New diet plan

Going to try a new diet plan, see if it works. Going to try going 6 days without food, just water, and on the 7th day, have some pure protein.

I mean, so far so good. I've been dropping fat consistantly, but I believe that if I push this thing to an extreme, I may just drop fat faster.

This is my mission. To body build, to become, not crazy huge, but I've alway wanted to be really muscular. It's just been a unfortunate situation that I've been born into a black household where health and nutrition were never top priorities.

It is a sad state of things. You go through a lot in life, but ultimately being able to look in the mirror and be satisfied with your image is the best thing that can come of it.

I'm black. What that means is that, I'm going to have very little opportunities open to me, whether it be the job world or the sexual world, so ultimately all I have left to me, to make me happy personally is FITNESS.

I love training, love working out, love getting bigger, and I do indeed intend to get in great shape. It sucks to age. It really fucking does. I got weird problems with aging. Uh, wrinkling but not because I'm old, but because there's some kind of blood flow problem causing half of my face to age faster than the other. Hair being lost on half my head. This is getting ridiculous. So I'm hoping that by losing tons of weight, it reverses the process and I feel a lot better.

I don't know, maybe the answer to all my problems is to fuck the shit out of a girl, shoot my load hard all over her titties and her little cute face and that'll solve everything...

I'm going to be honest with you billions of people all over the world. I jack off same as anybody, but it doesn't feel very good. And I don't even know why. Used to be fucking awesome. I mean, you could get shot or something, fall down the stairs... whatever... then you just jack off, boom you forget what was bothering you....

I like jacking off. I mean, who doesn't... it's just not what it used to be... I figure quit. But that's not seemingly possible... it's a strange thing to get your head around. And no one, and I mean NO ONE will fucking help you.

You're on your goddamn own with that shit... but nevermind that. I'd probably want to give up on life, if it weren't for me figuring out how to lose weight. This has  changed everything. I mean, It's going take months, but ultimately I will transform into one of those skinny dudes you always see and you wonder what the hell they do to get so thin. Well, I'm going to be that guy. That' truly make me happy.

I'm no longer oblvious to a lot of people's attitudes. You go out in the world, mind your own business or whatever, and some dude will always, ALWAYS, try to bring you down from your happy level. Basically try to make you feel unhappy, especially if you're black. There's a considerable amount of that going on. lots of that. But I'm going to do something I always wanted to do, and that's body build, so Hate away. It won't bother me. It won't affect my mission in life.

That's the great thing about education, yunno. And I mean, education in the form of self improvement, not school. School didn't teach me about this. I figured it out on my own. And now that I know how to manipulate my body to mold it into what I want it to be, I feel so much more confident in myself. In fact, that'll be one of the main reasons I can feel good and live good, is that maybe some fat old ugly person will try to bring me down, yet I'll be slim, in shape, sexy, whatever, and they'll just be looking stupid for trying. It's exactly what happens when a black person tries to belittle a white person. the white person just laughs and doesn't give a shit in the end...

So I'm going finally get a feel for that hopefully after this long torturous weight loss thing is completed.....