Shit just got real

I'm back from the gym... I have to say getting a good night's rest really boosted my energy level today. I was breezing through pushups like nothing, but it didn't last long. I don't know what it is, but I lost all power after only 48 minutes. I'm supposed to go a whole hour. No matter. I've found a way to maintain my strength, and it was right in front of me all these years. I didn't know what I was doing sexually. Man, it's just so FUCKING stupid that we don't have sex education in schools around here. How do we learn it? That's been my problem, not a psychological disorder. I just haven't been doing the right thing. Masturbate before you hit the hay, people. You'll sleep like a baby, then next day you'll be able to do things you didn't think were possible. You'll be like superman!

I'm STILL feeling the power I got from last night's rest, and that was just ONE day. Usually i sleep 4 or 5 hours since I'm so sexually frustrated. Nah, kill that with some sperm and you'll be sleeping a good solid 7 or 8. I have to teach this stuff one day to kids. It's so sad that many more will go through the struggles I have because their parents are idiots. Really, don't buy into the myth that all parents love their kids and will do whatever for them. There are some who have the kid, love it for 10 minutes, then torture them for the rest of their lives because of whatever reason.

Now I'm not saying all kids are good. some will push you to your limit and beyond. Some blacks for example, I don't know what it is about them, but they view jail as a right of passage or something... studying, reading, learning, fuck that shit. True enough, as a black male, you'll never ever get a girlfriend if you hit the books.

Now as for me, though. I'm not really black, black, I'm mixed, but it's not like I can go up to a bunch of white folks and have a party with them, i'll be the negro guy. ah, but here's the good part, when I'm rolling in my military salary, all those girls who didn't look at me because I was wearing my coke bottle glasses and carrying tons of books, won't be able to resist me... It's already happening. I'm in the gym and my arms are all ripped and I see women looking at me, same on the street, on the bus, then big asshole steps in and sits down, with his doo rag on and his bling and the women instantly melt at the sight of him... no matter, when I'm the guy in a REAL us military uniform, they'll melt for ME. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! sorry, no, uh, I want to serve the country...yes.... Country first!