I'm 27 years old now. But I honestly got to say it's not the end of the world like I thought it was going to be.
I've hit on how to lose weight now. Problem is, I should have learned this back at around 16 or at least 19, not 27.
This is a rough age. It really is. Especially if you're still trying to get your dick in a girl. I never would have even begun to conceptualize that I'd have so much drama in my life at this age, but we live in the digital era now. Which means that EVERYBODY KNOWS WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too much about someone elses life. And that's the problem.
You can't be up someones ass 24/7 like that. We all grew up not knowing what was going on in our neighbor's house. Or even better, we all prettymuch grew up not even having instant gratification in general. We had to be patient.
That's why I'm the way I am. I grew up in the non-digital age. I had to sit and read for hours. Contemplate deep subjects for school all day. I had to wait for the internet to get through the dial up process. I come from a time when you had to build a thick hide and grit your teeth and take the hard hits in life. Now we live in a really fast paced, "I want it done yesturday." Thin skinned little pussy shit of a world. Where you got people trying to follow you till the day you die because you hurt their little feelings... oohh nooesss....
Yeah, tough shit, motherfuckers... Get the fuck over it. It's a funny thing to go online and have some douche bag bully you and shit and He's thinking in his head that he's pushing someone around who's just this little nothing of a guy. Then the truth is, I'm not this little dinky dork of a guy really. I've been into fitness and gymnastics and I worked my ass off in school so I've got a decent mind on my shoulders. So that's the issue I have is that it's kinda like really annoying to constantly have people trying to belittle me, when I'm a tough son of a bitch. I've been through hell in my life, and came out the other end through pure iron will. So to have assholes trying to make me out to be this little wimp who can't hack the hard stuff, is very disrespectful. I'm not asking people to bow down before my greatness. But to completely ignore the fact that I'm not this complete shrimp who doesn't have any kind of toughness at all is absolutely unbelievable to me.
But no, Rocky's right. Just watch that scene in Rocky balboa.
It's the damn truth. I never really thought about it much but it's true. You will get beat by people in this world no matter how good you are or strong. People will try to shit on you. And it's a strange bedfellow.
Ultimately the world is like this because it's how business gets done. Don't be nice, it's not about being nice. It's about getting things and operations done, fast, efficiently, and smoothly. It's military.
Friday, November 29, 2013
Thursday, November 28, 2013
The Look, the subject matter
Ok here we go. I hope this goes down as well as I hope.
Like I said, I've been a space nut all my life. I know WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too much about Astronomy, more than people typically know and therefore I think I can probably spread some of my knowledge to the masses.
What do I know?
Well like I said I study physics and Astronomy for fun and I've learned some good shit.
I know what Perihelion is, Aphelion. Those are the furthest and closest points to the sun during a planetary objects orbit.
Well, I know there are 2 types of Supernovas. The difference between them is primarily the existence of hydrogen, which is detectable by Hydrogen spectral lines. These are rays of light which are given off by certain atoms which are detectable by Astronomers. Deep level shit that I can't even begin to understand. Go to MIT and learn that shit, kids...
Really The first topic I'll cover is Einsteins two theories on Relativity and what the fuck those were about. Because he made 2 of them on in 1905 and the other in 1915 if my memory is correct. The first being the Special Theory of Relativity. The second being the General. We'll cover both these in full in my first Video on the subject. What is Relativity, what fuck is einstein saying about the laws of space and time really... That's a goddamn good question. Well it simply postulates that the speed of light is constant. Space is equal to Time and are inseparable. And the velocity determines the mass of an object relative to the observer.
On to more interesting things. I'm going to design my look for the show. I want to grow my hair out and look like Doc Brown really if I had it my way. But I don't have hair right now. So by the time I start making this shit, I'll have short hair like a lesbian, but whatever. I'm going to look like that steve guy from blues clues only not a fag like he was.
Like I said, I've been a space nut all my life. I know WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too much about Astronomy, more than people typically know and therefore I think I can probably spread some of my knowledge to the masses.
What do I know?
Well like I said I study physics and Astronomy for fun and I've learned some good shit.
I know what Perihelion is, Aphelion. Those are the furthest and closest points to the sun during a planetary objects orbit.
Well, I know there are 2 types of Supernovas. The difference between them is primarily the existence of hydrogen, which is detectable by Hydrogen spectral lines. These are rays of light which are given off by certain atoms which are detectable by Astronomers. Deep level shit that I can't even begin to understand. Go to MIT and learn that shit, kids...
Really The first topic I'll cover is Einsteins two theories on Relativity and what the fuck those were about. Because he made 2 of them on in 1905 and the other in 1915 if my memory is correct. The first being the Special Theory of Relativity. The second being the General. We'll cover both these in full in my first Video on the subject. What is Relativity, what fuck is einstein saying about the laws of space and time really... That's a goddamn good question. Well it simply postulates that the speed of light is constant. Space is equal to Time and are inseparable. And the velocity determines the mass of an object relative to the observer.
On to more interesting things. I'm going to design my look for the show. I want to grow my hair out and look like Doc Brown really if I had it my way. But I don't have hair right now. So by the time I start making this shit, I'll have short hair like a lesbian, but whatever. I'm going to look like that steve guy from blues clues only not a fag like he was.
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Reorginizing the Blog
I'm going to change things from here forward. Like I said, I want to get into my passion in life, Aviation, Astronomy, Astro Physics. So from here forward I'll use the blog to detail the multiple topics I'll be covering in my new little Youtube show on Astronomy.
I want to teach kids about how the world works, and all that shit because I was taught how this shit works as a kid and I'd love to pass it on to the next generation in the same way just as those very good individuals did for me. I thank them emphatically for what they did for me as a child. Uh, it was a monumental experience to be a kid and then have people on tv like actually discussing things you find interesting and that's what kids are doing these days.
They're browsing the web constantly looking for shit that interest them. You may not like the fact that the internet is primarily occupied by children, but there's no getting around it. That's how I started. I began using the internet at 12 years old to look up a shit ton of things. Which is why it saddens me that OH I'm this bad guy online now. I've been on line for 15 years. I NEVER had any problems until OH let's tear this guy apart shit happened. And yunno I'm a veteran of the internet so I know how it works by now. I know that there are psychopaths just sitting around online, I'm not intimidated by them. I know that there's a lot of good that can come of the internet if we works together and educate each other and all that good stuff. So No, I'm not deterred by anything really since I've been online a fucking long time...it's my life to some degree. And we'll make something out of it in the end.
I meet kids at the ball park. I really think it's up my alley to be some kind of educator to kids. And it would please me greatly to help a child to learn a lot more about life than I ever did. So we'll find a way to pass on the lessons I've learned.
I don't know who's going to care, but I hope some point, the show gets watched. I know a lot of people are making youtube shows now and that's really the new TV when you get down to it. It's interesting to see how life has changed as people now have carte blanch to create whatever they want and braodcast it to the masses. Of course that's lead to a lot of ass fucking being shown to millions of kids across the world. But.. there's people who are doing other kind of shit for kids to watch too... And that's where I come in. I'm going to make a show that's going to be really awesome for kids. You bet your ass. It's going to be really like Sesame Street but not as gay in the end.
Ugh children. I like them and all, but they're assholes sometimes ugh, whatever...
I want to teach kids about how the world works, and all that shit because I was taught how this shit works as a kid and I'd love to pass it on to the next generation in the same way just as those very good individuals did for me. I thank them emphatically for what they did for me as a child. Uh, it was a monumental experience to be a kid and then have people on tv like actually discussing things you find interesting and that's what kids are doing these days.
They're browsing the web constantly looking for shit that interest them. You may not like the fact that the internet is primarily occupied by children, but there's no getting around it. That's how I started. I began using the internet at 12 years old to look up a shit ton of things. Which is why it saddens me that OH I'm this bad guy online now. I've been on line for 15 years. I NEVER had any problems until OH let's tear this guy apart shit happened. And yunno I'm a veteran of the internet so I know how it works by now. I know that there are psychopaths just sitting around online, I'm not intimidated by them. I know that there's a lot of good that can come of the internet if we works together and educate each other and all that good stuff. So No, I'm not deterred by anything really since I've been online a fucking long time...it's my life to some degree. And we'll make something out of it in the end.
I meet kids at the ball park. I really think it's up my alley to be some kind of educator to kids. And it would please me greatly to help a child to learn a lot more about life than I ever did. So we'll find a way to pass on the lessons I've learned.
I don't know who's going to care, but I hope some point, the show gets watched. I know a lot of people are making youtube shows now and that's really the new TV when you get down to it. It's interesting to see how life has changed as people now have carte blanch to create whatever they want and braodcast it to the masses. Of course that's lead to a lot of ass fucking being shown to millions of kids across the world. But.. there's people who are doing other kind of shit for kids to watch too... And that's where I come in. I'm going to make a show that's going to be really awesome for kids. You bet your ass. It's going to be really like Sesame Street but not as gay in the end.
Ugh children. I like them and all, but they're assholes sometimes ugh, whatever...
Getting in Shape
It's frustrating...
But at the same time exciting.
I'm on the yogurt diet now. Which is basically the same as the ketogenic diet, but with just eating yogurt all day.
Trying to quit jacking off but it's HARD. It's like, trying to quit fucking breathing, man. I wish I knew how to quit this SHIT. People just apparently slam ass every fucking day in this world. News to me...
It's so horrible that we're thrust into this life, and then it's pretty decent and then BOOM it's like all you want to do is fuck till the cows come home. What the fuck...
UGh......... alright, going to get my body THIN. That's all I want to do in my life now. I've always known I had a very thin physique . Unfortunately I didn't know how to maintain it until now.
So it's like, going to be a loooooooooong process to return my body to its original state of being very thin like I was in high school and of course years before that.
My body is an amazing thing. Even when I'm overweight, it remains very lean. You'll see it on my youtube page. Videos from years ago when I was really overweight , I still looked pretty thin. That's because I was born that way. I'm a skinny body type. But fuck me, I ruined myself with too much food.
I implore you guys out there, who are growing up and are younger than me to watch what you eat. It's not going to last, all that nice ripe young teenage body you got. It's like, once you hit around 19 your shits going to start looking a lot less sexy.
But at the same time exciting.
I'm on the yogurt diet now. Which is basically the same as the ketogenic diet, but with just eating yogurt all day.
Trying to quit jacking off but it's HARD. It's like, trying to quit fucking breathing, man. I wish I knew how to quit this SHIT. People just apparently slam ass every fucking day in this world. News to me...
It's so horrible that we're thrust into this life, and then it's pretty decent and then BOOM it's like all you want to do is fuck till the cows come home. What the fuck...
UGh......... alright, going to get my body THIN. That's all I want to do in my life now. I've always known I had a very thin physique . Unfortunately I didn't know how to maintain it until now.
So it's like, going to be a loooooooooong process to return my body to its original state of being very thin like I was in high school and of course years before that.
My body is an amazing thing. Even when I'm overweight, it remains very lean. You'll see it on my youtube page. Videos from years ago when I was really overweight , I still looked pretty thin. That's because I was born that way. I'm a skinny body type. But fuck me, I ruined myself with too much food.
I implore you guys out there, who are growing up and are younger than me to watch what you eat. It's not going to last, all that nice ripe young teenage body you got. It's like, once you hit around 19 your shits going to start looking a lot less sexy.
Aicraft electric wheels
Looks like they finally decided to make planes with Motors in the wheels. This will be HUGE for airlines. Not only the savings, but the real issue a lot of the time as you marshal in an aircraft is usually the pilot having to push the engines to keep the plane moving towards the stopping mark. And if he overshoots the mark, he overshoots the mark. Another problem that actually happened is that a pilot didn't set his brakes, and the plane went crashing into the side of the terminal.
Don't know if it will eliminate pushback tugs all together. Probably not since having a pilot try to maneuver a plane backwards is not the best idea. But considering the amount of bullshit that has to go on to get a plane pushed back from a gate, I wouldn't put it past the airlines to try to eliminate having that shit go on...
But yeah they're trying to not use the engines anymore to get the planes to the runway and that will be monumental. So after a pilot lands now, he'll completely shut off the engine and just drive the plane like a car.
Great stuff... I always thought "wtf" why don't they just have planes have some kind of drive system like an electric car since it always seemed stupid to me that the plane uses the engines to drive itself forward and ultimately that means it can't ever reverse yunno..
but bigger brains than mine are behind this stuff.
It's like, really when you think about it, it's all about cost savings. Airlines used to pay out through the ass to create a truly luxorious experience for the passenger and that typcially meant that every aspect of the service was top of the line, pristine , emaculate. Now of course they're just running it like a business. And that means that if they can save money doing things cheaper, they'll save momey. And that means like for instance, they used to have motorized carpets inside the belly to truly make life easier for the baggage handler. Now they've gotten rid of those because it was costly to put those in aircraft I guess.
Oh well on the other side of the tracks. I've bought a water cooler now and I have a constant supply of fresh ice cold water all day. This is awesome. I like being me, always coming up with ways to make life better for myself...
So clever... Damn though went to flushing for the Airserv interview, gotta say there are some fucking HOT asian women in this world. Goddddddddddddddddaaaaaaaaaaamn.... Asians are fucking ridiculous. Yunno, just ooozing the sexiness. Saw this bitch and she just looked like fucking angel from heaven, body was built fucking ready to give some fucking birth bitch. She looked like a goddamn tank of ASS and TITTIES. Shit... wanted to do all kinds of shit to her ass...
ugh.
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
New project announcement...
One of the great things about Youtube at least in my experience with it beyond the multitude of nonsense, there's actually a group of people dedicated to putting up educational and informative videos that help people like myself learn how to use shit like after effects etc.
One of the things I'm personally most appreciative of in my life is that there have been many classy fucking people in this world dedicating their time to crafting really amazing educational programs which I've always enjoyed throughout my life.
It is what it is. Sadly I'm here, today a lesser person, but that doesn't downplay the extraordinary things I've witnessed as I grew up.
Like for instance, the astronaut show. I don't know if it was star gazers or whatever but some show came on all the time back around the time Apollo 13 came out and it made sense I suppose. Since they knew a crop of us kids were going to be space nuts after seeing that movie, they put shows on the air about space and astronomy.
So that's where my interest in the subject was born. And I still cling to it.
Well anyway, my plan is to actually create my own Astronomy show on youtube. Similar to the Bill Nye show I guess or Beakman's world. All I intend to do is to explore the multitude of complex subjects within the world of Astro Physics.
I suppose it's fate. My father was an Aircraft Engineer in the USAF. I too have his interest in Space, Aviation, and Astronomy. It's an interesting thing, to be a person who's just I suppose predestined towards a certain type of life.
It keeps me fucking sane, that's all I got to say on that. I'm getting lost in life. Life makes no sense to me now. I don't know what the fuck I'm here for anymore, I really don't. But things like this creating educational shit, really helps me get my head on straight.
If you REALLY wanted to know who I was, you wouldn't look at a forum. You'd look at a kid sitting down watching PBS and enjoying a program about Astronomy.
THAT'S who I am. I'm fucking goddamn nerd. That's all I've ever been. I don't understand why I have to suddenly change into something else now, yunno.
Fucked up thing too to be a nerdy guy. I can't even shut my brain off. It's constantly trying to calculate things. It's so fucking insane, I hate it...
One of the things I'm personally most appreciative of in my life is that there have been many classy fucking people in this world dedicating their time to crafting really amazing educational programs which I've always enjoyed throughout my life.
It is what it is. Sadly I'm here, today a lesser person, but that doesn't downplay the extraordinary things I've witnessed as I grew up.
Like for instance, the astronaut show. I don't know if it was star gazers or whatever but some show came on all the time back around the time Apollo 13 came out and it made sense I suppose. Since they knew a crop of us kids were going to be space nuts after seeing that movie, they put shows on the air about space and astronomy.
So that's where my interest in the subject was born. And I still cling to it.
Well anyway, my plan is to actually create my own Astronomy show on youtube. Similar to the Bill Nye show I guess or Beakman's world. All I intend to do is to explore the multitude of complex subjects within the world of Astro Physics.
I suppose it's fate. My father was an Aircraft Engineer in the USAF. I too have his interest in Space, Aviation, and Astronomy. It's an interesting thing, to be a person who's just I suppose predestined towards a certain type of life.
It keeps me fucking sane, that's all I got to say on that. I'm getting lost in life. Life makes no sense to me now. I don't know what the fuck I'm here for anymore, I really don't. But things like this creating educational shit, really helps me get my head on straight.
If you REALLY wanted to know who I was, you wouldn't look at a forum. You'd look at a kid sitting down watching PBS and enjoying a program about Astronomy.
