Life plan part 2

God bless America. I feel so excited about the unlimited possibilities that have been opened to me now with my enlistment, I'm so, aaaaaagh, I can't really perfectly articulate my joy, but you get it. yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 *Chest bump*

I just need to get over this sex addiction thing, build muscle, get through basic and then I'm done. Finally where I want to be all my life. I never NEVER thought it would happen. My father tells me that I have to pass it on, what opportunities I've been given, I have to give them to someone else. seems reasonable. I've always thought that way. This is a cruel unforgiving world, so of course a little goodness shared makes things just that much less crazy. I know if you treat people nice, many will give it back, but some don't... some people are just purely miserable and if that's the way they want to go down in life, ok.

I'm starting to feel it, all this power... ready to burst free and conquer any task. I am not a man. I am a machine, I told myself that in high school. It was that bad. I had to shut down my emotions to get through the day. Still, it toughened me up so I can't say it was all bad. Now I have to get back my balls to do this great last effort before finally achieving ultimate victory.

I wills train, go through 2 months and 3 days of basic training that will build me into a machine of a man.

I will then go to technical school, learn everything there is to know about electronics, computers, whatever.

I will be stationed at a base somewhere in japan I hope. I will learn the language as I've always planned. I will go to school on off duty time. In 2 years I will have earned an associates degree in my field whatever the hell it is. I'd like to go as far as a bachelors while enlisted but eh, I don't know if I'm strong enough for that. the thing about college is that it's not simply about making more money, not at a good college anyway. It's about training leadership for the next generation and yeah you think a guy like me could ever lead anyone? hardy har har.

I don't know... f'n 23. I never saw what my life would be like after 18, nope. There is a God. No doubt in my mind now... how's a dork like me get this far in life honestly?