Wise words

Just chillin right now. Goddamn, are things looking up. I'm not white, but I think I might get a taste of what kind of life whites live in this world. Working for the new job I got lined up, I think will be like, a good long lasting career. Hopefully. I'm on my way, god willing.

One thing I was thinking about while walking around and just thinking about life and stuff, the biggest mistake i've made these last couple of years has been basically abandoning these jobs I get.

I'm never going to do that again. Why? Because I think yeah it's tough to hold onto your grits and take it and just deal with a bad job, but at some point down the line, it'll get better, it'll possibly be like you become supervisor and don't have to do the hard work anymore etc.

Um, that's my mistake. I let the pressure of the job get to me and I fucking bolted, but I'd be flying all over the world right now today if I stuck to my guns and just held on tenaciously to the fucking delta job. Or even tsa. All that money I could have had, instead I've just said fuck that noise. Some people i n this world would give anything to have a fucking 15.75 an hour job like I had. Money enough to afford a decent life style. No where near the kind of life that white people live in this world, but certainly a lot better and adequate compared to my upbringing, as a middle class black family. I desereve to get a good enough pay check for having scratched and clawed my way through high school.

Even more to the point I'm giving thought to going after my associates degree although I don't have much faith in the college system if it can't even help a guy get some ass.

That's sadly my biggest issue with college. I'd love to go study and learn and expand my brain. Don't have a problem with that, I'm a nerdy urkel black guy, but damn, is it so ridiculous that you just don't stand a chance of getting educated in the world of sexuality.

Weird....