THAT'S who I am. I'm fucking goddamn nerd. That's all I've ever been. I don't understand why I have to suddenly change into something else now, yunno.
Fucked up thing too to be a nerdy guy. I can't even shut my brain off. It's constantly trying to calculate things. It's so fucking insane, I hate it...
Sunday, November 24, 2013
God's will
I sit here thinking about life and how crazy life is. How people are and how they treat blacks and stuff. And I'm just overwhelmed by it. I don't know how to make sense of this world. It's rough stuff.
I am not really fully prepared for the rigors of life yet... but I'm 27 years old. I can die in combat. I can do all kinds of things and there's no real sympathy for me because I'm well beyond being a kid although I'm still a virgin.
Turns out that there's some politcal shit going on about losing virginity and when it should be done or shit.
I don't care. I just want to experience sex before I get way too old.
Hard to say to people, I would like to fuck a bitch, and then you got some asshole jumping out of the bushes and telling you no, you have to get married first or some shit.
Fuck that noise...
I can pull up video right now of some chick getting slammed in her ass and eating dick, what part of that looks like marriage?
But that's actually the real world. People are insane and will tell you to do something stupid with full seriousness. Yep.
I'm not going to be moved, son. No way. I'm a real man. I love girls. I want to just work a job, go home fuck my girl, that's it. I don't care what kind of bullshit you're trying to pull.
In the mean time though. I'm going to finish my projects that I'm working on. Sadly I don't know who my audience is. Nor do I care. I just believe in working hard on my personal projects and getting them completed.
I don't care about who's after me. I don't care about getting a normal life going. I don't care if people want to kill me either. None of that bothers me.
The only thing I care about is finishing my work. I'm who I am. They say it's called genius. I don't honestly want to put myself on that level. I just know that there's things I can do, so I do them and put the best foot forward if possible. It's fun, I enjoy it tremendously. It means more to me than anything in the world honestly, creating a good fucking piece of art.... yunno. I feel so good when it's finished and it works and looks great. That truly satisfies me beyond anything in this world.
So hate me all day. I have my projects to finish and that's what makes me happy.
I am not really fully prepared for the rigors of life yet... but I'm 27 years old. I can die in combat. I can do all kinds of things and there's no real sympathy for me because I'm well beyond being a kid although I'm still a virgin.
Turns out that there's some politcal shit going on about losing virginity and when it should be done or shit.
I don't care. I just want to experience sex before I get way too old.
Hard to say to people, I would like to fuck a bitch, and then you got some asshole jumping out of the bushes and telling you no, you have to get married first or some shit.
Fuck that noise...
I can pull up video right now of some chick getting slammed in her ass and eating dick, what part of that looks like marriage?
But that's actually the real world. People are insane and will tell you to do something stupid with full seriousness. Yep.
I'm not going to be moved, son. No way. I'm a real man. I love girls. I want to just work a job, go home fuck my girl, that's it. I don't care what kind of bullshit you're trying to pull.
In the mean time though. I'm going to finish my projects that I'm working on. Sadly I don't know who my audience is. Nor do I care. I just believe in working hard on my personal projects and getting them completed.
I don't care about who's after me. I don't care about getting a normal life going. I don't care if people want to kill me either. None of that bothers me.
The only thing I care about is finishing my work. I'm who I am. They say it's called genius. I don't honestly want to put myself on that level. I just know that there's things I can do, so I do them and put the best foot forward if possible. It's fun, I enjoy it tremendously. It means more to me than anything in the world honestly, creating a good fucking piece of art.... yunno. I feel so good when it's finished and it works and looks great. That truly satisfies me beyond anything in this world.
So hate me all day. I have my projects to finish and that's what makes me happy.
Saturday, November 23, 2013
Yogurt only diet
Going to try this out, see how it works.
Here's the deal. When you do a water diet, it shuts down your digestive system. So one of the perks is that you don't have to take a shit anymore. Which is great...
Fucked up diet though, makes you feel like complete shit the whole time.
So I figure if I eat yogurt, I'll get plenty of nutrients, and still won't have to take a shit since Yogurt's just going to melt in your stomach and become a liquid and come out as piss.
This has got to work...
Here's the deal. When you do a water diet, it shuts down your digestive system. So one of the perks is that you don't have to take a shit anymore. Which is great...
Fucked up diet though, makes you feel like complete shit the whole time.
So I figure if I eat yogurt, I'll get plenty of nutrients, and still won't have to take a shit since Yogurt's just going to melt in your stomach and become a liquid and come out as piss.
This has got to work...
Friday, November 22, 2013
Molding the body and all there is is Sex
Gotta say I made the right decision. I was thinking, hmm stay on the water diet or take in some protein and try to see how effective that is in fat loss.
I can't stress enough how important protein is in fat loss. Not only does it repair broken down muscle tissue after a workout, but it releases glucagon which actually initiates the fat burning process in the body's cells. So protein is THE thing to eat if you want to burn fat.
Going to try getting ripped if possible. I'd like to look better than I do, honestly. It'd be a boon in life, and ultimately personally satisfying if I could achieve the musculature that I've dreamt of since childhood days...
Thinking about what that dude said during bmt, about how there's nothing more to life but sex. Wow, why isn't that core curriculum in school. Just basically say to every kid, yanno, all those dreams you have, all those hopes, all those expecations, don't matter. All we are here to do is fuck. And if you're a fag, sucks to be you...
I wish I was told that earlier, wouldn't have done what I thought was right and stayed away from girls because now it's like, I'm this person who's stuck between worlds. Childhood and adulthood and there's nothing I can do to change it. And it's doubly hard to be stuck in this rut, when you got a lot of people concerned with who you're personally going to end up fucking at some point.
Yanno, I don't know. I will concede that I don't really know a damn thing about sex. I masturbate like anybody does. It's no fucking secret what we do as people. All races all over the world are slamming a girl's booty and she's loving it.
Problem is, it's like you clearly see a porn star getting fucked, but out here in reality, apparently nobody is fucking, which is of course not true. All those little teenagers and of course grown men and women are fucking all day if they can. Which is strange that we're still trying to live under that 50s leave it to beaver mindset, when you can easily find videos of a girl getting her ass impaled deep by a dude's dick. Yanno... it's like, why the hell are we trying still to this day to hide kids from what they'll eventually be doing at some point... Hopefully. You want them to turn gay? Or what?
I don't know man, it's a shock to me to have this constant need for sexual release. It's like, what the fuck... and I can't say no to it. IT's BIGGER than me.
I have to bow down and say I can't beat my sex drive. I really fucking can't. I can try all day. I'll just end up jacking off again...
And that really is disappointing about life, that I just end up BOOM all I want to do is fuck, that's it? Yanno... that's so retarded it's upside down... I believe there's something more to life. Education, greater heights, whatever... I always dreamt of doing and accomplishing MORE than just fucking my wife. Yeah, I did... I always considered myself to be someone who'd break the trend.
And maybe I will... That's the glimmer of hope that I still have left, the only thing that keeps me kinda sane amidst the madness is that I AM like this kinda super-human for staying out a female's body for this long.
it makes me feel like I'm better than ordinary people, like a super hero. But what the hell, if I had some ass in front of me right now, I'd fuck the shit out of it, without a moments hesitation. One of the worst parts of my life today vs as a kid is that I cannot go ANYWHERE at all without wanting to pounce onto a hot girl's body and fuck her senseless...
It's so hard to live like this. But I think it'll turn out for the best. Man, if you have a kid to worry about 24/7, it's a different thing. Yanno. But not me. I'm just hanging around working on my static movie, ghostbusters stuff, and eventually going to get a job again and hopefully I'll have gotten this body into the shape I intend.
That's what's actually GOOD about my life now is that I've finally figured out how to lose weight and get fit. I wish schools taught this but they don't, at least black schools. I can imagine you go to a white community and they don't play. They give you the raw deal, about every way possible to optimize your body's functioning through fitness and nutrition. Yanno... you darn tootin. It must piss white people off that they give their kids the world and some of them turn out fags or some shit. But hey, if you like dick in your butt you like dick in your butt...
I can't stress enough how important protein is in fat loss. Not only does it repair broken down muscle tissue after a workout, but it releases glucagon which actually initiates the fat burning process in the body's cells. So protein is THE thing to eat if you want to burn fat.
Going to try getting ripped if possible. I'd like to look better than I do, honestly. It'd be a boon in life, and ultimately personally satisfying if I could achieve the musculature that I've dreamt of since childhood days...
Thinking about what that dude said during bmt, about how there's nothing more to life but sex. Wow, why isn't that core curriculum in school. Just basically say to every kid, yanno, all those dreams you have, all those hopes, all those expecations, don't matter. All we are here to do is fuck. And if you're a fag, sucks to be you...
I wish I was told that earlier, wouldn't have done what I thought was right and stayed away from girls because now it's like, I'm this person who's stuck between worlds. Childhood and adulthood and there's nothing I can do to change it. And it's doubly hard to be stuck in this rut, when you got a lot of people concerned with who you're personally going to end up fucking at some point.
Yanno, I don't know. I will concede that I don't really know a damn thing about sex. I masturbate like anybody does. It's no fucking secret what we do as people. All races all over the world are slamming a girl's booty and she's loving it.
Problem is, it's like you clearly see a porn star getting fucked, but out here in reality, apparently nobody is fucking, which is of course not true. All those little teenagers and of course grown men and women are fucking all day if they can. Which is strange that we're still trying to live under that 50s leave it to beaver mindset, when you can easily find videos of a girl getting her ass impaled deep by a dude's dick. Yanno... it's like, why the hell are we trying still to this day to hide kids from what they'll eventually be doing at some point... Hopefully. You want them to turn gay? Or what?
I don't know man, it's a shock to me to have this constant need for sexual release. It's like, what the fuck... and I can't say no to it. IT's BIGGER than me.
I have to bow down and say I can't beat my sex drive. I really fucking can't. I can try all day. I'll just end up jacking off again...
And that really is disappointing about life, that I just end up BOOM all I want to do is fuck, that's it? Yanno... that's so retarded it's upside down... I believe there's something more to life. Education, greater heights, whatever... I always dreamt of doing and accomplishing MORE than just fucking my wife. Yeah, I did... I always considered myself to be someone who'd break the trend.
And maybe I will... That's the glimmer of hope that I still have left, the only thing that keeps me kinda sane amidst the madness is that I AM like this kinda super-human for staying out a female's body for this long.
it makes me feel like I'm better than ordinary people, like a super hero. But what the hell, if I had some ass in front of me right now, I'd fuck the shit out of it, without a moments hesitation. One of the worst parts of my life today vs as a kid is that I cannot go ANYWHERE at all without wanting to pounce onto a hot girl's body and fuck her senseless...
It's so hard to live like this. But I think it'll turn out for the best. Man, if you have a kid to worry about 24/7, it's a different thing. Yanno. But not me. I'm just hanging around working on my static movie, ghostbusters stuff, and eventually going to get a job again and hopefully I'll have gotten this body into the shape I intend.
That's what's actually GOOD about my life now is that I've finally figured out how to lose weight and get fit. I wish schools taught this but they don't, at least black schools. I can imagine you go to a white community and they don't play. They give you the raw deal, about every way possible to optimize your body's functioning through fitness and nutrition. Yanno... you darn tootin. It must piss white people off that they give their kids the world and some of them turn out fags or some shit. But hey, if you like dick in your butt you like dick in your butt...
So what am I going to do now?
Got 3 days till the 25th, that's when they're having an open interview for Airserv. I DO NOT want to go back to working at JFK, but this company looks like easy money, and I have extensive knowledge about JFK, I should get the job, no sweat at all...
Once we do get the job, going to continue my plan as intended and use the job as a way for me to lose weight. Yep, you think I'm not smart about things, but I'll lose weight faster if I have to get off my ass and go work somewhere. I'm looking forward to working now because it'll help me shed these shitty pounds.
Just hope I get this fucking job. It's airserv. What they do is little stupid shit, directing passengers, sometimes doing the ticket booth stuff, apparently they even do some baggage handling for the airline. Definitely a shitty subcontractor, but maybe I can make that my final career after all is said and done. NO, HELL NO. What the hell am I saying?
I'm going to go to Vaughn College up there in queens while working at JFK. Get my stupid ass college education shit out of the way so I don't have to give a shit about that anymore, then fucking become a pilot. Don't know if I can weasel my way into that position after all the bullshit I've gotten into. Seems to me, I've got a fucking target on my back while I'm trying to get my life together and become a normal fucking person working 9-5 and not causing any uproar. But what else is there to do in life but fight each other day in day out... heh...
So yeah. Get a nice little shitty job. Lose weight, eat tons of protein and body build, and see about getting that pilots license. Then the fun begins and we fly planes all the live long day if possible...
Once we do get the job, going to continue my plan as intended and use the job as a way for me to lose weight. Yep, you think I'm not smart about things, but I'll lose weight faster if I have to get off my ass and go work somewhere. I'm looking forward to working now because it'll help me shed these shitty pounds.
Just hope I get this fucking job. It's airserv. What they do is little stupid shit, directing passengers, sometimes doing the ticket booth stuff, apparently they even do some baggage handling for the airline. Definitely a shitty subcontractor, but maybe I can make that my final career after all is said and done. NO, HELL NO. What the hell am I saying?
I'm going to go to Vaughn College up there in queens while working at JFK. Get my stupid ass college education shit out of the way so I don't have to give a shit about that anymore, then fucking become a pilot. Don't know if I can weasel my way into that position after all the bullshit I've gotten into. Seems to me, I've got a fucking target on my back while I'm trying to get my life together and become a normal fucking person working 9-5 and not causing any uproar. But what else is there to do in life but fight each other day in day out... heh...
So yeah. Get a nice little shitty job. Lose weight, eat tons of protein and body build, and see about getting that pilots license. Then the fun begins and we fly planes all the live long day if possible...
Airserv
looks like I have no choice now. We're in the mix. Gonna have to get a job at Airserv for the time being until CBP gives me a call. I REALLY want to get into there. I can't understand why they're taking so long to contact me. It makes NO fucking sense whatsoever...
There's some speculation about the incident at TSA in Alabama. I get the feeling that they set me up. They knew I worked for tsa before. They knew HOW I left the organization, they knew that it wasn't a very friendly departure, and most likely they set a trap for me down there. String me along, then very slickly make me fuck up my own potential for employment. I kinda actually admire their skill in crafting such an elaborate scam. IF that's what they did. It was kinda suspect how the guy prettymuch told me to hang out next to this group of old grey haired white people OBVIOUSLY way beyond working at TSA. No doubt those guys are government agents. But FUCK ME, they spun me around in a loop. I don't understand how to get through life when I have to be concerned with being juggled around now vs as a kid where I was just going to school and not having goddamn gov agents on my ass....
Maybe they wanted me to learn that I should actually read the shit before I sign it. I don't know. Are they that diplomatic. Are they that interested in me becoming a better person some way some how. I don't know. I don't believe I'm on their good side. But they themselves declare that no matter WHO you fucking are, they'll train you. yunno.. It's the military, they'll take ANYONE and turn them into what they need for the fight. It's that simple. And I hope they want me to get a girlfriend fuck her and not all that bullshit about being a bad parent or whatever. Because it's not beneficial in any sense to tear someone down in that regard, I'd say. Just my opinion.
Shit, don't matter. Going to get my shit together. Going to slim down. I'm at 183 fucking pounds now. I NEVER knew how to shed pounds. I love that when you lose fat, you look fucking 5 years younger. It's so cool. I always knew I had very sharp facial features, but now that the fat is gone, boy oh boy do I look like a catch. Yeah baby....
I feel terrible right now. I gotta say. I put so much effort into disciplining myself and not going NUTS on 2 cramped flights down to alabama, then I waited hours upon hours to get through the night, ALL THE WHILE, I'M ON THE WATER DIET. Yep, I still am chugging along with the water thing. And I did the hard road. I wanted to eat so bad, but I told myself, we can't lose this fight, not this time. And I beat it. I didn't eat. Fucking lost 3 pounds just in those 2 days of not eating. And that's the beauty of it... So it truly hurts deep down to have lost out on getting back in TSA. I can apply again after 6 months... Maybe I will. They say now that I've got the whole thing on my record and when I apply next time, it'll be there. It's just such a fuck in the ass to have had the shit right there in front of your eyes and then, BOOM it's gone.
