Was thinking about going down into the bowels of manhattan to do some caviar and postmates back to back and make the big bucks. Today's a hot day for both, they're offering more money since I guess people are throwing parties today and don't want to get off the butts and go shop for food. Want it delivered. Sadly bunch of cyclists down in manhattan have been mowed down by a truck. They're dead. I have to comment on this tragic event since I have been witnessing cyclists merely days ago hogging lanes of traffic. Did these particular ones ask for what happened to them, maybe maybe not. But I was driving a lot around manhattan and had to deal with cyclists taking over lanes and just being jerks to cars and showing no respect, riding slow forcing me to have to slow down... I thought about it, it won't be me, but one of these days you're gonna piss the wrong guy off and regret it... They're calling it an accident, but no, you got to really be on drugs to hit a bunch of bikers unintentionally... I'm leaning more towards them cutting the trucker off and pissing him off and he said, Ok, I'll give show you who's boss around here.
My message to bikers in manhattan, use the sidewalk. It's right there... why are you in the road? Not to make light of this tragedy, but it's like probably a big empty sidewalk they could have used right next to them... But they refuse to just jump over and stay out of traffic half the time... I hope this changes something about their behavior.
Edit: Naw just an asshole being an asshole. Judging by new yorker's attitudes you'd easily draw that conclusion.
Watch what's going to happen now. Clump will try to divert attention to this attack so he can look like a saint despite impeachment looking very possible now. Will it work? People are dumb enough to make it work so perhaps. Like I've been saying, not at all easy to turn people against a clean cut white guy, even if it's Dump.
Second, watch this attack make New Yorkers put on the patriotism costume we all wore after 9/11. Then turned right around and went back to treating each other like rotten shit. I mean I don't. I'm nice to everybody. But, no, Manhattan's full of assholes of all kinds, watch you bleed in the street and walk away kinda assholes... Let's see how long this NY Love fest lasts this time.
Tuesday, October 31, 2017
Island in the sun
Old as hell movie from the 50s. If you're interested in film making, I have some advice for you. watch old movies. Ignore today's stuff. I mean, i grew up on a strange mix of old as crap cartoons movies, and of course all the new amazing 90s junk being made and the re-emergence of star wars, now currently living through a SECOND re-emergence of star wars. Which hopefully does well. I don't know. I don't know what's going to be the end result of this whole thing.
But I have an appreciation for classic cinema. They worked MUCH harder back then. It's that simple. Big Sleep. Bogart movies. Swiss family Robinson, loved that shit as a kid. Classic freakin westerns, all the clint eastwood stuff.
Best classic film to me is of course Mary Poppins. It's just everything film making should be. It's just pure joy to watch. And you don't look at Mary as even HUMAN if that makes sense. She's a fairy from another dimension in human flesh.
I liked films like that that bridged over into potential mystical realms of thought. Peter Pan, Star Wars. I guess it's cuz I'm black. When you're black, you have a lot of faith in God and such since maybe that's all you'll ever have in life considering your position against the racially controlled systems in this world. And I connected deeply with religious films, and racially ambiguous characters. What do I mean by that? Characters that appeared white perhaps but were not. I enjoy those characters because they bridge the racial divide, uproot it, make people more than their appearance. Superman is a perfect example. He's an alien, yet people of all colors like him. He's not some kind of white guy badass you see in comics, he's just as much a minority as anyone. And that's why superman CAN'T be racist. He's not white. When you see superman hanging out in africa saving lives. He's actually doing it because he wants to help PEOPLE. He looks at ALL humans the same... believe it or not. When you think about it, Superman embodies America more than you'd really think superficially.
But yeah man, got a lot of thoughts on that, and I mean I'm racially awkward and always have been since I'm a mix of races too. I guess that lead to me liking characters who had such a spirit to them that leaped beyond their flesh that they were not defined at all by their racial make-up.
Does that mean we're in a new brave world where race don't matter and people treat each other as good fellows no matter the looks. Of course not.
I've experienced the bullshit. Especially now going out and driving a lot. White people still assume every black person's a retard or something. I've gotten treated like a complete idiot multiple times by white people who've probably never met a smart black person, I don't know. I was just going to ask some white folks where the goddamn store was so I could find it, they assume I'm asking if they want a taxi ride and give me this 'get the hell away' look. wtf grow up...
But yeah that's when you wake up to the fact that you're the black guy in the room. When the equality isn't there... you're like, oh crap...
Makes me think, would half the black people who bully me have the same balls to do it if I was a white guy. Of course not. It's so strange and yet humorous I guess. The'll take their pants off, take a shit all over my lap and laugh about it, but if there was a white guy around, they'd shut up and kiss his ass for money and food. I mean, it's just wow. Go ahead, do it. Take a shit on a white guy. I'd like to see what would happen, that's for sure. I'd have mad respect for a black guy who loves to bully black guys to go up to a group of white guys and start shit with them, let's see who you really are.
Cowardly black people who only have the guts to take aim at their own kind, so sad that they exist.
So sad that I have to be dead center target for their need to feel dominant over somebody today...
Weird stuff going on in the political world. I mean I hope Crump gets his goddamn ass out of the white house and we can start feeling like someone sane is manning the helm, but like I said, it's a goddamn mountain to climb to get people to look unfavorably on any white person. That whiteness is like this star in mario you get that makes you invincible. It's just it's not easy to beat that... Probably can't beat it... probably can't.... unless you piss off other people with the same star. I think that's the truth about race relations. Nobody can beat white people but other white people... Kinda stupid to think that way, but I think it's actually the way it is in the end.
Getting back to the film I mentioned in the title, that's kinda the point of the movie. I didn't watch all of it but the part I did watch fascinated me. The biracial character in the movie gives a speech to a majority white audience about the race relations on the island and how the politicians are pretending to care about black people and he exposes them for who they really are and they admit that no they could care less about blacks, they only want their votes... how relevant a film this is to today's politics...
But yeah, same stuff was going on back in the 50s. They knew, they always knew, that it's just about votes and stuff. None of them seriously care about brown people and so it's the way life is for me today, and life is for everyone brown and down.
Ya gotta live with the reality of there being social advantages for those in the lighter spectrum, which makes no sense, but that's the reality...
Which in the end is why I gravitated towards stories where your own passion, faith, or mystical quality defined you, not something as insignificant as flesh.
But I have an appreciation for classic cinema. They worked MUCH harder back then. It's that simple. Big Sleep. Bogart movies. Swiss family Robinson, loved that shit as a kid. Classic freakin westerns, all the clint eastwood stuff.
Best classic film to me is of course Mary Poppins. It's just everything film making should be. It's just pure joy to watch. And you don't look at Mary as even HUMAN if that makes sense. She's a fairy from another dimension in human flesh.
I liked films like that that bridged over into potential mystical realms of thought. Peter Pan, Star Wars. I guess it's cuz I'm black. When you're black, you have a lot of faith in God and such since maybe that's all you'll ever have in life considering your position against the racially controlled systems in this world. And I connected deeply with religious films, and racially ambiguous characters. What do I mean by that? Characters that appeared white perhaps but were not. I enjoy those characters because they bridge the racial divide, uproot it, make people more than their appearance. Superman is a perfect example. He's an alien, yet people of all colors like him. He's not some kind of white guy badass you see in comics, he's just as much a minority as anyone. And that's why superman CAN'T be racist. He's not white. When you see superman hanging out in africa saving lives. He's actually doing it because he wants to help PEOPLE. He looks at ALL humans the same... believe it or not. When you think about it, Superman embodies America more than you'd really think superficially.
But yeah man, got a lot of thoughts on that, and I mean I'm racially awkward and always have been since I'm a mix of races too. I guess that lead to me liking characters who had such a spirit to them that leaped beyond their flesh that they were not defined at all by their racial make-up.
Does that mean we're in a new brave world where race don't matter and people treat each other as good fellows no matter the looks. Of course not.
I've experienced the bullshit. Especially now going out and driving a lot. White people still assume every black person's a retard or something. I've gotten treated like a complete idiot multiple times by white people who've probably never met a smart black person, I don't know. I was just going to ask some white folks where the goddamn store was so I could find it, they assume I'm asking if they want a taxi ride and give me this 'get the hell away' look. wtf grow up...
But yeah that's when you wake up to the fact that you're the black guy in the room. When the equality isn't there... you're like, oh crap...
Makes me think, would half the black people who bully me have the same balls to do it if I was a white guy. Of course not. It's so strange and yet humorous I guess. The'll take their pants off, take a shit all over my lap and laugh about it, but if there was a white guy around, they'd shut up and kiss his ass for money and food. I mean, it's just wow. Go ahead, do it. Take a shit on a white guy. I'd like to see what would happen, that's for sure. I'd have mad respect for a black guy who loves to bully black guys to go up to a group of white guys and start shit with them, let's see who you really are.
Cowardly black people who only have the guts to take aim at their own kind, so sad that they exist.
So sad that I have to be dead center target for their need to feel dominant over somebody today...
Weird stuff going on in the political world. I mean I hope Crump gets his goddamn ass out of the white house and we can start feeling like someone sane is manning the helm, but like I said, it's a goddamn mountain to climb to get people to look unfavorably on any white person. That whiteness is like this star in mario you get that makes you invincible. It's just it's not easy to beat that... Probably can't beat it... probably can't.... unless you piss off other people with the same star. I think that's the truth about race relations. Nobody can beat white people but other white people... Kinda stupid to think that way, but I think it's actually the way it is in the end.
Getting back to the film I mentioned in the title, that's kinda the point of the movie. I didn't watch all of it but the part I did watch fascinated me. The biracial character in the movie gives a speech to a majority white audience about the race relations on the island and how the politicians are pretending to care about black people and he exposes them for who they really are and they admit that no they could care less about blacks, they only want their votes... how relevant a film this is to today's politics...
But yeah, same stuff was going on back in the 50s. They knew, they always knew, that it's just about votes and stuff. None of them seriously care about brown people and so it's the way life is for me today, and life is for everyone brown and down.
Ya gotta live with the reality of there being social advantages for those in the lighter spectrum, which makes no sense, but that's the reality...
Which in the end is why I gravitated towards stories where your own passion, faith, or mystical quality defined you, not something as insignificant as flesh.
