I have to decide now to give my life to Christ and his will forever. I'm a sinner. I've got so much evil within me, I have to fight it any way I can, and keep on trying to spread goodness whenever I can to make up for my flaws. That's all life's about. Too many conclude that we're here to survive, procreate, maybe accomplish some dream, then that's all she wrote. Some chose to do evil, others choose good, and the war between both sides continues forever. Indeed that war continues within me as I still fight my internet addiction and try to make sense my future airforce life. I have to do it. I can't back down from this. Man, it'd be so cool to be a pilot.
Still, what scares me isn't the hordes of people waiting to watch me fail, no, what scares me is myself. I'm a nice guy, I treat people with respect, I don't like to hurt people, but I do have a dark side like in star wars and it IS easier to just give in to it and enjoy watching people suffer, and it's just... I hate feeling like I've done evil and enjoyed it, but that's part of being human, can't fight that...
To end my 7 years of internet shinanigans, I want to leave behind a message that means something good, in that no matter how much you fail or fall, you should never stop trying. God is a funny guy and he'll give you some reward for being persistant even when all hope looks lost.
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