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Something's changed about me. I'm getting older and with age comes a realization that death is around the corner, so you slow your roll, take time to enjoy the day more, plan carefully, don't sweat the small stuff though you have to at times before things go crazy... Still the way the world is right now for me isn't so bad. But as I watch my porn to just see how my mind reacts to it, I'm transfixed on the woman's vagina... I want to taste it... I look at her stomach and I want to put a baby in there... I want to be immortal...

Damn, but I must resist it. That's what all people do, they get all horny, fuck, then have a baby and ruin any chance of being a free man again.

I can do ANYTHING I want in life now. No school. Just get a stupid job somewhere that's easy and then do whatever I want besides it, no kids. I can travel the world. Become a pilot or whatever... I'm only 23. I can plan the next 7 years before 30 when a male reaches his prime.

It would be wise to plan it all out. Imagine the possibilities. People want me to go to college so I don't go thinking for myself or anything and cause trouble, plus it's a white man's world in that the last thing they want is a black guy bucking the system and succeeding without college, but my gut tells me it's possible. I just have to take chances and be willing to stumble before my rise to the top of whatever field I decide to devote myself to. It's been a long wait but now maybe, perhaps I can finally be free to pursue my own interests and not those of the fat old people around me.