Life is circular

Nothing changes.

I didn't know what to make of these words at the time. I was 18, 5 years ago... just sitting there bored with school. i didn't know what she was talking about, this person. I guessed to myself that she meant that when I was at work, I'd get the same stuff day in day out and just have to get used to it. Don't worry about the big stuff in life, just keep doing your job and so on. I see it now. As I worked at target, it was nothing like school. I came in, I washed plates, restocked stuff, made pizzas, served customers and that was it. That's what she meant. Daily life for a worker was just that, a circle. 5 days of the same stuff, 2 days of freedom, and around and around and around...

In another sense, my life story is also circular. My father was an airman. I too am an airman. His military career ended with an injury, so hopefully I don't repeat that shit.

But yeah it's true, nothing does change. In the grand scale of things, we're all just a microscopic spec in the vastness of time. Our lives mean very little compared to the much bigger picture, that being that if we don't find a way to survive off of earth, we're doomed. It's hard to believe in God with that kind of knowledge in place. I mean, yeah, either we find a way to survive, or our species is done. Think about it. That's why I wanted to join the airforce. They've got it right, their aim is not at the ground, the here and now, but to the stars. Its focus is on pushing the boundaries of human intelligence to whatever point can necessarily give us powers over our own fate in this world. Messes with your head, thinking about all this...

Oh well, that's life.