Quitting is hard

I want to say something here even though I'm so over this blog, I just I need to talk to somebody... I just got back from the gym. Everything's going well. I'm progressing with the exercise and my body is becoming more adapted to the work outs as the days go by. My trainer says i'll be able to do 50 pushups no problem by the time i'm done. I already know I can do 80 when I'm in the right mindset. Right now I'm not. It's like that part in rocky 3 when rocky lost his eye of the tiger. I'm in the same situation. Masturbation addiction is murdering me hardcore. Not even to mention how I'm there on the treadmill and I see bouncing little women buns all over the place working out. It's just bad man. Yeah i've never had sex and now it's worse because i'm hot and I'm in a good position to get some, but I can't because if I get a girl pregnant, I'll be disqualified. Anyway, I'm just worrying too much as I tend to do. I often don't realize just how good i have it compared to other folks who have real issues and problems. Possibly going to war is a BIG problem too but still. That's my burden to bear for having access to free college... Anyway, chillax, richard. I'll be seeing that new star trek movie. I want to take a girl to it, but I'm not crossing my fingers over that. I've been alone so long, I'm starting to get used to it really.