thinking about how race matters.

Strange business but I grew up watching fucking family maters in case anyone was wondering where I come from. I am a 90s kid, grew up on EVERYTHING 90s.

All this stuff about how I'm a bad guy and looking to go out and fucking cause trouble. Listen, I sat with my bowl of fruit loops every saturday morning and watched alvin and the chipmunks and muppet babies during the old days of fox kids. You bet your ass i remember those days. I SOOOOO wanted a Dick Tracy talking watch from the cereal box back then, but fuck never got it. LOVED Real Ghostbusters, never ever ever missed an episode. I mean. I never knew that uncle joey from full house was the voice of Peter venkman. never knew it, but yeah he was the guy voicing peter and then I went and watched him on full house so ultimately it all connected didn't it. Great guy David Coulier, great guy. HUGE part of my childhood.

But I got to say, white people must live an interesting life. Very interesting. I mean I got to say I"m encountering the stuff they often think about dealing with, a black man getting all up in their face and trying to start shit.

I go to work and I'm obviously black, although I'm a spanish looking black person, right. So none of the black guys at work fear fucking with me. They'll get away with it, and I can't laugh it off and go back to fucking my blonde wife in the ass like a white guy can.

I got to say it's a horrible dead end reality to deal with. I mean that's black people, got the BALLS OF A TANK to go up to another black person and wag their dick in their face, but I ask my self if I was white would this dude be acting like a badass right now? Or would he bend over and spread his ass for whitey like a little bitch boy.

Mind you, there are tough ass ballsy black guys who don't give a shit and will start a fight with a white guy. they'll lose like there's no tomorrow, but they'll still try in the end.

I wouldn't. Not out of fear, but out of intelligence. I'm not stupid enough to think I can win in a fight with white people.

Ya serious? Your black ass dares start shit with powerful whit folk, forget it, you're gone.

You don't mean shit to them and their expectations. It's like really you're cattle, fucking wild stock in the yard.

So I don't get why black people want to put on a show of toughness in front of each other when they'll act like little pussies in front of white people. You know what? I actually DO get it. Black people are retarded. That's the reason.

Not gonna sugar coat it. I've lived in black la la land all my life. I know how fucking retarded black people are... I mean back in grade school a black kid laughed and riducled me for having nappy hair. He's black too though so his hair is also nappy. But he points a finger at me and says HA HA HA your hair is nappy.

Wow. Ya got me...