Sunday, October 29, 2017
day off
gave myself the day off. not doing a damn thing today.
will soon be going and running caviar down in manhattan over the weekends. That's how I'll do it. I mean probably some week days, but primarily the weekends since going out and finding parking during the day is damn near impossible. Caviar is a huge huge huge money earner in the app scene. Most people use bikes for it, not cars. Obviously smarter to use that. I should goddamn buy a moped and just make tons of money running crap all over manhattan instead of driving which just leads to bull crap tickets.
I've made enough money now though. My goal is to pay off my car insurance, not much more. Once I get an actual job, then the whole potential for actual apartment stuff goes on, but no, I don't have it like that obviously...
Freakin as I type this caviar is going nuts today begging guys to go out and deliver since they don't have enough people for today's bad weather day... sorry boss. Instacart killed me. Not going out today, so forget it. It'll take me a while to get to manhattan. Plus my car sucks in the rain. Tires don't grip and brakes slip easily since they're old...Nope staying home. too bad.
Eating thsi Amy's Pizza stuff. Damn delicious freakin pizza. Holy crap no wonder so many people buy the damn stuff at the stores. It's just amazing pizza. Best frozen pizza I've ever had and the only other one that came close was some flat pizza I had ages ago from path mark. That was the bomb diggity.
Backing up all my static vid files that aren't corrupt. Struggling to lose this weight of course and look good for the shot... but yeah it's not like I can do much exercise with my muscles all destroyed from days of work.
well that's it, not much else to add...
will soon be going and running caviar down in manhattan over the weekends. That's how I'll do it. I mean probably some week days, but primarily the weekends since going out and finding parking during the day is damn near impossible. Caviar is a huge huge huge money earner in the app scene. Most people use bikes for it, not cars. Obviously smarter to use that. I should goddamn buy a moped and just make tons of money running crap all over manhattan instead of driving which just leads to bull crap tickets.
I've made enough money now though. My goal is to pay off my car insurance, not much more. Once I get an actual job, then the whole potential for actual apartment stuff goes on, but no, I don't have it like that obviously...
Freakin as I type this caviar is going nuts today begging guys to go out and deliver since they don't have enough people for today's bad weather day... sorry boss. Instacart killed me. Not going out today, so forget it. It'll take me a while to get to manhattan. Plus my car sucks in the rain. Tires don't grip and brakes slip easily since they're old...Nope staying home. too bad.
Eating thsi Amy's Pizza stuff. Damn delicious freakin pizza. Holy crap no wonder so many people buy the damn stuff at the stores. It's just amazing pizza. Best frozen pizza I've ever had and the only other one that came close was some flat pizza I had ages ago from path mark. That was the bomb diggity.
Backing up all my static vid files that aren't corrupt. Struggling to lose this weight of course and look good for the shot... but yeah it's not like I can do much exercise with my muscles all destroyed from days of work.
well that's it, not much else to add...
Friday, October 27, 2017
Thawtz etc.
Sad man. Not to keep beating the dead horse but yeah, freakin, I do feel bad for Lord and Miller to this day. I freakin watched some of their movies as I was hoping they'd throw me a bone for the lando Part and expected to be spending months with them filming Solo. Damn, they're just not into it anymore. Did getting canned break them? I don't want to think that. I do look forwad to their next film. It'll definitely be something to behold considering what they've been through and what if SOLO bombs, I know, very unlikely. It can be a giant ass farting for 2 hours and still earn billions. It's going to force print money. Well I'll just watch the fireworks. New Star Wars has only ONE THING going for it. The original cast's involvement and the fact that Kennedy is very very good friends with Lucas. It's all bullshit. Lucas is still steering the ship, he's just sick and tired of actually doing the hard directing and story writing. Wants to go back to producing and overseeing things. If you think Lucas is 100 percent divorced from Star Wars right now, you're a nerf herder, simple really.
I broke myself. Worked so hard on shooting static that my body is just a giant ball of pain. I have to recover and rebuild myself. Was determined to go shoot stuff, then said, hell no, need to chill out, not a young punk anymore anyway...
Earning some kind of money with instafart though it's been a war zone. Driving in NY is going to be tough for obvious reasons. Less obvious is the stupidity of the other drivers and the mistakes and bullshit they do to make driving worse here.
But can't complain about the pay. They toss a good bit of cash at you for doing it and suffering it. Would be amazing if they at least helped you with the tickets, maybe offer to pay up to 25 percent, but of course not, we're just pack mules. From my research, as long as you don't go earning more than a cool 1000 dollars from them in the year, you won't even be on the radar from the IRS. Otherwise yeah they'll want their cut as they'll look upon you as a private business.
Whatever... just need to at least earn something, boss... hell I'll admit it. I'd do porn if I had the chance and knew how to get in on that shit. Earn money for boning a girl all day. Genius...
So tired, so damn tired. Was just rocking GTA all day. Have no idea why the game crashed so much while attempting to get online with it. Then as I was online, some modder forced everyone in the session to be on fire. So theres probably the answer for why Online is tough to connect to. Fantastic game modes recently though. The transform races are a true wonder to play. I mean haven't been dazzled by such creative game design since the days of old super nintendo and maybe even commodore, where they really had to figure out how to make games from nothing.... but yeah, even me more of an old school gamer was very impressed by what they pulled off. The condemned stuff is horrible, though, wow just a waste. But yeah it's tough to play GTA Online since it's just a hack fest now, shame. Same with battlefront. It's long been broken and obviously EA will toss it in the trash and move on from it some point if they haven't already. Still I'll always have the memories of its best moments, good appetizer game for the main course that is BF2....
Tuesday, October 24, 2017
Hell of an odd day
Decided to reshoot some of the boom self repair scene. He gets injured in battle with static, takes a break to fix his arm and get back into the game. Well was ready to get going, got everything prepared for the shoot and what a great surprise, my glasses for Boom are gone from my pocket. Vanished. That ended it. I can't shoot without those glasses, sad that everything can hinge on something seemingly so minor but yeah you learn real quick how tough film making is when you only have one of a certain prop. I then knew I only had once chance at all of getting the shot TODAY instead of waiting until a new pair of glasses came in he mail. Go all the way back to the last spot I had them and comb through the leaves to find them... long story short, I was searching the spot, then my foot hit something plastic and there they were. one night and a whole day they lay there on that spot where I dropped them. All the shit I went through to deliver mountains of groceries and my sunglasses I bought for Boom were just hanging out in the woods completely untouched. WTF... I was so overjoyed, it's insane. Why am I so damn giddy about working on this project. I'm not sure... just glad to be able to pursue it and possibly get it done without too much issues or whatever. I just think I have to put my foot down and give my man static his day in the sun and yeah come on, he deserves it.
Bonus shot from one of the pics I did today in costume while attempting to capture static for the main poster... Shitty camera, wish i could buy a super HQ one...
Bonus shot from one of the pics I did today in costume while attempting to capture static for the main poster... Shitty camera, wish i could buy a super HQ one...
Sunday, October 22, 2017
Boom Day
It is what it is, I've been struggling to get through this film and it's demanding, more work especially since I'm the only one making it... today was a lot of work to figure out the complexity of the shots, but compared to the stuff I've done prior, not as hard, just annoyingly tedious. Did the best I could do before losing the sun light. Got shots of the game gear as my character Boom discusses Static's Power Level with his mini pocket computer. One scene I just decided to do, it's not particularly good or makes much sense but I thought it'd be spicy so I decided to do it. Had ideas for how to get it done. Put some green tape over the game gear screen then just after effects in some content onto the screen later. Then I had an idea, just use my cell phone to be the game gear screen. Been opening up consoles and portable gaming devices all my life, necessary if you want to keep them dust free and functional, and if you like modding in the psp's case. Like I replaced buttons for austhetic purposes one time, fixed shit that broke etc...
So I popped open my game gear I bought back in college, yep. I had money from my job at target, couldn't pass up a chance to own a game gear which I NEVER did, wanted to have one for bragging rights. It worked fine when I got the damn thing, can't turn on now. I would have been fine if it actually just turned on and stayed on, would have shot teh scene with an authentic looking game boy glow to it despite nothing being on the screen... Well, it's awesome anyway what I decided to do. I spent a little time creating a video with proper demensions to display behind the game gear screen, then shot the scene holding my cell under the game gear empty top shell and it looks spot on as if it was real. Came out best I could do as it was a struggle to get a proper angle and had to reshoot it a ton, but it works... I'm not going to go back and do it again, I'm confident I got it.
Not actually much left to shoot. Problem is I need to be in good shape for the final blast moment. I can't do it as I look like crap right now, and have to drop these pounds fast. So yeah. Another day of Instafart tomorrow to secure enough money for a good long while and then it's onwards to kinda kick my own ass to losing this weight and getting in shape...
So I popped open my game gear I bought back in college, yep. I had money from my job at target, couldn't pass up a chance to own a game gear which I NEVER did, wanted to have one for bragging rights. It worked fine when I got the damn thing, can't turn on now. I would have been fine if it actually just turned on and stayed on, would have shot teh scene with an authentic looking game boy glow to it despite nothing being on the screen... Well, it's awesome anyway what I decided to do. I spent a little time creating a video with proper demensions to display behind the game gear screen, then shot the scene holding my cell under the game gear empty top shell and it looks spot on as if it was real. Came out best I could do as it was a struggle to get a proper angle and had to reshoot it a ton, but it works... I'm not going to go back and do it again, I'm confident I got it.
Not actually much left to shoot. Problem is I need to be in good shape for the final blast moment. I can't do it as I look like crap right now, and have to drop these pounds fast. So yeah. Another day of Instafart tomorrow to secure enough money for a good long while and then it's onwards to kinda kick my own ass to losing this weight and getting in shape...
Friday, October 20, 2017
Current events
Kinda the same old broken record really. Flump lies and BSing and praising the fox news ass kissing as per usual. Like I said, it's like a bottomless pit, white people's power in this world. It's just the reality. There's like nothing the stupid dope can do to get him impeached quickly.
There's word swirling that HE was the one who authorized whatever military operation got botched in Africa.
So that's why he was struggling to distract people from the tragic loss of Green Berets.
