Gotta say I HATE the internet...

I mean really hate it... I should never have logged into this thing back in high school, should have stuck to getting a girlfriend like I originally planned. Now I got way too much bullshit on my plate than I ever expected but that's the world we live in. Some very big time people out there hanging out and if they don't like YOU they'll find you wherever the fuck you are and get rid of you. I wish I was honestly still ignorant to that reality but that's how this bitch works and either you accept that fact or go home honestly. I'm not going to try to ignore the truth about this world as I sit here at my age now. I may want to, but no, I've known it all my life, THIS WORLD IS THE JUNGLE. Going to survive, get ready for WAR. Simple fucking truth.

But damn is it kinda more of a wild west world we live in than I expected. Certainly what's most annoying thing to me is how sexuality is a huge point of contention between EVERYONE. It's like DUH, everybody knows black people want to get an upgrade and fuck white girls, asians, and hispanics. EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT SHIT.

which makes my life a big fuck in the ass. I basically exist as this prime example of what white parents DON'T want happening to their offspring. They hate me for that AND they hate me for just being black in general.

Wow, ya go along in life and then, get smacked in the face by reality don't you...

What can I do about it? Nothing.... I have to admit, there's nothing I can do to change anything about the situation. I didn't think that being an adult meant being a horny bastard 24/7, I didn't KNOW THAT. I just didn't. Don't blame me for having no goddamn clue that your sex drive basically never fucking stops bothering you or that yunno, I could potentially fucking ruin a white person's opportunities for success if I boned a white girl at any point. I didn't think that my life would basically consist of wanting to pounce on ass all day. I HAD NO IDEA pal...

But that's all my life is. I wake up, wanna put my dick in a bitch, and that's all my life is. Every single day...

 I wonder what kind of life I'm supposed to be living, or was expected to live. Who's hovering over me and watching my life and wondering where it's going to go. I can tell you where it's going to go. I'm going to hopefully be one day pounding the hell out of a girl's ass and not giving a damn about anyone else. Striking to me though is the way that black people are really fucking beneath EVERYBODY. Yeah we have tons of FUCK IT interracial porn online, but the reality that we all know exist and is set in fucking stone is that this world is owned by whites. Period. There's not amount of fucking black guys digging for gold in a white girl's ass that's going to change that shit, everybody knows that. And if I go running around acting stupid around a bunch of white kids, my black ass is going to disappear from this planet yesterday...

So yeah, there's no fucking advanatage to being black in the tiniest of equations. Unless you're a super genius. Then you'll be granted something, but ordinary kinda black guy, FORGET IT...

Which is me. I mean the thing that bothers me and I honestly don't LET IT bother me to a large degree where I'm losing my mind over it, but yeah, the simple fact that we live in a world now where somebody you pissed off over in germany can be sitting aroudn at their laptop 10 years later and still pissed off at you and looking to kick your ass is ridiculous.

I know. I get it. We live in the internet age where yes indeed EVERYBODY from all walks of life can get connected with each other. I'm well aware of that reality but hell no, should the guy working on the space shuttle even have a clue what I'm saying today.

That's my point I'm trying to drill into the internet's head. Maybe just MAYBE ignorance is bliss in this fucking matter. MAYBE it's a better to not know what's going on in someone's basement in alabama...

I'm more than sure some big time rich powerful white guys have no interest in even hearing a word that comes out of my mouth.

So why the blue hell is the internet so weak in regards to letting shit go. If I never brushed off an insult or anything from school days, imagine the havok, but I did. Kids shitted on me, I woke up the next day didn't remember what they said and moved on. Now everybody prettymuch has no sense of forward progresssion, we've lost that. Because we've opened the door to hearing every fucking thing that comes out of each other's mouths, we think that we have to sit and politicize it, which is bullshit. Here's an little idea, mind your own beezwax. Don't go running around losing your mind over what everybody says today. How about that?

You are not SUPERMAN. You're not going to change the world.

Why the hell are some people thinkgin the whole fucking world is going to fall apart if they don't have a debate with you over everything....

Where do those motherfuckers come from? I didn't grow up thinking there's people hanging out who got nothign else in teh world but to argue... me I'm not here to argue. I'm here to grab a pair of titties. That's what I'm here for...

Some sexy as FUCK white women in this world

and you want to fucking argue over star wars or superman. SAD SAD

SAD...

That's all I got to say about that...