How to beat hardest track in star wars podracer

Pathetic right? I'm writing a tutorial on how to beat a track in a dream cast game right now in the year 2014 13 years since the dream cast was fucking still alive and well...

But I'm me. And that means I'm a nerdy fucker.

Well I just recently decided to my good fortune to give that hard as as hell Grabvine Gateway Track another try after fucking up that track so many times.

If anyone cares out there, I'll help inform you how to beat this shit. It's basically a track that demands a lot of turning as there's tons of turns which cause you to crash all day instead of progressing through the track.

You'll need to bone up on a couple of things. Max out Turning, traction, cheap buys. Which I did and I got really good airbrakes for the pod as well.

I hoped this would work, but it didn't still lost every fucking race with a vengance...

So I decided to sell half of my cooling and repair stock and put the rest of it into getting better acceleration.

BARELY won the fucking race. At the end of it I was going full throttle with one engine ready to explode as I crossed the finish line. Shit was hair raising but I was so satisfied to have beat that fucking shit for once.

There ya go. Not promising a sweeping victory but by getting that acceleration up you'll get through the track faster since it full of loads of full stops.

thinking about how race matters.

Strange business but I grew up watching fucking family maters in case anyone was wondering where I come from. I am a 90s kid, grew up on EVERYTHING 90s.

All this stuff about how I'm a bad guy and looking to go out and fucking cause trouble. Listen, I sat with my bowl of fruit loops every saturday morning and watched alvin and the chipmunks and muppet babies during the old days of fox kids. You bet your ass i remember those days. I SOOOOO wanted a Dick Tracy talking watch from the cereal box back then, but fuck never got it. LOVED Real Ghostbusters, never ever ever missed an episode. I mean. I never knew that uncle joey from full house was the voice of Peter venkman. never knew it, but yeah he was the guy voicing peter and then I went and watched him on full house so ultimately it all connected didn't it. Great guy David Coulier, great guy. HUGE part of my childhood.

But I got to say, white people must live an interesting life. Very interesting. I mean I got to say I"m encountering the stuff they often think about dealing with, a black man getting all up in their face and trying to start shit.

I go to work and I'm obviously black, although I'm a spanish looking black person, right. So none of the black guys at work fear fucking with me. They'll get away with it, and I can't laugh it off and go back to fucking my blonde wife in the ass like a white guy can.

I got to say it's a horrible dead end reality to deal with. I mean that's black people, got the BALLS OF A TANK to go up to another black person and wag their dick in their face, but I ask my self if I was white would this dude be acting like a badass right now? Or would he bend over and spread his ass for whitey like a little bitch boy.

Mind you, there are tough ass ballsy black guys who don't give a shit and will start a fight with a white guy. they'll lose like there's no tomorrow, but they'll still try in the end.

I wouldn't. Not out of fear, but out of intelligence. I'm not stupid enough to think I can win in a fight with white people.

Ya serious? Your black ass dares start shit with powerful whit folk, forget it, you're gone.

You don't mean shit to them and their expectations. It's like really you're cattle, fucking wild stock in the yard.

So I don't get why black people want to put on a show of toughness in front of each other when they'll act like little pussies in front of white people. You know what? I actually DO get it. Black people are retarded. That's the reason.

Not gonna sugar coat it. I've lived in black la la land all my life. I know how fucking retarded black people are... I mean back in grade school a black kid laughed and riducled me for having nappy hair. He's black too though so his hair is also nappy. But he points a finger at me and says HA HA HA your hair is nappy.

Wow. Ya got me...

Will the prequels be forgotten?

Just thinking right now about the star wars prequels and their future alongside the new star wars movies. I have no doubt that these new movies will be better more traditinally made films than the prequels ended up being. They're going to actually function as films instead of this clusterfuck of CGI nonsense that Lucas decided to create.

I honestly look back at the prequels and am glad I didn't save the stubs for those movies. They're garbage on film. They'll be sold in the ultimate super delux Star Wars Saga set that will no doubt be released some day just as I've notoiced despite it not making a damn inch of sense they've sold ALL the superman movies in a box set even Returns and feel no shame about that. something I've noticed since I was a kid hanging out at dragons den in cross county, they always sell the whole film series as a box set never leaving out the worst films. I guess their for completists.

well any who. I'm contemplating the outcome for the prequels once the superior star wars trilogy directed by abrams comes along. I personally am going to erase the prequels from my memory and look at star wars beginning and ending with episode 4 and episode 9. That's IT. that's how I'll remember star wars.

Only thing from the prequels that i'll hold on to is the Gendy Tartakofsky clone wars series that was a billion times better than the prequels ended up being in the end.

I mean I want to desperately contort and fit the prequels into the whole star wars story and make it all work, but there's NO SAVING THOSE THINGS, nothing will salvage what those movies lost us in time and money and just fan's utter devotion to star wars.

Thank GOD in heaven that JJ is making new star wars to fix what has been severely broken, thank GOD.

Thoughts on Butt Sex

Gotta go to fucking ass crushing work in like the next hour but before that shit just want to discuss something I got thinking about as I sat here doing nothing special.

I just remember the 90s with such a fondness. Now I'm out as an adult in the real world and holy shit is this world a big bag of insanity if I ever saw it. War, death, racism that's all I see now vs being a kid watching family matters and full house and all that good shit. Boy I guess they did a good job covering the truth about this world from us 90s kids. I never saw the real world, never saw how fucking obsessed everyone is with skin color and how everything is political tug of war and all that, never saw it, didn't care, and now I'm supposed to suddenly jump the hurdle into knowing all about the complexities of the big titans going toe to toe with each other in the big political world.

Fuck me, is it hard to grasp that stuff. I never had anything to do with it, so it's hard to suddenly jump right on in... really is, forgive me...

But yeah I see how like, I'm on the subway and like there's just no end, NO FUCKING END to the amount of jet black straight out of fucking Nigeria black guys walking around aimlessly not knowing which end is up in this life. Wow go get a fucking job or something, don't creep people out on the subway you psycho, but that's like the sad reality of being born black as FUCK. You'll go down HARD in life no doubt vs being lighter complexion...

That's sad, really sad. I mean what the hell. Why you got to be acting a fool and creeping around and scaring everybody on the subway with your monkey looking black ass like that. At least go get a job or some shit, don't be hanging out all day in front of good honest people looking like shit. That shit is the worst.

On top of that I have to say the glutton of butt sex is really fucking disturbing these days. Not that I have a damn thing against it, I LOVE watching a girl eating dick in her ass. But wow, wow, is there so fucking much it's like just ridiculous contrast between the world I grew up in vs the one I'm in today. Was there always butt sex, I just never saw it? Truth be told I think deep in the back of my mind I always knew adults were having a good time sexually, just never really was allowed to see it. I saw porn very very infrequently never all the time. But yeah there's no real denying what we all want as we get older, to get some booty.

Damn straight. I mean is it wrong to see girls eating dick and enjoying it? HELL NO. They're goddamn supposed to in my opinion. If you somehow some way got laid and put that shit on film, GOOD. That's a goddamn miracle by GOD.

I think to myself yeah, I do believe people should live by old morals and expectations and not succumb to primal sexual urges like wild beasts, BUT then I realize I'm 28 years old and haven't fucked one bitch, not even kissed a girl.

YOU KNOW WHAT? FUCK ALL DAY. FUCK TILL YOU CAN'T THINK STRAIGHT. FUCK AND FUCK AND FUCK SOME MORE.

FUCK ANYBODY WHO SAYS PEOPLE SHOULD WAIT TO FUCK. FUCK ALL THOSE RETARDS.

Ultimately I got to say white people are crazy as hell if they're going to try to tell people when they can fucking fuck.

Ya serious? Oh good luck with that shit guys...

Indian Jones 4

Well what have I been up to recently for anyone who cares and I doubt anyone seriously does. There's much more things that are deserving of attention than my little quirks and shit.

Ugh primarily the Indiana Jones 4 that's been on my mind recently. I've been kicking my self in the ass for not saving the ticket stubs I've gotten from countless classic movie experiences. I bought tickets for all 3 star wars and lotr movies and never kept one fucking stub. I saw the matrix and xmen upon first release and never kept a stub. Now the fucking actors are thankfully still making xmen movies but they're thinking about putting down the claws and moving on and indeed they should. I think xmen is really done now. I never fucking thought as a teen watching wolverine in live action for the first time that fucking I'd see him going through time and all the crazy shit we now have going on in the x universe. Now supposedly they'll be facing Apocolypse on screen. WTF... It's like we've abandoned everything the original movie set up and now we're basically making the comic as is on screen now. No more realism or any attempts at serious drama.