Death toll in Puerto Rico, a disaster he ignored for days has reached 450 unofficial count, who knows how many are un accounted...
This is worse than I thought it would be. If he's been this incompetent and obviously shitty as a president. WHAT ELSE is he going to fuck up.
I got things to do. I want to squeeze and hug some big titties and fuck and enjoy it all goddamn day. I can't have this asshole messing that shit up, son... just no...
I'm sorry for not voting. Not that it would have made a difference my vote, but votes matter, politics matter. You have to wake up now and see it if you haven't for so long like I have. Wasn't taught about the political world at all as a kid, here I stand seeing its fury, seeing its massive sweeping power, how it's impacting things in ways I never conceived, and not because it's right, but because some fat ignorant fool wants to play games and prop himself up to look cool.
USA is getting punkd, bad.
There's word swirling that HE was the one who authorized whatever military operation got botched in Africa.
So that's why he was struggling to distract people from the tragic loss of Green Berets.
Death toll in Puerto Rico, a disaster he ignored for days has reached 450 unofficial count, who knows how many are un accounted...
This is worse than I thought it would be. If he's been this incompetent and obviously shitty as a president. WHAT ELSE is he going to fuck up.
I got things to do. I want to squeeze and hug some big titties and fuck and enjoy it all goddamn day. I can't have this asshole messing that shit up, son... just no...
I'm sorry for not voting. Not that it would have made a difference my vote, but votes matter, politics matter. You have to wake up now and see it if you haven't for so long like I have. Wasn't taught about the political world at all as a kid, here I stand seeing its fury, seeing its massive sweeping power, how it's impacting things in ways I never conceived, and not because it's right, but because some fat ignorant fool wants to play games and prop himself up to look cool.
USA is getting punkd, bad.
Thursday, October 19, 2017
Today was stupid
Arduous and horrible and everything wrong with the film making process, but a success.
I can't even...
Just a lot of stupid shit happened. Worst thing in the world is when you're prepared to shoot then the stupid club shows up. Why do dumbass kids come walking into the middle of the woods screaming and hollering in everyone's face as if they're making a statement on anything, I damn don't know. All I do know is that they're like annoying shits whenever I'm trying to get my filming done and I have to stop everything incase they start thinking about screwing around.
I think about where the hell they'll end up, group of gangstalicious black kids going to god knows what school and obviously showcasing no brain whatsoever. Oh I know, welcome to one of 2 places, jail or baggage lifting or the equivalent. I just know it, it makes me smirk a bit to know these high school badasses will be chucking luggage for rich white people in a few years time. Sad but deserved outcome for them. You get what you give...now of course as I've experienced, even if you're NOT the asshole kinda black person you get shitted on anyway, but it does give me some sense of joy to know the bully kids go to hell in this world. It does.
Shot a lot of acrobatic shots today. And yeah, I've been into acrobatics all of my life. I know the concepts and phsycial demands of the discipline and actually quite enjoy it, but when you don't do it for a long time, good luck with it. I was bad man, but I did all the bits I desired to complete. I said to myself I MUST have an acrobatic stunt in the final battle. Cuz in the training scenes I will pull a move. If during the final battle I don't do similar stuff, what's the point, eh, I know, silly but I had to kinda link the training to the final battle a little and after like 10 tries, finally got the shot because I have no core any more. The core is essential to acrobatics. It's prettymuch how you swing your body around, but I haven't built muscle in my midsection much if at all so I have very little strength there...
Lot of fun, NOT. Um what was I going to say, don't really know... But today was a lot of progress. I've finally jumped forward quite a bit with the finished product and I'm proud of that.
Backed up all of my vid files because some of them were getting corrupted and not playing. Luckily backed most of the vital vids up. One vid is totally scrap and can't be recovered but it's not vital to the project just a quick stupid power up vid I made using my hand, so no huge loss.
Dropped my cell phone twice and had to go hunting for it. Lost, I thought, the RF remote for my LED lights, but no it was in my bag so I spent all that time searching for it for nothing. Have no memory whatsoever of putting it in my bag though so it was magic.
What to do now... read facebook twitter as usual. Can't wait for the new episode of Dragon Ball Super. Have to say, the new series is actually quite good. if late as fuck. It's just, let me just say it. It's like watching the simpsons I guess. Not the end of the world to watch, but there's like NOTHING they can do that hasn't already been done. As much as I enjoy DB Super, it's basically covering the exact same ground as all the rest of the series. Even having Goku show up last minute. Having Piccolo sacrifice himself for Gohan. The voice actors who I GREW UP watching are kinda just having fun with their dialogue. I can sense they have no serious investment in the franchise anymore. It's all tounge firmly in cheek to them which makes the show fun for me. Lots of WINK WINK we're so done with these characters from the VAs, and I can agree with that. But it's fun to still kinda go along with the story. Looking forward to whatever the fuck goku black is and everyone's so into the mystery of Jiren's power. He's owning the show right now to be honest. Truth is the whole multi universe thing has saved the show from becoming utterly stale. Because there's potential for cross universe stories and stuff, there's more life to the show yet. But weird that it had to resort to adding universes to keep the story fresh.
That's all, going to try to survive tomorrow with instafart, if Lower Manhattan isn't so bad, I'll do that area primarily...
I can't even...
Just a lot of stupid shit happened. Worst thing in the world is when you're prepared to shoot then the stupid club shows up. Why do dumbass kids come walking into the middle of the woods screaming and hollering in everyone's face as if they're making a statement on anything, I damn don't know. All I do know is that they're like annoying shits whenever I'm trying to get my filming done and I have to stop everything incase they start thinking about screwing around.
I think about where the hell they'll end up, group of gangstalicious black kids going to god knows what school and obviously showcasing no brain whatsoever. Oh I know, welcome to one of 2 places, jail or baggage lifting or the equivalent. I just know it, it makes me smirk a bit to know these high school badasses will be chucking luggage for rich white people in a few years time. Sad but deserved outcome for them. You get what you give...now of course as I've experienced, even if you're NOT the asshole kinda black person you get shitted on anyway, but it does give me some sense of joy to know the bully kids go to hell in this world. It does.
Shot a lot of acrobatic shots today. And yeah, I've been into acrobatics all of my life. I know the concepts and phsycial demands of the discipline and actually quite enjoy it, but when you don't do it for a long time, good luck with it. I was bad man, but I did all the bits I desired to complete. I said to myself I MUST have an acrobatic stunt in the final battle. Cuz in the training scenes I will pull a move. If during the final battle I don't do similar stuff, what's the point, eh, I know, silly but I had to kinda link the training to the final battle a little and after like 10 tries, finally got the shot because I have no core any more. The core is essential to acrobatics. It's prettymuch how you swing your body around, but I haven't built muscle in my midsection much if at all so I have very little strength there...
Lot of fun, NOT. Um what was I going to say, don't really know... But today was a lot of progress. I've finally jumped forward quite a bit with the finished product and I'm proud of that.
Backed up all of my vid files because some of them were getting corrupted and not playing. Luckily backed most of the vital vids up. One vid is totally scrap and can't be recovered but it's not vital to the project just a quick stupid power up vid I made using my hand, so no huge loss.
Dropped my cell phone twice and had to go hunting for it. Lost, I thought, the RF remote for my LED lights, but no it was in my bag so I spent all that time searching for it for nothing. Have no memory whatsoever of putting it in my bag though so it was magic.
What to do now... read facebook twitter as usual. Can't wait for the new episode of Dragon Ball Super. Have to say, the new series is actually quite good. if late as fuck. It's just, let me just say it. It's like watching the simpsons I guess. Not the end of the world to watch, but there's like NOTHING they can do that hasn't already been done. As much as I enjoy DB Super, it's basically covering the exact same ground as all the rest of the series. Even having Goku show up last minute. Having Piccolo sacrifice himself for Gohan. The voice actors who I GREW UP watching are kinda just having fun with their dialogue. I can sense they have no serious investment in the franchise anymore. It's all tounge firmly in cheek to them which makes the show fun for me. Lots of WINK WINK we're so done with these characters from the VAs, and I can agree with that. But it's fun to still kinda go along with the story. Looking forward to whatever the fuck goku black is and everyone's so into the mystery of Jiren's power. He's owning the show right now to be honest. Truth is the whole multi universe thing has saved the show from becoming utterly stale. Because there's potential for cross universe stories and stuff, there's more life to the show yet. But weird that it had to resort to adding universes to keep the story fresh.
That's all, going to try to survive tomorrow with instafart, if Lower Manhattan isn't so bad, I'll do that area primarily...
Tuesday, October 17, 2017
SOLO
Yep that's the title. Homo, Frodo, Poyo, Slowmo, not much to think about. It's the obvious best title they couldn't pass up. Still going to be a ron howard assterpiece, sad to say.
Dude broke his ankle on some basketball game today too, weird man. I know why that happens. Not to fully blame him but he doesn't work his ankle area enough to build up strength to avoid that. I've encountered similar issues when I'm doing stunt jumps and running or whatever now at 31. My balance is off these years, and I have weak ankles. So I did indeed bend my ankle inwards one day doing some action. Not to the point where it stayed that way, but it went in shredding the muscle fibers up in the process... Luckily my acrobatic instincts kicked in and I somehow shifted my body weight off of my ankle to not fully screw it up, but it HURT like a FUUUUUCK for a long time after and took forever to heal. I was in a state where I had to just limp every where for a few days. And could not do any of the action scenes for static. Then again just a few days ago I did the same thing almost, this time my body learned to reflexively jump with my left foot and avoided the same injury as last time. But yeah if my ankle muscles were stronger landing on your ankle you'd have plenty of resistance to the force of your leg wanting to snap your foot off. This guy doesn't train his feet for landings and learned his lesson the hard way, you have to if you play basketball. Have to...
Don't know how players these days keep snapping their legs like this. Got to pay attention to the legs not just the arms and upper body. Even I know this crap...
Anyway, poor bastard didn't expect to snap his shit off practically and I feel so bad for the guy. Hope they pumped him full of pain killers as he was in a state of pure pain from that. When it's an injury that's just bent but not an open wound, the body reacts with a WTF response because the limb is still attached just not properly so it's screaming in pain, he was in hell after that moment. That's all it takes is one split second to send the body into hell. Cherish the day of peace that you have everyone. It could be a lot worse.
