Stuff and Stuff

I'm done eating some dinner. I wonder if anyone reads this blog... I'm going to tell the internet my story since I have no friends and I'm just so bored and who cares about me anyway. I'd like to go meet JP and Lobo at the comic con thing but I think they don't like me. Let me go ask them.

Ok I did.

I just took some asprin for my masterbation headache stuff. It numbs the pain somewhat. I've been trying to teach myself about sex for the past few years and I still don't know what I'm doing. Yet everywhere I go people think since I'm handsome I've been with a billion girls already. You kidding me? they always tease me and mess with me then you know whatever... I don't like the gold digging ones now that I'm older. And then I learn that this big fat stupid lump I've been talking about at work has already had a girlfriend and is now deciding he doesn't want to pursue that now. For the love of jesus...

So I'm just your average black guy who grew up on white people's turf more or less. I know very little about black history or culture outside of slavery and some current racial problems out there such as the education situation. I'm really just another black college dropout, yays for me, heh. But I'm a fighter too. I know this. When I'm pushed, I push back, always. But I do have my limits and need to figure out and strategize my plan for survival in this hell of a world. I'll do the airforce thing if and or when I'm allowed to enlist. I'd be in there already if it wasn't for the stupid technicality. You see, I have to wait for them to review my medical history and that'll take an entire month to get done. Nothing gets done fast in the government unless it's to cover their own asses, but that's another issue...

I'm so tired of fighting. I really just want to relax but I can't. I feel like I have to do something or else I'll be doomed in some way. It's like how Vegita's so jealous of goku, he always keeps training. That's how that blimp at work is. Whenever I say anything, he's quick to argue the opposite regardless of whether it's any point to doing so... He just wants to prove he's smarter than me. I don't care if you are. You're still a loser for one thing, and who really cares? We're both black. This is why I hate black people. All this love of peace is a scam. Blacks are just as bad as any human being is. I learned that in chess club for the first time. Oh let me tell you all this. I aspired to be an astronaut so I wanted to lean more towards the intellectual side of high school rather than the physical stuff. So I did indeed join chess club. I stayed for a year but there was this smart ass young guy, just a kid, who was unbelievably gifted, but a cocky little bitch to deal with, always condescending, always going out of his way to scewer me though I did nothing to him. What the hell for I wondered? Was this just his general attitude? This is a catholic school I thought. We're supposed to cohere to the teachings of jesus, do whatever to be more like him, but here I am just being slaughtered by mr know it all. I feel so bad for wanting him to be lynched by now. I'm thinking the last thing intelligent blacks would do is waste their time degrading other blacks but eh, I learned the hard way that evil knows no limits of race.

A guy at work said people are the same wherever you go. I believe that. No where are we ever going to have peace, we can only hope to have bits of peace after the dust settles from war. Such is life.