Yunno, and it's like I'm too old to still be watching the xmen cast making these movies. It's as if they got together and made another spiderman featuring tobey and crew as if we were all back in the early 2000s. That time period was amazing to be in I can tell you. To be a teen looking forward to the first live action spiderman ever was a true blast for me. I was just going ape shit over every little bit of new pics and stuff and of course was blown off my ass by the trailer when that fucker hit. Now it's like, what a waste of time. Those spiderman movies are garbage.

They spent so much money, those movies just suck though. So of course as is the trend these days, reboot the bitch and forget we ever made those fucking shitty movies before.

And here we go again although it's hard for me to be as interested anymore in spiderman as I was a teen. I' 28 man, I'm fucking smacking away to porn all day, sadly. I should be slammin my dick into some girl's ass and enjoying myself not fucking looking forward to spiderman and star wars and shit.

I mean I'm so still got that gleeful enthusiasm for the new star wars movies and new batman and superman and spiderman moveis that are no doubt on teh horizon and I will indeed keep all the stubs this time.That's one fucking thing I figured out about life is that ya got to keep these fucking stubs now, not just toss em out.

And that's what I'm gona do now, every big super amazing movie that come along I'm going to keep the stub and one day have a fucking book full of old stubs maybe when I get old or some shit.

But damn Indiaana jones 4. I was thinkign should I have kept the stub for that pile of shit. And ultimately I conclude that even if I kept the stub, I'd burn it.

I want to honestly forget they made that movie. My eyes burn watching fucking shia labeof as indana jone's son and shit.

Ya kiddin me right? Just like I predicted, Shia labeof is not going to even be a hair of the ass of the goddamn TITAN of a man that is HArrison Ford. Shia will be the poster boy for the current generation of faggy back street boy pussy ass metrosexual white kid generation we have now. But he's not going to be taken seriously as a monumental actor who's going to ascend to great heights as a performer.

He's going to be as his looks fade, and he's not even a good looking guy. He's like fucking Fred Savage. Does anyone think the actor from boy meets world is going to go down in history as some sort of great actor. No, it's a shock to me really to see him come back to play corey after I lived so many years of my childhood watching him play that charactet. To be 28 and sitting here in my old room and STILL seeing Corey and Topanga on TV is just WHAT THE FUCK to me.

You got to realize I'm not today's kids. Today's kids see girl meets world and they think it's the first of its kind, it's so amazing an new. I've watched HUNDREDS of episodes of boy meets world. I seriously remember so much about that fucking show from when I was little. That to see the new shit, just doesn't make a dent in the original shit that I used to watch and feel a sense of familiarity to. I loved just getting lost in the world of boy meets world as a kid. It was like felt right felt like this was the 90s we were all in and having a good time living in. And it was about a boy kinda like a live action version of doug pretty much really. Here ya got this goofy dork white kid going through life and trying get through school etc.

So I always thought it's basically a live action doug pretty much.

I mean shit, what the hell is this girl on girl meets world compared to corey. Honestly. Corey was a interesting guy. The reason they cast Fred as Corey was because he was PERFECT for the role. I mean you got a guy who's really embodying the goofy quality of a typical 90s white kid who's not the popular guy or the smartest but he's not a bad kid, kinda thing. But his daughter going to be intersting as a character or is the sole purpose behind Girl meets world to simply bring back Coreyt and Topanga and follow their lives after Boy meets world ended. And of course bring back lots of the old cast to see what they're up to as well.

I do indeed want to see the old cast and feel like I'm still a 11 year old watching Corey and his friend have adventures. Hell I'd love it if they made Good Burger 2 or some shit. Or make a fucking Animorphs movie with the guy playing Iceman back as his old character. Wouldn't hurt. Ya gotta realize I got a lot of connection to a lot of old school Nick shows and ABC sitcoms from back in the 90s. I lived and breathed so much of it.

Sucks to get older and now indeed in my mind life is upside down. I don't think today's kids are enjoying the same level of awesome shows that I had back then. Sure they're into tmnt and power rangers but fuck, I had A LOT of badass shows to enjoy as a kid. Swat Kats, DBZ back when that shit was fresh and new not like today, Jonny Quest, reboot, Sonic SATAM back when they actually made good version of sonic before they decided to rape us all with Sonic Adventure. Who can forget Real Ghostbusters. TMNT although looking back I don't know why I loved watching that pile of shit show. It was horrible.

But hell even Shitty Sailor Moon is ten times better than today's tv shows. I hope they get off their ass and make a live action Sailor moon some goddamn day. Long overdue. I mean warts and all I'll always hold DBE dear to my heart simply because it exist. It's horrible, but it's a part of my soul as weird as that sounds. I grew up basking in films like it. He-man, super mario bros, street fighter. To actually sit and watch them make a SHITTY adapation of badass cool source material for the first time in my life was actually great fun. I was never there when they made Street fighter. Lord knows how they could have improved that travesty of a film if fans had any say about it. But there was no internet. I mean to be on a forum full of DBZ fans and watching them make the movie and seeing all the pieces come together I'll always cherish that experience. It was amazing to hang with all the db fanatics and hope the movie would be good, and then I actually go and see the movie. I really went to manhattan to watch the movie in theaters and was just fucked in the ass by the whole damn thing. Should have kept the stub though. Despite it being shitty, it's the only DBZ movie ever going to exist, to have the stub for it would probably be valuable...

thoughts on dream cast

GOddamn I mean here I am today still playing dream cast. Got it back around the early days of xplay for anyone who remembers the initial days of tech tv before they lost their fucking minds and turned it into this horrible backwards version that it is now, G4 or whatever. To be a teen fucker again, i tell ya.

Not really, I mean I kinda have a love hate relationship with aging. I do indeed want to be young again, but overall being my age now isn't the end of the universe. I still jack off all the same and I still want to get laid same as I was back at 15, just I'm way over the hump in terms of having waited for the magical day when you lose your virginity and grow up.

Way past...

Nothing I can fucking do about it brother... just gotta keep on jackin it and jackin it until some bitch finally gives me a chance.

So I'm still playing my old dream cast to this fucking day yall. How pathetic is that. But I got to give Sega its due, the dream cast is an amazing system, certainly still fun to play and the thing about it is that it truly was intended to be a serious competitor against the ps2 before SONY fucking CRUSHED the shit out of the Dream cast in sales.

That and the nintendo Game cube. With those two beasts of a gaming system hanging around, the dream cast didn't stand a chance back in those days although it was initially doing very well even to the point where the crew behind xplay were contemplating it lasting a very long time.

Wrong, fucking assloads of wrong those guys were...

How am I still playing dream cast? Well I figured out how to burn my own games now. I know boo hiss, it's illegal dude, certainly but the fucking dream cast is dead yunno. It's not like I'm burning games that are in stores today and I could buy them.

If Sega was smart they'd make a few easy dollars re-releasing their whole collection of games on digital download for people who missed out on the good ol days of the dream cast before it died.

 Playing Star wars Episode 1: Racer a game I rented back around when I as like ucking 15 or whatever age. Now I'm actually playing the shit hard core to get through the hard levels and beat the game and it's a lot more complex a game than I remember it being. I must have only played a few tracks and upgraded the pod only so much before having to take it back to blockbuster. This game is a game meant to be played for months, not a weeks. 

they really worked hard on creating a serious racing game that while fun is goddamn ridiculously hard at times. It's like I'm stuck on this track that most every review for the game says is totally ridiculous in difficulty and I agree. They made the track to be impossible to win without some super pod racer with perfect brakes or some shit.

I just can't beat the track no matter how many times I go through it. It's a beast. I'll keep trying though.

Looking to finally get Shenmue 2. I got and played and beat shenmue 1 back in the old days when that bitch came out.

Some kid was selling dream cast games at school so I bought a ton from him or did I rent shenmue? I rented it if I recall. I rented everything, was never a guy who had money to buy games, rented ton of them though when I got the chance.

Now i'm going to burn tons of dream cast games and maybe hand my system off to my nieces and nephew for them to play with it. They'll probably get a kick out of the old dream cast same way I loved playing old games as a kid. I'm a computer gaming nut from childhood. I played fucking TONK on the commodore 64 if that tells you anything about me.

I hate how I'm always labelled and treated as if I'm this homeless black guy in the subway who's retarded as hell. No I'm a nerdy kid from the 90s who's never touched a girl in his life, that's who I am.

