Lord knows who devised it, truly I'm infinitely impressed with the way this world works. What we do basically as a society is figure out if some kid is a super genius, then he's wisked off to val halla to join the elite upper crust and never has to deal with ordinary people for the rest of his life.
It's amazing how the world works.
I just can't make sense of what was or should have been expected of me in particular. Certainly just go knock around in college for 4 butt fucking long years playing harry potter even though you're a grown fucking man, and then get a cushy corporate job somewhere making a shit load of bread.
That's the dream man. When I was in college, sure it was a fucking backwater, barely above devry fucking University, but it was fucking college, it was the thing that men and women in 3rd world countries would give the left nut for or their fucking whole dick, whatever.
I did what people dream of and that's getting into college, at a naive young stupid completely idiotic age of 18, but I did indeed make it to the level of college student and was on my way to earning a degree in computer science that would lead to a very nice pay check one day.
All I can say is that, I have no interest in going and playing harry potter anymore. I'm damn near 30 years old. Can't even begin to fathom going back to college where I'll be hanging out all day with a bunch of young fresh high school grads who don't know shit about the world yet.
Certainly I myself don't know shit about the world yet either but I'm older now and can't go back to being a fucking punk fresh out of highschool kid that I used to be. Certainly I do indeed want to experience sex and learn about that whole part of life. Even though I've been cursed and shit by Mr happy pants Airforce badass.
That doesn't change the fact that I'm fucking stuck right now in this pit and can't get out. It's like I wake up and I feel like I got to fucking bust a nut or I'm going to die. Yunno. And how exactly am I supposed to live like that. Just always feeling like I gotta fucking jack off. Yunno, that's backwards in every way possible. And I'm just basically pull up some porn video and go to town.
Why the flying shit is it expected for me to go knock around in university all day instead of doing what I want to do and find a girl and pound her ass.
Cuz life as an adult is BAD. You will come across people especially white guys who wish your black ass death. If there's one thing I've sadly discovered about this world it's that, there's no mercy, no sympathy, no interest in the welfare of any fucking black people. You at the fucking bottom in this world.
It's like, I was at work and I kinda made fun of a white lady making it seem like she was into dildos, and she basically talked to me like I was this fucking ant beneath her boot.
There ya go. That's what it means to be a black person. You are like, just so fucked in terms of how exactly the world is concerned with your potential to get laid. In fact, if the white, asian, and hispanic world had it their way I'm pretty fucking sure they'd prefer black people just fucking disappear.
But they'd never get what they wanted done without an entire race of people to do the shitty stuff they don't want to do, so yeah when you get down to the reality of it, white people NEED blacks, by the bucket fulls, absolutely. Can't have all that luxury and extravagance without negros to wipe your ass.
Anyway I wake up every day and miss my childhood. Certainly I don't miss the bullshit from it, but it was certainly 10 times better than dealing with the dipshits out here in the world who think they're somebody.
Really I don't really think in my head "I have to act like some totally different now that I'm over 18." I basically prettymuch act and behave like I always do, this guy floating along on a cloud in life. But other people, they bought and ate fully all the shit they were taught about what being an adult means. Some people I should say, I've met grown men and women who actually are no different than who they were at the age of maybe 13. It's like wow, kinda cute really. I kinda find it hilarious that like I come across a fucking totally grown dude who's still the same person he was as a teenager, but that's me too. I'm still a porn crazed son of a bitch hanging out watching porn and fiddling with technology all day...
I mean it's not totally true. My teenage self is gone, not ever coming back, but yeah I'm still me to a large degree. Just back then I didn't have to deal with the real world at all. Was just basically only dealing with high school bullshit. But now all bets are off, I'm just as much of a bag of meat as the next guy here in this world.
What can I say about the world, it's a giant high school that's all it is... I never really knew it, but that's all life as an adult entails, being a horny fucker who wants to pound ass. And indeed that's all there is to life, lord knows why we as a society are trying to keep everyone stagnated sexually, what the hell is the point of that, I'd like to know...
But man do I miss being a kid sitting back relaxing playing super mario world. I don't want to go to work and have some douche bag try to be a tough guy and shit on me to make himself feel big. I want to play videogames and watch cartoons just like I always did as a kid. Sue me...
Or truth be told grab a pair of titties and fuck the shit out of my girlfriend till she can't think straight. godddamn that'd be great...
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