Sunday, October 15, 2017
Shooting schedule and further thoughts on Instafart
Just need to kinda release my bowels onto all of you eager readers.
Kinda am going to enjoy having nothing to do with instafart for the next couple of days. As much as I enjoy going out into the world and kinda feeling like I have a job and am participating in society and looking at all kinds of good looking butt cheeks and tits as I run around. I need to step back and heal from all the shock and trauma my body has been put through.
What have I learned thus far about surviving manhattan traffic. There are hours when it's the worst. Especially rush hour around 3 to 6 pm. Traffic is insane. I'm not experienced with the early morning traffic, but best to avoid that too. I was surprised to see a group of little innocent kids walking the streets as cars wizzed everywhere as if they were going to school, ON A SUNDAY. But I'm not surprised, they're probably part of a sunday school program, I was.
My best advice if you want to deliver by car in manhattan is to do it at nights. The meter maids are to me not as prominent. They're legit walking the streets on the daylight hours, so you got to watch out if you want to make a delivery.
For me, I hoped I could find parking since it's sunday, no luck. Damn shame, my attempt to use Sunday as this amazing opportunity to get parking was nothing but a failure... couldn't find shit. And yunno, it's just so awful that brown people treat other brown people like dirt. TWICE I've been treated like ass by doormen at some big ass apartment buildings for rich highly educated elite assholes. And I'm just like, WTF... You're a scrub too, working for pennies for rich people, who do you think you are to stand above and talk down to me, but there they go, twice I get this attitude. I met one guy who was actually super nice and friendly in terms of what I was there to do and politely directed me to doing deliveries by the rules of the building. I mean that's all it takes, act like we're brothers struggling to get some paper, not act like you own the damn building. Which you don't.
Yeah the legends are true, manhattan is a tough place to drive in, yeah. I mean I'm a GTA player for decades now, guess that's why I'm able to make it this far without killing anyone.
I mean though the deliveries never cease. Instafart is doing HUGE business because people are LAZY. Or actually in a few cases I've had, I delivered to families. That's the way it should be, not some hot shot young punk bachelor pad sob who can't be bothered to go to the store. I don't give a shit about that kind of lazy person. Not one... But yeah delivered to a nice woman who was taking care of her kids. That's what it's all about. I feel like I'm serving a purpose goddamit.
Saturdays are interesting in manhattan, actually somewhat managable, traffic isn't insane as you'd expect. Sunday, hard to say. Morning was heavy, people have the day to themselves, lots of people, lots of cars, tough traffic, so not too good to me. Only thing is that parking is easier or should be, sadly because they sent me so damn deep into manhattan where all the action is, freakin broadway shows and such, of course parking was nonexistant. A woman who lives near a movie theater freakin wants orders for food and expects me to find parking? Fuck you, get off your stupid ass and go to the store dumb bitch.
Nights is where it's at though. If you can get those late orders after 7 all the way to 10 easy money. I was so shocked that the streets were so empty when I was driving around at night, but yeah, it's bed time. Got work tomorrow. It's that kinda quiet night for the city at those hours, no chance in hell of getting a parking ticket.
In a perfect world, food delivery would be done over night. ALL kinds of deliveries should be done over night, no way in hell should we be having deliveries and restocking going on during the day. WASTE of everyone's time.
Well going to be concentrating on static now. I'll mess with instafart next week. For now, going to be heavily shooting static in the forest since I've not had a chance to do it in so long.
Got some neat little ideas for scenes I want to capture... Should take me maybe 3 solid days to knock out all the really prime material I still haven't begun to shoot. Then it is mostly done, just need to goddamn lose weight. And turns out when you over strain yourself like I did recently you can pop a blood vessel in the eye ball, and I did. My eye was full of blood and still has blood in it. Which means I can't shoot ANY close ups for static until my eye fully clears, fuck... I got lucky I guess. I thought I injured the eye ball or something, turns out it was just what happens if you strain yourself too hard, you can fuck up your eye ball if a vessel bursts. Am I that old that that kind of shit can happen now? Goddamn, son.
Well, whatever.... got money, got stupid tickets to pay. What is it, 142 for car insurance, 180 in parking tickets. And I have a total of maybe 350 dollars on me once my pay comes in. So that's a full profit of 28 dollars after 2 weeks of running grocieries to people. SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHITTTT.
Kinda am going to enjoy having nothing to do with instafart for the next couple of days. As much as I enjoy going out into the world and kinda feeling like I have a job and am participating in society and looking at all kinds of good looking butt cheeks and tits as I run around. I need to step back and heal from all the shock and trauma my body has been put through.
What have I learned thus far about surviving manhattan traffic. There are hours when it's the worst. Especially rush hour around 3 to 6 pm. Traffic is insane. I'm not experienced with the early morning traffic, but best to avoid that too. I was surprised to see a group of little innocent kids walking the streets as cars wizzed everywhere as if they were going to school, ON A SUNDAY. But I'm not surprised, they're probably part of a sunday school program, I was.
My best advice if you want to deliver by car in manhattan is to do it at nights. The meter maids are to me not as prominent. They're legit walking the streets on the daylight hours, so you got to watch out if you want to make a delivery.
For me, I hoped I could find parking since it's sunday, no luck. Damn shame, my attempt to use Sunday as this amazing opportunity to get parking was nothing but a failure... couldn't find shit. And yunno, it's just so awful that brown people treat other brown people like dirt. TWICE I've been treated like ass by doormen at some big ass apartment buildings for rich highly educated elite assholes. And I'm just like, WTF... You're a scrub too, working for pennies for rich people, who do you think you are to stand above and talk down to me, but there they go, twice I get this attitude. I met one guy who was actually super nice and friendly in terms of what I was there to do and politely directed me to doing deliveries by the rules of the building. I mean that's all it takes, act like we're brothers struggling to get some paper, not act like you own the damn building. Which you don't.
Yeah the legends are true, manhattan is a tough place to drive in, yeah. I mean I'm a GTA player for decades now, guess that's why I'm able to make it this far without killing anyone.
I mean though the deliveries never cease. Instafart is doing HUGE business because people are LAZY. Or actually in a few cases I've had, I delivered to families. That's the way it should be, not some hot shot young punk bachelor pad sob who can't be bothered to go to the store. I don't give a shit about that kind of lazy person. Not one... But yeah delivered to a nice woman who was taking care of her kids. That's what it's all about. I feel like I'm serving a purpose goddamit.
Saturdays are interesting in manhattan, actually somewhat managable, traffic isn't insane as you'd expect. Sunday, hard to say. Morning was heavy, people have the day to themselves, lots of people, lots of cars, tough traffic, so not too good to me. Only thing is that parking is easier or should be, sadly because they sent me so damn deep into manhattan where all the action is, freakin broadway shows and such, of course parking was nonexistant. A woman who lives near a movie theater freakin wants orders for food and expects me to find parking? Fuck you, get off your stupid ass and go to the store dumb bitch.
Nights is where it's at though. If you can get those late orders after 7 all the way to 10 easy money. I was so shocked that the streets were so empty when I was driving around at night, but yeah, it's bed time. Got work tomorrow. It's that kinda quiet night for the city at those hours, no chance in hell of getting a parking ticket.
In a perfect world, food delivery would be done over night. ALL kinds of deliveries should be done over night, no way in hell should we be having deliveries and restocking going on during the day. WASTE of everyone's time.
Well going to be concentrating on static now. I'll mess with instafart next week. For now, going to be heavily shooting static in the forest since I've not had a chance to do it in so long.
Got some neat little ideas for scenes I want to capture... Should take me maybe 3 solid days to knock out all the really prime material I still haven't begun to shoot. Then it is mostly done, just need to goddamn lose weight. And turns out when you over strain yourself like I did recently you can pop a blood vessel in the eye ball, and I did. My eye was full of blood and still has blood in it. Which means I can't shoot ANY close ups for static until my eye fully clears, fuck... I got lucky I guess. I thought I injured the eye ball or something, turns out it was just what happens if you strain yourself too hard, you can fuck up your eye ball if a vessel bursts. Am I that old that that kind of shit can happen now? Goddamn, son.
Well, whatever.... got money, got stupid tickets to pay. What is it, 142 for car insurance, 180 in parking tickets. And I have a total of maybe 350 dollars on me once my pay comes in. So that's a full profit of 28 dollars after 2 weeks of running grocieries to people. SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHITTTT.
Saturday, October 14, 2017
Considerations on Instafart
Manhattan, it's a mess. Total chaos to drive in. I mean, I never expect it to work out swimmingly at all, but it never surprises you with its awful terrible impossible driving conditions. I'm just fucked every time I go down there and pray I survive it that's all.
I thought, hoped I found a safe zone to do the job from. Just go to the little upper tip part of Manhattan and I'll be safe from getting orders for the lower part of manhattan. Turns out the zone I'm working is ALL of manhattan itself prettymuch, just a little tip at the bottom is considered "lower" manhattan.
No wonder I'm driving around every stinking landmark and road I don't want to be dealing with. It's all prettymuch in the same zone so I have been screwed all this time and didn't know it.
I have no choice indeed but to quit. Sorry for any lazy young college hotshot who doesn't want to go outside of his safe space and deal with the real world, but fuck you. I'd rather deliver to old people who REALLY can't get off their ass and shop than some punk young person. Makes me sick to deliver to a person who's not feeble, not disabled, just a lazy fuck.
FUCK. YOU. FUCK YOU, get outside and go to the store, I don't care how rich you your goddamn gap wearing white fucking ass is. You're a little bitch.
Will struggle some more tomorrow to earn enough to pay for another month's worth of car insurance then dedicate myself to getting in with access a ride since hopefully that might be my best shot, they're hiring like insane right now so why not. Don't think those guys get tickets either, wouldn't be too bad to work that shit if you can some how park in this city without problems.
What I should do is go live with my sister in New Jersey, then just run instafart over there and really rake in the dough since they probably have actual parking over there, I know such a crazy concept a place to park so I can deliver your stupid shit.