I'm 28 and playing star wars racer on the fucking dream cast, how sad and retarded is that shit... really, think about it...

I'm not doing this:

Bsf

I'm doing THIS:

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY!!!!

Ugh black people part 3

Gooooddamn are black people a fucked up group of people or what. Why is it that I go on the subway to go home and there has GOT TO be a black guy running around asking for pocket change from everyone. WHY?

You know what I just did, GOT A JOB. Nothing miraculous or respectable, but I fought and clawed my way back into tossing luggage again for little pocket change. I'm content with that all things considered. I will indeed be able to get to work with ease so I'm going to have little to no trouble at this job, hopefully. I can only dream a little dream.

I mean, shit. I never really gave a damn about the huge gap between the economic levels between races until getting out into reality and seeing it for myself but yeah, it's SO a white man's world it's not even funny. It's like, there really simply ISN'T a lot of blacks breezing through this world and making big money and living it up, just isn't.

WOWZERS.

I mean how was I blind to how seriously fucked you are in life if you're black. It's probably because I pass for hispanic prettymuch. I'll never truly know what it's like to be a jet black person for the rest of my life.

And thank GOD. I mean yeah it does fucking matter to be NOT black in this world. It really does. I mean nobody looks at white people and checks whether their wallet is still in their pocket. White people all have money and jobs. They're good, honest people.

I sit on the train and oh surprise surprise a 30 year old black dude comes in the train begging everyone for money.

Goddamn, am I part of a race of people who are the bottom goddamn rung of the ladder in this world or WHAT?

The BOTTOM RUNG, my friend. Not even slightly int the middle or just above the last rung, the BOTTOM.

Fuck, man. I don't know what to do. It's a world where if you're black your life will be ridiculously tough, no matter what you do about it.

Gotta say I HATE the internet...

I mean really hate it... I should never have logged into this thing back in high school, should have stuck to getting a girlfriend like I originally planned. Now I got way too much bullshit on my plate than I ever expected but that's the world we live in. Some very big time people out there hanging out and if they don't like YOU they'll find you wherever the fuck you are and get rid of you. I wish I was honestly still ignorant to that reality but that's how this bitch works and either you accept that fact or go home honestly. I'm not going to try to ignore the truth about this world as I sit here at my age now. I may want to, but no, I've known it all my life, THIS WORLD IS THE JUNGLE. Going to survive, get ready for WAR. Simple fucking truth.

But damn is it kinda more of a wild west world we live in than I expected. Certainly what's most annoying thing to me is how sexuality is a huge point of contention between EVERYONE. It's like DUH, everybody knows black people want to get an upgrade and fuck white girls, asians, and hispanics. EVERYBODY KNOWS THAT SHIT.

which makes my life a big fuck in the ass. I basically exist as this prime example of what white parents DON'T want happening to their offspring. They hate me for that AND they hate me for just being black in general.

Wow, ya go along in life and then, get smacked in the face by reality don't you...

What can I do about it? Nothing.... I have to admit, there's nothing I can do to change anything about the situation. I didn't think that being an adult meant being a horny bastard 24/7, I didn't KNOW THAT. I just didn't. Don't blame me for having no goddamn clue that your sex drive basically never fucking stops bothering you or that yunno, I could potentially fucking ruin a white person's opportunities for success if I boned a white girl at any point. I didn't think that my life would basically consist of wanting to pounce on ass all day. I HAD NO IDEA pal...

But that's all my life is. I wake up, wanna put my dick in a bitch, and that's all my life is. Every single day...

 I wonder what kind of life I'm supposed to be living, or was expected to live. Who's hovering over me and watching my life and wondering where it's going to go. I can tell you where it's going to go. I'm going to hopefully be one day pounding the hell out of a girl's ass and not giving a damn about anyone else. Striking to me though is the way that black people are really fucking beneath EVERYBODY. Yeah we have tons of FUCK IT interracial porn online, but the reality that we all know exist and is set in fucking stone is that this world is owned by whites. Period. There's not amount of fucking black guys digging for gold in a white girl's ass that's going to change that shit, everybody knows that. And if I go running around acting stupid around a bunch of white kids, my black ass is going to disappear from this planet yesterday...

So yeah, there's no fucking advanatage to being black in the tiniest of equations. Unless you're a super genius. Then you'll be granted something, but ordinary kinda black guy, FORGET IT...

Which is me. I mean the thing that bothers me and I honestly don't LET IT bother me to a large degree where I'm losing my mind over it, but yeah, the simple fact that we live in a world now where somebody you pissed off over in germany can be sitting aroudn at their laptop 10 years later and still pissed off at you and looking to kick your ass is ridiculous.

I know. I get it. We live in the internet age where yes indeed EVERYBODY from all walks of life can get connected with each other. I'm well aware of that reality but hell no, should the guy working on the space shuttle even have a clue what I'm saying today.

That's my point I'm trying to drill into the internet's head. Maybe just MAYBE ignorance is bliss in this fucking matter. MAYBE it's a better to not know what's going on in someone's basement in alabama...

I'm more than sure some big time rich powerful white guys have no interest in even hearing a word that comes out of my mouth.

So why the blue hell is the internet so weak in regards to letting shit go. If I never brushed off an insult or anything from school days, imagine the havok, but I did. Kids shitted on me, I woke up the next day didn't remember what they said and moved on. Now everybody prettymuch has no sense of forward progresssion, we've lost that. Because we've opened the door to hearing every fucking thing that comes out of each other's mouths, we think that we have to sit and politicize it, which is bullshit. Here's an little idea, mind your own beezwax. Don't go running around losing your mind over what everybody says today. How about that?

You are not SUPERMAN. You're not going to change the world.

Why the hell are some people thinkgin the whole fucking world is going to fall apart if they don't have a debate with you over everything....

Where do those motherfuckers come from? I didn't grow up thinking there's people hanging out who got nothign else in teh world but to argue... me I'm not here to argue. I'm here to grab a pair of titties. That's what I'm here for...

Some sexy as FUCK white women in this world

and you want to fucking argue over star wars or superman. SAD SAD

SAD...

That's all I got to say about that...

Thinking about procreation process

I mean, what have I been doing all these years as I went to school for the most part. And now I'm struggling to find my identity and also simply get jobs. But overall the most complex aspect of my life is learning about sex and how that whole process works. I get a job, then a couple months into it, I bail. Mainly because I'm still ignorant as fuck about sex. Everybody at work goes home and fucks and has a good fucking time, me, I'm still fucking wondering what it's like to fuck, at 28 like a dumbass.

I'm not even a ugly dude, I goddamn SHOULD have at least gotten some ass by this goddamn point in my life.

How I got here, sitting here today without having boned a girl just once to get it over with, I do not know my friend. I do. Not. Know.

I did it all man. I lived the dream in this world, lived like a king in the 90s. Watching TGIF, Baywatch, Seinfeld, Friends, fucking all the 90s good shows and stuff I saw it all, only to end up sitting here at 28 jacking off to porn.

FUCKING SAD.

I mean yeah, I do indeed want to fuck. I do indeed intend to slide my dick into a girl's pussy and watch her squeeze out a kid. I do indeed want to go forward and do all that shit. I feel like it, yeah, I want to fucking tear a girl in two with my dick.

But the idea of raising a kid is a tough aspect of life to grasp for me. I don't have a damn clue about that side of life and indeed it's a big step and one that will indeed be a massive undertaking. You got to be a real tough guy to handle raising kids. You really do...

But I can tell you this. As you can see, I'm an artist. Been one since I was 5. When you're a artist, sometimes you feel like having kids would actually limit you creatively and that's a big deal to someone like me. I mean yeah you will lose something by having to worry about kids. VS being free to dream and create anything you want. Me I have unlimited potential as I sit here. I'm 28, still a virgin. I COULD go back to college, finish up by the age of 31 or some shit and then get a BIG TIME big money job and never have to look at shitty manual labor for the rest of my life. It's possible. However I'm hesitant to go down that road because of the just massive amounts of treachery and serious lack of discipline and of course the most heinous thing to me, the way people are very devious and the word being, duplicitous.

I mean there's no law out there in the jungle. SHOULD I trust the college system and just go in there, hang out in the college dorms, do all that fucking homework and term papers, and then good for me, I get a big time job. Or is it that a bunch of white guys are just laughing their asses off at the fact that they got me to go study and work my ass off to suddenly become more useful instead of being  another stupid regular idiot black guy in this world. Sadly I realize that's EXACTLY what's going on in this world. The point of it all, the whole college shit, is indeed to get blacks to stop acting so fucking niggerish and urkel it up.

