It really does. Here I stand, I have a job that's easy and I'm chilling and not worried about having income at this point.
Now comes the complicated stuff. Gotta get educated.
I mean practical education. I know the purpose of college. It's to teach you about verbal manipulation and politics. These things are what very smart people use to manipulate and control major industries around the world. That's great and all, but what's that got to do with me I'll never know. They're trying to get more blacks to graduate college and stuff, but I don't care about that. I want to slide my dick in some ass honestly.
It would be nice to have a cushy corporate job and walk around all uppity and have my polo shirt on as I look down on the little people beneath me, sure, but I'm black. That stuff doesn't apply to me. It's white people culture.
What I have to worry about is boning up on language and computer skills at this point...
I mean sure, I hang out on the train and generally in life and there's very sexy girls all over the place. I'm muscular and handsome so I walk by and they look at me with their mouth's agape salivating, thinking about sucking my dick.
I of course am thinking about grabbing their ass and generally feeling up all over their body...
Isn't that funny. You go along as a kid and you HATE having to deal with the fucking IDIOTS in class all day.
Then you end up a man, all you want to do is fuck every girl who's still got a nice pair of tits and juicy ass.
I think to myself GOOD. I don't want to think about the past anymore. Just get some titties, put my face in them and not give a damn about the shitty schools I've been to.
And I think I'm right about that.
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
still in the past
kinda relevant isn't it that they're making this xmen movie about time travel when it itself gives me personally a great sense of nostalgia for the old days.
It's really deeply imbedded in my core the day I went to see the live action x-men at 14. That was a awesome day. I'm all for them continuing to make more x-movies, but goddamn is my life a mess now vs what it was back in 2000.
I mean, that's just life. It doesn't change that much when you get older. You think it does because oh, you're not in high school dealing with the hustle and bustle of that shit, but once you finally see how the world works, it's very different. Nothing changes. Everything is routine and circular schedules and people doing the same thing every single day. That's all life really is. All that school stuff was a lie. The world is like this big industrial machine that's building cars, it's just the same shit different day and on and on...
It's really deeply imbedded in my core the day I went to see the live action x-men at 14. That was a awesome day. I'm all for them continuing to make more x-movies, but goddamn is my life a mess now vs what it was back in 2000.
I mean, that's just life. It doesn't change that much when you get older. You think it does because oh, you're not in high school dealing with the hustle and bustle of that shit, but once you finally see how the world works, it's very different. Nothing changes. Everything is routine and circular schedules and people doing the same thing every single day. That's all life really is. All that school stuff was a lie. The world is like this big industrial machine that's building cars, it's just the same shit different day and on and on...
Inevitablity of sex
I watch porn every moment of the day. That's basically what I do. It's a hobby.
Little did I know at the time, but ultimately life is about porn. It's not about going to school and going through all that bullshit. It's about FUCKING SOME BITCH. Getting that O.
Which is why you see all porn all the time.
That's truly dissappointing. Even as a black kid, I visualized and thought that intelligence would mean something in the end.
It doesn't. I don't even think it matters WHAT EVER happens to people as kids. If indeed we're all just here to fuck and that's it.
Why do we pursue all these intellectual feats if all we're here to do is fuck.
But it's kinda sad really. To see xvideos and see people just completely demoralizing themselves in front of the world at large. Not that I personally give a shit and neither do they. Porn is a funhouse. It's not about having a serious supreme court case on anything. It's fun, it's a theme park....
Makes me wonder why the hell we're all taught to go crazy in school and get great grades. Some kid with an eidetic memory and super high level iq will go and become a rocket scientist and You with your average level of intelligence will go nowhere and do nothing.
Which is what you see typically all day on the internet. These are not people who went to MIT or Harvard. They are fucking normal regular people.
One funny thing that I like about being an adult now is that, there is a laid back sense to life now vs as a kid where life was gotta accomplish shit all day. All those horror stories about how life as an adult would be hell. No it's not. I'm not having much problems at all. I'm just getting little jobs here and there, doing my job well, and no one bothers me. Vs as a kid going to high school. You have to be dealing with morons starting shit with you left and right. If they DARE start shit with you at work, you can file a complaint and get them fired. It's fucking awesome the work world vs high school...
It's fucking awesome the fact that I can see a girl take dick in her ass any time I want nowadays. Gotta give it up to all the women from my generation. They're fucking awesome these days. Thank you GOD that girls are feeling no shame in eating ten dicks with their ass. That is the most beautiful thing I've ever witnessed in my little insignificant life. If that was my girlfriend, she'd be given the world, I swear to GOD...
Little did I know at the time, but ultimately life is about porn. It's not about going to school and going through all that bullshit. It's about FUCKING SOME BITCH. Getting that O.
Which is why you see all porn all the time.
That's truly dissappointing. Even as a black kid, I visualized and thought that intelligence would mean something in the end.
It doesn't. I don't even think it matters WHAT EVER happens to people as kids. If indeed we're all just here to fuck and that's it.
Why do we pursue all these intellectual feats if all we're here to do is fuck.
But it's kinda sad really. To see xvideos and see people just completely demoralizing themselves in front of the world at large. Not that I personally give a shit and neither do they. Porn is a funhouse. It's not about having a serious supreme court case on anything. It's fun, it's a theme park....
Makes me wonder why the hell we're all taught to go crazy in school and get great grades. Some kid with an eidetic memory and super high level iq will go and become a rocket scientist and You with your average level of intelligence will go nowhere and do nothing.
Which is what you see typically all day on the internet. These are not people who went to MIT or Harvard. They are fucking normal regular people.
One funny thing that I like about being an adult now is that, there is a laid back sense to life now vs as a kid where life was gotta accomplish shit all day. All those horror stories about how life as an adult would be hell. No it's not. I'm not having much problems at all. I'm just getting little jobs here and there, doing my job well, and no one bothers me. Vs as a kid going to high school. You have to be dealing with morons starting shit with you left and right. If they DARE start shit with you at work, you can file a complaint and get them fired. It's fucking awesome the work world vs high school...
It's fucking awesome the fact that I can see a girl take dick in her ass any time I want nowadays. Gotta give it up to all the women from my generation. They're fucking awesome these days. Thank you GOD that girls are feeling no shame in eating ten dicks with their ass. That is the most beautiful thing I've ever witnessed in my little insignificant life. If that was my girlfriend, she'd be given the world, I swear to GOD...
first day of work
I think I hit the jackpot. I go to work and sit and monitor security cameras and sign people in and out. Easy...
Every hour I log in the book what's going on, and that's it. 8 hours of that. And I go home.
Good. That's what I wanted. I thought, ok, low pay, but ultimately I'll be doing very little work. And then still make a somewhat decent amount of money.
Soon as I get my bike fixed I'll have much better way to get to work. Then other than that, we'll uh... see about getting this money saved up as much as possible and potentially start playing the stock market.
If THAT shit works out, having this shitty job won't be such a bad idea. We'll see. I know that if you buy the right stocks, you can benefit tremendously from it. Such is the system and hopefully I can get into that shit because it's probably going to be the only method I have left to earn a substantial amount of money in the end.
Every hour I log in the book what's going on, and that's it. 8 hours of that. And I go home.
Good. That's what I wanted. I thought, ok, low pay, but ultimately I'll be doing very little work. And then still make a somewhat decent amount of money.
Soon as I get my bike fixed I'll have much better way to get to work. Then other than that, we'll uh... see about getting this money saved up as much as possible and potentially start playing the stock market.
If THAT shit works out, having this shitty job won't be such a bad idea. We'll see. I know that if you buy the right stocks, you can benefit tremendously from it. Such is the system and hopefully I can get into that shit because it's probably going to be the only method I have left to earn a substantial amount of money in the end.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
so I got a job now
Shitty shit job, but whatever, man... I just am glad to be back in the work world again. Here we go... I'm going to start training tomorrow.
One good aspect of getting a job is feeling like you belong to society vs the shitty feeling of just being a parasite living off other people. Now I'm making some kind of bread. Not no fucking real money, but I tell myself, YEAH dumbass thing to abandon a 15.75 hour job like TSA when people would give their left arm to get that kind of job, yeah I'm an idiot, but at the same time, I'm not looking to be a dude earning shit tons of money. I just want to get a job that allows me to have security and moderate living. That's all...
Got my uniform and everything. Gonna look sharp at work. I mean fuck, I don't care. I just want to get some fucking pocket change at this point.
I am OVERQUALIFIED beyond measure for these kinds of jobs. I should be doing a fucking some kind of office job running paper work and answering phones. GOddamn, but apparently something as simplistic as that requires you to get your fucking bachelors. What can I say. My intentions at this point are rather limited in scope. I've been told that even IF I get some ass some day, my kids will fucking hate my guts or something.
So that whole thing that we're here to do that whole sex thing has been quite well enough ruined for me personally although I'm black and having black kids is always going to be a fucking can of worms no matter how you slice it. I've come to a shocking realization that there's a reason I grew up not knowing ANY white kids at all. White people live over THERE. Black people live OVER HERE. And that's the way this country works...
Although we're a really devil may care era right now where people are like, it's all good, fuck whoever you want as long as you're not a fag. That's not going to happen. It's simple math. Blacks fucking any race = black kids.
But whatever. I just want to get a decent little job. No muss no fuss no botha. Goddamn. I hope to get my bike fixed and also to get a new ps3 and then we can get into GTA V and see how good that shit is. Looks like the shit. I hope it is...
One good aspect of getting a job is feeling like you belong to society vs the shitty feeling of just being a parasite living off other people. Now I'm making some kind of bread. Not no fucking real money, but I tell myself, YEAH dumbass thing to abandon a 15.75 hour job like TSA when people would give their left arm to get that kind of job, yeah I'm an idiot, but at the same time, I'm not looking to be a dude earning shit tons of money. I just want to get a job that allows me to have security and moderate living. That's all...
Got my uniform and everything. Gonna look sharp at work. I mean fuck, I don't care. I just want to get some fucking pocket change at this point.
I am OVERQUALIFIED beyond measure for these kinds of jobs. I should be doing a fucking some kind of office job running paper work and answering phones. GOddamn, but apparently something as simplistic as that requires you to get your fucking bachelors. What can I say. My intentions at this point are rather limited in scope. I've been told that even IF I get some ass some day, my kids will fucking hate my guts or something.
So that whole thing that we're here to do that whole sex thing has been quite well enough ruined for me personally although I'm black and having black kids is always going to be a fucking can of worms no matter how you slice it. I've come to a shocking realization that there's a reason I grew up not knowing ANY white kids at all. White people live over THERE. Black people live OVER HERE. And that's the way this country works...
Although we're a really devil may care era right now where people are like, it's all good, fuck whoever you want as long as you're not a fag. That's not going to happen. It's simple math. Blacks fucking any race = black kids.
But whatever. I just want to get a decent little job. No muss no fuss no botha. Goddamn. I hope to get my bike fixed and also to get a new ps3 and then we can get into GTA V and see how good that shit is. Looks like the shit. I hope it is...
Monday, January 27, 2014
The best decisions
I think a lot about ass and titties, I mean who doesn't. Sad thing and tragic thing to discover in life but there's NOTHING else in life at all to do with your time as a human being but FUCK some girl.
Not that I have a problem with that, but I was taught about there being some kind of actual bigger more monumental things to do in this world besides that. How tricky the world is.
Not that I care personally. I always knew I'd live childless. I can't even imagine having a kid, doesn't even register in my mind.
What I'm going to do is live and dream. Dream big. Dream of finishing my art work. And ultimately die off at the end of it I suppose... But hey at least I did something I liked. A lot of people can't say that before the end...
