or whatever. I just want to get a piece fucking ass for once!!

I'm not asking for goddamn pot of gold here, or a mansion, or some shit. I'm just a normal dude trying to get sum pussay...

Is that remarkable? Ultimately I think to myself, having kids ain't a good idea anyway. Really when you think about it, what's the point? This trucking planet fucked.  Yunno... this fucking thing rock floating in space, we have the smartest people in the world figuring out how we can get the fuck off it before it explodes!!!

That's what's going on. We're not hoping to stick around on earth forever. Not at all... We're thinking about yeah we want to have kids, we want to fuck, we want to fuck girls in their ass, mouth, pussy,, make them happy. But having kids isn't actually going to pan out very far. Ultimately we are actally struggling with how to leave earth and find a new home.

And that sucks. I like this planet. I really do. I look around earth every day and say to myself this world is beautiful. It's glorious fucking planet. It's the best planet in this fucking universe. IMO. Maybe you like jupiter, maybe you like venus. But earth can't be beat. It's something else. It's something else. First of all it's just a good looking planet, the color blue is grand. Then of course it's abit green, little bit of white to help make it nice. It's a cool planet, man...  And hell, we're searching for another earth, but all the planets we've found that are kinda like earth are just maybe too blue, or a little too red. Nothing like Earth, man. It's perfect.

So back to the question. I've had several jobs in the last few years. And what can I say about my experience as a young black male trying to survive in a white man's fucking world. I get the sense that the guys at work who have kids, hate my guts because I'm not as burdened as them. They have to fucking listen to and worry about their kids. I'm just a young punk guy with no responsibility at all and I obviously am overqualified for most of the jobs I get. So immediately they start shitting on me when I'm at work because they know I don't need to work there. I'm a free spirit. I can fucking do anything, just get my degree or whatever and I can make maybe pull down 100,000 dollar a year salary if I get some kind of education or something....

That's something you'll discover about the work world. Is that the people who are stuck in that job for the rest of their lives, will HATE you. They CAN'T leave. You can. They cannot... That's their life, they will die in the street without that job. But you, young, sky is the limit. So it's goign to be rough when you get a job for the first time, you'll be working with people who have nothing else in the universe but that fucking job.

Life is a one way street, something most people don't realize until it is too late. Yunno. Maybe you fucked around as a young kid and didn't care and didn't exercise your mind in any way and then you wake up and you're fucking in your 50s and taking on the real world, and failing miserably at it...

Wise words

Just chillin right now. Goddamn, are things looking up. I'm not white, but I think I might get a taste of what kind of life whites live in this world. Working for the new job I got lined up, I think will be like, a good long lasting career. Hopefully. I'm on my way, god willing.

One thing I was thinking about while walking around and just thinking about life and stuff, the biggest mistake i've made these last couple of years has been basically abandoning these jobs I get.

I'm never going to do that again. Why? Because I think yeah it's tough to hold onto your grits and take it and just deal with a bad job, but at some point down the line, it'll get better, it'll possibly be like you become supervisor and don't have to do the hard work anymore etc.

Um, that's my mistake. I let the pressure of the job get to me and I fucking bolted, but I'd be flying all over the world right now today if I stuck to my guns and just held on tenaciously to the fucking delta job. Or even tsa. All that money I could have had, instead I've just said fuck that noise. Some people i n this world would give anything to have a fucking 15.75 an hour job like I had. Money enough to afford a decent life style. No where near the kind of life that white people live in this world, but certainly a lot better and adequate compared to my upbringing, as a middle class black family. I desereve to get a good enough pay check for having scratched and clawed my way through high school.

Even more to the point I'm giving thought to going after my associates degree although I don't have much faith in the college system if it can't even help a guy get some ass.

That's sadly my biggest issue with college. I'd love to go study and learn and expand my brain. Don't have a problem with that, I'm a nerdy urkel black guy, but damn, is it so ridiculous that you just don't stand a chance of getting educated in the world of sexuality.