No big deal. I'll just hop on over to CBP. I always considered that to be where I should honestly be considering my level of intelligence, and physical ability. Problem is... they're seemingly not pursuing applicants as vigorously as last time... and that's the biggest problem I'm having is that. They were adamantly pursuing me while I was working at TSA. Then I tell them, I'm hestitant having secong thoughts, and then we end the whole thing. I kinda want to get in contact with them and find out if they're still looking for new hires or not... we'll see.... Nah, not going to bother...
You know what I really want.... NOT being followed by a bunch of Gov agents. I've lived my whole life not having that be a concern. And now it's becoming quite annoying to have a bunch of jackasses following me around and shit. That's making YOU look stupid. I'm ME I'm a nerdy black guy. I'm like the LAST person you should be worrying about in this fucking terrible world. Yanno... I've always been like this. And I always will be. It's very comfortable existence for me. I know WHO I am and that's not a bad thing. So why am I being followed? WTF am I going to do, go to your house and start shit with your family? I want everybody to have a goddamn good life, yanno... that's me personally. We have all this shit going on, guy shooting up people in a theater, phillipenes is a mess, death every fucking day in this world. And why would I want to make things harder and worse for others. I honestly don't. That's all I got to say on that.
There's some speculation about the incident at TSA in Alabama. I get the feeling that they set me up. They knew I worked for tsa before. They knew HOW I left the organization, they knew that it wasn't a very friendly departure, and most likely they set a trap for me down there. String me along, then very slickly make me fuck up my own potential for employment. I kinda actually admire their skill in crafting such an elaborate scam. IF that's what they did. It was kinda suspect how the guy prettymuch told me to hang out next to this group of old grey haired white people OBVIOUSLY way beyond working at TSA. No doubt those guys are government agents. But FUCK ME, they spun me around in a loop. I don't understand how to get through life when I have to be concerned with being juggled around now vs as a kid where I was just going to school and not having goddamn gov agents on my ass....
Maybe they wanted me to learn that I should actually read the shit before I sign it. I don't know. Are they that diplomatic. Are they that interested in me becoming a better person some way some how. I don't know. I don't believe I'm on their good side. But they themselves declare that no matter WHO you fucking are, they'll train you. yunno.. It's the military, they'll take ANYONE and turn them into what they need for the fight. It's that simple. And I hope they want me to get a girlfriend fuck her and not all that bullshit about being a bad parent or whatever. Because it's not beneficial in any sense to tear someone down in that regard, I'd say. Just my opinion.
Shit, don't matter. Going to get my shit together. Going to slim down. I'm at 183 fucking pounds now. I NEVER knew how to shed pounds. I love that when you lose fat, you look fucking 5 years younger. It's so cool. I always knew I had very sharp facial features, but now that the fat is gone, boy oh boy do I look like a catch. Yeah baby....
I feel terrible right now. I gotta say. I put so much effort into disciplining myself and not going NUTS on 2 cramped flights down to alabama, then I waited hours upon hours to get through the night, ALL THE WHILE, I'M ON THE WATER DIET. Yep, I still am chugging along with the water thing. And I did the hard road. I wanted to eat so bad, but I told myself, we can't lose this fight, not this time. And I beat it. I didn't eat. Fucking lost 3 pounds just in those 2 days of not eating. And that's the beauty of it... So it truly hurts deep down to have lost out on getting back in TSA. I can apply again after 6 months... Maybe I will. They say now that I've got the whole thing on my record and when I apply next time, it'll be there. It's just such a fuck in the ass to have had the shit right there in front of your eyes and then, BOOM it's gone.
No big deal. I'll just hop on over to CBP. I always considered that to be where I should honestly be considering my level of intelligence, and physical ability. Problem is... they're seemingly not pursuing applicants as vigorously as last time... and that's the biggest problem I'm having is that. They were adamantly pursuing me while I was working at TSA. Then I tell them, I'm hestitant having secong thoughts, and then we end the whole thing. I kinda want to get in contact with them and find out if they're still looking for new hires or not... we'll see.... Nah, not going to bother...
You know what I really want.... NOT being followed by a bunch of Gov agents. I've lived my whole life not having that be a concern. And now it's becoming quite annoying to have a bunch of jackasses following me around and shit. That's making YOU look stupid. I'm ME I'm a nerdy black guy. I'm like the LAST person you should be worrying about in this fucking terrible world. Yanno... I've always been like this. And I always will be. It's very comfortable existence for me. I know WHO I am and that's not a bad thing. So why am I being followed? WTF am I going to do, go to your house and start shit with your family? I want everybody to have a goddamn good life, yanno... that's me personally. We have all this shit going on, guy shooting up people in a theater, phillipenes is a mess, death every fucking day in this world. And why would I want to make things harder and worse for others. I honestly don't. That's all I got to say on that.
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Well that was quick.
Almost as soon as I enter the goddamn door I'm leaving... That's how it works huh. I didn't think it would go down like this, but nope, no TSA for me. Got into trouble "disclosing information" which i didn't even think about or have any real understanding of, but apparently I can't release information about the tsa hiring process to anyone. Makes sense, just wish I had undrstood that before they rushed me through the hiring process. And i mean rush. There was not real effort made to help me understand the whole thing, they just wanted me to get it over with and jump into the ready pool. But no, they have to play big shots and act like I'm some kind of terrorist.
God damn. It ain't over though. Not yet.... One last ace in the hole and that's CBP. I'm still waiting for my TSL letter.
Sucks that I wasted my time trying to get back into TSA, but I suppose it's all God's hand in this. Maybe i'm meant for CBP and not TSA afterall. Just wish I didn't have to waste my time. That's the hardest part of all this. I came here, I did everything right, and one little snag ends the whole thing. It's their loss really. I'd just be a good TSO and that'd be the end of it. But no, they want to make life more complicated than it needs to be...
God damn. It ain't over though. Not yet.... One last ace in the hole and that's CBP. I'm still waiting for my TSL letter.
Sucks that I wasted my time trying to get back into TSA, but I suppose it's all God's hand in this. Maybe i'm meant for CBP and not TSA afterall. Just wish I didn't have to waste my time. That's the hardest part of all this. I came here, I did everything right, and one little snag ends the whole thing. It's their loss really. I'd just be a good TSO and that'd be the end of it. But no, they want to make life more complicated than it needs to be...
237 AM
Here's where the fun begins, as han solo would say, NOT Anakin Skywalker...
ugh, today hopefully I'll pass this stupid airport assesment. I did it before so there will be no surprises. Must be honest, and cool, because TSA people aren't that bad really. They love their job and wouldn't be averse to having someone else join them in val hala or whatever.
Thinking about how work will be at this new airport.
From the looks of it, it's pretty slow.... not much action. I can imagine so because this is fucking Alabama. It's not a big money state. Pretty plain jane po-dunk backwater place.
This could be great because I'll do my job, then go home, and not even feel tired. I mean, working at LGA, you are busy. People on top of people because it's NEW YORK. The industrial center of the world, big business deals being made, people coming to see the city, and that's great. I have nothing against tourists coming to new york and seeing the amazing city as it is. I've lived here all my life and it still is a hell of a town... but fuck it's just insane to work at the airport where you just get bombarded by people coming here, and leaving every day.
What's so fucking great about Alabama? Nothing that I can see. There's no disney here. That's the real problem is if there's something to attract people... then the airport is going to be fucked. but there's nothing here... this place is completely BORING. I may have discovered the best EVER place to work. We'll see. I kinda want to take a brake in life now... I've beeen working hard as fuck for all these years. It'd be nice to get a job, not kill myself, and just accomplish my goals nice and low key under the radar.
Look at how my life has turned out. Got motherfuckers in the military and all this shit watching my ass, how the hell does one little nerdy urkel black kid end up having the entire fucking world on his shoulders... That's just not making any sense.
I'm a little ant in a big world, and that's fine with me... Goddamn...
ugh, today hopefully I'll pass this stupid airport assesment. I did it before so there will be no surprises. Must be honest, and cool, because TSA people aren't that bad really. They love their job and wouldn't be averse to having someone else join them in val hala or whatever.
Thinking about how work will be at this new airport.
From the looks of it, it's pretty slow.... not much action. I can imagine so because this is fucking Alabama. It's not a big money state. Pretty plain jane po-dunk backwater place.
This could be great because I'll do my job, then go home, and not even feel tired. I mean, working at LGA, you are busy. People on top of people because it's NEW YORK. The industrial center of the world, big business deals being made, people coming to see the city, and that's great. I have nothing against tourists coming to new york and seeing the amazing city as it is. I've lived here all my life and it still is a hell of a town... but fuck it's just insane to work at the airport where you just get bombarded by people coming here, and leaving every day.
What's so fucking great about Alabama? Nothing that I can see. There's no disney here. That's the real problem is if there's something to attract people... then the airport is going to be fucked. but there's nothing here... this place is completely BORING. I may have discovered the best EVER place to work. We'll see. I kinda want to take a brake in life now... I've beeen working hard as fuck for all these years. It'd be nice to get a job, not kill myself, and just accomplish my goals nice and low key under the radar.
Look at how my life has turned out. Got motherfuckers in the military and all this shit watching my ass, how the hell does one little nerdy urkel black kid end up having the entire fucking world on his shoulders... That's just not making any sense.
I'm a little ant in a big world, and that's fine with me... Goddamn...
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Street Fighter
Yep, not the new joint with Kristen Kreuk, truly a beautiful girl, wish I could get with her. She's like me, funny, sexy, grew up in the 90s. So she's got that 90s vibe to her, I can sense which girls grew up in my day. They've got a toughness, and a bit of humor because life was fucking AWESOME in the 90s. Shit changed...
But I want to talk about this movie. The 1994 Street Fighter film.
It was a strange fucking thing to discover as a kid. I was a born in 86. The movie came out while I was just too little to know it existed. But I had a SNES and I played street fighter and loved the game so immediately I felt like the movie was going to be the SHIT. I mean, how could you fuck up street fighter.
Don't know, but they found a way.
If there's ONE movie that completely embodies the spirit of the 90s, it's fucking Street Fighter. You kids today have no fucking clue what kind of life we had back in the 90s. Life was very cooky, and awkward, but that was the point. It was about embracing weirdness I suppose. Like a show like pete and pete. I guess it's a reaction to life being so boring, people find ways to make it interesting. And so we got movies like street fighter, mortal kombat, ninja turtles, power rangers, all these things were made because we COULD. Not that we should, not that they'd be good films or advance cinema etc. In fact that's what the old time critics were afraid of, the decline of intelligent films in exchange for the next big blockbuster. And all their fears have been perfectly realized unfortunately. We don't make films to are about little artistic flourishes anymore or a study of the human condition etc. We don't. We make big crazy over the top stupid as hell action movie and that's all she wrote. It's become a running gag these days, when's the next ridiculously over cgi'd blockbuster going to come along.
So here we have it, some how some way, the people involved with this movie decide, yanno, let's ignore the game and just make a run of the mil action movie with the street fighter characters. And it was played up back then as if it was actually fucking good and accurate. Van Damme starred in a music video for the movie. There actually was a game based on the movie that ripped off mortal kombat. Uh, the director himself in his commentary acts like the movie is the most absolutely perfect well made street fighter movie it could possibly be. I was floored by that. It's horrible, yet he waxes poetic about the technical excellence of the story, which is admits he wrote in one fucking day. YEAH WE CAN TELL.
Anyway,, I put the movie int the vcr, and NEVER have I been more dissapointed in a film. It completely shitted on everything about Street fighter. And now it's like, it's cursed. They make another street fighter and yeah it's got a more serious tone to it, but it's barely any better than the 94 one. At least the 94 one was fun and somewhat embraced the super powers of the fighters. That's the biggest crime of the film. I wouldn't have minded as much if the movie was as shitty as it was if at some point they used their powers. Not once does chun li do a lightning kick, her signiture movie. And by golly they did it again, in the new one. Yeah she does the spinning kick, but her main move the lightning kick is left out and it makes no sense. She's known for that as the main move. And yet she's throwing fireballs left and right and doing spinning kicks, yet not o nce is it shown that she has the strongest legs on earth. stupid.
Now granted, Ryu in the film does a hadouken, but it's a gay hadouken. It's fucking not really a hadouken it's just a punch with two hands and a little shitty flash of light and sound effect. You can tell the editors wanted to put a hadouken so fucking bad that they asked the actors to sneak the move in there and they tried to fit a hadouken-ish thing in the movie. But it's just not enough. Mind you, I still have a lot of nostalgia for street fighter. Why? Because it reminds me of when life was pretty darn cool. No horny gotta fuck a bitch attitude, just watching street fighter, power rangers movie, casper movie, etc and on and on....
Now life SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKS....
How the hell did that happen. But thank you street fighter for reminding me that life didn't always suck dick, it had guilty pleasures like street fighter, warts and all, I just hold on to that memory of going to the movie rental sore and just discovering something like mario bros movie and street fighter and after seeing them, it was a cool feeling. Having somehow witnessed my heros in live action no matter how bad it was. I was just overjoyed that they fucking upgraded my heros to live aciton and I thought it was fucking awesome that it existed.
I look at the movie now and the thing I think about it is who was fucking who on that set. There's no doubt that Van Damme was fucking Kyle Minoge, Ming Na was probably getting it on with both honda and black dude. The things you realize about what grown people typically do. And you look back on the shit you used to watch and yeah, prettymuch what you were seeing wasn't what you thought it was. Those actors did their job, acted, then after work, pounded ass.
I feel like watching it again, because it's a huge part of my personality, the way I grew up watching just weird shit.
You can't fault me for being a "humorous" person when I grew up being bombarded with a lot of comedic stuff, so that's who I am now and I don't think it's a bad thing really... I can be serious, but if I have it my way, I'll fuck my girlfriend in her ass, play videogames afterwards.... I'm not looking to have a big crazy existence here, keep it simple yunno...
Well I'm going to try to fix the street fighter movie using After effects. I'm going to do what I can... and may release it onto fanedit .org. No frills, no hoopla, no big thing. I'm hoping someone else who grew up in my time and watched the movie and though it sucked ass compared to the mortal kombat movie, they'll get a little kick out of it. Because I can fix this shit. Add an actual hadouken. Um... Maybe put in some kind of fx for the flash kick. Can't make chun li do the fast kicking, but maybe I can help make the movie less gay.
Also Dragon ball Evolution. That's the movie I grew up watching, a fucked up, completely non-respectful to the source material shit. And I can't believe they fucked up dragonball. Which everyone knows how it should be done. It seems to me hollywood doesn't give a damn, they make whater shit comes out their ass and to hell with the fan base.... I'll do my best. Because the fx ind DBE are horrendous. The fireballs are supposed to be fire, not this weird smokey shit. I know they're saying it's air being bent, but what is fire except hot air. So just make it a fire ball... It's not that hard....
Alright here we go.
But I want to talk about this movie. The 1994 Street Fighter film.
It was a strange fucking thing to discover as a kid. I was a born in 86. The movie came out while I was just too little to know it existed. But I had a SNES and I played street fighter and loved the game so immediately I felt like the movie was going to be the SHIT. I mean, how could you fuck up street fighter.
Don't know, but they found a way.
If there's ONE movie that completely embodies the spirit of the 90s, it's fucking Street Fighter. You kids today have no fucking clue what kind of life we had back in the 90s. Life was very cooky, and awkward, but that was the point. It was about embracing weirdness I suppose. Like a show like pete and pete. I guess it's a reaction to life being so boring, people find ways to make it interesting. And so we got movies like street fighter, mortal kombat, ninja turtles, power rangers, all these things were made because we COULD. Not that we should, not that they'd be good films or advance cinema etc. In fact that's what the old time critics were afraid of, the decline of intelligent films in exchange for the next big blockbuster. And all their fears have been perfectly realized unfortunately. We don't make films to are about little artistic flourishes anymore or a study of the human condition etc. We don't. We make big crazy over the top stupid as hell action movie and that's all she wrote. It's become a running gag these days, when's the next ridiculously over cgi'd blockbuster going to come along.
So here we have it, some how some way, the people involved with this movie decide, yanno, let's ignore the game and just make a run of the mil action movie with the street fighter characters. And it was played up back then as if it was actually fucking good and accurate. Van Damme starred in a music video for the movie. There actually was a game based on the movie that ripped off mortal kombat. Uh, the director himself in his commentary acts like the movie is the most absolutely perfect well made street fighter movie it could possibly be. I was floored by that. It's horrible, yet he waxes poetic about the technical excellence of the story, which is admits he wrote in one fucking day. YEAH WE CAN TELL.