I mean really that's what white people want, to figure out the hardest question, how the FUCK can they turn black people into more fucking pleasant people to be around instead of the norm which is that yeah, nobody wants to hang out with black people in any capacity whatsover.

I mean I don't want to admit it but it's simply true. Black people can't be hung out with, just can't and white people know it. They'll act all rowdy and stupid at a drop of the hat, saddest thing I ever seen in my life. A group of white kids sit around discussing the complexities of science, and politics, a group of black kids sit around talking about how much dick they think each other sucks.


But back to my main point. I don't see it. I don't see myself spawning a kid, just don't. I think it's not meant to be. Indeed I was always aware that I had some sort of super jedi powers. And hell maybe it's true. maybe I am a jedi and that means I don't get to fuck a bitch. But hell no, no way. I'm going to get some ass some goddamn day, just probably pound her in the ass so we don't have to worry about no kids coming out that booty hole.

Thoughts on Star Wars Force Awakens

Life is good, it really is. I mean I lived long and prospered and thought star wars was done with the prequels. I really did. But now I have a reason to live as pathetic as that sounds. I LOVE star wars. I hope JJ and crew know what the fuck they are doing. I'm just going to sit back and watch the movie and not try to get embroiled in the hoopla that is no doubt being stirred up online at all the star wars forums. I'm SO DONE discussing star wars online. I'm like an old professor who's got his tenure in regards to online star wars discussion, I've discussed EVERYTHING ABOUT THE THE MOVIES upside down sideways, backwards and forwards. I know WHO is hanging out at star wars boards, KIDS, I know how sad it is that there will be some guy in his 50s taking shots at them as they try to innocently say "Oh my favorite jedi is Anakin." or something. I've been there. I was 15 and I made a few threads about such and such that I didn't like in the movies and some guy with his Ivy league education tore me to shreds at 15. Welcome to the internet, kid.

But I'm not emo about it. I'm still here, still moving forward in life, still muscular, still got my looks. What's the downside to my lfie?

I will indeed at some point be slicking my dick into the butt-hole of a good looking girl, I have no doubt of that. So really go ahead and talk shit about me, I'll just be deep inside of a girl's ass and not giving a damn about what you have to say.

So here we are, living life and JJ Abrams is making a star wars film featuring the original cast and crew from star wars. Lucas is still alive, John Willimas is still alive. I dare say these star wars movies will be BETTER than the original trilogy and prequels. I know how outrageous that sounds. But I contend that if indeed lucas and Williams were not living and breathing today, there'd be a serious lack of talent to input on the films. But the fact that living legends in film are still around and they're making new star wars without lucas in the director chair, Abrams is a legitimately good well trained director who has a passion for star wars, there's no doubt this movie is going to be a billion times better than the prequels could ever hope to be.  That's my opinoin. No that's my fact.

I'm not saying Abrams is going to make better movies than the OT, thtat's damn near impossible. It's like yeah these are going to be sequels to the originals but usually when you make a sequel it features the original cast coming back and performing some more. But the thing is this is a sequel to a movie made fucking 40 years ago almost. So really half the original cast is dead. Alec Guenness cannot come back to play Obiwan in these movies and how exactly is that going to be explained I wonder. Yunno? We will see Yoda's ghost most likely at some point, but how the hell are they going to eplain how obiwan doesn't show up at any point, or hell maybe very smartlly JJ won't bring in the ghosts aspect of things into these movies. It's just weird fucking shit.

In a perfect world. I'd have jj maybe somehow wipe the prequels from existence. THose movies are utterly horrid. Yunno put in a line sayhing, there are parallel star wars universes and maybe things are like sliders in star wars and none of the prequels actually happened in the primary story line. That would be wonderful goddamit. Really if they say oh yeah the prequels took place in a paralllel universe. That's all. The original story of how anakin turned to the dark side is totally different than what were were given.

 Yeah, just saying. I'm not a fan of the prequels anymore. My little 12 year old kid brain was all about the star wars prequels. I was SOOOOO thinking that Lucas knew what the FUCK he was doing with those movies. I was like, Yeah this movie kinda sucked but he'll get it better with the next one. WRONG. I don't care if Lucas thinks he can do whatever he wants and get away with it, it doesn't work that way, dude. Star Wars is like the bible man, you can't just make SHIT out of the bible. You have to give it respect and love and tender care. Treat it like God's words, as was intended. Fuck you George Lucas. Hopefully JJ's goingt give us the star was we all deserve.

Memo to self

Training for Ramp Ops monday 10-6

Static Shock thoughts

Here I sit, I am indeed forging forward with my static shock project. It's a labor of love. You have to understand who I am and where I come from. I'm a nerd all my life, super hero fanatic, and when WB put on the static show I was infinitely attracted to the show and watched it religiously. I didn't think it was that great a show but I never missed an episode, I hoped the show would get better and actually put up a bit of a fight against Batman Beyond and of course the old Batman TAS show. It ultimately was at it start a mediocre show and ended as such, but it truly was the last of its kind. They simply are not making shows like Static Shock anymore. A show about a black superhero that's actually fucking good and not a complete insult to blacks. There's nothing of the sort on tv these days. I'm not crying like a little pussy about oh white people are keeping blacks down, that's hardly the case, it's just that there simply seems to me to be a weird lack of blacks on tv this day and age when I come from my childhood seeing blacks everywhere in everything doing everything under the blue sky. Now I don't see blacks anywhere, and what the fuck is that about? There's very smart good black people in this world, put them on tv give them something... don't just say, Nah, only whites should be doing stuff. We're supposed to be beyond that way of thinking...


Am I right?

I mean, yeah I get it. Black people are like 90% shitheads in this world. I'm not stupid about that. But that should' not mean that TV reflects that view point, even to the point of there being no black cartoons for kids to watch at all these days.

 Well I'm going to finish my project and put up a really badass trailer on youtube for anyone who's interested. All 5 of you out there.

Thinking about White people

Got to say I've been really dumb about my social interactions in my life so far. I've barely gotten out into life and been amongst white people in any real long capacity. So I've kinda have no clue under the blue sky what white people's lives are all about. But from what I've glanced from my few jobs in the last few years, being white is GREAT.

I met this gorgeous italian/cuban girl. She's insane, but she lives her life feeling like there's no limits to her life, she can do anything, be anything, and she's crazy even to the point of thinking about giving a black dude a piece of her ass. Although I realize now that the only reason she thought about giving me a chance with her was because I was acting like a tough ass man and that got her pussy all kinds of wet.

That's all it takes, I mean seriously. Girls are like not hard to get even if they have their fucking IVY League degree, all it takes is being a tough guy, then she's yours, simple shit.

Yunno, that's all it is. All it takes, just displaying this tough attitude and huffing and puffing and acting all badass and no matter how femnazi a bitch is, she'll go back to being a fucking female in no time flat. It's not under a bitch's control in the end is it...

But yeah just saying I never knew or cared about white people's options and freedoms that they enjoy over me by the bucket fulls, but yeah I always say to myself, you can't fuck with white people. You just can't.

They not only own the planet, but on top of that, they got this ability that I'll never know about. It's like this. So I go hang out in anywhere in this section of the bronx, in no time a bunch of douche bag black guys will come out of the bushes and start a little scuffle with me. It never fails. It takes no time at all.

A white guy clean cut, looking like he's got a bank account filled with money, goes and hangs out anywhere in this community, no black person will go up to him and start shit at all. He'll just walk around feeling like nobody can fuck with him.

That's how it works. And that's just a luxury that I wish I knew about.

More to the point, it's like, I can imagine how nice white people get treated by other white people in this life. Yunno, it never fails. You'll never be a situation where a white guy is getting his ass handed to him in court. Unless he's really out of this world crazy and raped a fucking kid or some shit, but no, it's always going to be blacks going to court and getting their ass whooped by the judge. That's another point, white people do not get the full hit by the court system or any system. Now that I think about it. There's no racial profiling for white people. There's nothing.... You got to be a real idiot crazy white guy to fuck up the privilege that you enjoy in this world, that's all I got to say....

Like I never thought that I'd have to dodge the KKK as a kid. I was living uttterly relaxed laid back life style as much as I could make it that way. I mean school was the war zone, home was the sancutary where I got away from school and just relaxed and watched power rangers and stuff.

But now. It's like, yup all that shit you thought would happen, that's exactly what's going on. They're watching me, they're watching all blacks on this planet and keeping tabs on what they're doing all day prettymuch. 