Not that I have a problem with that, but I was taught about there being some kind of actual bigger more monumental things to do in this world besides that. How tricky the world is.
Not that I care personally. I always knew I'd live childless. I can't even imagine having a kid, doesn't even register in my mind.
What I'm going to do is live and dream. Dream big. Dream of finishing my art work. And ultimately die off at the end of it I suppose... But hey at least I did something I liked. A lot of people can't say that before the end...
David Yost and his Gayness
I mean what does it matter to me personally that he's gay? Nothing. Only thing about it that means a damn is that I grew up loving the power rangers and he was my favorite. So yeah it's kinda a blow to me personally to have grown up with him and now he's not who I thought he was.
Goddamn is the future a shitty place. If I had it my way, I'd go right the fuck back to the 90s, being a kid. I don't care how fucking much I get shitted on by other kids, you could NOT BEAT my childhood. It was fucking AWESOME with sauce on top and candy. OMG the shit I had back then, the life I had back then. It pains me to no end to wake up every day in this body and know that my childhood is GONE forever!!!
Oh fuck!
It just sucks. It's like sure I'm still young but I'm never going to get that sense of childlike glee from watching movies and cartoons that I had before. And in fact I've pissed off so many powerful white people that now they're fiddling around with me as if I'm some sort of osama bin laden.
No, I'm a dorky fucking virgin always wanting to fuck a girl and shit, that's prettymuch it. I don't understand why that means I have to be targeted by big time people. Yunno. I would think people who went and got a big big education and have huge monumental job wouldn't be concerned with what the fuck I'm doing all day.... but they're dumb enough to be I guess...I wouldn't be surprised if the guy up in the space shuttle was reading my blog or some bullshit. You tell me you went to MIT you got the job flying the space shuttle and then decided I'm going to care about what some virgin black guy is doing all day...
That truly is fucked up.
But goddamn so David Yost has come out of the closet to all his fans. It's kinda strange to feel any kind of way or even feel sympathy for him. There's people who are far worse off than him, yet he's acting like his issues are so monumental. I honestly don't understand anything about sexuality. I know you're supposed to enjoy sex SO MUCH that it makes you feel like your on a cloud and all that shit. It's not a bad thing. The only catch is if you end up a fag. Meaning that you can't enjoy sex unless it's with someone of the same sex.
But he doesn't get it. You as a white blue eyed blond male coming out of the closet in front of a bunch of black people just looks STUPID.
I'm black, I have VERY FEW options avialable to me sexually. You are WHITE you have ALL the options available to you yet you've decided to throw it away and announce to the world you're gay. You know how many girls of all races DREAM of getting with a blond blue eyed white male? And now you've RUINED it for yourself if indeed you wanted to have the opportunity to bone a girl any time you so desired.
If a black guy comes out of the closet, the world SHRUGS. Nobody cares who black people are fucking. NOBODY.
It's a joke being black. You are born into this world in a tragic situation that you have no control over in the end. Sure we have tons and tons of interracial porn night and day, but when that girl decides to get pregnant, she will NOT go after black dicks.
That's what is the biggest problem with being black. And ultimately why black people are like not giving a damn about gays or especially a white guy being gay. It's like, you can't even imagine having problems getting laid.
Goddamn is the future a shitty place. If I had it my way, I'd go right the fuck back to the 90s, being a kid. I don't care how fucking much I get shitted on by other kids, you could NOT BEAT my childhood. It was fucking AWESOME with sauce on top and candy. OMG the shit I had back then, the life I had back then. It pains me to no end to wake up every day in this body and know that my childhood is GONE forever!!!
Oh fuck!
It just sucks. It's like sure I'm still young but I'm never going to get that sense of childlike glee from watching movies and cartoons that I had before. And in fact I've pissed off so many powerful white people that now they're fiddling around with me as if I'm some sort of osama bin laden.
No, I'm a dorky fucking virgin always wanting to fuck a girl and shit, that's prettymuch it. I don't understand why that means I have to be targeted by big time people. Yunno. I would think people who went and got a big big education and have huge monumental job wouldn't be concerned with what the fuck I'm doing all day.... but they're dumb enough to be I guess...I wouldn't be surprised if the guy up in the space shuttle was reading my blog or some bullshit. You tell me you went to MIT you got the job flying the space shuttle and then decided I'm going to care about what some virgin black guy is doing all day...
That truly is fucked up.
But goddamn so David Yost has come out of the closet to all his fans. It's kinda strange to feel any kind of way or even feel sympathy for him. There's people who are far worse off than him, yet he's acting like his issues are so monumental. I honestly don't understand anything about sexuality. I know you're supposed to enjoy sex SO MUCH that it makes you feel like your on a cloud and all that shit. It's not a bad thing. The only catch is if you end up a fag. Meaning that you can't enjoy sex unless it's with someone of the same sex.
But he doesn't get it. You as a white blue eyed blond male coming out of the closet in front of a bunch of black people just looks STUPID.
I'm black, I have VERY FEW options avialable to me sexually. You are WHITE you have ALL the options available to you yet you've decided to throw it away and announce to the world you're gay. You know how many girls of all races DREAM of getting with a blond blue eyed white male? And now you've RUINED it for yourself if indeed you wanted to have the opportunity to bone a girl any time you so desired.
If a black guy comes out of the closet, the world SHRUGS. Nobody cares who black people are fucking. NOBODY.
It's a joke being black. You are born into this world in a tragic situation that you have no control over in the end. Sure we have tons and tons of interracial porn night and day, but when that girl decides to get pregnant, she will NOT go after black dicks.
That's what is the biggest problem with being black. And ultimately why black people are like not giving a damn about gays or especially a white guy being gay. It's like, you can't even imagine having problems getting laid.
Sunday, January 26, 2014
static Shock movie poster
Kept it simple really. wanted to do a bunch of lightning sparks all over it but said, nah, not gonna bother... Now it's like a independent film poster and shit...
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Will IT Work?
I don't know....
I have a plan. A plan I conceptualized in grade school. I told myself all these fucking morons will end up with kids and have no time to do other things.
So far, my plan is going forward quite successfully despite all the bullshit I've encountered to this point. I'm still FREE. To do whatever the hell I want.
It's not a bad situaiton to end up in.
But then comes the hard work. I have to master the piano. I have to learn how to speak Spanish fluently. And to do that, it's going to demand an intense amount of practice and studying.
But that's fine with me. I always wanted to become good at something like an instrument. Lucky are the people who buckled down in their childhood and learned a skill like that because now it's as simple as going to a piano in the room and playing a song, immediately you get respected by people vs the guy who did SHIT his whole life and ended up being talentless and shitty as a person.
So that's the hope. I mean it's my personal dream fullfillement. I am fucking getting there man, every day I get better at the piano. Every day. I play all kinds of different songs and hopefully I master the thing. Then some time down the line I can possibly get a job as a pianist somewhere. We'll see....
I have a plan. A plan I conceptualized in grade school. I told myself all these fucking morons will end up with kids and have no time to do other things.
So far, my plan is going forward quite successfully despite all the bullshit I've encountered to this point. I'm still FREE. To do whatever the hell I want.
It's not a bad situaiton to end up in.
But then comes the hard work. I have to master the piano. I have to learn how to speak Spanish fluently. And to do that, it's going to demand an intense amount of practice and studying.
But that's fine with me. I always wanted to become good at something like an instrument. Lucky are the people who buckled down in their childhood and learned a skill like that because now it's as simple as going to a piano in the room and playing a song, immediately you get respected by people vs the guy who did SHIT his whole life and ended up being talentless and shitty as a person.
So that's the hope. I mean it's my personal dream fullfillement. I am fucking getting there man, every day I get better at the piano. Every day. I play all kinds of different songs and hopefully I master the thing. Then some time down the line I can possibly get a job as a pianist somewhere. We'll see....
177 pounds
Gddamn life is good. I have to say I HATE getting older. you fuckers in your teens ENJOY IT. You're only going to get to 27 and be wishing you had your teens back. OMG Is it a fucking hell hole to be my age now.
You're aging, your body is slowly declining in its power and capabilities.It's damn tragic.
I feel like my youth has been stolen from me. Because I've nver been in control of my life all these years. So here I stand nearing 30 and I don't even know what I ever really did as a kid. Because nothing was under my control back then. I was always going through some fucking school system. So to get a job where I'm still playing the role of this obedient student is hard for me because it's like you're fucking tired of being a kid all day.
I honestly would like to have control of my life and do what I want do. But unfortunately that may lead to a big load of shit. Because you're going to be followed and watched by a bunch of crazy kkk people all the time. It's a whole different life for you when you're black. You have to worry constantly about if you're going to piss off white people.
Or stick your dick in a white girl's mouth and pussy and create a caramel colored baby.
Oh the humanity!
But nevermind that. I'm just hapy to have discovered how to lose wiehgt now. It's been the biggest problem I've been having in my little life these days. How the flying shit can I shed pounds and get back to my original lean physique that I somehow lost.
It's was never out of possibility to get it back. I just didn't know how. And now I'm getting it back and I'm studying spanish and learning more of the piano. So perhaps by the time I do get to 30 I'll have everything great in life.
It's a funny thing life. You go along, people start drama with you night and day. And you say to yourself, wtf is your problem dude. And then maybe you get to the point later on where things are better for you and that guy who was being a shithead is not living it up and not having the good stuff. It's a long tedious journey but after the dust settles the better man wins. And that's what I think is going to happen for me personally.
Despite all the problems I've had and kkk targeting me for some shit, I'lll end up perfectly9 fine in the end. You can watch me all day, you'll see nothing but a geek playing videogames and watching porn. What about that means you have to point a gun at me, I'll never know...
You're aging, your body is slowly declining in its power and capabilities.It's damn tragic.
I feel like my youth has been stolen from me. Because I've nver been in control of my life all these years. So here I stand nearing 30 and I don't even know what I ever really did as a kid. Because nothing was under my control back then. I was always going through some fucking school system. So to get a job where I'm still playing the role of this obedient student is hard for me because it's like you're fucking tired of being a kid all day.
I honestly would like to have control of my life and do what I want do. But unfortunately that may lead to a big load of shit. Because you're going to be followed and watched by a bunch of crazy kkk people all the time. It's a whole different life for you when you're black. You have to worry constantly about if you're going to piss off white people.
Or stick your dick in a white girl's mouth and pussy and create a caramel colored baby.
Oh the humanity!
But nevermind that. I'm just hapy to have discovered how to lose wiehgt now. It's been the biggest problem I've been having in my little life these days. How the flying shit can I shed pounds and get back to my original lean physique that I somehow lost.
It's was never out of possibility to get it back. I just didn't know how. And now I'm getting it back and I'm studying spanish and learning more of the piano. So perhaps by the time I do get to 30 I'll have everything great in life.
It's a funny thing life. You go along, people start drama with you night and day. And you say to yourself, wtf is your problem dude. And then maybe you get to the point later on where things are better for you and that guy who was being a shithead is not living it up and not having the good stuff. It's a long tedious journey but after the dust settles the better man wins. And that's what I think is going to happen for me personally.
Despite all the problems I've had and kkk targeting me for some shit, I'lll end up perfectly9 fine in the end. You can watch me all day, you'll see nothing but a geek playing videogames and watching porn. What about that means you have to point a gun at me, I'll never know...
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Am I the bad guy?
I still cling to some sense of dignity in myself as far as I can take it... I mean, I'm not a criminal except for maybe illegal downloads. I've done nothing substantial that would be considered truly heinous crime wise. I'm still a fucking virgin and probably going to stay that way for a very very long time.