Anyway,, I put the movie int the vcr, and NEVER have I been more dissapointed in a film. It completely shitted on everything about Street fighter. And now it's like, it's cursed. They make another street fighter and yeah it's got a more serious tone to it, but it's barely any better than the 94 one. At least the 94 one was fun and somewhat embraced the super powers of the fighters. That's the biggest crime of the film. I wouldn't have minded as much if the movie was as shitty as it was if at some point they used their powers. Not once does chun li do a lightning kick, her signiture movie. And by golly they did it again, in the new one. Yeah she does the spinning kick, but her main move the lightning kick is left out and it makes no sense. She's known for that as the main move. And yet she's throwing fireballs left and right and doing spinning kicks, yet not o nce is it shown that she has the strongest legs on earth. stupid.
Now granted, Ryu in the film does a hadouken, but it's a gay hadouken. It's fucking not really a hadouken it's just a punch with two hands and a little shitty flash of light and sound effect. You can tell the editors wanted to put a hadouken so fucking bad that they asked the actors to sneak the move in there and they tried to fit a hadouken-ish thing in the movie. But it's just not enough. Mind you, I still have a lot of nostalgia for street fighter. Why? Because it reminds me of when life was pretty darn cool. No horny gotta fuck a bitch attitude, just watching street fighter, power rangers movie, casper movie, etc and on and on....
Now life SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKS....
How the hell did that happen. But thank you street fighter for reminding me that life didn't always suck dick, it had guilty pleasures like street fighter, warts and all, I just hold on to that memory of going to the movie rental sore and just discovering something like mario bros movie and street fighter and after seeing them, it was a cool feeling. Having somehow witnessed my heros in live action no matter how bad it was. I was just overjoyed that they fucking upgraded my heros to live aciton and I thought it was fucking awesome that it existed.
I look at the movie now and the thing I think about it is who was fucking who on that set. There's no doubt that Van Damme was fucking Kyle Minoge, Ming Na was probably getting it on with both honda and black dude. The things you realize about what grown people typically do. And you look back on the shit you used to watch and yeah, prettymuch what you were seeing wasn't what you thought it was. Those actors did their job, acted, then after work, pounded ass.
I feel like watching it again, because it's a huge part of my personality, the way I grew up watching just weird shit.
You can't fault me for being a "humorous" person when I grew up being bombarded with a lot of comedic stuff, so that's who I am now and I don't think it's a bad thing really... I can be serious, but if I have it my way, I'll fuck my girlfriend in her ass, play videogames afterwards.... I'm not looking to have a big crazy existence here, keep it simple yunno...
Well I'm going to try to fix the street fighter movie using After effects. I'm going to do what I can... and may release it onto fanedit .org. No frills, no hoopla, no big thing. I'm hoping someone else who grew up in my time and watched the movie and though it sucked ass compared to the mortal kombat movie, they'll get a little kick out of it. Because I can fix this shit. Add an actual hadouken. Um... Maybe put in some kind of fx for the flash kick. Can't make chun li do the fast kicking, but maybe I can help make the movie less gay.
Also Dragon ball Evolution. That's the movie I grew up watching, a fucked up, completely non-respectful to the source material shit. And I can't believe they fucked up dragonball. Which everyone knows how it should be done. It seems to me hollywood doesn't give a damn, they make whater shit comes out their ass and to hell with the fan base.... I'll do my best. Because the fx ind DBE are horrendous. The fireballs are supposed to be fire, not this weird smokey shit. I know they're saying it's air being bent, but what is fire except hot air. So just make it a fire ball... It's not that hard....
Alright here we go.
Saturday, November 16, 2013
thoughts on girls
I touched Garcia's hand one day. She's a psycho bitch, yeah, but I got to her deep down, that part of a female that's undeniably a true woman. I made that girl's pussy so fucking wet, she couldn't even think straight, started thinking about giving birth to my kids.
It was a very good experience for me. I IMPLORE YOU all young males to start touching and feeling and courting and kissing girls and getting that experience before you hit your fucking 20s.
My life is extremely stupid right now. It WILL get better, and I'll hopefully be fucking the shit out of my girlfriend and not even remember anything about my stupid young days... like a normal person is supposed to do.
Sex is a I think a form of therapy. You use sex to clear your head really, yunno. Ultimately yeah it's like doing crack. Same purpose in the end. You want to get a high an forget your troubles.
But anyway, I'm at an interesting point in life. I look at a girl with some fucking huge titties and I get this sensation in me as if I feel like she belongs to me. That I HAVE TO meld with her body. Like I have to protect her, love her, give her good things and ultimately impregnate her. It's a funny thing. I never really thought of myself as being a giver of life to a girl, but it's all there. You have that power to stick your dick in any girl with some rocking tits and at some point clone yourself.
I don't want to do it, but I look at this chick and I'm all thinking, I want to fuck her so hard, it's crazy... ugh...
It was a very good experience for me. I IMPLORE YOU all young males to start touching and feeling and courting and kissing girls and getting that experience before you hit your fucking 20s.
My life is extremely stupid right now. It WILL get better, and I'll hopefully be fucking the shit out of my girlfriend and not even remember anything about my stupid young days... like a normal person is supposed to do.
Sex is a I think a form of therapy. You use sex to clear your head really, yunno. Ultimately yeah it's like doing crack. Same purpose in the end. You want to get a high an forget your troubles.
But anyway, I'm at an interesting point in life. I look at a girl with some fucking huge titties and I get this sensation in me as if I feel like she belongs to me. That I HAVE TO meld with her body. Like I have to protect her, love her, give her good things and ultimately impregnate her. It's a funny thing. I never really thought of myself as being a giver of life to a girl, but it's all there. You have that power to stick your dick in any girl with some rocking tits and at some point clone yourself.
I don't want to do it, but I look at this chick and I'm all thinking, I want to fuck her so hard, it's crazy... ugh...
Friday, November 15, 2013
Can't wait to return to TSA
Best job I ever left behind.
Got paid too much. Didn't have to work hard.Nice uniform, nice group of people to work beside.
Can't believe I threw that away.
Why did I? I honestly can't remember. I was planning to abuse the fat paycheck I was getting and really get a big nice car, house, the works. I was going to go crazy!!!
But I'll get it back. I ain't going out without a fight. But damn, they gonna put me back on part time schedule. I hope I can get that fucking full time back..
You guys might think tso's have it bad, not making the big bucks, not living lavish life style, But I gurantee you that every last one of the people you see working tsa is LOVING their job.
Imagine getting paid out the ass to sit down and watch a fucking screen or whatever. I was so bored at work, it was ridiculous.
oh boy. Why did I quit? Life, being pressured so much to do alot of things. I mean, ultimately I was wealthy. I had money to burn and I still do. I will get my job back, and I will have that same pay rate again, and I'll be within the federal government and potentially be able to get another position in there whether it be ICE or even fucking FBI. All I have to do is stick to the job like goddamn monkey glue... and you will be considered a veteran of Federal employment, which is huge in the long run. You have vet status, you get the job faster than anybody else... etc. Got to say, Gov. Don't play, they have the best SHIT, best equpment, computers, all sorts of stuff.
Going to take the job very seriously this time. I wish I could see the girls I worked with again. That was the best part about working there. THE FUCKING HOT TSA WOMEN.
And half of them are fucking sluts to the core. You can tell. That's not a bad thing imo. IF and I mean IF I end up with a daughter one day snd she's a complete slut, I'll think nothing of it. Because I personally like those kinds of girls the most...
Ugh, alright stay tuned. I promise you I'll post a pic of me in my Uniform when I get it back...
Got paid too much. Didn't have to work hard.Nice uniform, nice group of people to work beside.
Can't believe I threw that away.
Why did I? I honestly can't remember. I was planning to abuse the fat paycheck I was getting and really get a big nice car, house, the works. I was going to go crazy!!!
But I'll get it back. I ain't going out without a fight. But damn, they gonna put me back on part time schedule. I hope I can get that fucking full time back..
You guys might think tso's have it bad, not making the big bucks, not living lavish life style, But I gurantee you that every last one of the people you see working tsa is LOVING their job.
Imagine getting paid out the ass to sit down and watch a fucking screen or whatever. I was so bored at work, it was ridiculous.
oh boy. Why did I quit? Life, being pressured so much to do alot of things. I mean, ultimately I was wealthy. I had money to burn and I still do. I will get my job back, and I will have that same pay rate again, and I'll be within the federal government and potentially be able to get another position in there whether it be ICE or even fucking FBI. All I have to do is stick to the job like goddamn monkey glue... and you will be considered a veteran of Federal employment, which is huge in the long run. You have vet status, you get the job faster than anybody else... etc. Got to say, Gov. Don't play, they have the best SHIT, best equpment, computers, all sorts of stuff.
Going to take the job very seriously this time. I wish I could see the girls I worked with again. That was the best part about working there. THE FUCKING HOT TSA WOMEN.
And half of them are fucking sluts to the core. You can tell. That's not a bad thing imo. IF and I mean IF I end up with a daughter one day snd she's a complete slut, I'll think nothing of it. Because I personally like those kinds of girls the most...
Ugh, alright stay tuned. I promise you I'll post a pic of me in my Uniform when I get it back...
Paul Reubens
Watching Pee Wee's big adventure right now. Truly THE movie of my childhood. I was just home one sunday, and the movie came on. I always hit up WB11 on sunday because they showed a lot of awesome movies back in the day. And after I saw this movie, FUCK ME, my life was changed forever.
Everything clicked, I felt like someone actually existed out there who understood me. I suppose it's true Pee Wee is the quintessential man-child. Ultimately though I just think he's a happy person.
What I love about Pee Wee is that he makes life seem so much fun and awesome. That's what he brought to my childhood. Didn't know how the world was full of shit and war and death and blood back then, but yeah pee wee made life seem awesome and FUN. A lot of things during my childhood gave me personally a sense that life was GREAT,, and not this (FUCK YOU) kind of thing we got going on these days...
I don't believe in that. I believe in having a blast before you die, goddamnit.
Like I always say I'll be a force for good in this world no matter what.
Interesting though. Seems that Reubens never had kids. WTF does he do, jack off all day? Serious?
just saying, I also plan to not have children. Seems like he's on the same page as me. It's just a lot to take on, sorry. You just won't have the same amount of time to do all kinds of shit.
It's kinda weird to have my intention to live childless NOW when I kinda have girls coming after ME for a change.
I'm muscular, not bad looking, so this has led to having girls actually WANT to get fucked by me. Sure is tempting...
But I have a plan, man, can't be startin no fucking family....
Everything clicked, I felt like someone actually existed out there who understood me. I suppose it's true Pee Wee is the quintessential man-child. Ultimately though I just think he's a happy person.
What I love about Pee Wee is that he makes life seem so much fun and awesome. That's what he brought to my childhood. Didn't know how the world was full of shit and war and death and blood back then, but yeah pee wee made life seem awesome and FUN. A lot of things during my childhood gave me personally a sense that life was GREAT,, and not this (FUCK YOU) kind of thing we got going on these days...
I don't believe in that. I believe in having a blast before you die, goddamnit.
Like I always say I'll be a force for good in this world no matter what.
Interesting though. Seems that Reubens never had kids. WTF does he do, jack off all day? Serious?
just saying, I also plan to not have children. Seems like he's on the same page as me. It's just a lot to take on, sorry. You just won't have the same amount of time to do all kinds of shit.
It's kinda weird to have my intention to live childless NOW when I kinda have girls coming after ME for a change.
I'm muscular, not bad looking, so this has led to having girls actually WANT to get fucked by me. Sure is tempting...
But I have a plan, man, can't be startin no fucking family....
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
first proton stream test shot
This is huge. .Everything about this project hinges on the fx work being good and now I've figured out thanks to the many tutorials on youtube how to create a convincing enough proton stream.
It's pretty fucking complicated. Ultimately what you have to do is create a little line using orange color, then create a bunch of masks, then feather them a shit load and then it looks like a stream from the movie. Then you just ad the lightning on top of it. And the last part is the best part, because there's a built in effect that creates a wiggly motion to anything on screen. So you just use that shit, and it looks pretty fucking good, but then next is to create a more dynamic motion to the whole thing using bezier wrap. And that truly sells it because when the ripples are all the same shape it looks fake but when they constantly wiggle and distort into different shapes it works out much better.
so here it is....
It's pretty fucking complicated. Ultimately what you have to do is create a little line using orange color, then create a bunch of masks, then feather them a shit load and then it looks like a stream from the movie. Then you just ad the lightning on top of it. And the last part is the best part, because there's a built in effect that creates a wiggly motion to anything on screen. So you just use that shit, and it looks pretty fucking good, but then next is to create a more dynamic motion to the whole thing using bezier wrap. And that truly sells it because when the ripples are all the same shape it looks fake but when they constantly wiggle and distort into different shapes it works out much better.
so here it is....
New project announcement
Going to write, produce, and direct, All new Real Ghost Busters episodes. I'm hesitant to go to GB.net and post about it there, but I think I'm good with those guys enough that they'll get a kick out of it.
Thing I want to accomplish is first of all learn how to do the proton stream in after effects. I figure somehow create a wiggly orange thingy and then we proceed with using advanced lightning to acompany it. And it'll look pretty darn good.
We'll get to that after I finish the static thing.
This is what I do. I like to be a kid playing with toys. Remarkably to me, I've never stopped enjoying playing with toys. This how I've lived my whole life really, playing with toys and figuring out stories and shit and creating all the bits and bobs of a story line etc.
So I'm very happy doing this stuff. Which is why I'm yunno so like saddened really that I've got a lot of enemies out there. Because there's so much good we can achieve together. I mean, just me making cool stuff for kids to watch, I'd love to do, but I don't think it'd be wise under all the shit that I've gotten into these years.
So I won't bother with that. However, I'm more than content to finish my projects and release them to whoever is interested, that's all.
My intention is plainly to give kids, and anyone who's a big fan like me, a good fucking time. Yunno. That's all I've ever thought about life, is having some fun, man. But unfortunately people seem to want to take your fun away all the time. And that really sucks...
So let's get to it...
Concept:
Season 8 of the Real ghost busters...
I got this idea to start the episode with a chant 'ghost busters, ghost busters, ghost busters'
I like to start it off nice and melodical really. This will help in the establishment of the first episode. I want it to be more of a musical than a typical episode. The best episodes are the ones that examine the emotional state of the characters imo. When it's purely an episode about some straight forward event taking place or villain, it's just very flat. But when it' has heart and soul, you can't beat that.
And a lot of that stems from how we react to music, it's all emotional. And that's what I love about films and cartoons over the years is how they pinpoint the emotional and dramatic elements of human life.
Thing I want to accomplish is first of all learn how to do the proton stream in after effects. I figure somehow create a wiggly orange thingy and then we proceed with using advanced lightning to acompany it. And it'll look pretty darn good.
We'll get to that after I finish the static thing.
This is what I do. I like to be a kid playing with toys. Remarkably to me, I've never stopped enjoying playing with toys. This how I've lived my whole life really, playing with toys and figuring out stories and shit and creating all the bits and bobs of a story line etc.
So I'm very happy doing this stuff. Which is why I'm yunno so like saddened really that I've got a lot of enemies out there. Because there's so much good we can achieve together. I mean, just me making cool stuff for kids to watch, I'd love to do, but I don't think it'd be wise under all the shit that I've gotten into these years.
So I won't bother with that. However, I'm more than content to finish my projects and release them to whoever is interested, that's all.
My intention is plainly to give kids, and anyone who's a big fan like me, a good fucking time. Yunno. That's all I've ever thought about life, is having some fun, man. But unfortunately people seem to want to take your fun away all the time. And that really sucks...
So let's get to it...
Concept:
Season 8 of the Real ghost busters...
I got this idea to start the episode with a chant 'ghost busters, ghost busters, ghost busters'
I like to start it off nice and melodical really. This will help in the establishment of the first episode. I want it to be more of a musical than a typical episode. The best episodes are the ones that examine the emotional state of the characters imo. When it's purely an episode about some straight forward event taking place or villain, it's just very flat. But when it' has heart and soul, you can't beat that.
And a lot of that stems from how we react to music, it's all emotional. And that's what I love about films and cartoons over the years is how they pinpoint the emotional and dramatic elements of human life.
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Real education
So fucked up what's going on in phillipenes. I wish I could go over there and provide services. THAT'S what life's all about, not YOU, not ME, but going over to a country that's devastated and HELPING those in need.
But noooooooooooooo you won't find that attitude in this country, life here is PORN, AND WOE IS ME... MY LIFE IS SO HARD.
Anyway, I've got to hopefully give someone in this world some education on healthy living.
That's what I want to give to the throngs of whoever the fuck is online. I KNOW there's some heat on my ass. I DON'T CARE. What I do care about is helping YOU improve yourself.