I think to myself, what the hell can I do now to make sense of this life surrounded by the KKK people. I didn't see this coming. I did the whole high school bit as expected and now WHAT? Honestly this is the hardest part about my life I have to tell you. To wake up one day and realize that you're just here alive, but you don't mean shit in this world. Not really... If I was a whtie guy, yeah I could legitiimately feel included in life and a part  of the whole society and the large expectations of our political movements but no. I have to say as I stand here a 28 years old black dude, I've got NOTHING to do with anything going on in this world at all.

No girl wants to turn black. I have nothing to do with whatever political arguments old white men are having today. I've got nothing to do with fucking anything going on military wise or any big time stuff. I've got nothing to do with anything.

Maybe that's a good thing. Maybe being a black dude and not having to bear the weight of the world on your shoulders like white people have to, is actually a good thing. I never thought or wanted to be in a position of serious power and responsibilty  and here I stand, and indeed I have no serious power and I don't want it.

I'd much prefer to just be doing ramp ops at delta and nobody talking shit to me just being a good worker and not getting all kinds of shit going on.

Why do I have to have so much bullshit on my plate in life? Yunno? What fuck? So what, I'm a guy trying to get a girlfriend, preferrably one with massive titties. Is that something to fucking make a big deal over?

I laugh my ass off at the reality that I've been made aware of. It's like the primary reason I've been getting so much drama in my life is because I'm black. That's all it is.

If I was white, nobody would dare attempt to bully and belittle me at my age now. I could go get a nice clean suit and tie, walk around the streets and blacks and everybody else would leave me the fuck alone...

 But no, being black immediately opens a can of fucking worms in your life whether you're a kid or a grown man, there will be drama. Such a sad life t live I have to say, it really is...

Why is Mace Windu's lightsaber purple

Interesting article on IGN about the various colors of lightsabers throughout the star wars movies.

I always wondered if there was a meaning to the colors. Indeed many have postulated that green symbolizes a master and blue is for an apprentice or normal jedi. It's quite clear in the films any really masterful jedi has a green blade.

In my opinion it's like the vest a ramp agent wears. Technically only the top lead agents are supposed to wear a yellow vest to distinguish them from the regular crew members, but I can tell you from my experience ANYBODY can get the yellow vest if they want to, it's freely available and there's no real consequence applied if you rock a vest you're not supposed to, nobody on the ramp gives a damn about vest colors. In fact to show respect to the hard working crew members, many of the supervisors actually wear the regular vest to sort of say "we're on the same level." but they're full of shit, and I know it.... no way do they want to be on the level regular baggage handlers...

I don't know, I always liked things being simple when it came to lightsabers but of course the EU had to be over the top about things and have jedi sporting a rainbow of blades. So it came as a surprise to me to see Lucas himself abandon the original concept of there only being green, blue, and red, and decide to toss a pointless purple lightsaber at us.

Of course somebody made up some reason for the purple as is the case with star wars. I can tell you I've discussed everything about star wars online that can possibly be discussed and one thing that people have actually taken the time to make up is a reason for the purple blade. Some say that Mace is a dark jedi, he's a jedi, he's affiliated with the jedi order, but he's actually practicicing a bit of the dark side, which makes no fucking sense whatsoever. You can't be a jedi and have your pinky in the dark side just a smidge. It doesn't work that way, goddamit...

 It's stupidness up to 11 to think that way. Some fucker out there actually says that his lightsaber is a like a special light saber for ELITE top super jedi and he's like the last one left of those class of jedi. I like that explanation best. Indeed Mace is like the fucking special forces of Jedi or some shit and he's the last of his kind as they've lost those kinds of jedi, that actually works. Too bad he's like not even that much of a jedi yunno. He' fights the emperor and loses like it's nothing, so of course I'm like, thinking yeah he's not that badass. But if in the movie he's actually putting up a hell of a fight against the emporer and the emp is like actually losing against him because he's the best fighter of the jedi order, that would have been interesting.

But yeah I'm just saying that that's the only explanation that holds an ounce of water. That because Mace is some kind of super elite jedi, he holds the purple blade, makes sense to me...

Like with the military, yunno. There's pawns and then there's the elite, and that's the difference made there. Is that the blade indicates your level in the jedi order. Technically all the masters should have green blades, but some still rock the blue out of respect for the apprentices and ultimately nobody really concerns themselves with fucking lightsaber colors. Some do, like trying to hold on to tradition, but most are like not going lose their shit over jedi changing their blades any time they want. It's one of those unspoken rules in life that people go by without worrying about what big brother has to say.

fuck, gotta say tonight I wish I was back in the 90s

I really do.

Just, I mean. recently I'm pathetically watching nothing but old TGIF shows. I'm fucking 28 year old man watching loads of old 90s sitcoms at my age now like a dumbass.

I mean, I want to sit and watch fucking Girl meets world, I reaaaallly do. I loved boy meets world as a kid. Wouldn't mind seeing how the characters grew up and changed, but it just doesn't feel right to go back to watching topanga and corey etc. and I feel funny watching a bunch of little girls running around on tv. Like, it didn't matter to me as a kid, I didn't think sexually about it, but now, 28 watching a bunch of cute teenage white girls, very bad idea.

I'm like, mad at myself more or less for not having done things differently and worked harder in college or something and now here I sit, yeah I'm not that bad off, I'm going to be moderately wealthy as I get older, but I just don't know what to do now. I never thought about what I'd do with my fucking life. Never thought.

I'll be honest with you all. I just truly dedicated my life to Star Wars. That's all I ever cared about and I still care about Star Wars, shit, sounds silly but since I was a kid and that movie blew my brain out of my head, that's all she wrote, I was a star wars fan for life.

Now here I sit and fucking they're making new star wars starring the original crew, I'm so fucked in the head over this, I don't even know where to begin... I mean, my life has had its shit, especially the bullshit regarding superman returns, but to be witness to the creation of the final star wars trilogy, is ABOVE and BEYOND anything I would have possibly dreamed of or imagined... God damn, am I lucky to have somehow lived this long, very lucky...

I think about what to do now and indeed one thing that comes to mind is to be a guardian to the next generation coming up now. I have to tell you guys, GET THE FUCK OFF MY BACK, I'm not going to go around punching 10 year olds! I was punched as a 10 year old! Why would I go do that to some cute little kid? You serious?

It offends me to be pinned as some kind of bully to kids, yeah I'll be tough on them at times, but I'm not going to try to shit on them or their lives, not in the least. If they can enjoy their childhood even half as much as I enjoyed mine, that makes me happy.

I think about what it'd be like to actually get a girlfriend and have some kids. I think about it, I could do it, one wonders what would happen. Would I know what I was doing. Would I do a good job teaching them and guiding them through life?

Me, I'm personally all about sex. I want to get a girl strip her naked, fuck her silly, I'm all about that side of life so I wouldn't leave my kids ignorant about it, they'd get the full fucking 100% lesson on sex up front and center without hesitation. I can't believe I've been left up to the wind and blue sky to figure out sex, but no way in hell would I do that to my own kids, no way.

What else... basically be a cool parent. I'd never be too authoritarian. I'd kinda spoil them honestly if I had it my way. Get the best toys, best electronics, everything. If I had it my way I'd have my daughter be like bulma and my son be like goku. He'd be the warrior, she'd be the brains. That'd work out great imo.

Thinking about Sex

Who doesn't. I mean it's all I think about, all I want to do. I dream of sucking a titty. I mean I don't mind having a job and being a productive citizen, but there's got to be a time in a guy's life where he finally gets to GROW THE FUCK UP and become a man...

Got to be. Lord knows why I go through so much of my life surrounded by girls and titties, and NEVER once getting to squeeze and feel up the bitch and have some of that for myself. Lord knows...

Which is what sparks this thought at the moment. Why do we as a society try to impress upon youth that they should suppress themselves sexually?

Look at what it's done. Look at the goddamn explosion of Porn these days. Goddamn, never thought I'd see so much fucking in my life. I loved watching tv and shit that had sexual elements to it, but DAMN I never thought I'd see the female body getting ravaged so goddamn much when I got older. Fuck me, is it a shock. I was brought up on believing in jesus and being good, not this shit.


But I'm not surprised. The system doesn't work. Who the hell decided to tell people to hold back their sexual urges? Now they've gone stark crazy because of it.

On one hand I don't give a shit, I'd like to be slamming every hole on a girl's ass if I could. On the other, I was taught that this stuff was wrong...