Just insane. I mean why the blue shit isn't this stuff running HERE in the bronx and Mt Vernon. WHY? It's perfectly fine and there's prettymuch loads of parking space for deliveries. Manhattan? That's where they'd prefer to do business, are they insane? You can't deliver shit when you can't find parking, it's that simple. I know, if I had a tiny smart car it'd be the best job ever, but I don't, what a fuck in the ass my life has become, sad to say...
Oh well, just keep pressing on is all...
I thought, hoped I found a safe zone to do the job from. Just go to the little upper tip part of Manhattan and I'll be safe from getting orders for the lower part of manhattan. Turns out the zone I'm working is ALL of manhattan itself prettymuch, just a little tip at the bottom is considered "lower" manhattan.
No wonder I'm driving around every stinking landmark and road I don't want to be dealing with. It's all prettymuch in the same zone so I have been screwed all this time and didn't know it.
I have no choice indeed but to quit. Sorry for any lazy young college hotshot who doesn't want to go outside of his safe space and deal with the real world, but fuck you. I'd rather deliver to old people who REALLY can't get off their ass and shop than some punk young person. Makes me sick to deliver to a person who's not feeble, not disabled, just a lazy fuck.
FUCK. YOU. FUCK YOU, get outside and go to the store, I don't care how rich you your goddamn gap wearing white fucking ass is. You're a little bitch.
Will struggle some more tomorrow to earn enough to pay for another month's worth of car insurance then dedicate myself to getting in with access a ride since hopefully that might be my best shot, they're hiring like insane right now so why not. Don't think those guys get tickets either, wouldn't be too bad to work that shit if you can some how park in this city without problems.
What I should do is go live with my sister in New Jersey, then just run instafart over there and really rake in the dough since they probably have actual parking over there, I know such a crazy concept a place to park so I can deliver your stupid shit.
Just insane. I mean why the blue shit isn't this stuff running HERE in the bronx and Mt Vernon. WHY? It's perfectly fine and there's prettymuch loads of parking space for deliveries. Manhattan? That's where they'd prefer to do business, are they insane? You can't deliver shit when you can't find parking, it's that simple. I know, if I had a tiny smart car it'd be the best job ever, but I don't, what a fuck in the ass my life has become, sad to say...
Oh well, just keep pressing on is all...
Friday, October 13, 2017
No more app gigs for me
Got two very expensive parking tickets that weren't really my fault and did not impede anyone from getting to where they were going, and definitely not like I parked in front of fire hydrants which is a big no no, but yep my ass owes 180 dollars now because that's how gov gets its money baby. I'm done, it's over.
I'll lick my wounds and go back to finding regular normal jobs now, sadly. I highly enjoyed just being like peter parker and running around manhattan delivering shit to people. If you own a moped, go for it. That's the only way to avoid tickets really. I bought a car because first of all I don't have a moped license, second wanted to run uber which is doing big retarded business here in NY, makes all the sense in the world to fill my pockets with that gold baby, but I'm out, too much happy pants parking ticket paper cops running around to bother. You park for a few seconds, walk away, magically a ticket appears.
Oh no, you parked for 7 minutes where NO ONE was and hurt no one, you better pay upwards of a 115 dollars that you can't possibly afford. Does that get those guys hard to write those tickets? Makes them feel like real cops I guess. Meter Maid assholes.
It's just a big money trap. My job consists of parking for maybe 5 minutes delivering some stuff then going back on the road, but I can't do that for fear of getting ticketed now. I never knew they were so outrageously expensive, no clue. I would easily take a 25 dollar hit during a day that I'd work to earn 70 dollars, so what, I still profit. But no, today with these tickets reaching up to 180, I'm in the red now. All my effort has been for nothing and must now go towards these tickets. Indeed it's a scam. They want people using the parking lots which cost money and the meters etc... Now I get it. I was blind before but now I see how manhattan functions. If you own a car, every inch of street is being hounded by traffic douche bags waiting to fuck your day up over nothing. Meanwhile I see people blocking traffic with their vans cars and trucks like they own the street and no one touches them. A cab stops all traffic for miles so it can wait for a passenger for a few minutes, but no he's cool....
Yeah incase you missed it I'm very upset. I feel so defeated and betrayed because I believe in doing the right thing ok, and then good things come your way because of it, not that you go out in life do the right thing and then get beat to shit by a system that's just blindly stomping on everyone without empathy or consideration for those people's circumstances.
Weird day. I felt good yunno. I was making money now, could afford things now. All of that shit is destroyed in one day. And yunno what happened when I was on my way to manhattan, I was late for the 8am shift, so the app kicked me off the shift. I contemplated turning back to just relax and not bother working for the day. I f'n thought about it, then said, dammit gotta eat bro... I fucked myself.
Now I don't want to bother and they freakin need people down there running food to wealthy white people. They get tons of orders, such a waste of earning potential because there's no conceievable way to truly get all that shit spread to the apartments since there's no parking worth shit. I can imagine if they provided quick electric mopeds they'd get all that crap done in no time at all. But sadly they're stupid.
Sad, I'm just not even wanting to bother. Sunday's the only day I can bother with since you can actually find spots on a sunday because for whatever reason they allow much more parking on that day, but I'm still worried because I simply don't earn enough for it to make sense risking a ticket...
Run over someone, you probably pay less in the end...
I'll lick my wounds and go back to finding regular normal jobs now, sadly. I highly enjoyed just being like peter parker and running around manhattan delivering shit to people. If you own a moped, go for it. That's the only way to avoid tickets really. I bought a car because first of all I don't have a moped license, second wanted to run uber which is doing big retarded business here in NY, makes all the sense in the world to fill my pockets with that gold baby, but I'm out, too much happy pants parking ticket paper cops running around to bother. You park for a few seconds, walk away, magically a ticket appears.
Oh no, you parked for 7 minutes where NO ONE was and hurt no one, you better pay upwards of a 115 dollars that you can't possibly afford. Does that get those guys hard to write those tickets? Makes them feel like real cops I guess. Meter Maid assholes.
It's just a big money trap. My job consists of parking for maybe 5 minutes delivering some stuff then going back on the road, but I can't do that for fear of getting ticketed now. I never knew they were so outrageously expensive, no clue. I would easily take a 25 dollar hit during a day that I'd work to earn 70 dollars, so what, I still profit. But no, today with these tickets reaching up to 180, I'm in the red now. All my effort has been for nothing and must now go towards these tickets. Indeed it's a scam. They want people using the parking lots which cost money and the meters etc... Now I get it. I was blind before but now I see how manhattan functions. If you own a car, every inch of street is being hounded by traffic douche bags waiting to fuck your day up over nothing. Meanwhile I see people blocking traffic with their vans cars and trucks like they own the street and no one touches them. A cab stops all traffic for miles so it can wait for a passenger for a few minutes, but no he's cool....
Yeah incase you missed it I'm very upset. I feel so defeated and betrayed because I believe in doing the right thing ok, and then good things come your way because of it, not that you go out in life do the right thing and then get beat to shit by a system that's just blindly stomping on everyone without empathy or consideration for those people's circumstances.
Weird day. I felt good yunno. I was making money now, could afford things now. All of that shit is destroyed in one day. And yunno what happened when I was on my way to manhattan, I was late for the 8am shift, so the app kicked me off the shift. I contemplated turning back to just relax and not bother working for the day. I f'n thought about it, then said, dammit gotta eat bro... I fucked myself.
Now I don't want to bother and they freakin need people down there running food to wealthy white people. They get tons of orders, such a waste of earning potential because there's no conceievable way to truly get all that shit spread to the apartments since there's no parking worth shit. I can imagine if they provided quick electric mopeds they'd get all that crap done in no time at all. But sadly they're stupid.
Sad, I'm just not even wanting to bother. Sunday's the only day I can bother with since you can actually find spots on a sunday because for whatever reason they allow much more parking on that day, but I'm still worried because I simply don't earn enough for it to make sense risking a ticket...
Run over someone, you probably pay less in the end...
Wednesday, October 11, 2017
apparently found a phone belonging to a missing person
Such a strange turn of events. I find a phone in the woods where I go to shoot static shock. Turns out after some investigation of the phone it belongs to a missing woman. I couldn't figure out why the phone was there left all by its own next to a pile of trash as a big kinda ashy circle pit burned next to it, some sort of fire had been made and gone out... Then a freakin detective calls the phone. This stuff was reported to the police. I pick it up and the dude's insistent on getting the phone back asap. Drives all the way here to get the phone. This is serious. I feel awful that maybe she's freakin dead. I hope not, seemed like a nice old lady. Nothing on the phone worth scrap and I was thinking if no one wanted the damn thing, well, free phone, but I did what I thought I'd want someone to do if I lost my phone (which I did.) Had no idea it's part of an ongoing missing person investigation. Got to give it to the detectives, they are doing their jobs and trying to find her. God be with them, may this all turn out not so bad. All I know, is that I didn't see her or anyone around the area where I found the phone. I thought it was a homeless guy that left it there. Damn shame, I don't know. It's possible to get lost in the park, but not such a huge park that it's impossible to some how make it back to the streets guided by sound or just walking long enough... so sad. I mean, it's a scooby clue in the right direction. Now that they know where she was, they can concentrate their efforts in finding her better, who knows...
Thawtz on the current woman grabbing issue
I'm sorta on the fence about the topic to be honest. The basic primal level response people are having is lynch the guy weinstein for abusing women. It's a crucifiction thing going on. And I was thinking about it while I was out in the park shooting for static, (today's shot was the toughest shot to get, but I got it, very satisfied with the outcome...) I mean yeah, I don't think ANYONE should be made to feel uncomfortable and sexually abused, period.
But I'm not stupid. I've been learning about the opposite sex for a few years now. Women are complicated. It's not a black and white issue. Some girls won't give a guy a chance in hell with her if he's not sexually alpha male-ish and dominant and basically taking charge of her. It's like natural in nature, same with humans. Women want a guy who's a tough aggressive power house guy.
So on one hand I agree, it's wrong what he did. On the other, it's how men get women, so how can I look down on it?
The thing I often do is switch the racial equation around. What would happen if this story was about a black guy abusing black women. Would anyone even give a shit? Or would they look at it as a "that's black people, moving on..." scenario.