You dumbasses are FAT and apparently don't know how to slim down.
I'm going to MAKE YOU slim down.
Go to rite aid, get some fat burner pills.
Go to the supermarket, get plenty of protein.
If you don't have a george forman grill, GET ONE.
Now Abandon Mcdonalds. Don't EVER fucking go there again.
Remove all sugar from your diet.
Eat ONLY protein all day. And drink plenty of water. take the fat burning pills too. They work.
In about a week, you'll drop 10 pounds. And it'll just keep dropping until you're slim as your body was meant to be.
THIS is education. Not whatever shit they teach at college. I have NOTHING against college. I know that there are people born into this world who are geniuses and have minds above and beyond anything normal people can fathom and thusly they've designed a system to promote smart people to higher levels of living in this world. Very good. But I can't begin to make sense of why you go to college like I do and yet not learn 1 fucking thing about shedding pounds and have to consult google for the truth. so FUCK college.
This is all I ever wanted in life. To slim down. Get muscular. I don't care if people don't think I'm mr. Smarty pants. That doesn't even BEGIN to bother me. The thing that I've personally been struggling with is losing weight, and I'm not alone.
Your body is supposed to stay lean and muscular well into your goddamn 50s, yet people go their entire lives completely fat and flabby like morons simply because they're not educated about health in this society.
So sad, because when I figured it out, it was like, BOOM that's all? Just eat LESS or eliminate certain things? Oh shit. But there ya go. It's so fucking simple. You don't even need the gym at all.
But noooooooooooooo you won't find that attitude in this country, life here is PORN, AND WOE IS ME... MY LIFE IS SO HARD.
Anyway, I've got to hopefully give someone in this world some education on healthy living.
That's what I want to give to the throngs of whoever the fuck is online. I KNOW there's some heat on my ass. I DON'T CARE. What I do care about is helping YOU improve yourself.
You dumbasses are FAT and apparently don't know how to slim down.
I'm going to MAKE YOU slim down.
Go to rite aid, get some fat burner pills.
Go to the supermarket, get plenty of protein.
If you don't have a george forman grill, GET ONE.
Now Abandon Mcdonalds. Don't EVER fucking go there again.
Remove all sugar from your diet.
Eat ONLY protein all day. And drink plenty of water. take the fat burning pills too. They work.
In about a week, you'll drop 10 pounds. And it'll just keep dropping until you're slim as your body was meant to be.
THIS is education. Not whatever shit they teach at college. I have NOTHING against college. I know that there are people born into this world who are geniuses and have minds above and beyond anything normal people can fathom and thusly they've designed a system to promote smart people to higher levels of living in this world. Very good. But I can't begin to make sense of why you go to college like I do and yet not learn 1 fucking thing about shedding pounds and have to consult google for the truth. so FUCK college.
This is all I ever wanted in life. To slim down. Get muscular. I don't care if people don't think I'm mr. Smarty pants. That doesn't even BEGIN to bother me. The thing that I've personally been struggling with is losing weight, and I'm not alone.
Your body is supposed to stay lean and muscular well into your goddamn 50s, yet people go their entire lives completely fat and flabby like morons simply because they're not educated about health in this society.
So sad, because when I figured it out, it was like, BOOM that's all? Just eat LESS or eliminate certain things? Oh shit. But there ya go. It's so fucking simple. You don't even need the gym at all.
just finished two flying shots
Yep, REALLY going to fly in the static trailer. Hope it fucking works. Going to try fixing a shot that got bonkers on me.
It's good but the head is see through in the end.
gotta do a couple more shoots, probably get it all done tomorrow. And we'll begin planning the final layout of the trailer.
Been using clips from youtube for stuff since going down to manhattan to film the city was just a dumbass idea.
Very clever shots I've come up with. You'll see.
After Effects is a gift from God, I must say. It was rough getting used to it at first but now I know a shit load about video manipulation.
Like for instance, I took a vid and I wanted to have me fly through it, but couldn't figure out how to pass by the engine in the right side. So I doubled the video and masked out the engine and voila looks perfect when I fly by it. You'd think it was real. And that's the fun of the illusion I'm trying to create.
Stay tuned.
It's good but the head is see through in the end.
gotta do a couple more shoots, probably get it all done tomorrow. And we'll begin planning the final layout of the trailer.
Been using clips from youtube for stuff since going down to manhattan to film the city was just a dumbass idea.
Very clever shots I've come up with. You'll see.
After Effects is a gift from God, I must say. It was rough getting used to it at first but now I know a shit load about video manipulation.
Like for instance, I took a vid and I wanted to have me fly through it, but couldn't figure out how to pass by the engine in the right side. So I doubled the video and masked out the engine and voila looks perfect when I fly by it. You'd think it was real. And that's the fun of the illusion I'm trying to create.
Stay tuned.
Monday, November 11, 2013
Transforming myself 2
I'm going to completely reshape my body now.
I want to get into teaching kids this honestly. I can't believe I go to high school right, for 4 solid long years, and not one class I took there taught me about low-carb dieting which will help keep you healthy and in shape the rest of your life.
You guys out there in the web, there's a lot of you guys and whatever your thoughts on me are, I don't give a damn. I'm a good person whether you like it or not.
I want to help people and be a hero whether you like it or not. There are GOOD MEN in this world. Too bad no one knows their names.
But we exist and we do what we can when we can to ensure that life is good for EVERYONE.
I will ALWAYS be a force for good.
It pisses me off personally to an EXTREME degree when someone tries to belittle my character and claim I'm "passive" or "pussy" as I've been called.
YOU MUST BE A REAL BADASS. I don't know exactly what you're doing to help people or whatever or if you don't care at all about others or giving back to society. Yet you're on MY case calling me this and that...
That is above and beyond annoying. To have some fucktard coming out of the woodwork and trying to define who you are even though you know who you are and what you believe is right. I've done nothing truly monumental that could be considered earth shatteringly terrible, but apparently there is nothing you can do to please anybody, they want you dead just for existing.
And it's like, I have a life to live, yunno, don't I get to have a life. Is that so wrong? I've lived basically only doing little crap so far, school, videogames, porn, haven't even touched a girl, so yeah forgive me if I feel like I deserve some kind of life like everybody typically has before they die.
I want to get into teaching kids this honestly. I can't believe I go to high school right, for 4 solid long years, and not one class I took there taught me about low-carb dieting which will help keep you healthy and in shape the rest of your life.
You guys out there in the web, there's a lot of you guys and whatever your thoughts on me are, I don't give a damn. I'm a good person whether you like it or not.
I want to help people and be a hero whether you like it or not. There are GOOD MEN in this world. Too bad no one knows their names.
But we exist and we do what we can when we can to ensure that life is good for EVERYONE.
I will ALWAYS be a force for good.
It pisses me off personally to an EXTREME degree when someone tries to belittle my character and claim I'm "passive" or "pussy" as I've been called.
YOU MUST BE A REAL BADASS. I don't know exactly what you're doing to help people or whatever or if you don't care at all about others or giving back to society. Yet you're on MY case calling me this and that...
That is above and beyond annoying. To have some fucktard coming out of the woodwork and trying to define who you are even though you know who you are and what you believe is right. I've done nothing truly monumental that could be considered earth shatteringly terrible, but apparently there is nothing you can do to please anybody, they want you dead just for existing.
And it's like, I have a life to live, yunno, don't I get to have a life. Is that so wrong? I've lived basically only doing little crap so far, school, videogames, porn, haven't even touched a girl, so yeah forgive me if I feel like I deserve some kind of life like everybody typically has before they die.
Sunday, November 10, 2013
My life long diet plan
I've lived a long life, some of it good, movies cartoons tgif, A LOT of it bad, bullies at school, school in general... internet.
I never thought as a kid I'd one day be having the military hunting me down. I honestly don't like it and wish I'd gone down a different path in life, but I'm never that lucky and am not surprised. Just another of many of life's stupid shits I have to deal with. You ask me what life's all about what's the meaning of it all, then when you get no answer, you freak out and shit? That's what we all have to live with, not knowing the answer "why." Don't put that on my shoulders...
Anyway, like always when life gets me down, I find something, anything, to make me feel a little better about being dragged into this world.
First it was porn and girls. Out of all the crap life piles on you, you can always say there's tits to enjoy right?
But that's not all. I now know how to get my fat ass in shape!!!! I NEVER thought I'd be able to do it. And believe me I tried.
I'm a fighter, like Rocky Balboa. Always have been. I REALLY identified with those films as a kid and still do to this day, but BOY was I off target with my training regimine or what.
I'd do everything, lift weights, run, fucking punch the couch, you name it I did it to get my body cut like Rocky's.
Not a damn difference was made after all that hard work. Turns out all my life if I just ate differently I'd have gotten FUCKING RIPPED to shreds like I intended.
Fucked up that I have to get my body ripped NOW at 27, but whatever. I WILL get ripped I have to.
I'm going to shoot a scene for the static trailer with my shirt off, so I have to be muscular as fuck for that.
So it's not for just no reason. If I look fucking shredded, it'll work out better because it's an intense scene and shit..... It's like in mortal kombat when Lui kang powers up at the end.
Gotta give the 90s a lot of credit, they made movies with fucking brass balls for boys to enjoy back then.
I don't like the young douche back black kids I meet a lot, they're idiots, but boy did I have way better MANLY fucking movies in my time than they do.
Mortal Kombat, Mario Bros, Meteor Man, Blankman, Batman, Back to the future, all spielberg's 90s movies really (boys being boys and having adventures and fucking girls all over the world.)
What the SHIT happened to those movies?
I am who I am today because of them honestly. I'd get lost in a badass movie like mortal kombat or ninja turtles as a kid and it made me want to get fucking ripped and hit the gym and become like rocky etc.
That's GOOD. Boys should discipline themselves with fitness. In fact that's all I've ever been, personality wise, a guy who's really into fitness and movies about the subject.
That means a lot to me really. I love shit about a guy who improves himself through fitness and goes and kicks ass. When I look back on my childhood, those movies were the biggest thing to me...
Anyway, It's a done deal. I'm going to ingest purely protein from now on, and drink plenty of water. I experimented today with whether combining protein and water would increase fat loss, like NOBODY'S BUSINESS I was pissing like mad today and draining fat. Going to slim down in no time now.... You bet your ass....
I'm extremely excited now about this shit because I've NEVER known how to drop pounds until now. It's so bad being me, you go through life with no education on anything, and then you end up 27 in a world where no one frankly gives a damn if you live or die....
I'm going to live, you fucks. I'm going to fucking LIVE.
I never thought as a kid I'd one day be having the military hunting me down. I honestly don't like it and wish I'd gone down a different path in life, but I'm never that lucky and am not surprised. Just another of many of life's stupid shits I have to deal with. You ask me what life's all about what's the meaning of it all, then when you get no answer, you freak out and shit? That's what we all have to live with, not knowing the answer "why." Don't put that on my shoulders...
Anyway, like always when life gets me down, I find something, anything, to make me feel a little better about being dragged into this world.
First it was porn and girls. Out of all the crap life piles on you, you can always say there's tits to enjoy right?
But that's not all. I now know how to get my fat ass in shape!!!! I NEVER thought I'd be able to do it. And believe me I tried.
I'm a fighter, like Rocky Balboa. Always have been. I REALLY identified with those films as a kid and still do to this day, but BOY was I off target with my training regimine or what.
I'd do everything, lift weights, run, fucking punch the couch, you name it I did it to get my body cut like Rocky's.
Not a damn difference was made after all that hard work. Turns out all my life if I just ate differently I'd have gotten FUCKING RIPPED to shreds like I intended.
Fucked up that I have to get my body ripped NOW at 27, but whatever. I WILL get ripped I have to.
I'm going to shoot a scene for the static trailer with my shirt off, so I have to be muscular as fuck for that.
So it's not for just no reason. If I look fucking shredded, it'll work out better because it's an intense scene and shit..... It's like in mortal kombat when Lui kang powers up at the end.
Gotta give the 90s a lot of credit, they made movies with fucking brass balls for boys to enjoy back then.
I don't like the young douche back black kids I meet a lot, they're idiots, but boy did I have way better MANLY fucking movies in my time than they do.
Mortal Kombat, Mario Bros, Meteor Man, Blankman, Batman, Back to the future, all spielberg's 90s movies really (boys being boys and having adventures and fucking girls all over the world.)
What the SHIT happened to those movies?
I am who I am today because of them honestly. I'd get lost in a badass movie like mortal kombat or ninja turtles as a kid and it made me want to get fucking ripped and hit the gym and become like rocky etc.
That's GOOD. Boys should discipline themselves with fitness. In fact that's all I've ever been, personality wise, a guy who's really into fitness and movies about the subject.
That means a lot to me really. I love shit about a guy who improves himself through fitness and goes and kicks ass. When I look back on my childhood, those movies were the biggest thing to me...
Anyway, It's a done deal. I'm going to ingest purely protein from now on, and drink plenty of water. I experimented today with whether combining protein and water would increase fat loss, like NOBODY'S BUSINESS I was pissing like mad today and draining fat. Going to slim down in no time now.... You bet your ass....
I'm extremely excited now about this shit because I've NEVER known how to drop pounds until now. It's so bad being me, you go through life with no education on anything, and then you end up 27 in a world where no one frankly gives a damn if you live or die....
I'm going to live, you fucks. I'm going to fucking LIVE.
After effects baby
So I'm getting better and better at After effects. I love the program. I've now discovered how to eliminate the weird glitch that happens when you use the advance lightning.
I've got a lot more knowledge now about how to use this thing than I ever did before.
I can manipulate masks, even use the keylight feature, of course I've figured out how to animate all the objects in it. And I can use the motion tracker too. It's all good. Getting better and better the more we approach the completion of this static shock project.
All that's left is to:
Get some shots of manhattan for the flying stuff
Get some shots of me flying in front of blue screen
Figure out what music I'm going to use.
Shit's hard because I'm doing this by myself. But I've already completed a shot where I fight my clone. Yep, I did it. I took a shot of me doing something, and took a second shot and now I have a complete shot where I've doubled myself. It's so cool.
Not going to stop, going to keep going till the end.
Going to put a girl in it, a girl I like a lot, Asa Akira. Yep, you'll see. She's going to be in it, hope there's no copyright conflict. I just want to have some ass in my video, that's all.
ugh, what else.. don't know. I want to finish filming before I head for Alabama is all. But I broke my phone so I can't actually see what I'm filming anymore...
Makes things harder and harder. Might not go full hog with the flying shots really. Might just stick to maybe the 2 shots I want to get and leave it at that....
I've got a lot more knowledge now about how to use this thing than I ever did before.
I can manipulate masks, even use the keylight feature, of course I've figured out how to animate all the objects in it. And I can use the motion tracker too. It's all good. Getting better and better the more we approach the completion of this static shock project.
All that's left is to:
Get some shots of manhattan for the flying stuff
Get some shots of me flying in front of blue screen
Figure out what music I'm going to use.
Shit's hard because I'm doing this by myself. But I've already completed a shot where I fight my clone. Yep, I did it. I took a shot of me doing something, and took a second shot and now I have a complete shot where I've doubled myself. It's so cool.
Not going to stop, going to keep going till the end.
Going to put a girl in it, a girl I like a lot, Asa Akira. Yep, you'll see. She's going to be in it, hope there's no copyright conflict. I just want to have some ass in my video, that's all.
ugh, what else.. don't know. I want to finish filming before I head for Alabama is all. But I broke my phone so I can't actually see what I'm filming anymore...
Makes things harder and harder. Might not go full hog with the flying shots really. Might just stick to maybe the 2 shots I want to get and leave it at that....
Saturday, November 9, 2013
Can I fly a plane?
That's a good fucking question. I've worked for delta airlines and flown around the US many times. I've talked to pilots. Been in love with aviation all my life since I was born for it, being born in a military family. I've been told "everyone is former military" so that makes me not so special in the end... Seems that way. I look up the bios for a lot of celebs and a lot of them are former airforce believe it or not. That's what makes my life seem so interesting. Here I am a kid obsessed with one day becoming an airman and most of the heros in my life like john williams, and morgan freeman are former airmen.
Wow, what the hell did they do in there? Not only that but uncle phil is former Navy from Fresh Prince. So prettymuch everything I ever liked or experienced throughout my childhood has some connection to the military. That's nuts...
But I'm going down an interesting path these days. Getting my ass back in TSA means I'll have a decent income. From there I can go back to college and get my degree and ultimately my pilots license. Probably get it all done by my mid 30s. Be about 34 years old when I finish everything.
The hardest part about flying planes is not the flying part. It's the landing. And subsequently the taxiing to the gate.
