Kids

Wow, I don't know what to think of kids. I'm here in my room and my sister's kids are here and they're funny little things, real deal kids, just exploring the world in their short lives so far, barely out of the darn womb. Wow. I don't know what to make of them. On one hand, I foresee greatness, and on the other, seriously tough ass times ahead both at school and home. My niece is like 12 or 13 now, and she's exhibiting what seems to be a rebellious 'I hate boys' attitude common among girls her age. She's going to be smokin hot one day though and love the boys' attention then though I'm certain. Yikes, imagine having a daughter and having to watch her start dating and all that... good grief... Oh well, I don't know a thing about girls and their thought processes. The boy is fascinating to watch tho. It's interesting, some boys are assholes as kids, some not. If given proper guidance they'll do fine in life. Boys are easy as hell to raise if you know what you're doing. My father didn't give a crap about me and so I'm what I am today... but I have to just deal with it.

I'm still shooken up by that car accident thing today, man, I wish it didn't happen, makes a guy realize life could be over like THAT so don't worry about the small things too much.

I keep getting told by my sister that I will be having kids. When? With whom? Why? What the hell? I don't think so anyway. I'm too immature, insecure, frankly just plain stupid to be a parent. And parenting is not my aim. Well I'll say this, it's hilarious to me that a lot of women now who put careers before being mothers are whining now about how their biological clock is ticking and men aren't willing to marry them anymore these days. I tell ya... you get what you give in this world... A lot of it has to do with how women are these days, expecting men to be that big rugged no bs male, yet when we want them to perhaps display even a bit of femininity it's mysoginistic. So a lot of men say f-it and just give up on women, give up on a lot of things. We can't afford that. Men are needed and so are the women who make them feel grounded and at peace with the world. I can't possibly get attracted to a girl who's like a man in every way but physically. And I doubt women are attracted to men who prance around and are afraid of getting dirty, though there's always some exceptions... sigh, I'm just happy everything's going to be better for me for once. IF I find a beautiful woman who's a real woman and not just a crazy feminist man-hater, I'll give her everything. Too bad a lot of women don't respect that about us dudes.