You got to think that way. I know there are black people in this world who are whiter than the whitest white person alive and don't honestly think of themselves as being black and seperate from the normal regular society, but that's the reality, that's the way it is. You have to be aware of it. And yeah, if he was black, it'd be a different convo that's for sure.
I mean I was thinking about it... If a woman of any race accused a black guy of touching her and abusing her, that's a wrap for him. No trial, no jury, no doubt, it's over. He's getting raped in jail.
That's the strangest thing, but yeah, I'm thinking this weinstein guy REALLY does deserve the backlash he's getting. He knew he could get away with it, problem is, he did it too much. Now there are so many who are able to target him now, he can't get away with it and has to take it. That's just, wow. When stuff like this happens, when powerful white guys actually get justice served to them, I'm just shocked by it. Hopefully we get Mr. Pussy Grab getting the same justice, but it's going to be a mountain to climb. He's white, that shit alone is going to give him a free pass in life, sad to say... sad that things are so awesome in this world for white people that they have the potential to get away with anything, so sad. I see white people all the time now that I get around more, nothing fucking special about them. This bullshit needs to goddamn stop.
Overall though, a LITTLE bit of sexual tension and provocation between males and females is no crime, A LITTLE. I don't feel bad about being sexually aggresive to a girl at all. I felt justified when I did it. I mean, it's the only friggin way they respond to you and give you a second thought as a potential boyfriend. Girls are idiots, can't just be cool, like to play games like that. But don't over do it, don't go grabbing up tits and ass like a psychopath... gotta play it delicately, not like a unstable retard about it... so that's all my thoughts.
I don't fully hate on aggresive males who are trying to break the bitch shield girls pull up. But yeah this guy went too far, felt being white, and wealthy meant he could do whatever he wanted and now he's learning there's a price to pay, which is good...
But I'm not stupid. I've been learning about the opposite sex for a few years now. Women are complicated. It's not a black and white issue. Some girls won't give a guy a chance in hell with her if he's not sexually alpha male-ish and dominant and basically taking charge of her. It's like natural in nature, same with humans. Women want a guy who's a tough aggressive power house guy.
So on one hand I agree, it's wrong what he did. On the other, it's how men get women, so how can I look down on it?
The thing I often do is switch the racial equation around. What would happen if this story was about a black guy abusing black women. Would anyone even give a shit? Or would they look at it as a "that's black people, moving on..." scenario.
You got to think that way. I know there are black people in this world who are whiter than the whitest white person alive and don't honestly think of themselves as being black and seperate from the normal regular society, but that's the reality, that's the way it is. You have to be aware of it. And yeah, if he was black, it'd be a different convo that's for sure.
I mean I was thinking about it... If a woman of any race accused a black guy of touching her and abusing her, that's a wrap for him. No trial, no jury, no doubt, it's over. He's getting raped in jail.
That's the strangest thing, but yeah, I'm thinking this weinstein guy REALLY does deserve the backlash he's getting. He knew he could get away with it, problem is, he did it too much. Now there are so many who are able to target him now, he can't get away with it and has to take it. That's just, wow. When stuff like this happens, when powerful white guys actually get justice served to them, I'm just shocked by it. Hopefully we get Mr. Pussy Grab getting the same justice, but it's going to be a mountain to climb. He's white, that shit alone is going to give him a free pass in life, sad to say... sad that things are so awesome in this world for white people that they have the potential to get away with anything, so sad. I see white people all the time now that I get around more, nothing fucking special about them. This bullshit needs to goddamn stop.
Overall though, a LITTLE bit of sexual tension and provocation between males and females is no crime, A LITTLE. I don't feel bad about being sexually aggresive to a girl at all. I felt justified when I did it. I mean, it's the only friggin way they respond to you and give you a second thought as a potential boyfriend. Girls are idiots, can't just be cool, like to play games like that. But don't over do it, don't go grabbing up tits and ass like a psychopath... gotta play it delicately, not like a unstable retard about it... so that's all my thoughts.
I don't fully hate on aggresive males who are trying to break the bitch shield girls pull up. But yeah this guy went too far, felt being white, and wealthy meant he could do whatever he wanted and now he's learning there's a price to pay, which is good...
Tuesday, October 10, 2017
Blade Runner 2049
Where to begin... It's a perfectly good followup, perhaps the only way they could have followed from the first.. so overall it's just like the first movie... That's both a good and bad thing I guess since blade runner is an extremely divisive and somewhat artistically complicated film to many... Flawed masterpiece. This plot of the new movie is essentially children of Blade Runner, chasing to find the miracle birth last child of the replicants. Yep, the replicants have the ability to reproduce a new design only Tyrell knew the secret to and the key to understanding how to do it is in the one replicant who was born, not made. The future of everything rides on finding the born replicant.
I don't know if I should spoil it or not.... but definitely go see it and get the theatrical experience, Probably better in 3D, don't know.... but there's hardly any big epic action scenes that demand 3D so I wouldn't bother with that.
It's just an exausting film. One that I'm gonna wager not many will pop in and watch on repeat, same as the first blade runner. I can't watch and watch and watch that movie for any amount of time. It's too damn weird and artsy if that makes sense.
Interesting though how they brought back Gaff in this... I think it'd have been interesting to have more of him in it. That's the film's greatest fumbles I guess, it brings up an interesting thing, then because the actor who played Gaff can't possibly do action or anything anymore, his scene is a one and done cameo nothing more. But oh does it open up so many thoughts about what gaff's role in Deckard's life was, how much does he know about Rachel's purpose... none of that is shown. He puts a origami cow or something on the table. WTF is that about...
Is deckard a replicant is the question I wanted answered. It's the point of the film really, to say "it doesn't matter." Replicants are humans too, even if Deckard was, we're shown by Ryan Gosling's character that replicants can BE like humans and have similar struggles with their emotions.
His character is actually the thing that makes the movie and I felt for him when he was struggling with all the choices about who he was. The point of the film is to kinda follow a robot around as it deals with being treated as a paper cup. We're put in Batty's shoes for the first time in this movie, a genius concept. Looking at life from the perspective of a replicant. We get to know him. We get to see him HOPE to have been an anomaly and WANT to be more than a paper cup. In the end of the movie, the brilliant thing about it, is that it makes US the audience LOOK at him as more than a paper cup, that's the genius of the movie.
I don't know how to interpret Ryan's last bit in the movie before he retires, let's say, is he wondering if his actions and choices were his own or was he just following orders put into him by the person who gave him his memories. He at the end doesn't fully know if what he felt and wanted and hoped for was real or if he was just going through his programming, but overall he did feel love and Deckard acknowledges that Replicants can feel love and he shows him such compassion at the end of the movie. I liked how Gosling played this role. He goes from being this robotic emotionless replicant, to more human than human by the end of the film, solidifying the film's message.
Anyway, yeah it's up there man. It's a well crafted, deep meaningful art film. It's an art film. It's not a blockbuster at all. I don't know for shit why they expected it to do gangbuster numbers, that'll never happen for art films.
But at least it's not fucking judge dredd or whatever other blade runner knock off movie... And I'm not talking about the new judge dredd movie, that one's actually sweet shit, no the old 90s dredd. That's the movie they wanted to make as the sequel to blade runner, but the director of this film wanted it to be GOOD and a worthy sequel. I believe in time people will see this one as such. For now it's a big expensive failed experiment. Bravo to all involved. Your work has not gone on deaf ears. Some of us understood.
I don't know if I should spoil it or not.... but definitely go see it and get the theatrical experience, Probably better in 3D, don't know.... but there's hardly any big epic action scenes that demand 3D so I wouldn't bother with that.
It's just an exausting film. One that I'm gonna wager not many will pop in and watch on repeat, same as the first blade runner. I can't watch and watch and watch that movie for any amount of time. It's too damn weird and artsy if that makes sense.
Interesting though how they brought back Gaff in this... I think it'd have been interesting to have more of him in it. That's the film's greatest fumbles I guess, it brings up an interesting thing, then because the actor who played Gaff can't possibly do action or anything anymore, his scene is a one and done cameo nothing more. But oh does it open up so many thoughts about what gaff's role in Deckard's life was, how much does he know about Rachel's purpose... none of that is shown. He puts a origami cow or something on the table. WTF is that about...
Is deckard a replicant is the question I wanted answered. It's the point of the film really, to say "it doesn't matter." Replicants are humans too, even if Deckard was, we're shown by Ryan Gosling's character that replicants can BE like humans and have similar struggles with their emotions.
His character is actually the thing that makes the movie and I felt for him when he was struggling with all the choices about who he was. The point of the film is to kinda follow a robot around as it deals with being treated as a paper cup. We're put in Batty's shoes for the first time in this movie, a genius concept. Looking at life from the perspective of a replicant. We get to know him. We get to see him HOPE to have been an anomaly and WANT to be more than a paper cup. In the end of the movie, the brilliant thing about it, is that it makes US the audience LOOK at him as more than a paper cup, that's the genius of the movie.
I don't know how to interpret Ryan's last bit in the movie before he retires, let's say, is he wondering if his actions and choices were his own or was he just following orders put into him by the person who gave him his memories. He at the end doesn't fully know if what he felt and wanted and hoped for was real or if he was just going through his programming, but overall he did feel love and Deckard acknowledges that Replicants can feel love and he shows him such compassion at the end of the movie. I liked how Gosling played this role. He goes from being this robotic emotionless replicant, to more human than human by the end of the film, solidifying the film's message.
Anyway, yeah it's up there man. It's a well crafted, deep meaningful art film. It's an art film. It's not a blockbuster at all. I don't know for shit why they expected it to do gangbuster numbers, that'll never happen for art films.
But at least it's not fucking judge dredd or whatever other blade runner knock off movie... And I'm not talking about the new judge dredd movie, that one's actually sweet shit, no the old 90s dredd. That's the movie they wanted to make as the sequel to blade runner, but the director of this film wanted it to be GOOD and a worthy sequel. I believe in time people will see this one as such. For now it's a big expensive failed experiment. Bravo to all involved. Your work has not gone on deaf ears. Some of us understood.
Monday, October 9, 2017
Last Jedi Star Fighter Trailer has dropped
Interesting... kinda a weird ass trailer, gonna be blunt about it. No sense of awe and wonder and delight at being in this new amazing place or anything, which is kinda the point of star wars, taking us deep into a galaxy far far away. The opening text is partially what really drives star wars. It's pure fantasy and tries its best to divorce itself from any link to our world.