It's hard for me to make sense of this shit. I'm just trying to get to the point that every guy gets to and feel up a girl's titties and fucks her in her ass and shit...
yet I don't get it... why are there knuckleheads jumping around saying "you're so bad" when I've just done NOTHING to stir the pot...
And in fact, I'm a saint compared to the throngs of people doing some very lewd things as is evident all day online.
Is that supposed to mean something, showcasing that you're so classless as to display to the world your wild sexual habits?
Not that I give a damn. I love watching porn. But there's supposed to be a line drawn between people who are good or bad. Am I right?
Or was that just nonsense we were taught as kids. That there's just going wild and being crazy is the good way to be and staying out of that world is bad.
I mean what exactly am I supposed to do at college that you guys are saying is going to make people respect me?
If indeed I sign back up for college and go hang out in my dorm all day, I will hopefully get to the point where I'm fucking some bitch.
I don't like college anymore. It's sad. But some fucker decided to take a bunch of gullible young adults and stick them in a shitty hogwarts all day playing harry potter, and shit.
What exactly is supposed to happen year after year in that place? You just jack off in your dorm all day then go to class? Then go back and jack off? That's all it was for me. I thought to myself, this is the thing that everybody dreams of, getting into university. Why the fuck am I just noodling around and jacking off between classes instead of getting what I believed would be an intense amount of education.
It is what it is, it's you vs the world. And how are you going to survive in this world if you don't have the brains to match very very smart people who are above you.
That's the point. There are kids who are wiz-kids in this world. They're millions of miles ahead of you. So in order to be able to get somewhere in this world they want you to stop being so stupid.
That's great and all, but why the flying shit is it pertinent to stick someone in a little dorm all day jacking off. What's the point of that?
Then someone says well, yunno, there's like NOTHING to life but fucking. So yunno, yeah that whole college thing is actually pointless. heh...
really??? ya don't say... oh and by the way, this world's run by white people. So even if your black ass gets all educated and shit, doesn't fucking matter.
really? Oh snizzaap!!!
It's hard for me to make sense of this shit. I'm just trying to get to the point that every guy gets to and feel up a girl's titties and fucks her in her ass and shit...
yet I don't get it... why are there knuckleheads jumping around saying "you're so bad" when I've just done NOTHING to stir the pot...
And in fact, I'm a saint compared to the throngs of people doing some very lewd things as is evident all day online.
Is that supposed to mean something, showcasing that you're so classless as to display to the world your wild sexual habits?
Not that I give a damn. I love watching porn. But there's supposed to be a line drawn between people who are good or bad. Am I right?
Or was that just nonsense we were taught as kids. That there's just going wild and being crazy is the good way to be and staying out of that world is bad.
I mean what exactly am I supposed to do at college that you guys are saying is going to make people respect me?
If indeed I sign back up for college and go hang out in my dorm all day, I will hopefully get to the point where I'm fucking some bitch.
I don't like college anymore. It's sad. But some fucker decided to take a bunch of gullible young adults and stick them in a shitty hogwarts all day playing harry potter, and shit.
What exactly is supposed to happen year after year in that place? You just jack off in your dorm all day then go to class? Then go back and jack off? That's all it was for me. I thought to myself, this is the thing that everybody dreams of, getting into university. Why the fuck am I just noodling around and jacking off between classes instead of getting what I believed would be an intense amount of education.
It is what it is, it's you vs the world. And how are you going to survive in this world if you don't have the brains to match very very smart people who are above you.
That's the point. There are kids who are wiz-kids in this world. They're millions of miles ahead of you. So in order to be able to get somewhere in this world they want you to stop being so stupid.
That's great and all, but why the flying shit is it pertinent to stick someone in a little dorm all day jacking off. What's the point of that?
Then someone says well, yunno, there's like NOTHING to life but fucking. So yunno, yeah that whole college thing is actually pointless. heh...
really??? ya don't say... oh and by the way, this world's run by white people. So even if your black ass gets all educated and shit, doesn't fucking matter.
really? Oh snizzaap!!!
Is it ok to accept mediocrity
This is the single question that bothers me personally to this day. We are in a Lowest common denominator world right now. Where it's accepted and expected to go down the least complex road and just take it easy. That's why there's gaggles of porn to watch and especially tons and tons of ass fucking.
So does this mean that we have gone to shit as a society? That we no longer aspire to higher forms of life and instead give in and accept mediocrity...
I got blasted by some guy who was scared pissless that by opening my mouth and putting forth any kind of thoughts I was lowering standards in his little universe that he personally inhabits.
All I could think while this guy spazzed out about me lowering the quality of discussion in his fucking message board, was that I'm not giving a SHIT about this stuff, I'm looking at this girl eat dick with her asshole.
And that's what is funny to me. All this drama drama drama about going out in the world and playing superman and becoming a hero or some shit, it's not real. Yet because we were all taught about being a fucking badass and super human, people apparently are thinking that the world works that way.
YES, I do like improving myself. Getting stronger, keeping things running smoothly, all that military stuff you see in movies.
But GODDAMN, have some common sense you retard. There's more to life than the pursuit of perfection that you're going fucking nuts over...
Like fucking SEX. I never understood bullying in school. There were so many hot ass girls around us, why was this guy only wanting to dick around with me. And now here I stand and I'm STILL DEALING WITH some fucking asshole talking shit to me.
Apparently that's all people do, there's never a moment where they get laid...
I don't have no fucking patience for a person who has no interest in pounding a girl, but just wants to be a douche bag.
We all act like idiots some time. But that doesn't completely encompass our personality. It's an error in judgement, then you wake up to reality and realize there's millions of HOT GIRLS just hanging out in this world and MAYBE instead of being a fucktard, you should get that sweet ASS. Just a thought...
Indeed I must conclude with full seriousness that the primary reason for all the war going on in the world, is that people are just not getting laid.
When a man is not getting pussy, he has all the time in the world to go around being a fucking idiot.
I've seen this from day 1. It's always the guy who's just prettymuch bored who's going around starting shit with people.
So does this mean that we have gone to shit as a society? That we no longer aspire to higher forms of life and instead give in and accept mediocrity...
I got blasted by some guy who was scared pissless that by opening my mouth and putting forth any kind of thoughts I was lowering standards in his little universe that he personally inhabits.
All I could think while this guy spazzed out about me lowering the quality of discussion in his fucking message board, was that I'm not giving a SHIT about this stuff, I'm looking at this girl eat dick with her asshole.
And that's what is funny to me. All this drama drama drama about going out in the world and playing superman and becoming a hero or some shit, it's not real. Yet because we were all taught about being a fucking badass and super human, people apparently are thinking that the world works that way.
YES, I do like improving myself. Getting stronger, keeping things running smoothly, all that military stuff you see in movies.
But GODDAMN, have some common sense you retard. There's more to life than the pursuit of perfection that you're going fucking nuts over...
Like fucking SEX. I never understood bullying in school. There were so many hot ass girls around us, why was this guy only wanting to dick around with me. And now here I stand and I'm STILL DEALING WITH some fucking asshole talking shit to me.
Apparently that's all people do, there's never a moment where they get laid...
I don't have no fucking patience for a person who has no interest in pounding a girl, but just wants to be a douche bag.
We all act like idiots some time. But that doesn't completely encompass our personality. It's an error in judgement, then you wake up to reality and realize there's millions of HOT GIRLS just hanging out in this world and MAYBE instead of being a fucktard, you should get that sweet ASS. Just a thought...
Indeed I must conclude with full seriousness that the primary reason for all the war going on in the world, is that people are just not getting laid.
When a man is not getting pussy, he has all the time in the world to go around being a fucking idiot.
I've seen this from day 1. It's always the guy who's just prettymuch bored who's going around starting shit with people.
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
thoughts on girls part whatever
One of the greatest failings of my life has been my complete disconnect from the females of our species.
I can't even fathom how I got to this age without getting intimate with a girl.
But I did.
My life has basically revolved around tv, internet, and videogames.
That's truly WRONG. In every sense of what is considered WRONG.
Forget the past. Kids are idiots, let's just let them do stupid shit and not worry about that.
But to continue to live like a child as you near your 30s is all kinds of WRONG.
I'm not even wanting to get a girl pregnant, no. No, just live the simple dream of grabbing some ass and titties as I ram her sweet little buns with my dick.
That's it. I'm only hoping for that. I know sex is a big step. It's the creation process, it's playing GOD...
Doesn't get bigger than that. But Jesus christ on toast is it ludicrous that ok, I'm here, I'm alive, I have good health, and youth, and vitality, and virility, and yet I"m just FUCKING going nowhere...
Yet yunno I can take a peak at some porn and see all kinds of beautiful young women getting every hole filled with dick. Mind you, I've been seeing this since I was 13. It's not new. In fact every fucking young boy is doing the same thing... Little do they know that what they're looking at is ALL there is to life, nothing else. We're just here to fuck, and then die.
I can't even fathom how I got to this age without getting intimate with a girl.
But I did.
My life has basically revolved around tv, internet, and videogames.
That's truly WRONG. In every sense of what is considered WRONG.
Forget the past. Kids are idiots, let's just let them do stupid shit and not worry about that.
But to continue to live like a child as you near your 30s is all kinds of WRONG.
I'm not even wanting to get a girl pregnant, no. No, just live the simple dream of grabbing some ass and titties as I ram her sweet little buns with my dick.
That's it. I'm only hoping for that. I know sex is a big step. It's the creation process, it's playing GOD...
Doesn't get bigger than that. But Jesus christ on toast is it ludicrous that ok, I'm here, I'm alive, I have good health, and youth, and vitality, and virility, and yet I"m just FUCKING going nowhere...
Yet yunno I can take a peak at some porn and see all kinds of beautiful young women getting every hole filled with dick. Mind you, I've been seeing this since I was 13. It's not new. In fact every fucking young boy is doing the same thing... Little do they know that what they're looking at is ALL there is to life, nothing else. We're just here to fuck, and then die.
Ketosis and what does it mean to be a "teen"
I'm 27 now. But it's not too far off from who I was at 15 honestly. You're still horny and want to pound ass, that's all life is for you as a teen and apparently also as an adult. Can't say I agree with the concept of "teenager" anymore. If indeed there's hardly any difference between adults and teens, why is there such a distinction made on that issue. It's military. Need to distinguish what age is right for a person to get tossed into the warzone.
Well not going to dwell on it although I'm kinda lost right now on what to focus my time on. Sometimes I think, don't try to accomplish anything just exist and then some day not exist. That's not so bad. Then on the other I want to fight and worry about things and be concerned with how the world is going. But truth be told I'm more than content living the way I've always lived which is drifiting and not being involved in white people's stuff.
I was a teenager man.... just saw lord of the rings, and was just standing around at the bus stop day dreaming about becoming a movie star or some shit. Little did I know that one day I'd be some kind of punching bag for a bunch of people on the internet, but hey that's life man, it's unpredictable to say the least.
So I'm doing the ketosis diet. And it's good. I'm losing a shit ton of weight and hopefully we reach the least amount of weight under this diet. I don't know. I'm two ways about this shit. I mean I'm very HAPPY to have discovered how to lose weight, on the other I wish I knew about this in high school. Cuz now it's kinda lame to be out in the world and it's just stupid. Life in this big crazy world is stupid.
I mean look at the internet man. Porn all day on this thing. And it's just like, inevitable I suppose. Just as people will eat, sleep, and shit, they will also fuck. And so we have SHIT LOADS of porn available for everyone's viewing pleasure. Cute girls too, nice and ripe and ready to get pregnant.
That's me personally, I ain't into girls who LOOK like they're way past their prime. Gotta have youth, my friend. That's just nature, younger a girl, the more likely she'll successfully give birth. Nice strong young butt cheeks to push out the baby.