That part is nerve racking specifically because the pilot has to hit his mark or things are going to get complicated and the plane will need to be towed into proper position.
They must need to get really good at that part. Besides that, it's not that fucking hard. You get the bitch in the air and put it on auto pilot. Take any short cuts that are available to get to the other side faster, and mission complete.
I look like a pilot anyway. Now that I'm dropping weight, my face and my body is LEAN and getting shaped like a pilot's body. It's rather interesting how life seems to be forming into something much more exciting.
It's just unfortunate that I have to have a goddamn spotlight on me while I try to find my identity and get a career as a pilot one day.
That's not cool. I know the world's a fucked up place, but what the hell, just because we're in the internet age where you can have instant communication with someone in mere seconds does NOT mean you have the right to invade their life constantly. It really doesn't.
Whatever, I'm tough enough. I'll just get my fucking college degree shit out of the way, then get my pilot license and fly planes and not give a damn what people think about me.
Wow, what the hell did they do in there? Not only that but uncle phil is former Navy from Fresh Prince. So prettymuch everything I ever liked or experienced throughout my childhood has some connection to the military. That's nuts...
But I'm going down an interesting path these days. Getting my ass back in TSA means I'll have a decent income. From there I can go back to college and get my degree and ultimately my pilots license. Probably get it all done by my mid 30s. Be about 34 years old when I finish everything.
The hardest part about flying planes is not the flying part. It's the landing. And subsequently the taxiing to the gate.
That part is nerve racking specifically because the pilot has to hit his mark or things are going to get complicated and the plane will need to be towed into proper position.
They must need to get really good at that part. Besides that, it's not that fucking hard. You get the bitch in the air and put it on auto pilot. Take any short cuts that are available to get to the other side faster, and mission complete.
I look like a pilot anyway. Now that I'm dropping weight, my face and my body is LEAN and getting shaped like a pilot's body. It's rather interesting how life seems to be forming into something much more exciting.
It's just unfortunate that I have to have a goddamn spotlight on me while I try to find my identity and get a career as a pilot one day.
That's not cool. I know the world's a fucked up place, but what the hell, just because we're in the internet age where you can have instant communication with someone in mere seconds does NOT mean you have the right to invade their life constantly. It really doesn't.
Whatever, I'm tough enough. I'll just get my fucking college degree shit out of the way, then get my pilot license and fly planes and not give a damn what people think about me.
TSA and PS4
So I'm going to be back on part time schedule at TSA. Looking forward to returning. This is going to be monumentally helpful in my intentions to pursue a pilot's license etc. I can only hope everything proceeds according to plan.
It's a funny messy and crazy world we live in. But working at TSA at LGA was heaven on earth. I loved it. I was amongst pilots and classy people. We were doing an easy job. We got paid handsomely. I could throw money away. I never in my life had that feeling of being wealthy until I landed that job. Now I'm absolutely beyond a shred of doubt going to get back what I lost.
This time I'm going to do everything differently. I'm going to be the best at my job that I can be. And ultimately I'm going to get an apartment near work and just spend spend spend. I'm not going to worry about money because I'm me, 27, no kids, free to live and laugh and fuck.
Lord knows if that will happen. I'll be honest I had 2 chances to fuck TSA girls. One was a spanish girl who was kinda sad about not having a boyfriend and she was giving thought to letting me fuck her hot latina ass. Hell yeah I would have, but I got cold feet... didn't want to get with a girl I work with...
And I'm pretty sure that was a good decision. You get that close with a girl at work and when things go down hill, you have to deal with her? No sir. Bad enough trying to figure out how to get along with that girl at delta...
My girl's going to be maybe some starbucks girl, white girl. Yeah baby. I'm aiming for the top. I ain't scared of white girls.
I was talking to one at TSA, she was cute, I just wanted to fuck the crap out of her, and she's one of those white girl's who's a tomboy, and not all acting like the world revolves around her ass. So I was thinking about fucking her and she probably loves black guys deep down. You gonna find that shit in this world. Despite being white, there are white females who love blacks more than any other males. I've seen them here and there... That's who they are, not much they can do about it I guess.
As for PS4, what to say about that. I don't recommend buying it yet. Most likely the engineers making it want to be tricky about it and release a giant version then months later release the slim version like they've done twice now with the ps2 and ps3.
I look at the ps4 and it's ridiculously HUGE. No doubt they're going to offer a more sleaker design some time down the road. I want to get it and I hope it's backwards compatible because then I can play my ps3 games I bought.
Never thought as a kid that I'd be able to play fullscale warfare online with tanks and jets and shit, but the world's changed and now I go online and it's just fucking awesome the games they make these days.
Boy howdy. You grow up thinking ps2 can't be topped, and now we have uncharted and fucking battlefield etc.
GTA V.... life has it's blessings. It truly does. Can't wait to get up on those games. In case you all didn't know, my ps3 got a Yellow ring of death and I trashed it. Turns out you can't swap out hard drives so all my save data is gone now. Gotta play all my games from scratch.
It's a funny messy and crazy world we live in. But working at TSA at LGA was heaven on earth. I loved it. I was amongst pilots and classy people. We were doing an easy job. We got paid handsomely. I could throw money away. I never in my life had that feeling of being wealthy until I landed that job. Now I'm absolutely beyond a shred of doubt going to get back what I lost.
This time I'm going to do everything differently. I'm going to be the best at my job that I can be. And ultimately I'm going to get an apartment near work and just spend spend spend. I'm not going to worry about money because I'm me, 27, no kids, free to live and laugh and fuck.
Lord knows if that will happen. I'll be honest I had 2 chances to fuck TSA girls. One was a spanish girl who was kinda sad about not having a boyfriend and she was giving thought to letting me fuck her hot latina ass. Hell yeah I would have, but I got cold feet... didn't want to get with a girl I work with...
And I'm pretty sure that was a good decision. You get that close with a girl at work and when things go down hill, you have to deal with her? No sir. Bad enough trying to figure out how to get along with that girl at delta...
My girl's going to be maybe some starbucks girl, white girl. Yeah baby. I'm aiming for the top. I ain't scared of white girls.
I was talking to one at TSA, she was cute, I just wanted to fuck the crap out of her, and she's one of those white girl's who's a tomboy, and not all acting like the world revolves around her ass. So I was thinking about fucking her and she probably loves black guys deep down. You gonna find that shit in this world. Despite being white, there are white females who love blacks more than any other males. I've seen them here and there... That's who they are, not much they can do about it I guess.
As for PS4, what to say about that. I don't recommend buying it yet. Most likely the engineers making it want to be tricky about it and release a giant version then months later release the slim version like they've done twice now with the ps2 and ps3.
I look at the ps4 and it's ridiculously HUGE. No doubt they're going to offer a more sleaker design some time down the road. I want to get it and I hope it's backwards compatible because then I can play my ps3 games I bought.
Never thought as a kid that I'd be able to play fullscale warfare online with tanks and jets and shit, but the world's changed and now I go online and it's just fucking awesome the games they make these days.
Boy howdy. You grow up thinking ps2 can't be topped, and now we have uncharted and fucking battlefield etc.
GTA V.... life has it's blessings. It truly does. Can't wait to get up on those games. In case you all didn't know, my ps3 got a Yellow ring of death and I trashed it. Turns out you can't swap out hard drives so all my save data is gone now. Gotta play all my games from scratch.
Friday, November 8, 2013
12 days from now
Got the airport assessment scheduled for my job at TSA.
So it's almost over. once you do the airport assessment and pass, then it's on to the training and stuff.
Problem is. I don't live in Alabama. I honestly don't know much about that area of the the US. And even if it's a good place for a black guy to be. Although I can hang out around white folks all day and there's no problem really. I'm just there to get a job is all.
I'm a soldier, gotta fight, gotta get mine in this world.
Going to get back into TSA. ugh. the training. Then we'll stay there. Haven't gotten a fucking word from CBP, at all. So apparently they're not really going to hire me at all. I don't know. I was thinking they'd try to get me going because I'm 27, I've got time aplenty to do the things they want new recruits to do.
But I guess not...
So be it. I think I'm better off at TSA. Although the job is hit or miss. Some days you work, some days you don't. Hopefully I can get away with staying out of the spotlight. That's the mistake I made last time. I drew attention to myself and then the higher ups got all in my face and tried to start trouble. This time. I'm a business man through the core. I'm there to provide service, and go home. I'm not there to get personal.
Going to fly all the way down to Alabama. And then we're going to have to figure out how I'm going to stay down there, whether it's a hotel or whatever.
This is it. Once I leave New York and get my job back at TSA, I'm not coming back. It's really going to be over. I'll have to find an apartment, move all my things there, really start tackling life more now than ever.
I don't really know what to do, so it's going to be a rough transition I'm sure.
So it's almost over. once you do the airport assessment and pass, then it's on to the training and stuff.
Problem is. I don't live in Alabama. I honestly don't know much about that area of the the US. And even if it's a good place for a black guy to be. Although I can hang out around white folks all day and there's no problem really. I'm just there to get a job is all.
I'm a soldier, gotta fight, gotta get mine in this world.
Going to get back into TSA. ugh. the training. Then we'll stay there. Haven't gotten a fucking word from CBP, at all. So apparently they're not really going to hire me at all. I don't know. I was thinking they'd try to get me going because I'm 27, I've got time aplenty to do the things they want new recruits to do.
But I guess not...
So be it. I think I'm better off at TSA. Although the job is hit or miss. Some days you work, some days you don't. Hopefully I can get away with staying out of the spotlight. That's the mistake I made last time. I drew attention to myself and then the higher ups got all in my face and tried to start trouble. This time. I'm a business man through the core. I'm there to provide service, and go home. I'm not there to get personal.
Going to fly all the way down to Alabama. And then we're going to have to figure out how I'm going to stay down there, whether it's a hotel or whatever.
This is it. Once I leave New York and get my job back at TSA, I'm not coming back. It's really going to be over. I'll have to find an apartment, move all my things there, really start tackling life more now than ever.
I don't really know what to do, so it's going to be a rough transition I'm sure.
thoughts on blackness
Just recently I was playing basketball with a couple of black kids. I was thinking to myself, "wow these guys are cool." They're not assholes or anything, cute kids.
Next thing you know. One of them tells me to help him out by going to get his hat sitting on a bench. I go to get the hat. Then they go fucking bolting off into the distance stealing my basketball without a shred of mercy or sympathy for anything.
It's like, boom. That's why there's a stormfront messageboard.
There are black people and especially black kids in this world who will SHIT on everyone around them without a moment's amount of thought or consideration.
It's what ultimately disappoints me about life.
I am who I am. I'm a nerd, a nice guy, I try to do the right thing, all that bullshit they tell you as a kid. But when I look at the world and I see that the majority of jobs are very segregated and you'll see it, mostly blacks doing shitty low paying jobs, and whites and everyone else doing the good stuff... it's just not even hard to understand why in the end when you're just constantly reminded why the white race fucking hates blacks.
It's not a complicated world. We live, we die. We fuck. We have kids. It's that fucking simple. I think if blacks would just fucking stop being shit heads, life would immediately change and we would indeed progress and have better things for ourselves, absolutely. White people are not these fucking angels from heaven, they're human beings with same biological urges, and all that stuff. So they've been saying for decades, we're not all that, we just want to go walk around the street and not have a black dude jump out of the bushes and get all in our face...
that's the ultimate truth about racism. It's not isolated. Most white people go through their lives rather uneventfully, then they encounter a rowdy loud idiot black person and that's when it's over, their opinion of blacks is ultimately changed forever.
It's stupid as hell and I honestly don't want to have the burden of trying to make sense of the relations between blacks and the rest of humanity. I really don't. I don't care about that. I go and I look at a beautiful female's ass as she walks by, and that's what I give a damn about. Not the lives of blacks vs the lives of whites or what have you.
I want to fuck ass. I want to grab a girl's hair, slap her butt cheeks, toss her on the bed, and drive my penis hard and deep into her ass hole.
THAT'S WHAT I WANT TO DO.
Sue me.
Ultimately, I don't care about those kids. It will come back to bite them. One day they'll be just like me, in their 20s and looking for a job or a girlfriend and they'll find out real quick how sympathetic whites are to their cause. If there's one thing that I have to say white people have been very clever in coming up with it's the whole bait and switch that black people get here in america. You will go through your black childhood without much problems, you might even be the mos popular dude in high school, but you ain't seen NOTHIN yet.... wait until you have to find a mate, or job, or just generally survive at work. You gonna GET IT. Life was awesome as a kid, then you're just another dime a dozen negro as an adult.
so, I don't really give a damn if I personally get treated shitilly by other black people or kids, it's so stupid really. You're fucking with me, but there's an entire HORDE of white people, Asians, and Hispanics in this world who are figuring out ways to make damn sure you don't get anywhere in this world that matters.
Next thing you know. One of them tells me to help him out by going to get his hat sitting on a bench. I go to get the hat. Then they go fucking bolting off into the distance stealing my basketball without a shred of mercy or sympathy for anything.
It's like, boom. That's why there's a stormfront messageboard.
There are black people and especially black kids in this world who will SHIT on everyone around them without a moment's amount of thought or consideration.
It's what ultimately disappoints me about life.
I am who I am. I'm a nerd, a nice guy, I try to do the right thing, all that bullshit they tell you as a kid. But when I look at the world and I see that the majority of jobs are very segregated and you'll see it, mostly blacks doing shitty low paying jobs, and whites and everyone else doing the good stuff... it's just not even hard to understand why in the end when you're just constantly reminded why the white race fucking hates blacks.
It's not a complicated world. We live, we die. We fuck. We have kids. It's that fucking simple. I think if blacks would just fucking stop being shit heads, life would immediately change and we would indeed progress and have better things for ourselves, absolutely. White people are not these fucking angels from heaven, they're human beings with same biological urges, and all that stuff. So they've been saying for decades, we're not all that, we just want to go walk around the street and not have a black dude jump out of the bushes and get all in our face...
that's the ultimate truth about racism. It's not isolated. Most white people go through their lives rather uneventfully, then they encounter a rowdy loud idiot black person and that's when it's over, their opinion of blacks is ultimately changed forever.
It's stupid as hell and I honestly don't want to have the burden of trying to make sense of the relations between blacks and the rest of humanity. I really don't. I don't care about that. I go and I look at a beautiful female's ass as she walks by, and that's what I give a damn about. Not the lives of blacks vs the lives of whites or what have you.
I want to fuck ass. I want to grab a girl's hair, slap her butt cheeks, toss her on the bed, and drive my penis hard and deep into her ass hole.
THAT'S WHAT I WANT TO DO.
Sue me.
Ultimately, I don't care about those kids. It will come back to bite them. One day they'll be just like me, in their 20s and looking for a job or a girlfriend and they'll find out real quick how sympathetic whites are to their cause. If there's one thing that I have to say white people have been very clever in coming up with it's the whole bait and switch that black people get here in america. You will go through your black childhood without much problems, you might even be the mos popular dude in high school, but you ain't seen NOTHIN yet.... wait until you have to find a mate, or job, or just generally survive at work. You gonna GET IT. Life was awesome as a kid, then you're just another dime a dozen negro as an adult.
so, I don't really give a damn if I personally get treated shitilly by other black people or kids, it's so stupid really. You're fucking with me, but there's an entire HORDE of white people, Asians, and Hispanics in this world who are figuring out ways to make damn sure you don't get anywhere in this world that matters.
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
My thoughts on Singer's X-men
Going to get into this since I believe there's no getting around it, we're linked, him, me, and x-men. Does Bryan Singer give a SHIT about me? No. He may or may not even know I exist, probably doesn't like how I treated his superman movie... I can't apologize enough for that action. Uh, but it is what it is. You will fail in life, you will fall, HARD, and not even know where to go afterwards really. If there's one thing you can count on, it's man's ability to fuck up.
I don't want to be party to the extreme and complex political dealings going on between homosexuals and heterosexuals. It's one of the benefits of being black, is that you don't get very far discussing those things anyway, so why bother. It's something I realize now. That, a black guy can't make huge changes to the world, not now, not ever... So I can scream to the heavens about wanting things my way, and no one will give a shit. There ya go... yup...
So Singer's back on X-men after all these years. I was there. So anyone very young reading this will get some education. Singer was ready to film x3, but then he got a call from WB and they asked him if he wouldn't mind doing Superman. Uh, of course this was a dream project for Singer, so he went and took the jump to WB without a moments hesitation. The reason being, because he hated working for Fox. Ultimately he made great xmen movies despite all the studio bullshit he probably dealt with, and that's remarkable. But because he's so good, he got requested to go to the superman side of things.
