oh yeah

I'm thinking it's time to end this once and for all. But damn it if it's not the hardest thing to do, end a deep relationship, I know this far too well. I'm trading the internets craziness for a military career, so *shrugs* seems like a good deal to me.

Well, what to say. I'm shocked honestly by the way the world is. It's a shit storm of idiocy and evil. Corporations chew people like me up and spit me out and there's nothing I can do about it. Nobody cares about anyone else even if they believe people should care about them. Now I'm not saying there aren't good folks out there but they truly are a rarity. Human beings will always fight like beasts cuz it's in our dna. All we can do is pray some mighty force will save our wicked souls.

Racism is damn annoying. Women and their tactics are damn annoying. But I know that all these people who are trying their best to put others down will be the ones maybe 5 years from now doing a job they hate and dealing with a woman who's taken everything from them.

It's odd too that college is so pointless too and more about prestige than useful everyday knowledge. The guy learning to live his little life humbly and isn't looking to write novels is the one who's the real genius and that's the truth. You go to college when your mind isn't at all ready for deep studying, but that's not what it's about is it. It's about networking, losing virginity, building life long relationships that'll keep you sane in this crazy world really. But I didn't have a chance at college, not without being gangstalicious so women could like me for starters, and of course the onus is on me to approach these tough independent women, so now I'm the loser because I don't want to waste my time struggling to get into a girl's pants. It'll happen. Because I don't fit in the role expected of me, somebody is going to call me a faggot. In the black community it's bad if you don't do what's expected. For one, you're expected to be hetero, 2 if you're light skinned, you're expected to spread the wealth to a hard working really black girl so her genes can have a better chance in life. It's bad out there. That's one of the reasons they didn't just kill me I'm sure. I'm not really 100% black and my hair is curly instead of nappy. I'm valuable.

Lol, we'll see where this takes me. Oh boy... Well thanks for reading, if anyone still has. Wish me luck...