Well not going to dwell on it although I'm kinda lost right now on what to focus my time on. Sometimes I think, don't try to accomplish anything just exist and then some day not exist. That's not so bad. Then on the other I want to fight and worry about things and be concerned with how the world is going. But truth be told I'm more than content living the way I've always lived which is drifiting and not being involved in white people's stuff.
I was a teenager man.... just saw lord of the rings, and was just standing around at the bus stop day dreaming about becoming a movie star or some shit. Little did I know that one day I'd be some kind of punching bag for a bunch of people on the internet, but hey that's life man, it's unpredictable to say the least.
So I'm doing the ketosis diet. And it's good. I'm losing a shit ton of weight and hopefully we reach the least amount of weight under this diet. I don't know. I'm two ways about this shit. I mean I'm very HAPPY to have discovered how to lose weight, on the other I wish I knew about this in high school. Cuz now it's kinda lame to be out in the world and it's just stupid. Life in this big crazy world is stupid.
I mean look at the internet man. Porn all day on this thing. And it's just like, inevitable I suppose. Just as people will eat, sleep, and shit, they will also fuck. And so we have SHIT LOADS of porn available for everyone's viewing pleasure. Cute girls too, nice and ripe and ready to get pregnant.
That's me personally, I ain't into girls who LOOK like they're way past their prime. Gotta have youth, my friend. That's just nature, younger a girl, the more likely she'll successfully give birth. Nice strong young butt cheeks to push out the baby.
Sunday, January 19, 2014
Nothing more to life but sex...
I can tell you this. From a child's perspective on things, you don't even think for a second that you're going to end up horny 24/7 around the clock as an adult.
But it's all too clear. Despite it all, grown ups are just fuck machines night and day. I never saw that coming. You watch grown men and women and you see them chillin, not jacking off, not fucking, and certainly not constantly worried about getting laid. I mean not totally true. I was 11 and on a cruise ship and I saw Lost in Space, truly underrated classic imo. And all matt leblanc gave a shit about throughout the movie was boning the blond girl. So for me I got a little taste of how adults operate from that. And indeed it lead to me never thinking for a second that people were ok with fags.
You grow up watching tons of movies about boys and girls and the shit they go through to fuck each other, and then you get the sense that people are all about normal sex lives.
But apparently I was wrong? What the fuck.
It's a funny ass world I must say. I have my thoughts on things, the others have theirs and it's hard to know who to trust or even if the person you're dealing with is a flaming fag.
But there's no getting around it, you may go through whatever the hell you go through as a kid, you're going to end up only giving a damn about getting some ass.
I always thought while in fucking grade school, yunno, I'd prefer to be fucking a girl instead of doing this school shit, and definitely instead of dealing with some shithead fucking idiot running around in the class acting stupid .
I must say I was completely right in my thinking. And in fact that's how the WORLD operates. If you DARE get between two white people and their peaceful night of sexual intercourse, your black ass is GONE...
THAT is the truth about this fucking world. Makes me wonder why the blue fart I was forced to go through school if ALL we're are here to do is pound some girl's ass until she can't even think straight.
I don't know. I really don't...
It saddens me. Not being black. I can assure you you don't feel bad about being black. It's not wrong. You exist because you're SUPPOSED to exist.
That's not the problem.
The problem is that you just wasted YEARS of your life going through a bunch of shit that didn't fucking matter...
There's only one thing to life. And that's fucking.
It really is. Life's NOT about doing your algebra homework. Life's NOT about finishing your term paper on classic literature. Life's NOT about your job. Life's NOT about being a tough guy and proving shit to people. And Life's NOT about politics.
It's about ONE FUCKING THING.
What the hell is that supposed to mean to ME. I was at one point in class being told that I'd have to bust my balls and get my homework done if I wanted to succeed in this world, and now I'm being told NO just kidding about that. We're all just here to fuck like monkeys in the jungle.
Not that I have a problem with that, but I feel so fucking betrayed and lied to all these years. And if indeed that's ALL there is, why the hell are girls so fucking bitchy about it. I mean they cry all day about wanting to get fucked and then the moment you go up to them and say let's fuck, she's like no, I'm not ready or some bullshit.
It's a fucking mess the world, I gotta say. I'm not trying to be Hitler about it and tell everyone how to live their lives, but the inane way this world seems to want to completely stifle people sexually is absolutely insane.
Whatever psychopath is trying to suppress people sexually has got to be taken out. I mean that's just weird. To try to get everyone to just go to their grave never fucking or whatever they're trying to do....
I don't even begin to understand that mentality... I mean who knows what's right or what's wrong about life. But ultimately I believe you SHOULD actually get some ass before you leave this world... it's just really like having all kinds of candy in front of you and you're saying DO NOT WANT!!!!
But it's all too clear. Despite it all, grown ups are just fuck machines night and day. I never saw that coming. You watch grown men and women and you see them chillin, not jacking off, not fucking, and certainly not constantly worried about getting laid. I mean not totally true. I was 11 and on a cruise ship and I saw Lost in Space, truly underrated classic imo. And all matt leblanc gave a shit about throughout the movie was boning the blond girl. So for me I got a little taste of how adults operate from that. And indeed it lead to me never thinking for a second that people were ok with fags.
You grow up watching tons of movies about boys and girls and the shit they go through to fuck each other, and then you get the sense that people are all about normal sex lives.
But apparently I was wrong? What the fuck.
It's a funny ass world I must say. I have my thoughts on things, the others have theirs and it's hard to know who to trust or even if the person you're dealing with is a flaming fag.
But there's no getting around it, you may go through whatever the hell you go through as a kid, you're going to end up only giving a damn about getting some ass.
I always thought while in fucking grade school, yunno, I'd prefer to be fucking a girl instead of doing this school shit, and definitely instead of dealing with some shithead fucking idiot running around in the class acting stupid .
I must say I was completely right in my thinking. And in fact that's how the WORLD operates. If you DARE get between two white people and their peaceful night of sexual intercourse, your black ass is GONE...
THAT is the truth about this fucking world. Makes me wonder why the blue fart I was forced to go through school if ALL we're are here to do is pound some girl's ass until she can't even think straight.
I don't know. I really don't...
It saddens me. Not being black. I can assure you you don't feel bad about being black. It's not wrong. You exist because you're SUPPOSED to exist.
That's not the problem.
The problem is that you just wasted YEARS of your life going through a bunch of shit that didn't fucking matter...
There's only one thing to life. And that's fucking.
It really is. Life's NOT about doing your algebra homework. Life's NOT about finishing your term paper on classic literature. Life's NOT about your job. Life's NOT about being a tough guy and proving shit to people. And Life's NOT about politics.
It's about ONE FUCKING THING.
What the hell is that supposed to mean to ME. I was at one point in class being told that I'd have to bust my balls and get my homework done if I wanted to succeed in this world, and now I'm being told NO just kidding about that. We're all just here to fuck like monkeys in the jungle.
Not that I have a problem with that, but I feel so fucking betrayed and lied to all these years. And if indeed that's ALL there is, why the hell are girls so fucking bitchy about it. I mean they cry all day about wanting to get fucked and then the moment you go up to them and say let's fuck, she's like no, I'm not ready or some bullshit.
It's a fucking mess the world, I gotta say. I'm not trying to be Hitler about it and tell everyone how to live their lives, but the inane way this world seems to want to completely stifle people sexually is absolutely insane.
Whatever psychopath is trying to suppress people sexually has got to be taken out. I mean that's just weird. To try to get everyone to just go to their grave never fucking or whatever they're trying to do....
I don't even begin to understand that mentality... I mean who knows what's right or what's wrong about life. But ultimately I believe you SHOULD actually get some ass before you leave this world... it's just really like having all kinds of candy in front of you and you're saying DO NOT WANT!!!!
Saturday, January 18, 2014
fear of pregnancy and the human body's power
Few thoughts on this while I sit and ponder the many complexities of the universe and life.
Hmmm...
I talk to girls at work sometimes. You wouldn't think it, but they're goddamn terrified of having to give birth.
I don't know anything about that whole thing myself honestly. Such is the failing of my education. We were of course given no sex ed and apparently no one gives a damn if a black guy gets laid anyway although I've met girls who are ok with me.
But yeah, there's 2 types of girls. The ones who are all about pushing out babies all day. And the other who doesn't really have the balls to go down that road.
What can I say. That truly is the test in life. Whether you're willing to do some damage or not.
Life is hard, no denying it. I always knew that. There's no surprising ME that life is a struggle. I've been through hell in my life. It's just like really annoying to have knuckleheads trying to bring me down all the time when I'm not soft at all. I've got mountains of manliness deep down. I will kill you if you push me. But I'm not interested in war at the moment.
Sorry for wanting to get ass.
Little thing called heterosexuality keeps getting in the way of all the war mongering going on these days.
What else.
Well, I'm pushing through this water diet now. I hope we can get to 30 days and lose a ton of weight and be able to do backflips and karate.
It's just amazing to discover this shit now at 27. I'm lucky that's all. If I didn't discover this, I'd be eating and drinking the same way and not be losing a damn ounce of fat. I was at 170 pounds when I joined the airforce. Then I left and ballooned up to 226 pounds due to ignorance of how the body works.
it's like you have certain limits on carbs and sugars that if you exceed them, you'll just be packing on fat in the end.
Do I want to stick my dick in a girl's pussy and get her pregnant?
That's the final question you'll ever ask yourself in life. We come into this world, all of us and deal with fucking idiots in school for years. Then one day you wake up and know that you will be old and die at some point. Then you have to make the ultimate choice of whether to start a family or not.
Unfortunately I am in a troublesome position. Even if I wanted deep down to impregnate a female, my son or daughter will be black. Their life will be hell on earth.
Are we in a really nice age now where people are not trying to be all hung up on race all day, YEAH. But I've lived in this skin, man. I know it's not easy. And ultimately here I stand, dick full of semen and no girl to put it in. Why the FUCK would I want to put someone else through that shit.
So NO I will NEVER have a son or a daughter.
That's OK. Why are people like OMG why would someone decide that? Well I don't really mind it. It is what it is, life and you go along and sometimes you get little nuggets of goodness. And I think I found that. I go to the ball park and I chill with my buddies there, bunch of knucklehead kids. And we talk shit... It's the same as if I was a parent anyway, I think...
I come from their hood. I know what it means to be a black person in america, I can give them advice on life here and how to make it in this shit even though you're black... so that's one good thing that's come about.
It will be rough to live and know that you're just going to die and not have a child, but I think I'll be doing them more of a favor really.
Hmmm...
I talk to girls at work sometimes. You wouldn't think it, but they're goddamn terrified of having to give birth.
I don't know anything about that whole thing myself honestly. Such is the failing of my education. We were of course given no sex ed and apparently no one gives a damn if a black guy gets laid anyway although I've met girls who are ok with me.
But yeah, there's 2 types of girls. The ones who are all about pushing out babies all day. And the other who doesn't really have the balls to go down that road.
What can I say. That truly is the test in life. Whether you're willing to do some damage or not.
Life is hard, no denying it. I always knew that. There's no surprising ME that life is a struggle. I've been through hell in my life. It's just like really annoying to have knuckleheads trying to bring me down all the time when I'm not soft at all. I've got mountains of manliness deep down. I will kill you if you push me. But I'm not interested in war at the moment.
Sorry for wanting to get ass.
Little thing called heterosexuality keeps getting in the way of all the war mongering going on these days.
What else.
Well, I'm pushing through this water diet now. I hope we can get to 30 days and lose a ton of weight and be able to do backflips and karate.
