Getting a new job

Here we goooooooooooooooo. I'm looking forward to getting going at my new job. I'm just like tired of unemployment. If I had it my way I'd have been working a job since I was maybe 15 instead of struggling to get a job at 28 like a retard.

I mean I honestly never thought I'd live this long, but I'm glad I hung around a bit longer. Look at the way things have gone, they're making star wars again. I mean DAMN. I never thought they'd make more star war EVER. I mean, WHY is the question. Why are they making new star wars movies, profit most likely and I guess it's a now or never situation. Sadly, Hamill, Ford, and Fisher are now entering the last years of their lives and no better way to honor them than by making one last star wars trilogy. I don't even care about whether the movies are GOOD, who cares. Just the JOY of star wars and the original cast still participating in it, is monumental enough in the end.

So, I'm going to be there, for those movies and ultimately be smart enough this time to keep the ticket stubs. I saw all the prequel movies and never kept one stub from those films. Stupid. Saw all the major 2000 movies and never kept any of the stubs, yunno. I recall one day I found the stub for my viewing of Xmen one and never thought to actually put it away and keep it safe. I just stupidly threw em out after seeing the movie pretty much...

Going to be earning a substantial amount of money now, surely enough to finally move out on my own and just work and live and pay bills like everybody else. I hope to make the transistion to an independent person, rather uneventfully, but I'm not one to hope for that, most likely blood will be shed in my attempts to become an independent regular guy in life.

what can I say, been living at home all my life, never got to the point where I was free to go about living on my own and being a regular person out in the world. And it's a scary thought. There are people who are super geniuses and shit out there in the world, and I got what, my High School diploma, still a virgin, basically I don't got shit to bring to the table compared to the people who knocked around in college for 4 years doing whatever you do in there to gain some kind of super brain that people will fear.

It's like, it's tough straight up tough to make sense of how to BECOME a man, and not be boy anymore. It's just, there's nobody really concerned with black people's problems. It's like, really black guy has problems, GOOD, that's what we want. Don't give a shit if black people have money, security, and are highly educated. 

I mean really I see the world now as a older person vs just a teen going to the comic shop to get some comics and videogames and OH SHIT. This world is like, fucking ANTI-BLACK. It's like, it's hard for blacks in this society especially if you don't get that college shit done. You'll have a tough time making it anywhere beyond mediocre level jobs. And it's like, wow, no doubt like when I'm out in the world I see mad black guys working shitty jobs, but they don't give a shit, it's money. They're that desperate. And truth about this world is that, that's how it works. It's like white people will without a doubt in their minds be sitting back enjoying a high class life and blacks will no doubt be working shitty jobs and feeling desperate enough for that and hoping for nothing more in the end.

What a joke it is to be black, just a plain old joke. I don't recommend losing your whiteness if you got that shit. Just don't lose it, hold on to it. Sure scientifically we're SUPPOSED to mix races in order to build a better human animal, but the logic of it just doesn't stand up. You'll definitely make your life MUCH more complicated turning black....

Goddamn, I mean I'm part white, always have been, but I never appreciated white people until now as I stand in my 20s. Never really realized how good those motherfuckers have it over everybody else.

They're just like an entire race of fucking classy motherfuckers.

Really, they don't live life feeling down and depressed in any way. They literally brighten the day when they are around.

Shit, what a world we live in, white people hanging out making the world awesome, brown people hanging out making the world shitty.

That's the damn truth. Sad to say...