let the games begin

wow, now it's time to get down and dirty...

Interesting times, people not just using the web anonymously like in the past, putting their real ass on the web to be potentially stalked and publicly shamed. I posted all day back in the dial up days, nobody knew me. Well if you wanted to know who I was, I was just some typical internet kid. Watching star wars movies all day, harry potter occasionally and browsing the web for anything and everything ghostbusters related. That was it.

To see the parkland school shooting kids online posting takes me back. I mean I don't feel dramatically different than I was back in high school, but to actually be among high school teens again and experiencing their life, does take me back to that. Which was a unique if awkward experience for me I'd prefer not to revisit. I enjoy making money and just living my life free. Much better...

Plus there's gorgeous women everywhere to potentially get with, why the flying crap would I want to go back to being a weedy little high schooler again struggling with my libido?

Just some advice to them. Don't make the internet your life like I did. I will be perfectly open and honest about it. The internet broke me when I was a kid. I never conceived of being traumatized by it, but it happened. I had a nervous breakdown. I could think of nothing else but that day for years and it took a long time for it to heal, I can only guess because of my youth and just lack of understanding of the adult world... I was broken for a very long time. Luckily I had star wars, had movies to help me get through it... but yeah, I will be honest. It tore me up back then what happened and my spirit was broken for a long time.

But they're strong people, gonna be stronger when they get older, I'm sure.

It's about to go down now... and I'm trepidatious about it... Going to begin editing all the middle stuff of the film. 6 sequences still need to be completed. I'm eager to begin. I feel good about how it's going to work and feel when done, so awesome and I don't know why I'm so anxious. This is not the hard core editing I've been doing for months now, it's just the much easier middle section that should be nothing... don't know why I'm jittery about it.

Only one thing to do now and just do it...