It's just amazing to discover this shit now at 27. I'm lucky that's all. If I didn't discover this, I'd be eating and drinking the same way and not be losing a damn ounce of fat. I was at 170 pounds when I joined the airforce. Then I left and ballooned up to 226 pounds due to ignorance of how the body works.
it's like you have certain limits on carbs and sugars that if you exceed them, you'll just be packing on fat in the end.
Do I want to stick my dick in a girl's pussy and get her pregnant?
That's the final question you'll ever ask yourself in life. We come into this world, all of us and deal with fucking idiots in school for years. Then one day you wake up and know that you will be old and die at some point. Then you have to make the ultimate choice of whether to start a family or not.
Unfortunately I am in a troublesome position. Even if I wanted deep down to impregnate a female, my son or daughter will be black. Their life will be hell on earth.
Are we in a really nice age now where people are not trying to be all hung up on race all day, YEAH. But I've lived in this skin, man. I know it's not easy. And ultimately here I stand, dick full of semen and no girl to put it in. Why the FUCK would I want to put someone else through that shit.
So NO I will NEVER have a son or a daughter.
That's OK. Why are people like OMG why would someone decide that? Well I don't really mind it. It is what it is, life and you go along and sometimes you get little nuggets of goodness. And I think I found that. I go to the ball park and I chill with my buddies there, bunch of knucklehead kids. And we talk shit... It's the same as if I was a parent anyway, I think...
I come from their hood. I know what it means to be a black person in america, I can give them advice on life here and how to make it in this shit even though you're black... so that's one good thing that's come about.
It will be rough to live and know that you're just going to die and not have a child, but I think I'll be doing them more of a favor really.
Finishing Static
Here we go. I mean, I look at the world and I see a lot of porn. Ass holes getting drilled constantly. I wonder why life is made so complicated when it really is very simple. Find some ass and fuck it.
But people are crazy, what can I say...
If nothing else I'll have finished this project and I'll feel free to pursue other things...
I finished a few shots yesterday at the park. They look really cool. It's awesome now that I have my cell phone back in commission. I love what you can accomplish with cell phone cameras vs normal cameras. You can get visuals that are truly immersive because there is no limitation of any kind. Ya gotta love cinematography. I realize now that above all else cinematography is the most important aspect of film making. Nothing is going to work unless the film looks cinematic. Or else it's just going to be boring and plain and just bland. I mean look at the star wars prequels and shit. They are basically this one simple style the whole way through whereas the OT has a variety of cinematic visuals going on because there different artists brought in to contribute. That must be the difference between great film making and shitty film making. Whether you have a collaborative effort or just a single vision driving the movie. I mean I'm studying film for fun and looking at different kinds of cinematic styles and spielberg himself recommends looking at John Ford movies. And the nigga is right, goddamn. That guy has to be the BEST cinematographer in film history. His movies look TIMELESS. That is truly a lost art. after watching his movies, it's hard to sit and watch regular movie made today with just this bland shitty plain as paper cinematography going on. Gotta punch the movie up with style or it's just not a movie, it's youtube.
Got some stuff left to finish.
Going to get shots of me walking around and looking goofy. Simple stuff.
Ugh, what else...
hmmm... uh, what else. I gotta get some shots of just like the ending of the trailer. This is the big epic finale. That I have to get when I finally get ripped. Can't get that now.
I think that's the last thing I have to get. Is a shot of me in full super saiyan mode at the end of the trailer. Then it's finished.
But people are crazy, what can I say...
If nothing else I'll have finished this project and I'll feel free to pursue other things...
I finished a few shots yesterday at the park. They look really cool. It's awesome now that I have my cell phone back in commission. I love what you can accomplish with cell phone cameras vs normal cameras. You can get visuals that are truly immersive because there is no limitation of any kind. Ya gotta love cinematography. I realize now that above all else cinematography is the most important aspect of film making. Nothing is going to work unless the film looks cinematic. Or else it's just going to be boring and plain and just bland. I mean look at the star wars prequels and shit. They are basically this one simple style the whole way through whereas the OT has a variety of cinematic visuals going on because there different artists brought in to contribute. That must be the difference between great film making and shitty film making. Whether you have a collaborative effort or just a single vision driving the movie. I mean I'm studying film for fun and looking at different kinds of cinematic styles and spielberg himself recommends looking at John Ford movies. And the nigga is right, goddamn. That guy has to be the BEST cinematographer in film history. His movies look TIMELESS. That is truly a lost art. after watching his movies, it's hard to sit and watch regular movie made today with just this bland shitty plain as paper cinematography going on. Gotta punch the movie up with style or it's just not a movie, it's youtube.
Got some stuff left to finish.
Going to get shots of me walking around and looking goofy. Simple stuff.
Ugh, what else...
hmmm... uh, what else. I gotta get some shots of just like the ending of the trailer. This is the big epic finale. That I have to get when I finally get ripped. Can't get that now.
I think that's the last thing I have to get. Is a shot of me in full super saiyan mode at the end of the trailer. Then it's finished.
Friday, January 17, 2014
am I special?
No of course not. The only thing that I can say is special about me is that I have seen EVERYTHING that happened in the 90s.
I can name every good tv show. I can tell you about the news, the scandals, the beginning of this internet era we're in now.
It's all in me. I was there I lived the dream. My childhood had its shit, but overall it was fucking brilliant.
I witnessed Michael Jordan in his prime playing in the olympics. Come on, man. That's way awesome.
I saw so many great cartoons on tv that for whatever reason don't exist anymore today.
Don't know what happened honestly. But damn, it's all gone to shit these days.
Don't know why I have to have so much drama in my life nowadays just because I'm in my 20s now. What about that means that I have to try to dodge bullets, I'll never know...
I just think it's people being people. We all grew up watching movies and tv shows about how big and dramatic life is... so I got full blast of that backlash from that mentality. People think I'm some kind of legendary epic magic negro or some shit and expect me to go do some harry potter magic and entertain them like Jordan or Jackson.
Yeah I'm well aware of what kind of expectations seem to have been placed on me. It's not going to happen. I am not the next will smith, or cuba gooding jr. or whatever negro affirmative action guy is the next denzel and shit. I'm far from being that, I can assure you ten times with applesauce.
Like I said before. I just dream of one day fucking ass. Hot naked oiled up sweaty ass.
Maybe you think that's "vulgar" and you don't like the way I'm thinking, but I'm 27 years old and I've never had ass.
I'm waaaaaaaaaaay past giving a damn if people think I'm a little overly sexual.
It's so hard to live like this, you don't even know... Nor care. I realize that most people are like as long as you don't get in the way of me fucking ass, I'm not concerned with your problems...
LOL people.
I can name every good tv show. I can tell you about the news, the scandals, the beginning of this internet era we're in now.
It's all in me. I was there I lived the dream. My childhood had its shit, but overall it was fucking brilliant.
I witnessed Michael Jordan in his prime playing in the olympics. Come on, man. That's way awesome.
I saw so many great cartoons on tv that for whatever reason don't exist anymore today.
Don't know what happened honestly. But damn, it's all gone to shit these days.
Don't know why I have to have so much drama in my life nowadays just because I'm in my 20s now. What about that means that I have to try to dodge bullets, I'll never know...
I just think it's people being people. We all grew up watching movies and tv shows about how big and dramatic life is... so I got full blast of that backlash from that mentality. People think I'm some kind of legendary epic magic negro or some shit and expect me to go do some harry potter magic and entertain them like Jordan or Jackson.
Yeah I'm well aware of what kind of expectations seem to have been placed on me. It's not going to happen. I am not the next will smith, or cuba gooding jr. or whatever negro affirmative action guy is the next denzel and shit. I'm far from being that, I can assure you ten times with applesauce.
Like I said before. I just dream of one day fucking ass. Hot naked oiled up sweaty ass.
Maybe you think that's "vulgar" and you don't like the way I'm thinking, but I'm 27 years old and I've never had ass.
I'm waaaaaaaaaaay past giving a damn if people think I'm a little overly sexual.
It's so hard to live like this, you don't even know... Nor care. I realize that most people are like as long as you don't get in the way of me fucking ass, I'm not concerned with your problems...
LOL people.
water is life
Here's some awesome thing I've discovered. I'm doing the water diet again, not because I want to, but because I have to. There's no food here. But that's ok. If I only knew about the fact that the body was designed to go for long stretches of time without food, I'd have saved hundreds of dollars on lunch money back in my high school days etc.
Life is stupid. People are more stupid. That's one thing you're going to discover as you get older in life. People are NOT particularly bright, why? Because we're a very scatter shot society. Indeed it is extremely dangerous the world of politics. If you don't watch the people in charge of society they may very well decide WRONG and we're all fucked because of it. I believe personally that we're BEYOND the point where things could go wrong. We're still at war, we're still having a lot of problems with education, sex, all these things that are so very upside down. There's an isolation sensibility going on. Where certain people in the upper crust "elites" do indeed hope that the rest of us regular people fuck off and leave them alone.
You may not see it because they're giving you your little pittance of a paycheck and food and tv to watch, but yeah they're playing very tricky with us and hoping that we don't question their tactics that they're doing up there in the upper echelon.
Do I give a shit? Not really. I basically only care about titties. Yunno. Maybe one day I'll care about politics, but forgive me oh lord in heaven, if being a normal dude and wanting to suck a girl's titties dry is so fucking shocking...
Yeah surprise surprise I'm not a fucking faggot. And I don't particularly like that whole thing. And honestly the point is coming along where if some douche starts a debate with me on the merits of homosexuality, I'm just going to kick his ass.
I don't want to hear anything about that anymore. I entertained the whole notion of accepting and wanting to be open minded about it, but NO. I'm tired of it. I've got 1 life to live and I'm not going to live it listening to cocksuckers all day.
And yeah seems kind of hypocritical to be black and to not care about a minority group's opinion but jesus christ is the defense of homosexuality getting out of hand. I don't give a FUCK if you went to harvard law school and they taught you how to spin everything under the sun. You ain't convincing me that sticking a dick in a man's ass is anywhere near correct.
Do I want kids? Hard to say. Yeah I got a part of me that wants that, but I know it's like going to completely fuck everything over for you yunno... gotta buy this, gotta get that, gotta worry and run around and all kinds of shit.
No way sir, not gonna fucking go down that road. Girls do though... once you get to know females more, you're going to realize it's THEM that want's the dick MORE than you want the pussy.
It's just they don't want to admit it. But they're mad fucking insane about wanting to get impregnated. I've met girls who are practically like ready to suck your dick RIGHT NOW just as you're talking to them. Always fucking putting their titties out and shit. Ugh. What the hell...
Life is stupid. People are more stupid. That's one thing you're going to discover as you get older in life. People are NOT particularly bright, why? Because we're a very scatter shot society. Indeed it is extremely dangerous the world of politics. If you don't watch the people in charge of society they may very well decide WRONG and we're all fucked because of it. I believe personally that we're BEYOND the point where things could go wrong. We're still at war, we're still having a lot of problems with education, sex, all these things that are so very upside down. There's an isolation sensibility going on. Where certain people in the upper crust "elites" do indeed hope that the rest of us regular people fuck off and leave them alone.
You may not see it because they're giving you your little pittance of a paycheck and food and tv to watch, but yeah they're playing very tricky with us and hoping that we don't question their tactics that they're doing up there in the upper echelon.
Do I give a shit? Not really. I basically only care about titties. Yunno. Maybe one day I'll care about politics, but forgive me oh lord in heaven, if being a normal dude and wanting to suck a girl's titties dry is so fucking shocking...
