177 pounds

Gddamn life is good. I have to say I HATE getting older. you fuckers in your teens ENJOY IT. You're only going to get to 27 and be wishing you had your teens back. OMG Is it a fucking hell hole to be my age now.

You're aging, your body is slowly declining in its power and capabilities.It's damn tragic.

I feel like my youth has been stolen from me. Because I've nver been in control of my life all these years. So here I stand nearing 30 and I don't even know what I ever really did as a kid. Because nothing was under my control back then. I was always going through some fucking school system. So to get a job where I'm still playing the role of this obedient student is hard for me because it's like you're fucking tired of being a kid all day.

I honestly would like to have control of my life and do what I want do. But unfortunately that may lead to a big load of shit. Because you're going to be followed and watched by a bunch of crazy kkk people all the time. It's a whole different life for you when you're black. You have to worry constantly about if you're going to piss off white people.

 Or stick your dick in a white girl's mouth and pussy and create a caramel colored baby.

Oh the humanity!

But nevermind that. I'm just hapy to have discovered how to lose wiehgt now. It's been the biggest problem I've been having in my little life these days. How the flying shit can I shed pounds and get back to my original lean physique that I somehow lost.

It's was never out of possibility to get it back. I just didn't know how. And now I'm getting it back and I'm studying spanish and learning more of the piano. So perhaps by the time I do get to 30 I'll have everything great in life.

It's a funny thing life. You go along, people start drama with you night and day. And you say to yourself, wtf is your problem dude. And then maybe you get to the point later on where things are better for you and that guy who was being a shithead is not living it up and not having the good stuff. It's a long tedious journey but after the dust settles the better man wins. And that's what I think is going to happen for me personally.

Despite all the problems I've had and kkk targeting me for some shit, I'lll end up perfectly9 fine in the end. You can watch me all day, you'll see nothing but a geek playing videogames and watching porn. What about that means you have to point a gun at me, I'll never know...