So we got a new superman movie that I personally followed with a passion. It was monumental to me, and to a lot of fanboys online. Not so sure how big it was to the general public. All I know is that, if I had it to do all over again, I would not have gotten so deeply involved. Because now it's just blown up beyond reason. To the point of zealous insane religious warfare like over in iraq and stuff. It's not right to get that into a fucking superhero movie. Really look at yourself and see how stupid you look for losing your mind and arguing for years about fucking superman.
YOU LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT.
Well anyway. I just wanted to get into what I expect from Days of future past, because I grew up on Singer's X-men. Which is why I was all FOR him making superman. Didn't have a CLUE in fuck that there were a vehement KKK group targeting the film for execution like that, but there it is. I guess there is a bunch of white guys ready to tear singer down if he does anything at all... That's truly unfortunate. He's the only guy on this planet who's made competent x-men movies.
The question I have is does he feel like he failed? Cuz this SHOULD be Superman Returns 2 he's making, not X-men.
I'm more than confident that he'll knock it out of the park. He's a GREAT director. That's all that needs to be said about him.
It's clear as day. We had 2 intelligent well made x movies, then we got x3. Superman Returns is still a far better film than half the movies we get these days. Hell I'll even say it's still BETTER than anything we've gotten since it came out. And that includes the Dark Knight, thought that movie gave it a run for its money. There's just so much passion put on screen in Returns, there's no amount of Dragon ball Z bull shit in Man of Steel that's going to compare to that.
So it's a hard world to live in where people are struggling to ignore a great superman film, even to the point of making a goddamn new one, that isn't even close to being as good.
You wait and see, Days of Future past is going to have more soul and heart and passion in it than ANYTHING in Man of Steel. You bet your fucking ass.
I bet they might even consider bringing singer back to superman after days completely embarasses their little piece of shit man of steel cartoon episode they put out there...Yeah, it's a fucking satuarday morning episdoe of superman tas for babies. The movie was so fucking one note. No depth. Nothing said about anything. It came, it left my brain. I'm still feeling the passion for superman that singer put into Returns. I feel nogthing for man of steel. I don't know who gives a damn about that movie really. If you have a choice of watching superman 1, 2, and Returns vs watching man of steel, what are you gonna do?
I was hopeful really. I didn't like the feeling of uneasiness that I got from my own conflict with Returns. So I was hoping to just jump on the man of steel bandwagon and forget about superman returns all together, but I can't. The movie was stupid. It didn't even try to be as smart as returns. Returns is a clever movie. Truly evoking the quality of the superman comics in that some of those issues don't make any fucking sense whatsoever, but they're more about the underling themes and subtext. And so Singer went that route. He didn't try to make the movie fit into a neat little box, it's full of ambiguity which you can fill in on your own. Man of Steel makes no fucking attempt whatsoever to be artistic. And that's a huge problem. If there's one thing I know about superman comics, it's that they're extremely artistic because it's hard to do superman in a particular way, so basically every artist and writer takes him and uses him for artistic reasons more than the straight forward hero vs villain stuff.
It's like burton with batman really. He took batman and instead of playing it straight which is what we got with nolan's boring shitty batman with now artistic value whatsoever, burton took what makes batman COOL and amplified it to the 10th degree. That's how it's supposed to be done. You have to take these comic characters and make them into legends through the visuals. Then it become so much more interesting imo.
That's why I love Superman Returns. It takes me RIGHT the fuck back to my childhood days. I watched movie that were weird and artistic, but they were supposed to be. That's how art works. It's supposed to be I suppose a distortion of reality. Not straight up reality in your face. But it takes reality and reforms it into something more interesting.
So it's profoundly disappointing that they took superman and made him into this really predictable, safe, cookie cutout super hero that we've seen before a billion times.
That's not the era I come from. We didn't get "safe" movies back in my day. We got fucking batman, we got fucking ninja turtles, fucking power rangers movie, shit that was truly a interesting and different kind of films that were weird and strange. Gotta give burton his due, he's responsible for a lot of the really fucking strange and ridiculous works of art that we got back in the 90s.
It's ultimately too bad we've not challenging ourselves anymore artistically with films. It's truly becoming a kinda lame now to see the thousandth sequel or reboot of the same shit done with more modern fx. I'll watch Ang Lee's hulk any day over Incredible Hulk, because that movie was huge to me, because it was so fucking awkward and different. That's what I like to see. But you go online and you tell guys, you liked ang lee's hulk, I don't know who it is, some douche bag in his 50s or whatever, but they slam you down for liking any kind of hulk that's different from the comic pages.
bull shit... don't matter. Singer is going to really hopefully make a monumental x-men to end all x-men. And also I hope that one day soon I'll just have my x-men bluray collection consist of x1-x2-and Days of future past. And finally we'll have the x-trilogy we deserve. It's so fucked up that we had to go through a full awful brett ratner x-men for them to say oh well that sucked, let's get a good director making these movies again. But we did...
The future does indeed look bright though. Always good to have Bryan Singer making films instead of fucking Brett Ratner or Zack Snyder.
Apparently being Gay is a fucking good thing. Because Singer's movies are GOOD and the heterosexual's movies are SHITTY.
What's going on here?
I don't want to be party to the extreme and complex political dealings going on between homosexuals and heterosexuals. It's one of the benefits of being black, is that you don't get very far discussing those things anyway, so why bother. It's something I realize now. That, a black guy can't make huge changes to the world, not now, not ever... So I can scream to the heavens about wanting things my way, and no one will give a shit. There ya go... yup...
So Singer's back on X-men after all these years. I was there. So anyone very young reading this will get some education. Singer was ready to film x3, but then he got a call from WB and they asked him if he wouldn't mind doing Superman. Uh, of course this was a dream project for Singer, so he went and took the jump to WB without a moments hesitation. The reason being, because he hated working for Fox. Ultimately he made great xmen movies despite all the studio bullshit he probably dealt with, and that's remarkable. But because he's so good, he got requested to go to the superman side of things.
So we got a new superman movie that I personally followed with a passion. It was monumental to me, and to a lot of fanboys online. Not so sure how big it was to the general public. All I know is that, if I had it to do all over again, I would not have gotten so deeply involved. Because now it's just blown up beyond reason. To the point of zealous insane religious warfare like over in iraq and stuff. It's not right to get that into a fucking superhero movie. Really look at yourself and see how stupid you look for losing your mind and arguing for years about fucking superman.
YOU LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT.
Well anyway. I just wanted to get into what I expect from Days of future past, because I grew up on Singer's X-men. Which is why I was all FOR him making superman. Didn't have a CLUE in fuck that there were a vehement KKK group targeting the film for execution like that, but there it is. I guess there is a bunch of white guys ready to tear singer down if he does anything at all... That's truly unfortunate. He's the only guy on this planet who's made competent x-men movies.
The question I have is does he feel like he failed? Cuz this SHOULD be Superman Returns 2 he's making, not X-men.
I'm more than confident that he'll knock it out of the park. He's a GREAT director. That's all that needs to be said about him.
It's clear as day. We had 2 intelligent well made x movies, then we got x3. Superman Returns is still a far better film than half the movies we get these days. Hell I'll even say it's still BETTER than anything we've gotten since it came out. And that includes the Dark Knight, thought that movie gave it a run for its money. There's just so much passion put on screen in Returns, there's no amount of Dragon ball Z bull shit in Man of Steel that's going to compare to that.
So it's a hard world to live in where people are struggling to ignore a great superman film, even to the point of making a goddamn new one, that isn't even close to being as good.
You wait and see, Days of Future past is going to have more soul and heart and passion in it than ANYTHING in Man of Steel. You bet your fucking ass.
I bet they might even consider bringing singer back to superman after days completely embarasses their little piece of shit man of steel cartoon episode they put out there...Yeah, it's a fucking satuarday morning episdoe of superman tas for babies. The movie was so fucking one note. No depth. Nothing said about anything. It came, it left my brain. I'm still feeling the passion for superman that singer put into Returns. I feel nogthing for man of steel. I don't know who gives a damn about that movie really. If you have a choice of watching superman 1, 2, and Returns vs watching man of steel, what are you gonna do?
I was hopeful really. I didn't like the feeling of uneasiness that I got from my own conflict with Returns. So I was hoping to just jump on the man of steel bandwagon and forget about superman returns all together, but I can't. The movie was stupid. It didn't even try to be as smart as returns. Returns is a clever movie. Truly evoking the quality of the superman comics in that some of those issues don't make any fucking sense whatsoever, but they're more about the underling themes and subtext. And so Singer went that route. He didn't try to make the movie fit into a neat little box, it's full of ambiguity which you can fill in on your own. Man of Steel makes no fucking attempt whatsoever to be artistic. And that's a huge problem. If there's one thing I know about superman comics, it's that they're extremely artistic because it's hard to do superman in a particular way, so basically every artist and writer takes him and uses him for artistic reasons more than the straight forward hero vs villain stuff.
It's like burton with batman really. He took batman and instead of playing it straight which is what we got with nolan's boring shitty batman with now artistic value whatsoever, burton took what makes batman COOL and amplified it to the 10th degree. That's how it's supposed to be done. You have to take these comic characters and make them into legends through the visuals. Then it become so much more interesting imo.
That's why I love Superman Returns. It takes me RIGHT the fuck back to my childhood days. I watched movie that were weird and artistic, but they were supposed to be. That's how art works. It's supposed to be I suppose a distortion of reality. Not straight up reality in your face. But it takes reality and reforms it into something more interesting.
So it's profoundly disappointing that they took superman and made him into this really predictable, safe, cookie cutout super hero that we've seen before a billion times.
That's not the era I come from. We didn't get "safe" movies back in my day. We got fucking batman, we got fucking ninja turtles, fucking power rangers movie, shit that was truly a interesting and different kind of films that were weird and strange. Gotta give burton his due, he's responsible for a lot of the really fucking strange and ridiculous works of art that we got back in the 90s.
It's ultimately too bad we've not challenging ourselves anymore artistically with films. It's truly becoming a kinda lame now to see the thousandth sequel or reboot of the same shit done with more modern fx. I'll watch Ang Lee's hulk any day over Incredible Hulk, because that movie was huge to me, because it was so fucking awkward and different. That's what I like to see. But you go online and you tell guys, you liked ang lee's hulk, I don't know who it is, some douche bag in his 50s or whatever, but they slam you down for liking any kind of hulk that's different from the comic pages.
bull shit... don't matter. Singer is going to really hopefully make a monumental x-men to end all x-men. And also I hope that one day soon I'll just have my x-men bluray collection consist of x1-x2-and Days of future past. And finally we'll have the x-trilogy we deserve. It's so fucked up that we had to go through a full awful brett ratner x-men for them to say oh well that sucked, let's get a good director making these movies again. But we did...
The future does indeed look bright though. Always good to have Bryan Singer making films instead of fucking Brett Ratner or Zack Snyder.
Apparently being Gay is a fucking good thing. Because Singer's movies are GOOD and the heterosexual's movies are SHITTY.
What's going on here?
transforming myself
I'm going to go through the water only diet one more time.
Why? Because I want to change.
I want to become a new person.
Totally different, reborn. And I think this is the only way to do it.
30 days we'll do.
It's going to hurt.
I'll want to quit.
But if I want to do things MY way in this world, I have to shed my old skin.
We only live once. And I think a lot of us come to a point in life where we have a mountain in front of us, that we can decide to climb, or not.
This is my mountain.
If I make it to the end of this, I'll have become more than just a man. I'll become a super saiyan.
Why? Because I want to change.
I want to become a new person.
Totally different, reborn. And I think this is the only way to do it.
30 days we'll do.
It's going to hurt.
I'll want to quit.
But if I want to do things MY way in this world, I have to shed my old skin.
We only live once. And I think a lot of us come to a point in life where we have a mountain in front of us, that we can decide to climb, or not.
This is my mountain.
If I make it to the end of this, I'll have become more than just a man. I'll become a super saiyan.
Sunday, November 3, 2013
tsa dude getting shot
YIKES. Here I am about to get a job back with them and one of them goes down in the line of duty.
That must suck. You're a security guard, a glorified mall cop. Working at tsa was a joy primarily because it's not really work. You clock in, you get money thrown at you for doing nothing and you go home. That's the job.
This dude got shot like a cop. THAT is fucked up shit. I don't know why that dude killed a tso, we don't even want to do the job. We just want the fucking paycheck. Yanno... every last one of the tso I was working with was in it for the pay check. We will let passengers get away with murder if we can. If it's mad obvious that ok they got a knife, a lighter, whatever, then we do the job, but otherwise, I've seen guys lazily going through the day and not giving a shit.
That's what it really is when you get down to it. As big and complex as TSA is, and they have so many rules, and shit, EVERYONE working there does not give a shit. They just do the shit, get the money, and go home.
I can't even begin to fathom how anyone could hate a tso so much that they'd pull out a gun. We don't play like cops, we can't. It's not about being a cop, it's just a joke, man. We do the job, make money, it's not that fucking serious.
I don't know what the hell... I feel sorry for the dude. Because I know who these people are. They're just poor slubs trying to make it in this goddamn piece shit world and to go to safe, no frills, job like tsa and have a dude kill you over probably something like not getting to bring some special lotion, is ridiculous. Way out of bounds... that's messed up, man...
That must suck. You're a security guard, a glorified mall cop. Working at tsa was a joy primarily because it's not really work. You clock in, you get money thrown at you for doing nothing and you go home. That's the job.
This dude got shot like a cop. THAT is fucked up shit. I don't know why that dude killed a tso, we don't even want to do the job. We just want the fucking paycheck. Yanno... every last one of the tso I was working with was in it for the pay check. We will let passengers get away with murder if we can. If it's mad obvious that ok they got a knife, a lighter, whatever, then we do the job, but otherwise, I've seen guys lazily going through the day and not giving a shit.
That's what it really is when you get down to it. As big and complex as TSA is, and they have so many rules, and shit, EVERYONE working there does not give a shit. They just do the shit, get the money, and go home.
I can't even begin to fathom how anyone could hate a tso so much that they'd pull out a gun. We don't play like cops, we can't. It's not about being a cop, it's just a joke, man. We do the job, make money, it's not that fucking serious.
I don't know what the hell... I feel sorry for the dude. Because I know who these people are. They're just poor slubs trying to make it in this goddamn piece shit world and to go to safe, no frills, job like tsa and have a dude kill you over probably something like not getting to bring some special lotion, is ridiculous. Way out of bounds... that's messed up, man...
thoughts on porn and new fx shot
Just sitting here. Just jacked off like 3 times. Wow, never thought i'd see so many white girls naked getting fucked in every hole they got, but blessed is my life, it's all there, all free to see. And I must say it is glorious. It's a wonderful life.
I mean, I like girls in general but nothing and I mean nothing it better to me than seeing a brunette brown eyed white girl naked, sexy.
That is my ultimate female. Why? I can only assume it's because she's where I came from. It may sound ridiculous, but it's gotta have some truth to it, males typically are attracted to females who resemble themselves in the end. That's why you see mad hispanic guys going after hispanic girls who look like their mirror image. I used to see a guy at work with his girlfriend and you'd think they were twins. It's got to be like that.
So, I'm part white. And the girls I find most attractive are white girls who have the same facial features as me. So it's like I'm looking at mysefl at a lighter complexion and with tits and straight hair. It's just the way it is really...
As for this new fx thing I'm doing. I'm thinking now about putting together a mini fight scene between static and some random bang baby.
How we gonna do dat? Well, the old fashioned way, rotoscoping or whatever it's called. I'm going to keep the camera still. Take a shot of me doing some action. Take another shot of the villain doing some aciton. Splice the footage together and it'll look seamless as if we're both in the same shot in the end. Back to the future style. Only not as fucking obvious I hope. Goddamn, all that money they spent on fx back then, and now any kid in his basement can make a 10 times better movie these days, huh. crazy...
Getting back to the point, like I said, this is how I look in case you all forgot:
I know you guys are like, oh this is black guy talkin, but no, not totally accurate...
So yeah when I say I DO really have a thing for white girls, it's not born from any random infatuation or desire to turn white. I'm kinda already there...
I've just, I don't know if it's social conditioning, the fact that there's a majority white pressence in everything, or what, but yeah I ended up being like really into white chicks, I don't know what to tell ya... Not the bleach blondes really. I can't really feel too attracted to blondes, don't know what it is. I guess it's because nothing in me is blonde. I'm part irish that's all it really is. So yeah. there ya go. Now, it it a good thing, I don't know. I don't want to be like "omg I hate blacks." that's hardly the case. I will FUCK THE SHIT out of a gorgeous in shape black girl. so yeah, that's not the problem. Really it's the titties, mostly. I'm all about titties.