Yeah surprise surprise I'm not a fucking faggot. And I don't particularly like that whole thing. And honestly the point is coming along where if some douche starts a debate with me on the merits of homosexuality, I'm just going to kick his ass.
I don't want to hear anything about that anymore. I entertained the whole notion of accepting and wanting to be open minded about it, but NO. I'm tired of it. I've got 1 life to live and I'm not going to live it listening to cocksuckers all day.
And yeah seems kind of hypocritical to be black and to not care about a minority group's opinion but jesus christ is the defense of homosexuality getting out of hand. I don't give a FUCK if you went to harvard law school and they taught you how to spin everything under the sun. You ain't convincing me that sticking a dick in a man's ass is anywhere near correct.
Do I want kids? Hard to say. Yeah I got a part of me that wants that, but I know it's like going to completely fuck everything over for you yunno... gotta buy this, gotta get that, gotta worry and run around and all kinds of shit.
No way sir, not gonna fucking go down that road. Girls do though... once you get to know females more, you're going to realize it's THEM that want's the dick MORE than you want the pussy.
It's just they don't want to admit it. But they're mad fucking insane about wanting to get impregnated. I've met girls who are practically like ready to suck your dick RIGHT NOW just as you're talking to them. Always fucking putting their titties out and shit. Ugh. What the hell...
Thoughts on New Robocop Movie
I'm an artist. What that means is that you dream. I dream a lot of stuff that could be a good art project. I guess that's part of the life of an artist, you have visions of things.
One thing I was thinking about was if I had to write a sketch for a comedy I'd make a joke out of how Robocop has one human hand in the new movie now. What's that about? Is it so he can pick his nose? scratch himself? What the fuck is that for?
It's the oddest thing. Sure enough this remake is going to be a piece of shit with no where close to the level of intelligence and brilliance of the original film.
They keep doing this shit, hollywood. Making a shitty remake of a superior original movie.
You don't see this coming as a kid, the ceaseless nostalgia ball licking going on nowadays. Total Recall, Conan Barbarian, Man of Steel and shit. WTF.
Amazing Spiderman. Sorry but get off your fat ass and think of your own movies.
What's going to happen in this new Robo, I wonder. As an artist myself I hope they rip the original movie apart and rebuild it into something totally out of left field.
Make it an actual character study of shit like how Cameron tricked everyone with T2. The genius of T2 is that it's really a small independent film covered in all this wiz bang cgi and sfx insanity. That's what I love about it. It's NOT a movie about all the scifi stuff. It's about a boy and his robot. That's IT.
I hope the makers of the new Robo are going to make the movie have something to say instead of what it seems like in the trailers, which is just a big flashy cgi version of the original.
One thing I was thinking about was if I had to write a sketch for a comedy I'd make a joke out of how Robocop has one human hand in the new movie now. What's that about? Is it so he can pick his nose? scratch himself? What the fuck is that for?
It's the oddest thing. Sure enough this remake is going to be a piece of shit with no where close to the level of intelligence and brilliance of the original film.
They keep doing this shit, hollywood. Making a shitty remake of a superior original movie.
You don't see this coming as a kid, the ceaseless nostalgia ball licking going on nowadays. Total Recall, Conan Barbarian, Man of Steel and shit. WTF.
Amazing Spiderman. Sorry but get off your fat ass and think of your own movies.
What's going to happen in this new Robo, I wonder. As an artist myself I hope they rip the original movie apart and rebuild it into something totally out of left field.
Make it an actual character study of shit like how Cameron tricked everyone with T2. The genius of T2 is that it's really a small independent film covered in all this wiz bang cgi and sfx insanity. That's what I love about it. It's NOT a movie about all the scifi stuff. It's about a boy and his robot. That's IT.
I hope the makers of the new Robo are going to make the movie have something to say instead of what it seems like in the trailers, which is just a big flashy cgi version of the original.
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
The depths I must descend to
Here we go. I think to myself, I'm very glad that I discovered how to lose weight now. It's been a concern. You get older and you say, well nothing I can do about it, I'm just going to get fatter. But it's not like that, it's just YOU being dumb.
You have all kinds of options available to you to fix what's wrong with your body.
It's not over just because you get to 27.
Hardly. I think if I push this thing to the extreme and diet for months, I'll eventually get down to 130 pounds.
Which will be grand. I look in the mirror and it's great, despite being fucking 27, my face is cut, like I've NEVER HAD IT before in my life.
What a joke, you go through years of eating sugary crap and then only now discover how to slim down.
I implore you all out there to join in and partake in ketosis. Every single olympic athlete does it. Every celebrity you see who is nice and slim does it. All people who look nice and aren't fat are in a state of ketosis.
Goddamn, what a brilliant thing to discover. And most important is Michael Jackson. I always wondered why he was so fucking thin. HE DID THAT TO HIMSELF.
It's not because he's some freak of nature. He just ate very carefully and his body prettymuch burned every ounce of fat on it for fuel.
I mean I watch porn all day prettymuch. It's my life. Used to be I'd watch tv all day and read and play videogames, but now that I got this endless amount of semen being produced by my balls, it's hard to relax and concentrate your mind on anything else but ass.
Which I don't really mind. It's a hell of a thing to discover in life but grown men and women prettymuch live a life of constant addiction to sex. It's striking really. You deal with so much BULLSHIT from kids in grade school then all you end up becoming later in life is this sex crazed lunatic.
It's insanity...
I personally think to myself, embrace it. Don't worry about the complex bullshit of what is or isn't right or wrong. just fuck and not worry about anything.
If I had it my way, goddamn I'd have every hot girl just walk around naked all day. We'd have world peace in like no time...
You have all kinds of options available to you to fix what's wrong with your body.
It's not over just because you get to 27.
Hardly. I think if I push this thing to the extreme and diet for months, I'll eventually get down to 130 pounds.
Which will be grand. I look in the mirror and it's great, despite being fucking 27, my face is cut, like I've NEVER HAD IT before in my life.
What a joke, you go through years of eating sugary crap and then only now discover how to slim down.
I implore you all out there to join in and partake in ketosis. Every single olympic athlete does it. Every celebrity you see who is nice and slim does it. All people who look nice and aren't fat are in a state of ketosis.
Goddamn, what a brilliant thing to discover. And most important is Michael Jackson. I always wondered why he was so fucking thin. HE DID THAT TO HIMSELF.
It's not because he's some freak of nature. He just ate very carefully and his body prettymuch burned every ounce of fat on it for fuel.
I mean I watch porn all day prettymuch. It's my life. Used to be I'd watch tv all day and read and play videogames, but now that I got this endless amount of semen being produced by my balls, it's hard to relax and concentrate your mind on anything else but ass.
Which I don't really mind. It's a hell of a thing to discover in life but grown men and women prettymuch live a life of constant addiction to sex. It's striking really. You deal with so much BULLSHIT from kids in grade school then all you end up becoming later in life is this sex crazed lunatic.
It's insanity...
I personally think to myself, embrace it. Don't worry about the complex bullshit of what is or isn't right or wrong. just fuck and not worry about anything.
If I had it my way, goddamn I'd have every hot girl just walk around naked all day. We'd have world peace in like no time...
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Strange world isn't it...
I don't like the world anymore. Can't say I do. Used to be what, 15 or so hanging out in the comic shop at cross county.
Now I got fucking people following me around and shit all the time and military and all that crap going on.
Sorry but, give me some fucking time to think goddamn...
It's a hard transition to make, one day just sitting back playing crazy taxi after watching xplay and shit, then now FUUUUUUUUCK what the hell am I going to do!!! whole bunch of people up my ass!!!
I can't even go back either. I can't sit and enjoy a videogame, or tv show. Too much thoughts of sex and politics swirling around in my brain while playing.
I don't understand anything about sex and I sure as hell don't understand politics, so why does that stuff matter to me?
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL life is crazy, son.... what can I say.
We come into this world, slowly age, then die. It's a tragedy.
Women have it the worst. Undeniably they are like strapped down by their biological clock. Why is there so much fucking naked ass girls on the internet you may ask yourself. They want dick, BAD.
Why? Because we're all just here to die. And the only thing a person can do to fight back against that inevitability is FUCK.
So the thing that bothers me the most is which people are deserving of that kind of life. Sex, children. I used to deal with bullies in school all the time. And I thought that and hoped that those dudes wouldn't get anywhere with girls. I don't know what the outcome was for them, honestly.... Most likely due to their stupidity they're working shitty jobs and are living a shitty life. I see it when I'm at work at the ramp. The guys working ramp ops are mostly all high school and grade school bullies. It did indeed come back to bite them, all the shit they pulled as kids.
So there ya go. You may be a kid in school and have to tolerate an idiot being a douche all day, but he will end up throwing luggage around in a plane when he gets older. This world doesn't play. you don't stick to your ticket and work hard in school, you don't get the money.
So how am I going to get the money. What can I say. I am a highschool grad with some college. I am qualified to become a police officer. I am already qualified to get a decent job at TSA or CBP. So apparently my hard work did pay off. Problem is it appears to me that no one cares how hard you work. That despite the system existing to cater to those who did the right thing and finished school, you get shitted on anyway.
Kinda puts a downer on things. The only thing I can hope is that I can actually benefit from the system the way it's supposed to work.
Now I got fucking people following me around and shit all the time and military and all that crap going on.
Sorry but, give me some fucking time to think goddamn...
It's a hard transition to make, one day just sitting back playing crazy taxi after watching xplay and shit, then now FUUUUUUUUCK what the hell am I going to do!!! whole bunch of people up my ass!!!
I can't even go back either. I can't sit and enjoy a videogame, or tv show. Too much thoughts of sex and politics swirling around in my brain while playing.
I don't understand anything about sex and I sure as hell don't understand politics, so why does that stuff matter to me?
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL life is crazy, son.... what can I say.
We come into this world, slowly age, then die. It's a tragedy.
Women have it the worst. Undeniably they are like strapped down by their biological clock. Why is there so much fucking naked ass girls on the internet you may ask yourself. They want dick, BAD.
Why? Because we're all just here to die. And the only thing a person can do to fight back against that inevitability is FUCK.
So the thing that bothers me the most is which people are deserving of that kind of life. Sex, children. I used to deal with bullies in school all the time. And I thought that and hoped that those dudes wouldn't get anywhere with girls. I don't know what the outcome was for them, honestly.... Most likely due to their stupidity they're working shitty jobs and are living a shitty life. I see it when I'm at work at the ramp. The guys working ramp ops are mostly all high school and grade school bullies. It did indeed come back to bite them, all the shit they pulled as kids.
So there ya go. You may be a kid in school and have to tolerate an idiot being a douche all day, but he will end up throwing luggage around in a plane when he gets older. This world doesn't play. you don't stick to your ticket and work hard in school, you don't get the money.
So how am I going to get the money. What can I say. I am a highschool grad with some college. I am qualified to become a police officer. I am already qualified to get a decent job at TSA or CBP. So apparently my hard work did pay off. Problem is it appears to me that no one cares how hard you work. That despite the system existing to cater to those who did the right thing and finished school, you get shitted on anyway.
Kinda puts a downer on things. The only thing I can hope is that I can actually benefit from the system the way it's supposed to work.
Monday, January 13, 2014
thank god for google cache
some reason under the sun I lost my old post on the enteratinment industry. Love the internet and computers. You can do a lengthy report on something and then boom in one flash of a second it's all gone. Been down that road before.
You learn fast to make backups.
And great thing about this internet era we're in is that some smart fucker decided to create the google cache system. So every website is captured for eternity by the system.
good stuff.
You learn fast to make backups.
And great thing about this internet era we're in is that some smart fucker decided to create the google cache system. So every website is captured for eternity by the system.
good stuff.
