Staying at Home

I'm reading online about "boys adrift" the new concern of pop psychologists so they can sell more books, but it's a true issue, one that I actually am embodying right now. The script I was supposed to follow, I didn't. Go to college, finish, be in thousands of dollars of debt, come home afterwards and find a job, then dedicate my life to the job and pay off my debt while living nice and comfy on my fat corporate paycheck. Then get married, and pop out babies...

Ah but they don't tell you this part.

Then you get divorced as your wife takes half your money, then whatever x amount of your monthly earnings. You live forever then as a bank account for your woman. It's how my father lives and he's got it worse than me having a mental disorder.

So I'm there at college thinking about what the fuck I'm doing, and I know it's just not for me. I'm not in the major I want, I was told to do it. I was told to be here. I was told that I'd die if I didn't do what they wanted. so I left. I made a few mistakes after leaving though, I got addicted to this internet message board. Funny thing though soon after I left, around a year later, I said, Ok it's been long enough, time to go find a job at retail or something and just bust my ass there making enough to pay off my loans and just survive on my own. then my stupid sister comes in and tells me it's ok if I just live at home forever, to just relax and don't worry. her real aim was to get me to go see a psychologist, also a woman, who'd tell me how to be a man somehow although she'll never know.

I was struggling with masturbation, shaving, overcoming net addiction, and having to worry about that loan, all too much. I mentally broke down from all the stress and so they tried unsuccefuly to kill me as a way of satisfying their hatred for me. still I persisted. I wasn't afraid of getting a job so I could live off the job. I knew I'd end up doing a job some day. I knew I'd be able to get into the military if I wanted to since the military needs guys like me. So what was the rush? No one was holding a gun to anyone's head, saying that it's bad for someone to gather their bearings before tackling life's challenges first. You'd be stupid not to plan before going out and handling business.

Staying at home instead of losing my mind with worry at college was the best decision i ever made. Yes it had its bad side and I'm still fucked up a bit from it, but I learned more about myself by doing it than i would have sitting in a classroom, being told what to think about the world by some old fart who doesn't know anything about today's youth nor cares beyond how much he's getting paid or what tenure he can gain.

What did I learn?

How to shave. It's essential for young men to learn this properly. so many don't, and no one helps them. Thank God I had the internet, that's all I can say.

Women are whores. Not ALL. But yep, if you've got a job, that's the first thing they'll like about you. As a naive highschool kid I thought that girls were just men with boobs, treat them like it, lol not so. They're a strange animal.

Money is everything. Everything. Food, shelter, transportation. A degree doesn't even necessarily equal more money. my brother for instance, in and out of rikers, but he learned electronics while inside. Makes good money. Jobs don't care if you're a criminal. Can you DO the job? And look at him now. Makes more than me and he never finished high school. lol what a world. If you can learn a second language, or computer coding, or stock market stuff on your own, do it. You'll get the job over someone who's got a major in psyche or some bullshit.

Do you. Two beautiful words. Don't ever try to please everybody.... it'll only amount to complete failure. trust me.

I'm now an Airman in the United States Airforce.