But Hamill owns in it. The story is what the hell am I watching. I just don't feel it. We'll see if it's worth a damn, nothing visually stunning about it. As many have pointed out the cgi is in your face awful. To me it's looking too clean and prequelish. Gotta hand it to the OT, they didn't fuck around when it came to making the world look ancient and full of grit and scratches and dents to sell the illusion of this being a real old universe where something happened to these characters we'll never see.
We get none of that long worn out history going any more. Everything is clean and new and nice like the prequels, good job there.
I guess I'm being too harsh on it? Don't know, but star wars is not kiddie hour, it's big business, gotta do it properly.
So, the beta for battlefront will still be going until wednesday.... guess they realized cutting the beta short right when star wars hype was about to blow up was stupid.... Thankfully it allows me time to get more into the beta than I had time for, now I can relax tomorrow and just play all day in it as I take a break from delivering stupid groceries.
Well, this is interesting, more questions than answers though. I hope it's going to be a really great one, lord knows I need that, my star wars to be great.
And going to go see blade runner tomorrow as well. All signs point to it being a bomb. Shame. shame, not going to make studios want to create thought provoking movies and that's problematic...
We need more blade runners and less transformers, that's the truth.... see ya at the movies...
But Hamill owns in it. The story is what the hell am I watching. I just don't feel it. We'll see if it's worth a damn, nothing visually stunning about it. As many have pointed out the cgi is in your face awful. To me it's looking too clean and prequelish. Gotta hand it to the OT, they didn't fuck around when it came to making the world look ancient and full of grit and scratches and dents to sell the illusion of this being a real old universe where something happened to these characters we'll never see.
We get none of that long worn out history going any more. Everything is clean and new and nice like the prequels, good job there.
I guess I'm being too harsh on it? Don't know, but star wars is not kiddie hour, it's big business, gotta do it properly.
So, the beta for battlefront will still be going until wednesday.... guess they realized cutting the beta short right when star wars hype was about to blow up was stupid.... Thankfully it allows me time to get more into the beta than I had time for, now I can relax tomorrow and just play all day in it as I take a break from delivering stupid groceries.
Well, this is interesting, more questions than answers though. I hope it's going to be a really great one, lord knows I need that, my star wars to be great.
And going to go see blade runner tomorrow as well. All signs point to it being a bomb. Shame. shame, not going to make studios want to create thought provoking movies and that's problematic...
We need more blade runners and less transformers, that's the truth.... see ya at the movies...
Sunday, October 8, 2017
Instafart
Got in with them. It's all I can hope for to muster up some bread and butter apparently. It's hard to describe the job. It's not impossible to accomplish. It's just tough in the sense that you can't easily navigate Manhattan. I can imagine pulling this gig in a less crowded metropolis would be so much nicer.
But I actually like it. People are nice when you get there, it's like not bad really. You help others out who are trying to shop and feed their families. Simple, straight forward stuff.
Of course a few lazy people don't want to go shop themselves.
I can tell you all this though. When you order food and stuff, it's not hand picked and then privately nicely sent to your door at all. It's packaged up and shelved and put in a fridge or freezer next to a bunch of other people's orders. It's VERY EASY to miss a bag for someone, or to take the wrong bag.
The app today did not tell me that I missed a bag so I wasted time going back to get it, that kind of thing happens... Truth be told, yeah I must have scanned it then left it by accident. The app is flawed though and will need to be updated. The slider that allows you to check off that you finished an order needs a prompt that asks you if you want to confirm finishing an order, or else like today I swiped it by accident and it told the customer that I delivered the thing but I was still out looking for the address. Got the goddamn company calling me because the customer called about it. WELL, how about a prompt. You don't just hit the off button on your computer and it turns off. It asks you if you really mean it...
Not a fan of manhattan, too many damn rich people living there, not something I'm used to seeing or being around, maddening to be me running around manhattan all night. Not something I enjoy.... I mean it's like being poor man surrounded by gold. Yeah I won't lie. I wouldn't mind smashing some of all the goddamn sexy women walking around half naked down there, hell yeah... Just to me, it's not funny. Cover the f up. Gonna mess up drivers trying to concentrate because OH MY GOD, such hotness... jesus christ. I don't know maybe I'm getting old, but yeah it does kinda make me wonder how those girls were raised to basically end up in life trying to be walking talking porn stars for all to see... then I remember I've never met a sane female in my life... not surprised...
Oh well, it's the simplicity that I like about it. It's straight forward, no punch in, no bullcrap supervisor up your ass. You go, deliver, then just piss off and go home. That's how all jobs should work. Don't get personal, just knock it out and bounce. Why is that so hard to get in life... will be hopefully making decent bread and moving forward with my plans to advance towards a CDL license and Taxi license, so I'll always have that to fall back on in the future. This is definitely a nice platform to use to jump towards better jobs if you're interested in trying it.
But I actually like it. People are nice when you get there, it's like not bad really. You help others out who are trying to shop and feed their families. Simple, straight forward stuff.
Of course a few lazy people don't want to go shop themselves.
I can tell you all this though. When you order food and stuff, it's not hand picked and then privately nicely sent to your door at all. It's packaged up and shelved and put in a fridge or freezer next to a bunch of other people's orders. It's VERY EASY to miss a bag for someone, or to take the wrong bag.
The app today did not tell me that I missed a bag so I wasted time going back to get it, that kind of thing happens... Truth be told, yeah I must have scanned it then left it by accident. The app is flawed though and will need to be updated. The slider that allows you to check off that you finished an order needs a prompt that asks you if you want to confirm finishing an order, or else like today I swiped it by accident and it told the customer that I delivered the thing but I was still out looking for the address. Got the goddamn company calling me because the customer called about it. WELL, how about a prompt. You don't just hit the off button on your computer and it turns off. It asks you if you really mean it...
Not a fan of manhattan, too many damn rich people living there, not something I'm used to seeing or being around, maddening to be me running around manhattan all night. Not something I enjoy.... I mean it's like being poor man surrounded by gold. Yeah I won't lie. I wouldn't mind smashing some of all the goddamn sexy women walking around half naked down there, hell yeah... Just to me, it's not funny. Cover the f up. Gonna mess up drivers trying to concentrate because OH MY GOD, such hotness... jesus christ. I don't know maybe I'm getting old, but yeah it does kinda make me wonder how those girls were raised to basically end up in life trying to be walking talking porn stars for all to see... then I remember I've never met a sane female in my life... not surprised...
Oh well, it's the simplicity that I like about it. It's straight forward, no punch in, no bullcrap supervisor up your ass. You go, deliver, then just piss off and go home. That's how all jobs should work. Don't get personal, just knock it out and bounce. Why is that so hard to get in life... will be hopefully making decent bread and moving forward with my plans to advance towards a CDL license and Taxi license, so I'll always have that to fall back on in the future. This is definitely a nice platform to use to jump towards better jobs if you're interested in trying it.
Friday, October 6, 2017
star wars battlefront 2 beta thawtz
Not bad. I'm having fun with it. Ship controls are still awful. Why not just completely steal the controls from the old bf, or freakin battlefield, you guys made that game, the controls are awesome in that...
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But it's a step in the right direction. Most enjoyable is that it's not a hunt for tolkens, it's about hunting the enemy for points, period. That's the game. It's brutal really. You either kill or don't get paid. Me being a bf veteran, I've quickly learned how to get good at it, but yeah it's difficult to get to that point. Don't give up on it, it does get better once you learn how to be patient and don't rambo your way through the map trying to get kills that way. The secret is simply use team work and turrets, and tons of cover, and luck... But yeah I've discovered a group of the officer class together in one squad is just a beast since officers give each other health, just hang with another officer and he'll help you, you help him, it's how to win really...
Looks really good. Sadly it's still not going to make me forget how genius BF2 was. Whole nother level that bitch... Vehicles on the map. Wampas running around. Fun little easter eggs all over the map. We're on Naboo, and there's no gungans running around to potentially shoot? Did they even watch the movies?
That's the problem with the EA star wars, they're not having fun with it and honoring the star wars history. I remember star wars games that despite having flaws, felt like mini celebrations of star wars and that's what I personally loved about them. They were made with love. EA bf seems to be made with statistics and numbers and sales expectations... Not a fanboyish glee at getting to play a star wars freakin game in the modern era with all the potential to actually DO what we've only dreamed of. Darth Maul can't fuckin back flip? The health bars are still not Lightsabers? FUCK YOU on that one... It's star wars videogame tradition. I'm sick of them ignoring that.
But it's good. I enjoy it. It's just more and more feeling like what I guess it really always has been, a star wars mod slapped on top of battlefield. Oh well... we'll see what the final thing is like.
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But it's a step in the right direction. Most enjoyable is that it's not a hunt for tolkens, it's about hunting the enemy for points, period. That's the game. It's brutal really. You either kill or don't get paid. Me being a bf veteran, I've quickly learned how to get good at it, but yeah it's difficult to get to that point. Don't give up on it, it does get better once you learn how to be patient and don't rambo your way through the map trying to get kills that way. The secret is simply use team work and turrets, and tons of cover, and luck... But yeah I've discovered a group of the officer class together in one squad is just a beast since officers give each other health, just hang with another officer and he'll help you, you help him, it's how to win really...
Looks really good. Sadly it's still not going to make me forget how genius BF2 was. Whole nother level that bitch... Vehicles on the map. Wampas running around. Fun little easter eggs all over the map. We're on Naboo, and there's no gungans running around to potentially shoot? Did they even watch the movies?
That's the problem with the EA star wars, they're not having fun with it and honoring the star wars history. I remember star wars games that despite having flaws, felt like mini celebrations of star wars and that's what I personally loved about them. They were made with love. EA bf seems to be made with statistics and numbers and sales expectations... Not a fanboyish glee at getting to play a star wars freakin game in the modern era with all the potential to actually DO what we've only dreamed of. Darth Maul can't fuckin back flip? The health bars are still not Lightsabers? FUCK YOU on that one... It's star wars videogame tradition. I'm sick of them ignoring that.