Thoughts on the state of the entertainment industry
Been a fan of great cinema since I found that movie rental store back when I was about 11 or so. Kids today are no doubt downloading all their movies, but I did things the old fashioned way, blockbuster. No such thing as streaming media back in the old days. No dvd either. But whatever. Nothing better to me than browsing the movie aisles. There's a special quality to discovering a movie through its box art and little synopsis on the back, than by googling it and watching it in seconds. Or what we have now with net flix.
Everything's changed so quickly, I'm honestly having trouble keeping up with it all.
I mean I find it hard to watch tv with all the commericals when I can simply youtube the bitch.
It's funny to see the vast contrast between the film and tv world of today vs the one I came from. It's like a kid goes online these days and looks up the intro for Jackie Chan adventures, and comments "wtf is this..." And of course people are telling the kid, you missed out little guy...
Wow, you're telling me all those badass cartoons I took for granted are now anchient relics of the past that are no longer around. How the fuck did that happen?
Something happened. Some corporate decisions were made and the reigns of things were handed over to a new crop of young artists and animators, AND THEY SUCK.
So what we have now is a world that's pining for the days of old when titans in the world of animation and film making were doing their thing and not these newbs.
There's a billion things I'd love to see get done that I don't believe will. first of all, finish Samurai Jack. Bring back Dexter's Lab, or make a live action movie. Definitely make a live action Jonny Quest which is long overdue. Fuck, what else, a billion things... We have TMNT on now which is cool, but there's others that could be done. A new Ghostbusters toon, a more accurate spiderman show with no spider bike, etc, etc...
The reason I say all this is because look at a movie like Rush Hour 3. why the FUCK did they make that movie? I used to watch Rush Hour 2 religiously every fucking day, I just loved the feel of that movie. So I'd throw it on and just relax my brain and watch that shit.
But Rush Hour 3? Ok, it's like a time warp. Really look at the leap in difference between 2 and 3. 2 is obviously a semi-90s early 2000s movie. Life was good back then, michael jackson was still fucking alive, people were hopeful and jackie chan was a fucking HUGE star with his own cartoon. So the movie reflects all of that. It was Chan mania back then. Rush Hour 3? Both Tucker and Chan are too old and are struggling to fit back into their old clothes from rush hour 2 and fail miserably at it. Mind you, I like the movie because it makes me feel like I'm back in the days when Tech TV was still in its prime and we didn't have ass loads of anal porn all over the place like today, but no way is that enough.
It's truly a dreary, soulless attempt at capturing that rush hour magic from 1 and 2, but ultimately just feels like what it is, a "do or die" movie. When actors start to age beyond their roles and they say Fuck It and make the movie no matter how bad it ends up because they don't want to miss the opportunity before they become ollllld as shit.
We gotta stop with that nostalgic movie shit and bring in totally new fresh ideas again... thats all I got to say...
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Thoughts on the state of the entertainment industry
Been a fan of great cinema since I found that movie rental store back when I was about 11 or so. Kids today are no doubt downloading all their movies, but I did things the old fashioned way, blockbuster. No such thing as streaming media back in the old days. No dvd either. But whatever. Nothing better to me than browsing the movie aisles. There's a special quality to discovering a movie through its box art and little synopsis on the back, than by googling it and watching it in seconds. Or what we have now with net flix.
Everything's changed so quickly, I'm honestly having trouble keeping up with it all.
I mean I find it hard to watch tv with all the commericals when I can simply youtube the bitch.
It's funny to see the vast contrast between the film and tv world of today vs the one I came from. It's like a kid goes online these days and looks up the intro for Jackie Chan adventures, and comments "wtf is this..." And of course people are telling the kid, you missed out little guy...
Wow, you're telling me all those badass cartoons I took for granted are now anchient relics of the past that are no longer around. How the fuck did that happen?
Something happened. Some corporate decisions were made and the reigns of things were handed over to a new crop of young artists and animators, AND THEY SUCK.
So what we have now is a world that's pining for the days of old when titans in the world of animation and film making were doing their thing and not these newbs.
There's a billion things I'd love to see get done that I don't believe will. first of all, finish Samurai Jack. Bring back Dexter's Lab, or make a live action movie. Definitely make a live action Jonny Quest which is long overdue. Fuck, what else, a billion things... We have TMNT on now which is cool, but there's others that could be done. A new Ghostbusters toon, a more accurate spiderman show with no spider bike, etc, etc...
The reason I say all this is because look at a movie like Rush Hour 3. why the FUCK did they make that movie? I used to watch Rush Hour 2 religiously every fucking day, I just loved the feel of that movie. So I'd throw it on and just relax my brain and watch that shit.
But Rush Hour 3? Ok, it's like a time warp. Really look at the leap in difference between 2 and 3. 2 is obviously a semi-90s early 2000s movie. Life was good back then, michael jackson was still fucking alive, people were hopeful and jackie chan was a fucking HUGE star with his own cartoon. So the movie reflects all of that. It was Chan mania back then. Rush Hour 3? Both Tucker and Chan are too old and are struggling to fit back into their old clothes from rush hour 2 and fail miserably at it. Mind you, I like the movie because it makes me feel like I'm back in the days when Tech TV was still in its prime and we didn't have ass loads of anal porn all over the place like today, but no way is that enough.
It's truly a dreary, soulless attempt at capturing that rush hour magic from 1 and 2, but ultimately just feels like what it is, a "do or die" movie. When actors start to age beyond their roles and they say Fuck It and make the movie no matter how bad it ends up because they don't want to miss the opportunity before they become ollllld as shit.
We gotta stop with that nostalgic movie shit and bring in totally new fresh ideas again... thats all I got to say...
Sunday, January 12, 2014
putting my mouth on a titty
Will it ever happen?
I don't know... I don't know....
All I do know is that it's like sucks to no end to be strapped down in life by this stunted state.
Life is about going through a shitty childhood and then one day you're fucking the shit out of a girl and you don't care anymore about having dealt with shit as a kid.
Yeah... yunno...
I really am mad. I'm 27 years old now. And yet I'm completely ignorant of sexuality. To this day. and I'm only going forward in age. Yet not getting that knowledge of how a titty taste.
That's not fair. Really to have people hoping that you don't get maturity going in life.
That's why it's hard for me to feel like I can trust people because they are whining to me about me not being interested in their views and shit, but the moment I express my opinion they don't give shit what I think. So that's the real world. People don't really give a damn about you and your problems. You don't matter to them in fact, and this is the most prominent thing, is that ok maybe you're dealing with a white person who got bullied by black kids all the time, so now they're like really not giving a damn about your problems.
So i'm more or less not like actually thinking I'll get anywhere. When a white guy can't get pussy a whole fucking movie is made on the subject.
When a black guy can't get pussy, the world shrugs.
So what am I going to do with my life now. Oh me oh my. Well I think it's just yunno, stick to the diet plan for now Lose weight get fit. Get to the gym etc. Then we'll work on our projects.
You may look at my artwork as just porn and shit, but I LOVE creating my Ronda Comics and so it'll be something to help me overall to stop feeling so frustrated about things to concentrate on working on my projects.
I don't know... I don't know....
All I do know is that it's like sucks to no end to be strapped down in life by this stunted state.
Life is about going through a shitty childhood and then one day you're fucking the shit out of a girl and you don't care anymore about having dealt with shit as a kid.
Yeah... yunno...
I really am mad. I'm 27 years old now. And yet I'm completely ignorant of sexuality. To this day. and I'm only going forward in age. Yet not getting that knowledge of how a titty taste.
That's not fair. Really to have people hoping that you don't get maturity going in life.
That's why it's hard for me to feel like I can trust people because they are whining to me about me not being interested in their views and shit, but the moment I express my opinion they don't give shit what I think. So that's the real world. People don't really give a damn about you and your problems. You don't matter to them in fact, and this is the most prominent thing, is that ok maybe you're dealing with a white person who got bullied by black kids all the time, so now they're like really not giving a damn about your problems.
So i'm more or less not like actually thinking I'll get anywhere. When a white guy can't get pussy a whole fucking movie is made on the subject.
When a black guy can't get pussy, the world shrugs.
So what am I going to do with my life now. Oh me oh my. Well I think it's just yunno, stick to the diet plan for now Lose weight get fit. Get to the gym etc. Then we'll work on our projects.
You may look at my artwork as just porn and shit, but I LOVE creating my Ronda Comics and so it'll be something to help me overall to stop feeling so frustrated about things to concentrate on working on my projects.
Saturday, January 11, 2014
thoughts on porn and women
Gotta say I'm fascinated. Utterly so. With how awesome girls have been this day and age. Mind you, since hitting puberty I've been seeing and searching for ass and titties night and day. Like, I used to watch showtime all the time. And there was porn on there from time to time. I went to kazaa back in the day and downloaded tons of porn there. First discovered christina model there. It's sad but you kind of get waay too attached to porn stars the longer you see them. It's like, you grow up. You get out of high school But she's still jacking off on camera just like back in the old days. And you watching her slowly age over time. Yunno.
I suppose that's just the world for you. People don't just dissapear everybody's here today and going to be around until they drop dead.
Everybody. You can find ANYBODY you used to watch in porn. Unless their dead.
All these porns stars may have thought when they started doing porn that they'd be able to leave it behind and move on with their lives but the joke is on them.
we don't live in that world anymore called the 90s.
If you want to find someone, it's as easy as a click as a button. It's quite a boon I suppose to corporations or the military to easily google someone online and find out if their worth hiring. They must love the fact that you can easily create a psychological profile of millions of people simply by googling their name.
It's on them. You can't fault anyone but porn stars themselves. They should fucking know that we are in a different world now. I can understand it. Back in the day, you'd watch a fucking porno then forget about it and not even give a shit about who the person was getting fucked. You'd move on and not worry about if you can find that porn star's profile on boobapedia or some shit.
Now I can easily find any girl I want. Porn stars even are like not even giving a damn if you know they did porn.
I kinda like that. It's good. We should imo not be trying to shy away from nature. The fact that people love to fuck .
But politics.... politics...
Why under the blue sky is there this fucking sense of shock at the fact that teenagers are sexually active and shit. What fucking herbs is the media smoking that they are shocked that teens are into sex.
I don't give a damn. I'm black. No one gives a shit what I think.
But it's hilarious to me. Raaaaaaaaaaahh absitnence only sex education everybody! then all you see all day on the internet is girls eating dicks all day.
Which is good. I'm yunno, a real man. I like looking at naked girls. So by all means bring on more naked girls.
I love women. I love the attitude they have of being very flirty and sexual, but a little guarded and wanting to play hard to get. I love that.
But you know what I love the most, a freak. A girl who's just like LET'S GO. I want to get pregnant.
THAT is a beautiful thing.
You will never find a greater thing in this life I guarantee you than a female who completely embraces without reservation her feminity and her power to create babies.
Too bad that girls are all about bad boys these days. They need to think about that. Maybe not actually spread their butt cheeks for idiotic fucktards much..
That's why I don't want to get that whole thing going, relationships and shit. Because I hate girls these days. I hate the fact that they'll spread their ass for the worst asshole in the world. They don't deserve a good man if that's how they want to play it.
I suppose that's just the world for you. People don't just dissapear everybody's here today and going to be around until they drop dead.
Everybody. You can find ANYBODY you used to watch in porn. Unless their dead.
All these porns stars may have thought when they started doing porn that they'd be able to leave it behind and move on with their lives but the joke is on them.
we don't live in that world anymore called the 90s.
If you want to find someone, it's as easy as a click as a button. It's quite a boon I suppose to corporations or the military to easily google someone online and find out if their worth hiring. They must love the fact that you can easily create a psychological profile of millions of people simply by googling their name.
