Thinking about White people

Got to say I've been really dumb about my social interactions in my life so far. I've barely gotten out into life and been amongst white people in any real long capacity. So I've kinda have no clue under the blue sky what white people's lives are all about. But from what I've glanced from my few jobs in the last few years, being white is GREAT.

I met this gorgeous italian/cuban girl. She's insane, but she lives her life feeling like there's no limits to her life, she can do anything, be anything, and she's crazy even to the point of thinking about giving a black dude a piece of her ass. Although I realize now that the only reason she thought about giving me a chance with her was because I was acting like a tough ass man and that got her pussy all kinds of wet.

That's all it takes, I mean seriously. Girls are like not hard to get even if they have their fucking IVY League degree, all it takes is being a tough guy, then she's yours, simple shit.

Yunno, that's all it is. All it takes, just displaying this tough attitude and huffing and puffing and acting all badass and no matter how femnazi a bitch is, she'll go back to being a fucking female in no time flat. It's not under a bitch's control in the end is it...

But yeah just saying I never knew or cared about white people's options and freedoms that they enjoy over me by the bucket fulls, but yeah I always say to myself, you can't fuck with white people. You just can't.

They not only own the planet, but on top of that, they got this ability that I'll never know about. It's like this. So I go hang out in anywhere in this section of the bronx, in no time a bunch of douche bag black guys will come out of the bushes and start a little scuffle with me. It never fails. It takes no time at all.

A white guy clean cut, looking like he's got a bank account filled with money, goes and hangs out anywhere in this community, no black person will go up to him and start shit at all. He'll just walk around feeling like nobody can fuck with him.

That's how it works. And that's just a luxury that I wish I knew about.

More to the point, it's like, I can imagine how nice white people get treated by other white people in this life. Yunno, it never fails. You'll never be a situation where a white guy is getting his ass handed to him in court. Unless he's really out of this world crazy and raped a fucking kid or some shit, but no, it's always going to be blacks going to court and getting their ass whooped by the judge. That's another point, white people do not get the full hit by the court system or any system. Now that I think about it. There's no racial profiling for white people. There's nothing.... You got to be a real idiot crazy white guy to fuck up the privilege that you enjoy in this world, that's all I got to say....

Like I never thought that I'd have to dodge the KKK as a kid. I was living uttterly relaxed laid back life style as much as I could make it that way. I mean school was the war zone, home was the sancutary where I got away from school and just relaxed and watched power rangers and stuff.

But now. It's like, yup all that shit you thought would happen, that's exactly what's going on. They're watching me, they're watching all blacks on this planet and keeping tabs on what they're doing all day prettymuch. 

I think to myself, what the hell can I do now to make sense of this life surrounded by the KKK people. I didn't see this coming. I did the whole high school bit as expected and now WHAT? Honestly this is the hardest part about my life I have to tell you. To wake up one day and realize that you're just here alive, but you don't mean shit in this world. Not really... If I was a whtie guy, yeah I could legitiimately feel included in life and a part  of the whole society and the large expectations of our political movements but no. I have to say as I stand here a 28 years old black dude, I've got NOTHING to do with anything going on in this world at all.

No girl wants to turn black. I have nothing to do with whatever political arguments old white men are having today. I've got nothing to do with fucking anything going on military wise or any big time stuff. I've got nothing to do with anything.

Maybe that's a good thing. Maybe being a black dude and not having to bear the weight of the world on your shoulders like white people have to, is actually a good thing. I never thought or wanted to be in a position of serious power and responsibilty  and here I stand, and indeed I have no serious power and I don't want it.

I'd much prefer to just be doing ramp ops at delta and nobody talking shit to me just being a good worker and not getting all kinds of shit going on.

Why do I have to have so much bullshit on my plate in life? Yunno? What fuck? So what, I'm a guy trying to get a girlfriend, preferrably one with massive titties. Is that something to fucking make a big deal over?

I laugh my ass off at the reality that I've been made aware of. It's like the primary reason I've been getting so much drama in my life is because I'm black. That's all it is.

If I was white, nobody would dare attempt to bully and belittle me at my age now. I could go get a nice clean suit and tie, walk around the streets and blacks and everybody else would leave me the fuck alone...

 But no, being black immediately opens a can of fucking worms in your life whether you're a kid or a grown man, there will be drama. Such a sad life t live I have to say, it really is...