Trying to understand High School

Just don't know just don't know. How was I fooled. How did I let the people running this world trick me into staying outside of a girl's body for this long. Now I'm encountering the complexities of the political real world where grown men and women fucking act retarded consistently vs being a teen going to high school and generally enjoying the abundance of titty meat all over that place.

And now I sit here 28 years old and having a bunch of old people trying to control my dick or even worse insinuate that even if I get laid it'll be a bad end. Why the hell did I go through my childhood just to end up here. Lord knows. I kinda wish I could make sense of the utter preposterous quality of it all.

It's kill or be killed out here in the wild. Sad to say. I get it. White people are fucking utterly trying to stay white for as long as possible. Why is that my problem? Yunno? I just want to get a goddamn girlfriend, black, whatever, doesn't bother me. Why do I have to sit and be told by a white guy that I have to wait until marriage so they can make sure I don't go blasting white chicks with my dick sauce.

Hell while going to high school there, a white lady said, here's a list of black colleges to apply to. And of course I thought in my head, well why do I have to go to a black college? Why not a white college? Well because white people are trying to make sure blacks aren't spreading their blackness to the white population in this world.

I wonder wtf am I supposed to do with this idea of being herded like an animal and told to stick with black people only, don't go thinking you can go get any kind of other girlfriends...

And what was the point of high school? Why is there this place to cram a bunch of teenagers into on a daily basis? Why did I blindly forge forward through that whole mess only to be told "LOL life's just about fucking ass! You moron!"

Oh you betchya this world's a fucking free for all anything goes mess where people who have no business being in power get massive amounts of power anyway and through money and rewards convince people to do things. People are a dime a dozen indeed. One of the most brilliant words ever composed... I mean it cost nothing to get businesses running, things built, people will do ANYTHING for a fucking dime in their pocket. ANYTHING. It's sad beyond words how easy the wealthy upper crust can control and manipulate everyone.

I mean I watch porn night and day, sad to say, it's become far too much of a fixation. But yeah, adulthood is not what I thought it was. I saw adults acting like mature well adjusted people as a kid. Now I see adults fucking ass and dripping with oil as their kind of behavior, not that I have a problem with that. I LOVE naked bitches. Bring on a mountain of them if possible. And God bless girls for giving us the best show on earth this day and age. It's just amazing. White girls, spanish girls, asians, blacks, everybody fucking NAKED and shit on the internet 24/7. Shit's crazy.

But I don't get it, I just don't get it. I don't think I'm supposed to get it and indeed I don't fucking care about high school, college, or the work world. I just want to get laid, that's it. That simple little desire, hope, dream, something I figure shouldn't be too much of a hard concept to grasp. A young male wants to get laid, fall in love, all that shit.

This is just out of hand, it really fucking is. It really shouldn't be THAT hard to get some booty meat on your dick. It really shouldn't.

But it is. You got mad people acting RETARDED about the simple fucking equation that is sex. It's so simple, take out your dick, stuff it into a girl's mouth. But people want to make it seem like you have to have a wedding, fucking barmitzpha or some shit before you can perform a simple act as shoving your dick down a girl's throat. I just don't even begin to understand that fucking shit....