It's on them. You can't fault anyone but porn stars themselves. They should fucking know that we are in a different world now. I can understand it. Back in the day, you'd watch a fucking porno then forget about it and not even give a shit about who the person was getting fucked. You'd move on and not worry about if you can find that porn star's profile on boobapedia or some shit.
Now I can easily find any girl I want. Porn stars even are like not even giving a damn if you know they did porn.
I kinda like that. It's good. We should imo not be trying to shy away from nature. The fact that people love to fuck .
But politics.... politics...
Why under the blue sky is there this fucking sense of shock at the fact that teenagers are sexually active and shit. What fucking herbs is the media smoking that they are shocked that teens are into sex.
I don't give a damn. I'm black. No one gives a shit what I think.
But it's hilarious to me. Raaaaaaaaaaahh absitnence only sex education everybody! then all you see all day on the internet is girls eating dicks all day.
Which is good. I'm yunno, a real man. I like looking at naked girls. So by all means bring on more naked girls.
I love women. I love the attitude they have of being very flirty and sexual, but a little guarded and wanting to play hard to get. I love that.
But you know what I love the most, a freak. A girl who's just like LET'S GO. I want to get pregnant.
THAT is a beautiful thing.
You will never find a greater thing in this life I guarantee you than a female who completely embraces without reservation her feminity and her power to create babies.
Too bad that girls are all about bad boys these days. They need to think about that. Maybe not actually spread their butt cheeks for idiotic fucktards much..
That's why I don't want to get that whole thing going, relationships and shit. Because I hate girls these days. I hate the fact that they'll spread their ass for the worst asshole in the world. They don't deserve a good man if that's how they want to play it.
Friday, January 10, 2014
swissport again
going to get my job back at swissport.
why the hell not I say. Use it to make a little pocket change while I wait for my security guard license to come through.
I'm not going to do no fucking Ramp again though. That's the joke about these jobs, they make it look like Ramp Ops is a sweet deal. You have the classy offices, you have the smiling faces of ramp workers in photos, but RAMP IS AAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Tantamount to stabbing yourself every morning.
No way. You work Cargo, you're GOOOD. You basically go to a flight here and there and get the mail and bring it in to the post office or whatever. Looking forward to getting that going. Going to mad embarassing to be working at swissport again after having a delta uniform on, but I honestly don't give damn.
I know I'm over qualified for this bag lifting shit. I'm at least associates degree level. I SHOULD be working 9 to 5 in an office. GOD knows why I can't just get that life going for myself but this world is retarded.
You can have the qualifications all day, don't mean shit unless you're white. Sad fucking thing to say but being black automatically puts you in a position where you will be begging white people for food and shelter.
Ya think to yourself but no, I grew up with white people they're cool. All kinds of white girls naked in porn. They're not going be psycho about things on the job. But you're wrong. Once they pick up on the fact that they run this world, it's over for YOU.
why the hell not I say. Use it to make a little pocket change while I wait for my security guard license to come through.
I'm not going to do no fucking Ramp again though. That's the joke about these jobs, they make it look like Ramp Ops is a sweet deal. You have the classy offices, you have the smiling faces of ramp workers in photos, but RAMP IS AAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Tantamount to stabbing yourself every morning.
No way. You work Cargo, you're GOOOD. You basically go to a flight here and there and get the mail and bring it in to the post office or whatever. Looking forward to getting that going. Going to mad embarassing to be working at swissport again after having a delta uniform on, but I honestly don't give damn.
I know I'm over qualified for this bag lifting shit. I'm at least associates degree level. I SHOULD be working 9 to 5 in an office. GOD knows why I can't just get that life going for myself but this world is retarded.
You can have the qualifications all day, don't mean shit unless you're white. Sad fucking thing to say but being black automatically puts you in a position where you will be begging white people for food and shelter.
Ya think to yourself but no, I grew up with white people they're cool. All kinds of white girls naked in porn. They're not going be psycho about things on the job. But you're wrong. Once they pick up on the fact that they run this world, it's over for YOU.
Saturday, January 4, 2014
My goals
Here I stand.
The world before me.
I wonder what to do with my time and my life.
Fucking a bitch is definitely top priority.
But besides that. I don't know... I don't have much intentions at this point except to lose weight.
I figure, sure enough get the pounds off and stop feeling like a blob. That'll make life for me personally 100 times more fun.
I'm an extremist always have been. Not gonna lie. That's not what some people like. They like a guy to fit neatly into their little box in life and not make any waves, but I'm not one to typically be so easily controlled, never have been. I like to test my limits, push myself, further and further, and see if I can handle bigger challenges.
This challenge is to stay on the water diet for a month, which I've yet to accomplish.
I'll keep you all posted. It's hell to do this thing. You start then you look at a steak in the fridge and figure, what's a little bit of that...
I want to become like a true super saiyan though and maybe it's crazy but I believe if I make it through this, I'll have ascended to super saiyan level and no one will be able to stop me. I'll become A GOD.
The world before me.
I wonder what to do with my time and my life.
Fucking a bitch is definitely top priority.
But besides that. I don't know... I don't have much intentions at this point except to lose weight.
I figure, sure enough get the pounds off and stop feeling like a blob. That'll make life for me personally 100 times more fun.
I'm an extremist always have been. Not gonna lie. That's not what some people like. They like a guy to fit neatly into their little box in life and not make any waves, but I'm not one to typically be so easily controlled, never have been. I like to test my limits, push myself, further and further, and see if I can handle bigger challenges.
This challenge is to stay on the water diet for a month, which I've yet to accomplish.
I'll keep you all posted. It's hell to do this thing. You start then you look at a steak in the fridge and figure, what's a little bit of that...
I want to become like a true super saiyan though and maybe it's crazy but I believe if I make it through this, I'll have ascended to super saiyan level and no one will be able to stop me. I'll become A GOD.
Becoming a cop
I've gotta do something. I dunno. Lotta people putting their lives on the line to service people who don't give a damn about them.
That's corporations and military. They do the job without caring about who the fuck they're servicing.
I wouldn't mind becoming a cop. Then when I break the law, I can say well, yunno, I'm a cop so it's ok.
No, I'll do the right thing and all that bullshit.
I'm tired of not having a job. I'm so tired. They got the police exam coming up... going to go take that shit pass it and then proceed with trying to get into the police academy. Fuck it! YEAH I DON'T CARE ANYMORE! I just wanna do something! Make money! Live pretty decent. Maybe even get respect from people because I got a badge and gun...
That's corporations and military. They do the job without caring about who the fuck they're servicing.
I wouldn't mind becoming a cop. Then when I break the law, I can say well, yunno, I'm a cop so it's ok.
No, I'll do the right thing and all that bullshit.
I'm tired of not having a job. I'm so tired. They got the police exam coming up... going to go take that shit pass it and then proceed with trying to get into the police academy. Fuck it! YEAH I DON'T CARE ANYMORE! I just wanna do something! Make money! Live pretty decent. Maybe even get respect from people because I got a badge and gun...
Getting Aggressive
One thing I must fault myself on is my lack of aggressiveness. I can be a tough guy at times, but mostly I just like to chillax and not be bothered by shit in the world.
But I have to get off my fat ass and go exercise and do push ups and lift weights now. I'm getting tired of waiting for the fat to drop off my body. I have to actually make it fucking drop now.
I told myself once I'm under 180 pounds I'll go for runs and that's what I'm gonna do. Too bad about there being snow now. Ruined everything I was planning.
But I have to get off my fat ass and go exercise and do push ups and lift weights now. I'm getting tired of waiting for the fat to drop off my body. I have to actually make it fucking drop now.
I told myself once I'm under 180 pounds I'll go for runs and that's what I'm gonna do. Too bad about there being snow now. Ruined everything I was planning.
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
considerations on death and life
All I keep reading on cnn is about death. Day in day out, you can count on it. So many young people dying in this world. What kind of life is this where you can't even get to adulthood without meeting your demise.
I don't truly understand this world. It's strange to have been on one side of life and be on another where everthing is death and chaos.
Honestly I do wish I was a kid again. Bullying and such wasn't so good, but the life I had back then you couldn't beat it. Great cartoons to watch, toys to play with, movies, and no politics getting in your head while watching things. Ignorance was bliss.
I mean yeah it's good to be educated it's good to know much about the world, but some things I'd say are not worth being aware of. Like the mass amount of death in this world.
It's there every fucking day. You live, you eat, you shit, you watch tv, whatever, and thousands of people suddenly die every day.
What a world.
That's why no one gives a shit about what black people are saying. There's much greater priorities to be taken account of in the end.
It is what it is,. you won't see it as a kid, but overall these billion dollar institutions in place to serve people cater to whites, asians, and hispanics First.
i suppose I never really noticed the strange bias of the world because I didn't really fully experience being BLACK as a kid. I could always skate by as a spanish kid from time to time...
And indeed I still do. I prettymuch roll as a hispanic guy in life. I don't honestly view myself as a black person. But I am and that's really interesting to roam the streets and wonder if people are shit scared of me spreading my blackness to their daughters.
I look at life this way. The strong stand above and survive. I've always thought, ok, life gives you shit, give shit back. Don't wait for anything to happen to make life easier for you. I've always thought, if you can't lift something heavy, hit the gym and build the muscle and lift it. I don't subscribe to the ideals of life suddenly bending to you. You must bend to it.
Yunno. I loked watching Michael Jordan as a kid. Everybody did. It's hard to hate the guy. He really is a titan of humanity. There are people born into this world who have extraordinary gifts and then there are those who fight and claw their way towards becoming great and that's who jordan represented to me as a kid.
You can go down and say I can't take it. Or you can lift yourself up hit the gym and go out into the world and fight and struggle and make a goddamn dynasty... that's for sure.
I don't truly understand this world. It's strange to have been on one side of life and be on another where everthing is death and chaos.
Honestly I do wish I was a kid again. Bullying and such wasn't so good, but the life I had back then you couldn't beat it. Great cartoons to watch, toys to play with, movies, and no politics getting in your head while watching things. Ignorance was bliss.
I mean yeah it's good to be educated it's good to know much about the world, but some things I'd say are not worth being aware of. Like the mass amount of death in this world.
It's there every fucking day. You live, you eat, you shit, you watch tv, whatever, and thousands of people suddenly die every day.
What a world.
That's why no one gives a shit about what black people are saying. There's much greater priorities to be taken account of in the end.
It is what it is,. you won't see it as a kid, but overall these billion dollar institutions in place to serve people cater to whites, asians, and hispanics First.
i suppose I never really noticed the strange bias of the world because I didn't really fully experience being BLACK as a kid. I could always skate by as a spanish kid from time to time...
And indeed I still do. I prettymuch roll as a hispanic guy in life. I don't honestly view myself as a black person. But I am and that's really interesting to roam the streets and wonder if people are shit scared of me spreading my blackness to their daughters.
I look at life this way. The strong stand above and survive. I've always thought, ok, life gives you shit, give shit back. Don't wait for anything to happen to make life easier for you. I've always thought, if you can't lift something heavy, hit the gym and build the muscle and lift it. I don't subscribe to the ideals of life suddenly bending to you. You must bend to it.
Yunno. I loked watching Michael Jordan as a kid. Everybody did. It's hard to hate the guy. He really is a titan of humanity. There are people born into this world who have extraordinary gifts and then there are those who fight and claw their way towards becoming great and that's who jordan represented to me as a kid.
You can go down and say I can't take it. Or you can lift yourself up hit the gym and go out into the world and fight and struggle and make a goddamn dynasty... that's for sure.
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