Lordy lord do I wish I could turn back time and be a kid again, boy goddamn do I... but no matter. Going to continue exploring life now. See where it leads. Hopefully going to finally get a goddamn girlfriend. Fuck it's not that complicated.  

Terminator Nintendo Thoughts

Wow. I got to say this whole midlife crisis sequel thing is getting out of hand. I mean yeah I'm excited for this movie but I was THERE when they made T3 and was jacking off all day to that movie too. Here I am AGAIN looking forward to another Terminator starring an old wrinkly version of the terminator? At least in T3 Arnold hit the Gym with everything he had left so he could some how some way pass himself off as the Terminator, Now they're saying FUCK IT and just going with Old Elderly Terminator and trying to make some ass fucking sense of that shit.

Might as well bring Michael Bein back at his age now and pass him off as Kyle Reese while they're at it or Hamilton. This is just stupid.

I'd have preferred they not brought arnold back honestly to play Old Terminator or whatever he's going to be called. Just cast the Rock as the new terminator and be done with it for fuck's sake\...

I want to stuff my Dick down that girl's throat in the trailer though. She's hot as fuck. Probably loves black dick, she's one of those freaky white girls...

Yeah intrigued but I'm a 90s kid, what that means is that I've seen shitty sequels all my life. This honestly looks like a really shitty fan movie overall, not a legit terminator movie. But still I'm crazy enough to care about terminator still as I goddamn become a old fucking man in life... so here we go again.

Terminator thoughts

Got to talk about this tonight as I sit and wait to get started at my new job. Going to be tossing luggage again. But whatever. I do indeed LOVE working on aircraft, wish to one day fly that shit, we'll see, we'll fucking see. Got get that college shit done, or no flight for you pal...

So fucking Arnold is playing the terminator again, no more CGI.

I'm lost and confused, that's all. Why the hell is he playing an Aged old terminator? That's making no fucking sense to me. I grew up on Terminator, love the idea of it, this machine that walks among men and is literally this inhuman GOD that can't be stopped. Badass idea that's never been done better than anyone but Cameron himself. Every other artist jumping on Terminator these days has taken it and shitted all over it imo.

I can't fathom it, doesn't make sense to me. Why is it that the Terminator can Age now? That's NEVER been a fucking concept, they've always made it seem like the Terminator doesn't age, only if his skin gets damaged will it decay, but never thought it'd grow old or any of that.

so they're trying to say that this Terminator is basically just a really old beat up version of the Arnold Terminator we've seen for years now.

I'll roll with it, the fact that anyone from the original movie is participating in this movie means that it'll most likely be a billion times better than Salvation. What a goddamn tragedy that movie was. And like truly Arnold was the only good thing about Rise of the machines.

Most likely he'll be the only good thing about this Shit once again. Weird weird weird life I'm living now. So all my old movie heros are going NUTS and having their midlife crisies all for the world to see right in front of our faces these days... some thing else!!!

why are there still stormtroopers

Great video put on Ign about the new star wars trailer. I love what the internet is becoming an actual place where people can get together and talk geeky crap, not bad. Maybe there's hope for this thing yet...

Lord knows. I have no clue under the sun what JJ is cooking up for Episode 7... shit, it better be better than all the garbage the EU gave us, that's for damn sure. Like I've been around the block with star wars EU. There's some very good stuff in there but ultimately it all boils down to not saying much in terms of what happens next in the saga. Ultimately it of course is about han and leia's kids and the re-emergence of the jedi order.

I'm very excited about what this new story could potentially be about. Perhaps its about Luke turning to the Dark side, THAT would really be crazy. If indeed JJ had the balls to make Luke Skywalker the villain of the new Star Wars movies, OMG in heaven...

But that's something called a risk and most likely he'll play it safe until the sequel movies. What we're going to get is very likely a movie similar to the Star Trek movie, a light hearted, adventure without much actual depth and serious drama.

It's so hard, man, whatever story they got in mind must be goddamn amazing if they're really going to make this fucking thing. So excited. my life actually turned out GREAT in the end despite all the bullshit I've been through. I'm looking at a great LONG lasting career, new star wars movies on the way, Goddddddddamn, I must say I did good for myself.

If you're still a teenager and life sucks for you, just hang on, man. It's going to turn around. This world is pretty awesome really when you give it a chance to be...

Getting a new job

Here we goooooooooooooooo. I'm looking forward to getting going at my new job. I'm just like tired of unemployment. If I had it my way I'd have been working a job since I was maybe 15 instead of struggling to get a job at 28 like a retard.

I mean I honestly never thought I'd live this long, but I'm glad I hung around a bit longer. Look at the way things have gone, they're making star wars again. I mean DAMN. I never thought they'd make more star war EVER. I mean, WHY is the question. Why are they making new star wars movies, profit most likely and I guess it's a now or never situation. Sadly, Hamill, Ford, and Fisher are now entering the last years of their lives and no better way to honor them than by making one last star wars trilogy. I don't even care about whether the movies are GOOD, who cares. Just the JOY of star wars and the original cast still participating in it, is monumental enough in the end.

So, I'm going to be there, for those movies and ultimately be smart enough this time to keep the ticket stubs. I saw all the prequel movies and never kept one stub from those films. Stupid. Saw all the major 2000 movies and never kept any of the stubs, yunno. I recall one day I found the stub for my viewing of Xmen one and never thought to actually put it away and keep it safe. I just stupidly threw em out after seeing the movie pretty much...

Going to be earning a substantial amount of money now, surely enough to finally move out on my own and just work and live and pay bills like everybody else. I hope to make the transistion to an independent person, rather uneventfully, but I'm not one to hope for that, most likely blood will be shed in my attempts to become an independent regular guy in life.

what can I say, been living at home all my life, never got to the point where I was free to go about living on my own and being a regular person out in the world. And it's a scary thought. There are people who are super geniuses and shit out there in the world, and I got what, my High School diploma, still a virgin, basically I don't got shit to bring to the table compared to the people who knocked around in college for 4 years doing whatever you do in there to gain some kind of super brain that people will fear.

It's like, it's tough straight up tough to make sense of how to BECOME a man, and not be boy anymore. It's just, there's nobody really concerned with black people's problems. It's like, really black guy has problems, GOOD, that's what we want. Don't give a shit if black people have money, security, and are highly educated. 

I mean really I see the world now as a older person vs just a teen going to the comic shop to get some comics and videogames and OH SHIT. This world is like, fucking ANTI-BLACK. It's like, it's hard for blacks in this society especially if you don't get that college shit done. You'll have a tough time making it anywhere beyond mediocre level jobs. And it's like, wow, no doubt like when I'm out in the world I see mad black guys working shitty jobs, but they don't give a shit, it's money. They're that desperate. And truth about this world is that, that's how it works. It's like white people will without a doubt in their minds be sitting back enjoying a high class life and blacks will no doubt be working shitty jobs and feeling desperate enough for that and hoping for nothing more in the end.

What a joke it is to be black, just a plain old joke. I don't recommend losing your whiteness if you got that shit. Just don't lose it, hold on to it. Sure scientifically we're SUPPOSED to mix races in order to build a better human animal, but the logic of it just doesn't stand up. You'll definitely make your life MUCH more complicated turning black....

Goddamn, I mean I'm part white, always have been, but I never appreciated white people until now as I stand in my 20s. Never really realized how good those motherfuckers have it over everybody else.

They're just like an entire race of fucking classy motherfuckers.

Really, they don't live life feeling down and depressed in any way. They literally brighten the day when they are around.

Shit, what a world we live in, white people hanging out making the world awesome, brown people hanging out making the world shitty.

That's the damn truth. Sad to say...

Bring back TGIF

I'm serious. I mean if they don't bother, that's fine, but I got to say the serious lack of TGIF this day and age is really depressing.

I was there, in fact, my entire personality is permanently linked to the old days of TGIF and the wonderful world of comedy that exploded onto TV airwaves back in the 90s.

It truly was a great time to be alive and I'm glad I experienced it. I can't ever feel totally pessimistic about life primarily because I was THERE watching goddamn classic great shows as a kid with my popcorn and my candy.

Now I'm being shitted on for being a black guy. I wonder to myself all the time, was that the joke? Let's give black kids a goddamn SWEET childhood with awesome cartoons, shows, and shit, then pull out a bat and beat them senseless when they reach adulthood. Hell, I think that's exactly what's going on. They were waiting all my life until I somehow got to adulthood to kick my ass.

Little do they know I've never gone a day of my life without getting my Ass kicked. Their threats against me mean nothing compared to the hell I've been through.

YOU DON'T GET IT, INTERNET.

