Old ways vs New ways

Everyone's confused now about their place in this world. Are men supposed to be the big strong guy who's taking care of the bills and bringing home the bacon or do women do that now? Both? Now of course I don't have a choice. I have to have a job or I won't get by. Women however can decide to be jobless if they wish since that was their original role. In fact, when it comes down to the cold hard reality of going through a long miserable day of work, I'm pretty certain most women would prefer not doing it. For the love of... I mean, I can't be myself. I can't be shy, can't be unsure, or humorous and jokey, or else people will think I'm weak or crazy.

It doesn't matter. I'm the dude companies will be begging for down the road and I know it. If I get through this military stuff, then maybe when I hit my 30s, I'll be on easy street, making too much money... Actually, that's how it is. As I am now, no woman wants to touch me. I've got no real money, no future, but mostly no money. Once I get the big bucks, I'll be trying to beat them off me, they'll be coming after me so much. It's sad, it's not very nice to say, but it's the brutal truth of life.

I see it every day. The girls want the guy who's got potential or already there financially. Meanwhile men don't care about that and have to do some mountain climbing or something to get with a girl. Damn this unfair world.

Girls want to be guys only so much. Marriage is no longer this expected custom, but a waste of time and money. We have people becoming less religious which is to me ok but as humans we shouldn't stray so far from it because we're not ever going to be perfect machines etc. I still like me some jesus, it settled me down when life got too fuckerooish, what's wrong with that... ugh, people are nuts... well, the old world's dying. Now we're becoming more like that star trek world where people abandoned old ideas of class seperation and valued each other based on different criteria... Still, it baffles me how we're going to live when equality's not so simple to achieve. Men can't be women and women can't be men, that's not our fault, that's nature. Race is less troublesome except that in reality people will never stop judging books by their covers... nevertheless, I'm still confused about how to live amongst people I know will hate me for no good reason, live as a man in a world where men aren't supposed to be breadwinner anymore, just don't know.... damn...