But it's good. I enjoy it. It's just more and more feeling like what I guess it really always has been, a star wars mod slapped on top of battlefield. Oh well... we'll see what the final thing is like.
Monday, October 2, 2017
Bloody Hell
That's just wow. I mean I can't imagine being there amongst the chaos as it went down. Only craziness I've been apart of is airport craziness where especially during snow anything can kill you. I actually have been to vegas once, gorgeous place, absolutely amazing place, walked around, then went back to NY. Did it all in an afternoon. It was just something to do. When you work for an airline, the whole world is your playground.
So sad, and yesterday was a rare nice day of no troublesome thoughts and me providing a little bit of fun from my editing skills for a project Alyson Court requested, now this? Beyond wtf.
There's a lot of speculation about why this asshole did this. The top one which is what some very freaky people want is for it to be an ISIS attack, so they can use this horrible attack as a political fuel for their agenda... just disgraceful bottom feeding nonsense.
Even if it was ISIS, that's besides the point. The point is people are dead, hundreds injured, the country weeps...
But apparently it's not them, it's just him, his psychotic breakdown and wanting to go out in life with a blaze of glory and take as many innocent lives with him as he could.
I've asked myself all my life, why are some people so damn evil? What's the reward for just waking up in the morning and going out to cause trouble and shit on other people's lives? I DON'T KNOW... I don't get it. And perhaps I never will.
I can't understand this person's actions at all. It's just senseless. Like if someone just decided to randomly drive a car into a group of school kids or something. Doesn't make an inch of sense....
I'd prefer a reason myself. Just he had a bad day, lost his job, got rejected from a girl, whatever. That's what's killing me.
And he's white. I'll admit this. I immediately wanted to know his race because then that would change all the talk about this. If he was brown in any capacity, he'd be labeled straight out of the ISIS camps fresh and came here from his birth to commit this act or something. But no, home grown, 100% american white guy with all the freedoms being white gives you committing this shit... wtf... Are you white people ok? What's going on? Put the guns down grab some titties and get back to being wealthy and having a good life... stop it...
I mean if he was black or brown or whatever, the immediate response would be, oh, he's attacking whites.... Interesting that one guy on twitter laid out for everyone how the right-wing media will spin this, that he was influenced by isis, that his friend was brown and she had something to do with it, or he was just mentally ill and it shouldn't cast a bad light on the white image at all.
There is no white image. It's a human image. And humans are fucked up. Race is not a safe indicator at all of someone's potential to commit murder or any kind of heinous crimes...
People are a complex strange thing, my friend. Doesn't take much to make a normal person snap and go insane.
Thing is, like, I'm thinking, ok if he was black, nobody would even begin thinking about mental illness, they'd just know... they'd know why he did it... cuz he has to be black dealing with the white world, simple... Nobody would be surprised by a black man wilding out and shooting up places, but it rarely happens. Why the flying hell are black people chillin and not shootin up the place, and every other race above them is guns blazing all day... somebody tell me why this is, I'd love to know, it boggles my mind....
Anyway, what a story to wake up too, horrendous what's happening in the country lately. We will get to the bottom of why this guy did this. I'll be impressed if the media finds ways to not defend his actions, that's for sure.
So sad, and yesterday was a rare nice day of no troublesome thoughts and me providing a little bit of fun from my editing skills for a project Alyson Court requested, now this? Beyond wtf.
There's a lot of speculation about why this asshole did this. The top one which is what some very freaky people want is for it to be an ISIS attack, so they can use this horrible attack as a political fuel for their agenda... just disgraceful bottom feeding nonsense.
Even if it was ISIS, that's besides the point. The point is people are dead, hundreds injured, the country weeps...
But apparently it's not them, it's just him, his psychotic breakdown and wanting to go out in life with a blaze of glory and take as many innocent lives with him as he could.
I've asked myself all my life, why are some people so damn evil? What's the reward for just waking up in the morning and going out to cause trouble and shit on other people's lives? I DON'T KNOW... I don't get it. And perhaps I never will.
I can't understand this person's actions at all. It's just senseless. Like if someone just decided to randomly drive a car into a group of school kids or something. Doesn't make an inch of sense....
I'd prefer a reason myself. Just he had a bad day, lost his job, got rejected from a girl, whatever. That's what's killing me.
And he's white. I'll admit this. I immediately wanted to know his race because then that would change all the talk about this. If he was brown in any capacity, he'd be labeled straight out of the ISIS camps fresh and came here from his birth to commit this act or something. But no, home grown, 100% american white guy with all the freedoms being white gives you committing this shit... wtf... Are you white people ok? What's going on? Put the guns down grab some titties and get back to being wealthy and having a good life... stop it...
I mean if he was black or brown or whatever, the immediate response would be, oh, he's attacking whites.... Interesting that one guy on twitter laid out for everyone how the right-wing media will spin this, that he was influenced by isis, that his friend was brown and she had something to do with it, or he was just mentally ill and it shouldn't cast a bad light on the white image at all.
There is no white image. It's a human image. And humans are fucked up. Race is not a safe indicator at all of someone's potential to commit murder or any kind of heinous crimes...
People are a complex strange thing, my friend. Doesn't take much to make a normal person snap and go insane.
Thing is, like, I'm thinking, ok if he was black, nobody would even begin thinking about mental illness, they'd just know... they'd know why he did it... cuz he has to be black dealing with the white world, simple... Nobody would be surprised by a black man wilding out and shooting up places, but it rarely happens. Why the flying hell are black people chillin and not shootin up the place, and every other race above them is guns blazing all day... somebody tell me why this is, I'd love to know, it boggles my mind....
Anyway, what a story to wake up too, horrendous what's happening in the country lately. We will get to the bottom of why this guy did this. I'll be impressed if the media finds ways to not defend his actions, that's for sure.
Sunday, October 1, 2017
M. Night shoots Glass tomorrow.
Today actually since it's midnight.
He's no doubt kinda feeling the that little bit of trepidation about these kinds of projects. I do my own stuff with a sense of "just do it" as Shia would say. I'm a comic book artist at heart. I'm not a high artist, someone who's trying to seek perfection. I don't mind flawed shitty art. That's how I started my drawings. I didn't care if it was good. I just did it. Got the point across that I wanted. But now as I've gotten older, I do lean more towards trying to create quality stuff that pushes boundaries and makes me better as I have to tackle something harder.
My plans are to actually get heavily into digital art more than pen and paper. Jim Lee will say pen and paper is more real and tangible, absolutely but I've always believed digital was where I personally should focus my skills on. I want to do animations so bad, love doing those. I mean, I love cartoons so much.
Anyway, just wanted to wish M. Night luck. Don't fuck up my unbreakable, please. You can't do that to me.
As for what my post is truly about. I want to discuss Static Shock's Hair style.
You may have noticed in my vids, who am I kidding, nobody's watching my vids. Oh well.. anyway in them, my hair is all over the map. Sometimes looking good some times loooking mega dry as hell.
One would then wonder what's that supposed to look like, doesn't static sport dread locks?
Ah ha. Truth be told I did consider this, and indeed most of the static fan films have him in dreads and the cartoon itself looks like dreads especially on older static.
I've decided to just go with my own natural hair and to hell with dreads... why? Because it's legit.
I'll hopefully be shooting a ton of footage tomorrow. Get a lot of the heavy harder scenes to shoot out of the way and off my chest, then stay on a hard diet to lose weight to shoot the super saiyan static scene when I get the opportunity...
Yeah, I mean I've been trying to eat little and lose weight all these weeks, but it's tough and I can only hope to use October to drop a significant amount of weight then hopefully have enough decent green left and leaves to get the shot done and not have to worry about it anymore. My goal is to have a six pack in that shot. I'm not even wanting beast mode muscle, just drop this belly fat and let my abs poke through so it has that going on...
Ugh, we'll see....
He's no doubt kinda feeling the that little bit of trepidation about these kinds of projects. I do my own stuff with a sense of "just do it" as Shia would say. I'm a comic book artist at heart. I'm not a high artist, someone who's trying to seek perfection. I don't mind flawed shitty art. That's how I started my drawings. I didn't care if it was good. I just did it. Got the point across that I wanted. But now as I've gotten older, I do lean more towards trying to create quality stuff that pushes boundaries and makes me better as I have to tackle something harder.
My plans are to actually get heavily into digital art more than pen and paper. Jim Lee will say pen and paper is more real and tangible, absolutely but I've always believed digital was where I personally should focus my skills on. I want to do animations so bad, love doing those. I mean, I love cartoons so much.
Anyway, just wanted to wish M. Night luck. Don't fuck up my unbreakable, please. You can't do that to me.
As for what my post is truly about. I want to discuss Static Shock's Hair style.
You may have noticed in my vids, who am I kidding, nobody's watching my vids. Oh well.. anyway in them, my hair is all over the map. Sometimes looking good some times loooking mega dry as hell.
One would then wonder what's that supposed to look like, doesn't static sport dread locks?
Ah ha. Truth be told I did consider this, and indeed most of the static fan films have him in dreads and the cartoon itself looks like dreads especially on older static.
I've decided to just go with my own natural hair and to hell with dreads... why? Because it's legit.
I've actually read the entire original run of static shock before he moved to DC comics and New York in those issues. His hair was drawn like this. Prettymuch a curly choppy style to it. No dreads in sight. And that's what my hair will depict in the movie. So if you wanted the dread lock version, I ain't going to provide that, sorry.
On that note, do I personally think I look like the static from the comic? No. I'm regrettably fatter and lighter skin tone than he actually is supposed to have. Facially too I don't really think I fit him as well as I might have at 15 which is what Virgil is supposed to be. I'm f'n 31 but damn blackness keeps me from aging at the same pace as everyone else so I can kinda fake being 15. It's like, I don't straight up look like a 31 year old guy if you don't pay attention.
Yeah, I mean I've been trying to eat little and lose weight all these weeks, but it's tough and I can only hope to use October to drop a significant amount of weight then hopefully have enough decent green left and leaves to get the shot done and not have to worry about it anymore. My goal is to have a six pack in that shot. I'm not even wanting beast mode muscle, just drop this belly fat and let my abs poke through so it has that going on...
Ugh, we'll see....
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