That's my favorite thing. When a girl is just HUGE and ready to spray the room full of milk, It's a wrap, son. I'm done... I want to suck em and squeeze.... yunno, but besides that, I'm more like I like italian looking white chicks. Don't ask me why bro...
I mean, I like girls in general but nothing and I mean nothing it better to me than seeing a brunette brown eyed white girl naked, sexy.
That is my ultimate female. Why? I can only assume it's because she's where I came from. It may sound ridiculous, but it's gotta have some truth to it, males typically are attracted to females who resemble themselves in the end. That's why you see mad hispanic guys going after hispanic girls who look like their mirror image. I used to see a guy at work with his girlfriend and you'd think they were twins. It's got to be like that.
So, I'm part white. And the girls I find most attractive are white girls who have the same facial features as me. So it's like I'm looking at mysefl at a lighter complexion and with tits and straight hair. It's just the way it is really...
As for this new fx thing I'm doing. I'm thinking now about putting together a mini fight scene between static and some random bang baby.
How we gonna do dat? Well, the old fashioned way, rotoscoping or whatever it's called. I'm going to keep the camera still. Take a shot of me doing some action. Take another shot of the villain doing some aciton. Splice the footage together and it'll look seamless as if we're both in the same shot in the end. Back to the future style. Only not as fucking obvious I hope. Goddamn, all that money they spent on fx back then, and now any kid in his basement can make a 10 times better movie these days, huh. crazy...
Getting back to the point, like I said, this is how I look in case you all forgot:
So yeah when I say I DO really have a thing for white girls, it's not born from any random infatuation or desire to turn white. I'm kinda already there...
I've just, I don't know if it's social conditioning, the fact that there's a majority white pressence in everything, or what, but yeah I ended up being like really into white chicks, I don't know what to tell ya... Not the bleach blondes really. I can't really feel too attracted to blondes, don't know what it is. I guess it's because nothing in me is blonde. I'm part irish that's all it really is. So yeah. there ya go. Now, it it a good thing, I don't know. I don't want to be like "omg I hate blacks." that's hardly the case. I will FUCK THE SHIT out of a gorgeous in shape black girl. so yeah, that's not the problem. Really it's the titties, mostly. I'm all about titties.
That's my favorite thing. When a girl is just HUGE and ready to spray the room full of milk, It's a wrap, son. I'm done... I want to suck em and squeeze.... yunno, but besides that, I'm more like I like italian looking white chicks. Don't ask me why bro...
New diet plan
Going to try a new diet plan, see if it works. Going to try going 6 days without food, just water, and on the 7th day, have some pure protein.
I mean, so far so good. I've been dropping fat consistantly, but I believe that if I push this thing to an extreme, I may just drop fat faster.
This is my mission. To body build, to become, not crazy huge, but I've alway wanted to be really muscular. It's just been a unfortunate situation that I've been born into a black household where health and nutrition were never top priorities.
It is a sad state of things. You go through a lot in life, but ultimately being able to look in the mirror and be satisfied with your image is the best thing that can come of it.
I'm black. What that means is that, I'm going to have very little opportunities open to me, whether it be the job world or the sexual world, so ultimately all I have left to me, to make me happy personally is FITNESS.
I love training, love working out, love getting bigger, and I do indeed intend to get in great shape. It sucks to age. It really fucking does. I got weird problems with aging. Uh, wrinkling but not because I'm old, but because there's some kind of blood flow problem causing half of my face to age faster than the other. Hair being lost on half my head. This is getting ridiculous. So I'm hoping that by losing tons of weight, it reverses the process and I feel a lot better.
I don't know, maybe the answer to all my problems is to fuck the shit out of a girl, shoot my load hard all over her titties and her little cute face and that'll solve everything...
I'm going to be honest with you billions of people all over the world. I jack off same as anybody, but it doesn't feel very good. And I don't even know why. Used to be fucking awesome. I mean, you could get shot or something, fall down the stairs... whatever... then you just jack off, boom you forget what was bothering you....
I like jacking off. I mean, who doesn't... it's just not what it used to be... I figure quit. But that's not seemingly possible... it's a strange thing to get your head around. And no one, and I mean NO ONE will fucking help you.
You're on your goddamn own with that shit... but nevermind that. I'd probably want to give up on life, if it weren't for me figuring out how to lose weight. This has changed everything. I mean, It's going take months, but ultimately I will transform into one of those skinny dudes you always see and you wonder what the hell they do to get so thin. Well, I'm going to be that guy. That' truly make me happy.
I'm no longer oblvious to a lot of people's attitudes. You go out in the world, mind your own business or whatever, and some dude will always, ALWAYS, try to bring you down from your happy level. Basically try to make you feel unhappy, especially if you're black. There's a considerable amount of that going on. lots of that. But I'm going to do something I always wanted to do, and that's body build, so Hate away. It won't bother me. It won't affect my mission in life.
That's the great thing about education, yunno. And I mean, education in the form of self improvement, not school. School didn't teach me about this. I figured it out on my own. And now that I know how to manipulate my body to mold it into what I want it to be, I feel so much more confident in myself. In fact, that'll be one of the main reasons I can feel good and live good, is that maybe some fat old ugly person will try to bring me down, yet I'll be slim, in shape, sexy, whatever, and they'll just be looking stupid for trying. It's exactly what happens when a black person tries to belittle a white person. the white person just laughs and doesn't give a shit in the end...
So I'm going finally get a feel for that hopefully after this long torturous weight loss thing is completed.....
I mean, so far so good. I've been dropping fat consistantly, but I believe that if I push this thing to an extreme, I may just drop fat faster.
This is my mission. To body build, to become, not crazy huge, but I've alway wanted to be really muscular. It's just been a unfortunate situation that I've been born into a black household where health and nutrition were never top priorities.
It is a sad state of things. You go through a lot in life, but ultimately being able to look in the mirror and be satisfied with your image is the best thing that can come of it.
I'm black. What that means is that, I'm going to have very little opportunities open to me, whether it be the job world or the sexual world, so ultimately all I have left to me, to make me happy personally is FITNESS.
I love training, love working out, love getting bigger, and I do indeed intend to get in great shape. It sucks to age. It really fucking does. I got weird problems with aging. Uh, wrinkling but not because I'm old, but because there's some kind of blood flow problem causing half of my face to age faster than the other. Hair being lost on half my head. This is getting ridiculous. So I'm hoping that by losing tons of weight, it reverses the process and I feel a lot better.
I don't know, maybe the answer to all my problems is to fuck the shit out of a girl, shoot my load hard all over her titties and her little cute face and that'll solve everything...
I'm going to be honest with you billions of people all over the world. I jack off same as anybody, but it doesn't feel very good. And I don't even know why. Used to be fucking awesome. I mean, you could get shot or something, fall down the stairs... whatever... then you just jack off, boom you forget what was bothering you....
I like jacking off. I mean, who doesn't... it's just not what it used to be... I figure quit. But that's not seemingly possible... it's a strange thing to get your head around. And no one, and I mean NO ONE will fucking help you.
You're on your goddamn own with that shit... but nevermind that. I'd probably want to give up on life, if it weren't for me figuring out how to lose weight. This has changed everything. I mean, It's going take months, but ultimately I will transform into one of those skinny dudes you always see and you wonder what the hell they do to get so thin. Well, I'm going to be that guy. That' truly make me happy.
I'm no longer oblvious to a lot of people's attitudes. You go out in the world, mind your own business or whatever, and some dude will always, ALWAYS, try to bring you down from your happy level. Basically try to make you feel unhappy, especially if you're black. There's a considerable amount of that going on. lots of that. But I'm going to do something I always wanted to do, and that's body build, so Hate away. It won't bother me. It won't affect my mission in life.
That's the great thing about education, yunno. And I mean, education in the form of self improvement, not school. School didn't teach me about this. I figured it out on my own. And now that I know how to manipulate my body to mold it into what I want it to be, I feel so much more confident in myself. In fact, that'll be one of the main reasons I can feel good and live good, is that maybe some fat old ugly person will try to bring me down, yet I'll be slim, in shape, sexy, whatever, and they'll just be looking stupid for trying. It's exactly what happens when a black person tries to belittle a white person. the white person just laughs and doesn't give a shit in the end...
So I'm going finally get a feel for that hopefully after this long torturous weight loss thing is completed.....
why tom hanks has diabetes
This is interesting.
I'm studying fitness, weight loss, and of course all the complex minutia of the glucagon/insulin levels in the body these days.
Little background info: been into fitness and gymnastics all my life. Why? cuz I'm a believer in being the best you can be at what you do. Always have been.
So why in the FUCK is tom hanks a man who's been in shape most of his life now a diabetic?
Does this make sense to anyone? I can only guess it's his own fault, he decided to stop being heatlh concious as he got older, and that's a shame.
I always thought he was a good looking in shape guy, always. Even now that he's older, he remarkably shed tons of weight to continue keeping that lean tom hanks body we all got used to in the 90s.
Look at him back then. he absolutely epitomizes what it means to stay in shape in your 30s.
I call bullshit on this story, I really do. He ain't no diabetic. It's just some publicity thing. You're telling me a millionaire who KNOWS better than most people how to lose weight and look good and healthy, is boom just as unhealthy as a fat lump diabetic. Bull shit....
I'm studying fitness, weight loss, and of course all the complex minutia of the glucagon/insulin levels in the body these days.
Little background info: been into fitness and gymnastics all my life. Why? cuz I'm a believer in being the best you can be at what you do. Always have been.
So why in the FUCK is tom hanks a man who's been in shape most of his life now a diabetic?
Does this make sense to anyone? I can only guess it's his own fault, he decided to stop being heatlh concious as he got older, and that's a shame.
I always thought he was a good looking in shape guy, always. Even now that he's older, he remarkably shed tons of weight to continue keeping that lean tom hanks body we all got used to in the 90s.
Look at him back then. he absolutely epitomizes what it means to stay in shape in your 30s.
I call bullshit on this story, I really do. He ain't no diabetic. It's just some publicity thing. You're telling me a millionaire who KNOWS better than most people how to lose weight and look good and healthy, is boom just as unhealthy as a fat lump diabetic. Bull shit....
Understanding women
A subject everyone last one of us males has to try to get his head (or dick) around at some point.
What can be said about these "things" called women.
All I know is that I never really thought about them much, except when I noticed those buns one day.
Otherwise I just thought of girls as very weak boys.
But no, no, they're angelic creatures. At least to me. You won't find many girls these days who are still very feminine anymore.
Sadly we've fucked things up to the point where females are prancing around in the world all acting like they have the biggest dicks on earth.
I've been trying to understand what the fuck I am supposed to do in the wake of such a complete backwards world we're in these days.
It sucks because some people WANT you to not mature and become a REAL man and get all dat ass, so it's like a billion times harder to become a man these days in a world where we've got nothing but grown 12 year olds running around being stupid as shit.
One thing I do know for sure, women still respond to a real man. That part of them is just pure instinct, nothing they can do about it. They can TRY and many do, but it's the same as an orgasm, once that ball gets rolling, there's no stopping it.
I experimented with this, I acted like a real man for a while and even me, a black dude, got this white girl's mouth watering, bitch started dreaming of sucking on my dick and letting me fondle her titties.
Gives me fucking hope anyway that things aren't so bad. We'll see how far this rabbig hole goes... I don't like putting on a show. I'm a big goofy nerd, not a tough guy, not really.... but I DO want to fuck the crap out of a girl, only thing on my mind that's any good left in this fucking world...
You'll find some good girls who WANT you to fuck the crap out of them too. Been met those chicks, they're fucking freaks beneath the sheets. I like those the most. Girls that are devoted to dick. Goddamn are they hard to find though, gonna find nothing but cock blocking bitches out there yall...
What can be said about these "things" called women.
All I know is that I never really thought about them much, except when I noticed those buns one day.
Otherwise I just thought of girls as very weak boys.
But no, no, they're angelic creatures. At least to me. You won't find many girls these days who are still very feminine anymore.
Sadly we've fucked things up to the point where females are prancing around in the world all acting like they have the biggest dicks on earth.
I've been trying to understand what the fuck I am supposed to do in the wake of such a complete backwards world we're in these days.
It sucks because some people WANT you to not mature and become a REAL man and get all dat ass, so it's like a billion times harder to become a man these days in a world where we've got nothing but grown 12 year olds running around being stupid as shit.
One thing I do know for sure, women still respond to a real man. That part of them is just pure instinct, nothing they can do about it. They can TRY and many do, but it's the same as an orgasm, once that ball gets rolling, there's no stopping it.
I experimented with this, I acted like a real man for a while and even me, a black dude, got this white girl's mouth watering, bitch started dreaming of sucking on my dick and letting me fondle her titties.
Gives me fucking hope anyway that things aren't so bad. We'll see how far this rabbig hole goes... I don't like putting on a show. I'm a big goofy nerd, not a tough guy, not really.... but I DO want to fuck the crap out of a girl, only thing on my mind that's any good left in this fucking world...
You'll find some good girls who WANT you to fuck the crap out of them too. Been met those chicks, they're fucking freaks beneath the sheets. I like those the most. Girls that are devoted to dick. Goddamn are they hard to find though, gonna find nothing but cock blocking bitches out there yall...
Friday, November 1, 2013
Ok getting back to tsa
Got a email from Birmingham International airport, woot. Going to get my job back, I hope. This time I'm going to be in good shape and health so I'll be knocking down that money like nobody's business, I hope....who knows....
Going to continue this ketogenic diet untill every last ounce of fat on my body is GONE baby. Don't like fat, never have....
sucks to have a jiggly belly and butt and shit, but little by little I'm going to lose it all you'll see.
Going to continue this ketogenic diet untill every last ounce of fat on my body is GONE baby. Don't like fat, never have....
sucks to have a jiggly belly and butt and shit, but little by little I'm going to lose it all you'll see.
flying test footage
testing how to do the flying fx...
Flying_Through_Clouds_HD_1 by Deeysew
A lot easier than I thought it was going to be, just had to change position of the image over time, rescale it, and voila it looks pretty good...
Flying_Through_Clouds_HD_1 by Deeysew
A lot easier than I thought it was going to be, just had to change position of the image over time, rescale it, and voila it looks pretty good...
Why I'm making a static shock trailer...
That's the question isn't it.
I'm asking myself this now because it seems appropriate to ponder the reasons why I'm deciding to film and ultimately release a static shock thing.
I think it's just purely destiny.
I don't know who I was meant to be in life, or what have you. All I do know is that I am something "else" beyond the ordinary. And I look at the way the world is, and I see the things people do, I see the rampant violence, chaos, sex, conflicting ideologies and I think about who I am and what I'm here to do.
You got people who say, this dude is no good for anything, might as well be dead.
But I've got something I got to do before I DIE. I beg you to not take that away from me. Just this.
I'm not afraid of dying. What I am afraid of is dying without fulfilling my purpose. THAT is what scares me the most.
I look at static and I see myself, simple as that. He's the same as me. He's smart, heroic, hanging out going to school, dealing with bullies, and tries to save people and be a hero.
It's a strange thing to be a hero all you life and then make a stupid ass of yourself one day, and suddenly all your efforts to be a good person go flying out the window. That's just not right. I am a hero. I will always be a hero. I'll be the one to care about another person as much as I can.
That's all I every thought I'd do... so I hope to spread a message of what I believe we can be as people, heroes...
I'm asking myself this now because it seems appropriate to ponder the reasons why I'm deciding to film and ultimately release a static shock thing.
I think it's just purely destiny.
I don't know who I was meant to be in life, or what have you. All I do know is that I am something "else" beyond the ordinary. And I look at the way the world is, and I see the things people do, I see the rampant violence, chaos, sex, conflicting ideologies and I think about who I am and what I'm here to do.
You got people who say, this dude is no good for anything, might as well be dead.
But I've got something I got to do before I DIE. I beg you to not take that away from me. Just this.
I'm not afraid of dying. What I am afraid of is dying without fulfilling my purpose. THAT is what scares me the most.
I look at static and I see myself, simple as that. He's the same as me. He's smart, heroic, hanging out going to school, dealing with bullies, and tries to save people and be a hero.
It's a strange thing to be a hero all you life and then make a stupid ass of yourself one day, and suddenly all your efforts to be a good person go flying out the window. That's just not right. I am a hero. I will always be a hero. I'll be the one to care about another person as much as I can.
That's all I every thought I'd do... so I hope to spread a message of what I believe we can be as people, heroes...
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