When you're black, your WHOLE LIFE is shitty. There's no OUT for you. No pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. There's NOTHING you can really truly do to black people to bring them down from some high level in life.

There isn't. When people talk shit to me, I honestly don't give a damn if they want to piss on me. I'm fucking black. What the hell do I have to lose?

It's like, damn. You can call me a fag, you can say oh I'm not super smart, oh I'll never be as successful as other guys, but YEAH YOU'RE RIGHT. i'M FUCKING BLACK. I'll NEVER EVER KNOW what it's like to be a white guy with potential to own a yacht in the middle of the ocean... I'll never have a goddamn clue about that.

Only thing I'm hoping for is that I get to simply make a decent amount of money and get back into my hobby of fiddling with computers.

I didn't sit and watch HOURS of Tech TV back when they had some actual class and made great tv shows for people to watch who love technology, just to never dip back into that world of tech later in life. I'm a tech nut through and through. It's in my blood. I'm born from the Airforce branch.

I'm an Airman that's for sure.

Too bad they're all pissy about their requirements and shit. I'd be rocking my blues right the FUCK now today if they weren't some fucking assholes in there.Man, what a dream, I guess that's the point. Make you WANT to be in the mil doing that shit, so that you dont' just join for the money. You join for the prestige of it all.

Not concerned with that. I'm personally just trying to get laid for the first time in my fucking life. Yunno... that's all.

But yeah just a funny little thing to impart today. I was just thinking about how maybe it'd be pretty cool to see a new TGIF or something akin to it put on the disney channel.

I look like mickey mouse so I'm certainly the person to tell Disney what to do...

You suck abrams

I got to comment on this new clip from the trailer real quick here. This is just stupid. So stupid. What sense is there to having little mini light sabers attatched to a regular one? What exactly are those little nubs going to defend against in a battle?

I was thinking this was cool for a bit but really when you think about it, it's pointless over indulgence, nothing more nothing less.

seriously, just because we got bored with the standard issue light saber does not mean you have to change it to any shit that comes out your ass, Abrams. Shame on you. I hope you change it to a regular blade in the final cut of the movie, For the LOL of GOD. 

the force awakens trailer

Goddamn interesting... that's all I got to say.

Looks like really shitty fan fiction. I mean I've been around forever with star wars. I know all about the shitty terrible fan fiction and of course tons of EU material. I don't quite get what's going on in that trailer. So apparently nothing the rebels and Luke Skywalker did in Rotj meant shit. The empire is still up and running and causing trouble. And The Sith is still going strong.

What the hell? Seriously. If this movie makes RotJ pointless, that's a serious crime against all that's good in this world. I got to say, just saying....

weird trailer.

Thoughts on the world of astronomy

Huge astronomy guy here. Lord knows why we've become so lost these days in terms of what direction to point our society towards. There really is only ONE thing left for us as a people of earth to focus our efforts towards and that's simply the space program.

I mean, yeah that's what we do as a world. We find super genius kids, put them to work on the next monumental space project.

They're sending tons of new experiments up to the space station every day no doubt. Some smart fucking people coming up with new tech that can hopefully lead to some how some way changing things for us here on earth and beyond, if indeed we ever do find a new planet to inhabit.

I grow ever tired of having so much of my own personal life be focused on when there's MUCH MUCH MUCH bigger issues in this world that go far beyond my little insignificant life.

It's like, yeah, ya got me, you beat me down. But what about the fact that our species is doomed. Does that mean nothing?

I sit and ponder it every single waking day, hell been doing it for years, wondering to myself, how the FUCK are we going to live beyond the expiration of this solar system.

It's got to be done. Even if you don't fucking LIKE people, Me in particular would just prefer all the hot bitches in this world to live forever, not douche bag guys.

But yeah we have to figure out how to leap over the final days of earth into the next stage for humanity.

How indeed, lord knows. I don't have a clue what the big super genius people are planning at top secret military facilities.And I don't want to know.

I've gotten TOOOO fucking close to military operations. More than I ever thought I would in my life. You don't think as a kid while playing with your ninja turtles toys that you'll be shooting guns at a military base in texas, you just don't...

I want to get my new job going and shut my mouth and stay the hell away from military ops for as long as I goddamn live, that's all I'm hoping for for fuck's sake...

Going to be working at the airport again, so here we go, got to prepare myself for that. Going to be tossing bags as usual.

But it's money, don't give a shit, as long as I got bread it's all good.

Need to get a new phone, fix this computer, buy a new goped, basically hopefully finally have a job that I can use to get me out of this house and living on my own like a normal person.

Certain things I want to do before I die, is that wrong? Get laid, first of all... then beyond that continue learning the piano, mastering computer programming, learning a new language. That's all I'm hoping for. Sadly I realize that there's people sitting around in this world wanting to step on your deams for whatever reason. As if my desire to improve myself has any impact on you or your life, but that's people, some people are nuts I'm waking up to. Yeah really, there's people of all kinds in this life you'll find. All kinds, it's a big crazy thing to try to grasp and indeed I don't have a clue what kind of freaks of natures people there are working top corporate jobs in this world. I can assure you I'm not one of them. I just read a few pages in a book and I can't recall shit that I read. So yeah, not some super genius. I'm an artist, that's about it as far as my super human capabilities go, but I'm not some super duper elite level person, not by any stretch of the imagination.

jurrassic World trailer thoughts

hate it.

They failed. I'm a 90s kid and that means you were a jurrassic park NUT. I read the fucking book, loved the movie, went to see the sequel with my family down in florida Good times as a kid.

So I'm a huge fan of the fucking franchise. BOY oh BOY is that trailer one big pile of shit.

You're telling me you went ahead and made a new Jurrassic Park movie that's well, NOTHING NEW. Same shit as the other ones.

Well, damn?

Isn't that what the first movie was? There was a park full of dinos, oh and then the dinos break free and kill everyone.

Now the park is bigger basically, that's all this new movie is saying. I mean yeah it'll be interesting to see what happens if a fully realized jurrassic park goes and collapses in on itself, sure, but wow we've been down this road already, give us something new, guys...

Shitty movie on the horizon, that's all you need to know about jurrassic world. I was hoping it'd be a full scale WAR between dinosaurs and man to the death, not this shit...

Thinking about getting laid

Just went to go piss in a cup at some place down in Manhattan. Been a new yorker all my life, love the city, feel at home in it honestly. If I had it my way I'd live there like Seinfeld. Gotta give it up to that show, it's the quintessential new yorker show. Ballsy, tough, old show about new yorkers and the life they live. Hell of a town New York, every fucking race of people under the sun living and working together, surely an interesting visual of the future for this world where the beast mode super genius people work together regardless of racial concerns... we'll get there some day of course and New York is kinda a preview of that future.

Just checking out the ass down there of course. Lots of ASS everywhere down in manhattan. God Damn, ASS so ripe and young and fresh starving for DICK. Got my blood flowing that's for sure...

Got me thinking about sliding my dick into a bitches asssssss. What would it be like, will it ever happen? Who the fuck knows...

I only hope to finally experience sex at some fucking point. Damn... ya gotta do it, right? or is it optional?

So what does it mean to be a mulatto

I gotta say didn't see this coming. That when I personally got to my teen years and beyond, I'd become this outside element of the white world. I had no clue I'd end up on this outskirt of the white world, basically looking at these immaculate clean, beautiful white people without having a chance in fuck of getting some of that ass of theirs.

No wonder they try to keep black people down and out of the way. I never understood why until now. Because blacks are like zombies and shit basically. If a black dude gets his dick in a white girl then BOOM, her chances in life are nullified, to shit.

But I'm not really black. I'm part irish. Always have felt different than ordinary black people. It's a strange life to live I can tell you, feeling like you only "somewhat" belong to the majority white world. Ultimately at times when my black features came through too much, I felt excluded, but on the other hand, I never felt as I grew up that I was truly a black person. I felt like I was some kind of other thing than black and truth be told a lot of people still look at me that way, as this OTHER thing, not a black person, just some kind of alien being or some shit.

I do indeed look really strange. I'm a combination of races and it's become quite a fascinating thing to see how my body changes as I age.

I mean I look at white girls and feel a sense of familiarity with them for some reason as if I guess my white genetics want to go back home to some extent.

I never really FUCKING LOOKED at white women before in a sexual way, never really took the time to sit and just look at a white girl, but FUCK ME IN THE ASS, are they bright as FUCK. I mean yeah it's all good that they rule the world and shit, but DAMN, they're like a fucking light bulb of people!!