Weird.... 

remembering the good ol days

I'm 28 now. Sucks. Cuz like, I don't know what it's supposed to mean to be 28, although I don't really feel like Age is any kind of like factor in one's life or beliefs. You are whoever you are at your age and that's all that there is. Whether you're smart, or stupid, or good or bad. I think age is nothing. In fact one thing I'm discovering about the "adult" world is that there is NO adult world. This whole fucking world is run by kids. Of various degrees of experience and knowledge, but sad to say that grown men and women are typically not far off from the same ding dongs you knew back as a kid. In fact, I personally am not too far off from who I was as a kid, just constantly horny, that's all...

So similar to my post on the Super Mario Bros movie, I'm going to get into some of the things I loved from my own childhood. I like to sit and remember my days as a kid because constantly being hunted and shitted on by people I don't know is just fucking me up personally. I never thought I'd be wished death by anyone but here I stand and I've got some fucking assassins hunting me down whether they're kkk or some shit, but that's what I've been made aware of. I certainly never thought while jacking off to tons of porn that I'd one day be targeted for execution, but here we go. Gotta live with this monkey on my back.

Anyway, well I was a 90s kid. I see the kids today and they just suck. Imo. My childhood whoops these fucker's ass so hard, I wish I could take them back to my childhood and let them see family matters every friday, the little halloween episodes of simpsons, the fucking great shit on saturday mornings that has been completely abolished nowadays in today's dismal future world.

I didn't know what I had. Hell, I don't think ANY of us 90s kids knew what kind of awesome world we were living in and being a part of. I certainly had NO CLUE under the blue sky that one day all the shit that I was enjoying as a kid would be fucking lost art. But I was wrong. We are in a shitty time where everything is porn and overly done videogames, and just a general lack of relgious passion for things. It's become very sterile, cold world. Nothing means anything anymore. Everyones just about lost and faithless and godless and filled with hatred.

I don't like that stuff. maybe some do, but I grew up believing in Jesus and stuff so I can't live forever without believing in some shit.

Well some of the things I had as a kid was the game gear. Nobody playing this shit anymore. It's a fucking artifact these days. But back in my day, man the idea of playing games in the dark man.... badass1!!

Me an my friend we played sonic the hedgehog at his house. I remember. He had a birthday party, we went to the movies, and we went to kid aerobics and then it was me and him and he showed me his game gear and sonic the hedge hog. From that point forward i was just obsessed with getting a gameboy or a game gear. Didn't have the money for a game gear, but I eventually got a game boy. And I loved that fucking piece of shit.

No kid today could tolerate playing the game boy, I'm sure. But for me, I could sit all day playing game boy. I loved tetris, mario land, megaman. Those games were awesome.

And if you had a game boy light and magnifier oh yeah, playing games in the dark man...

Now. I got the psp. I play all the old super nintendo classics on it, and generally anything I want or enjoyed as a kid, I put it on there and play. Cuz, man I don't feel like I have to move on from the games I liked as a kid. I just don't... I still enjoy flying through a level of crash bandicoot racing, a highly underrated game imo. Nobody really respects that game at all, but I loved it as a kid and I still play it today and it's still one of the best goddamn kart racers ever made imo. Although I've yet to get into the new shit, mario karts they have now. I certainly want to though, get those new racers. I'm a racing game nut gotta say. I love speed, I love going fast, and faster like sonic the hedgehog. Me and sonic are related it appears. I gotta say. We're very attatched over the years. Not only have I been watching sonic on tv since SATAM and the shitty fucked up sonic on crack version came along, but I've been playing the game too. whether it's the game gear shit or the dreamcast game which I had to try out and it was amazing to me. The dream cast Sonic was like the first time I've ever seen a videogame really transfer a 2d platformer to 3d successfully outside of mario. What mario did was awesome, what sonic did was even better. I loved playing the sonic for dream cast.

A note on the dream cast. I was there. Back when Adam Sessler had hair. And in those days we were actually all considering the possibility of the dream cast to actually kick ass and do well as a system.

