Plan and such

I'm exhausted obviously. Devastated by my bike being stolen. Still kinda jet lagged by the prison experience.

So, yeah, kinda at a weird spot at the moment... I don't f'n care bro. I don't care about things except maybe living life like normal f'n people do right now... just having fun, smacking booty, getting a good little f'n thing going.... steal from me, do whatever you want to me to prove you're somebody, just I want to get mine in this life and that's it....

It's hardly a lot to ask...

I've hopefully been given an opportunity to make some quick dirty money running deliveries in manhattan.

So I'll be doing that soon.. run postmates, caviar, whatever, make a few bucks and if it's enough, hopefully be able to afford the playbil ghostbusters firehouse that's selling cheap at the toys r us.

I'd love to get the scooby doo stuff and ghostbusters stuff plus that darth vader vintage figure they're selling....

yeah, that's my little dream right now. One full hard core day of post mates might be enough to afford that stuff.

F'n jobs are taking their time, which they always do. People often tell a guy like me, go get a job... WHaT? since when is it, walk out your door and OOps, derp, got a job! It's never like that. It can take several f'n months of waiting it out for the jobs to get around to hiring.

It's ball crushingly tough to just get a job. That's what's so good about the app gig stuff. It's actually a better way to play. Mind you, if you go over 600 bucks in income, you owe taxes, but otherwise, run maybe 3 different app gigs and max out at 600 each and you're all set. Just enjoy having 1800 tax free bucks.

Don't know, just bored. Got to go somewhere at 4 today, and not much to do, just sit here haunted by my thoughts.

I feel sick too as if something from my night in lock up gave me a disease. That's the worst thing about prison. Nobody cares if you catch a disease in there. The only food that's smart to eat is the cereal and milk. Who the flying f knows what the kitchen staff people decided to toss into the sandwiches... That's the first thing I'd change about lock up. Give a normal meal, hot pocket, something quick and normal, not this piece of bread and cheese. I mean, jesus have some decency... might as well be dog food. I guess they don't want homeless people intentionally commiting crimes so they can get a decent meal. I can see their logic there... Even so if they claim to be suicidal they'll be given a warm cozy bed in hospital and some excellent hospital food, top quality stuff, so indeed a lot of homeless people do exploit that hole in the system.

Worked at the hospital like I said, one of the things homeless people would do in winter was claim to have fallen and gotten injured so that they can exploit the mandatory night evaluation thing where they'd have to be given a bed and meal.

Wow, man, sad way to end up in life, just pathetic to get that old and all you have left is trying to get a free meal from a hospital by being a jack ass like that.... sad....


that's all I'm gonna say, time to hopefully turn my own life around, work a job, try to do things like a normal person...