God's will

I sit here thinking about life and how crazy life is. How people are and how they treat blacks and stuff. And I'm just overwhelmed by it. I don't know how to make sense of this world. It's rough stuff.

I am not really fully prepared for the rigors of life yet... but I'm 27 years old. I can die in combat. I can do all kinds of things and there's no real sympathy for me because I'm well beyond being a kid although I'm still a virgin.

Turns out that there's some politcal shit going on about losing virginity and when it should be done or shit.

I don't care. I just want to experience sex before I get way too old.

Hard to say to people, I would like to fuck a bitch, and then you got some asshole jumping out of the bushes and telling you no, you have to get married first or some shit.

Fuck that noise...

I can pull up video right now of some chick getting slammed in her ass and eating dick, what part of that looks like marriage?

But that's actually the real world. People are insane and will tell you to do something stupid with full seriousness. Yep.

I'm not going to be moved, son. No way. I'm a real man. I love girls. I want to just work a job, go home fuck my girl, that's it. I don't care what kind of bullshit you're trying to pull.

In the mean time though. I'm going to finish my projects that I'm working on. Sadly I don't know who my audience is. Nor do I care. I just believe in working hard on my personal projects and getting them completed.

I don't care about who's after me. I don't care about getting a normal life going. I don't care if people want to kill me either. None of that bothers me.

The only thing I care about is finishing my work. I'm who I am. They say it's called genius. I don't honestly want to put myself on that level. I just know that there's things I can do, so I do them and put the best foot forward if possible. It's fun, I enjoy it tremendously. It means more to me than anything in the world honestly, creating a good fucking piece of art.... yunno. I feel so good when it's finished and it works and looks great. That truly satisfies me beyond anything in this world.

So hate me all day. I have my projects to finish and that's what makes me happy.