I don't remember the specifics of it, but I believe I got the dream cast for christmas and was just overjoyed to have the system. I got shenmue for it, I lived it up as a teen. I played tons of dream cast games before the system became obsolete.

And in fact if you actually go back and watch the initially x-play episodes maybe even when it was called game stop tv. You will see shit loads dream cast reviews for that shit. They thought the system would do gangbusters, they really did. But they were wrong.

I was wrong. Why did the dream cast fail? That's a good question. Why under the fucking sun did such a wonderful, high graphics, intense, and fun system like the dream cast fucking buckle like it did.

I honestly don't know, I can only guess it's because it didn't have an ethernet connection on the back. It basically still used dial up meanwhile the ps2 really I think got way ahead of the competition by allowing network play so that people could play online. Meanwhile the dream cast was living in the past and basically still offering people single player games. But the future of gaming was going to become multiplayer absolutely.

We're getting there. I mean I'm still an old school gamer. I can still sit and play a single player game and not feel like I'm missing anything. I've always played games alone, just hanging out getting through an intense level of mario, so playing games alone without hearing some 10 year old yacking through his mic is actually what I'd rather do.

Really they kill the experience for me. i'm so used to just logging into a game system and playing all by myself, having to sit there and hear some goddamn kid running his mouth off is just hell on earth. I'll take old school games thanks...

So I was a 90s kid, life back then RULED. Oh my god. say whatever you want, but the day I got my super nintendo was HEAVEN. I will always remember the day I got super nintendo. And the first game I played for it was animaniacs. Back then they prettymuch made games based on ANYTHING that was out in the media. Animaniacs, tiny toons, anything disney, they made a game of it you bet your ass.

So what can I say. There was no internet, so us 90s kids had to just find ways to entertain ourselves and one way was through videogames. You play these games and they become your life to some extent, despite having school work to do, getting through fucking crash bandicoot was more important ultimately...

I had the game boy. Then they realized at some point that the gameboy sucked ass. It's a fine system but it's huge and it's kinda hard to live with, the sad truth being that it's clunky can't even be played in the dark. Gotta blow on the cartridge to get it to work... fucking shitty.

So I eventually upgraded every so often. Around the time when pokemon became this massive stupid phenomenon that it became, they of course had to release a better type of game boy to coinicide with the ever growing popularity of pokemon. So that meant we got the gameboy pocket, which I still have a serious fondness for. Little did I know we'd get fucking game boy DS and 3D all this fucking shit these days, but back then, gameboy pocket was to me a treasure. I loved the new sleaker more efficient game boy. It was so cute, and small, and played all the same games, sadly they didn't put a light in it which is weird. By the time the pocket came out, they bin had palm pilots for business men that had lcds with backlights, so why was the gameboy still in the fucking stone age? Who knows... luckily they wised up and today no system come out without having built in lights because yunno you not gonna fucking buy a light peripheral or some shit. No way...

Love the gameboy pocket. I remember really saving up my lunch money time and again and again and then going and buying it and was just over the moon to have a gameboy pocket. Now I don't need it. I got the psp, got tablets, got tons of new tech that completely out does the gameboy series of tech.

I don't know if kids today are really into the game boys as much I'm I'm into computers and these tablets, which can basically do anything the game boy can do and much more.

But they're young pups, they don't know anything about what kind of tech we have in this new age now. They're stupid.

 Stupid kids these days!! ARRRGGHHH!!! don't know nuthin!!!

butt yeah, man, gotta say I miss the good ol Game Gear, I really do. I wish I could gut one and remake it into a fucking portable N64 emulator, that'd be cool. Too bad the thing doesn't have buttons for the controller. but it's tough to play super mario 64 on a tablet, no controller at all. Needs a goddamn dpad or some shit at the bottom.

Who the hell can play that game on a touch screen and tolerate that? You gotta be a desperate motherfucker to play like that, that's for sure...

That's all folks, just a little bit of fucking nostalgia today, as I continue to wait for my new job to come along... yup.