Starring into the abyss...

Needless to say I've become distracted from my project as I'm addicted to news about the latest school shooting.

One wonders what these guys are doing in jail on a daily basis. Do they get video game systems like in some jails. Are they given books, tv to watch, good food? Lord knows they can't have internet but in some jails you get limited net time...

I've kinda become obsessed with the prison system from watching Lockdown a lot during my Fletc training for TSA.

Through my research on jail, yeah it's hell, depending on the ones you go to and if you're convicted of certain crimes.

Sad to say but I've mostly been educating myself on jail just in case I end up in the wrong place at the wrong time and get sent to one for being the black dude in the area.

Mandatory black education, what to do if you ever get sent to prison for being the black guy around.

Apparently the asshole's going to avoid the death penalty... so after all his badassery and filling innocent people with bullets, he's too scared to die? Shitting me? I wouldn't be surprised if he's going to get sniped out by some of the people he pissed off. Hopefully the cops make a mistake and sit him next to a window and then oops aw poor guy. this is sad. I mean, what he did was so bad.... he deserves to be killed. I can't even imagine being able to live your life normally ever again after going through that shit, and knowing the person who did it is still in this world, still able to enjoy his life somewhat....

This whole thing is such utter bullshit...

It's depressing and I don't feel like working on my project knowing such a world as this is the way it is and nothing's being done to make it better. We gotta give kids a good childhood, it's priority number 1. This at least should not be up for debate. Whatever it takes, give them a good childhood.

Well I don't know what to say or do about this... I don't know if I can muster the strength to work on my movie feeling so bad about living life and so like depressed and seeing people hurting... it's hard to feel motivated... I know right, having empathy, wanting people to be cool...

I don't know. I'm starring into the unknown. Looking at my project. Looking at this wacky president making light of the deaths of kids, and I'm not feeling good about any of it.

Stay tuned. I'll be holding on, putting faith in the future. What little there be left. And once we can see the sun rise again and look beyond the darkness, we'll be there at last, at the end of all these troubles.