I never noticed how fucking albino as FUCK some white girls look. No wonder the tanning industry is so profitable.

So what does it really fucking MEAN to be mulatto. Nothing really. I mean I've met mulatto negros who are blacker than the blackest person alive. I've met black kids who are nerdy dorks. So there's no saying that your skin tone suddenly = classy. Not by any stretch... But yeah being lighter will grant you quite an advantage in this world after your childhood years are done.

People typically assume I'm hispanic because I'm not straight out of africa looking black dude, which has been beneficial in the sense that nobody really has any ill will towards hispanics in this world. There's no real hatred towards spanish people, they're cool. It's blacks who get shitted on the most.

I mean there's no arguing it. Yeah you can have a debate till you're blue in the face that people should ignore race and just look at your character like King said, but that shit is bullshit and we all know it. The lighter you are, the better off you'll be in this goddamn world.

I mean look at the media. Ain't no fucking dark negro people working as news anchors and shit. Gotta be a fucking mulatto or some shit to get that gig.

I mean look at the homeless dudes in the subway, all of them for the most part black guys. I can imagine they have nothing and no one wants to give a shit about them.

I personally don't give a shit about them myself. I've been bullied and shitted on by black kids, I think to myself GOOD, they got what they deserved, scrounging around for bottles to sell at the recycling machine, GOOD.

 It's not bad at all being white, you can go do ANYTHING you want in this world, there's nobody going to stand in your way. NOBODY.

Boy oh Boy if you're born white are you going to have a blast in this world.

Not fucking me. I've had a rough and tumble hell hole of a life living amongst the black race. It's like living with barbarians. Or Saiyans. indeed black people are like an entire race of wild animals.

I don't want to say we should bring back segragation, we're way beyond that, we all know race don't really matter, but it's a numbers game. The majority of black people are fucking retarded, how can one or two good smart black people make up for the glutton of douche bags, not going to happen.

 Everything is numbers and percentages when you get down to it really. I mean just white people know that generation after generation of blacks are going to go down the tubes and one or two will actually succeed and accend to a higher level and potentially actually get a good career. Or not. I don't know how deep the KKK's movement goes. I really don't. I'm guessing that ultimately they only give a damn about how useful a black person can be in terms of what kind of work he can do, whether it's medical, technical, anything intelligent. Then they won't shit on you that much. But if you're a complete retard as a black guy, then goodbye...

I mean look at the tyler perry movies. I gotta say that whole act he's putting on is getting ridiculous and totally pantomimish. Really how the hell does he think he's making any advancement for blacks with that shit in the least? I know he's a super smart guy, he's not where he is because it was handed to him, but the whole Madea thing is first of all shitty comedy, second of all, racist as fuck. But I guess that's the idea, put out this blatantly racist shit in the media in the modern era for the hell of it?

who gives a damn right?

Same shit went on back when I was a kid. I loved family matters, quality show. Fuck me, is that show blatantly racist. Of course, very very smart white people created that show put it on air. Of course it's full of racism.

Hell of a world this is. So basically if you're born black you're immediately beneath whites and everybody else, that's how it works.


I mean it's pretty darn set in stone, even a flaming faggot white guy is above blacks isn't it...

They don't care. It's like either you're going to make the most out being white or you're not, really...

I mean I got to say it is annoying as hell to have black guys looking like shit trying to piss on me because they KNOW for damn sure they can't piss on a white guy, he'll pull out his gun and fucking shoot his dumb ass, where as they know they can shit on me because I can't just laugh it off and go back to my mansion in the hamptons like some white guy...

It's the worst. I'm at work at Delta and some really fucking black guy is just having a field day taking shots at me all day. He's so tough and badass, oh yeah, if I was white he wouldn't dare, I know that for sure. That's what I LOVE about black people. They have the balls of a goddamn rhino when it comes to starting shit with other black people, but when they come across a white guy, "oh yessa any thing you want sir!"

Really if you're white and you don't love the fact that you can basically laugh your ass off at black people, you got problems.

Oh my God, being white is great. So fucking great. No wonder Jackson goddamn dipped himself in white paint or some shit.

All you white girls out there thinking about turning black are IDIOTS.

Do NOT turn black. It will be BAD. You have the advantage, strategically in this world to have instantaneous money, access to levels of life style that no other race will ever know about, and you're going to turn black and ruin that for yourself? WOW. You are dumb!!!

Being black SUCKS. It just plain SUCKS. Being white is AWESOME! So fucking AWESOME.

I envy every day of my life white people and the life style they must live. Never worrying about people hating them or feeling like an outcast in society. Can't beat that...

One thing I have to say offends me deeply is a white guy even beginning to claim that he knows a damn thing about what it's like to be black. Yunno. The world I come from, the horrors I've seen, the people I've met, the shit that goes on in black schools, you don't know a damn thing about TOUGH.

Yunno. At the end of the day. Black people are TOUGHER than white people. I have to say that. I'm not trying to start a race war, but the sheer fact is that blacks grow up in HELL. White people do not.

Look at me, look at what I can do. All of this is because I grew up in hell...

Every single day having to dodge shit from other black kids, EVERY DAY. Sure you can make a movie like harry potter and make it seem like that white kid getting pissed on by his older brother has it so hard, but imagine being a black kid. IMAGINE THAT SHIT. Oh hell no cry me a river harry potter, you don't know what tough is!

I've been mugged. I've been beat up in school, bullied, teased, been through EVERYTHING that goes on in the rough and tumble black schools in this world. Still have the scars my friend...

On top of that I've sat down and been shitted on by white people in the miltary who hate my guts because I exist because some black dude pumped his dick into a white chick so that he could escape being black...

 So yeah black people are TOUGHER than white people. Don't even begin to argue with me on that fucking point. Not making the claim that they're "smarter" no... but as far as having a thicker hide over their life spans, blacks are above and beyond in that measure.

LOL life is crazy man. I just honestly want to just NOT have to live my life feeling like a black guy. Yunno. Wouldn't mind it if nobody brought it up. Just ignore it...

Yunno. That's all I want. Don't mention it. Don't point it out... But it just won't happen. Every day is going to be a day where I have to feel black and feel beneath everybody.

DAS SUM BULLSHIT

This world sucks

Just got to impart this little bit of wisdom from my little life. I mean it's been a stupid damn life I've lived and now yunno it's tough to make the transistion from childhood to adulthood, it really is. I never thought it'd be this much of a complex journey but when you actually look around you and see the way the world is, it's REALLY a white man's world. REALLY. It's like, yeah black people still are hanging out in this world but no one gives a shit about black people.NO ONE... Never knew it, never saw it, but that's the truth about this world.

I never thought as a kid that this world didn't give two shits about black people, primarily because there was a lot of love for black people on tv and in movies. I guess that was the joke, let's make a TON of tv shows and movies about black people living it up and having a blast in America, let's do it. And then when all the whole generation of black kids gets to adulthood, kick their asses...

 I ain't mad at the KKK, honestly. I've lived the black life, I KNOW how hard it is to be dealing with nigga mania, blacks acting like retards all damn day in yo face. I've been there and back again a nigga tale...

I honestly wish I was white because they don't live with any sense of feeling beneath anyone. I can imagine being white has so much freedom to it. Me if I go anywhere, I always think in the back of my mind if I'm offending anyone for being a black dude in the room. And that's the the reality that I've been made aware of, it's not going to happen. Black guy hanging out with white people and there being no racial tension at all... just not going to happen, forget it...

Thinking about College

Soon enough about to get another job, hopefully going to just stay put and not get any more fucking complications going on in my life, Lord knows why I have this much heat on me. Is it because I dropped out of college? Why is everyone up college's ass so hard? I don't get it. Sure it leads to massive amounts of income, nothing wrong with that, but I personally would rather be banging a bitch instead of jacking off in my dorm all day like I was back in my old Dorm Room in Old Westbury.

I have to say, despite it seeming like the bomb diggity, I'm not a fan of college.

I suppose it's a race issue. When a white kid goes to college he'll feel right at home being taught by white faculty and being amongst his own race of people all fucking day.

When a black guy goes to college, he'll have a tough time considering his professor will be white most likely and he'll be surrounded by white people.

That's basically what my college experience consisted of, being taught by white teachers, and of course hanging out with mostly white students, althought it was a more racially diverse college when all is said and done...

I mean damn it's not that complicated. I just want to feel up a girl's ass and slide my dick down her throat, that's all I'm hoping for at this point in my life. I could care less about noodling around in some fucking university playing harry potter all damn day.

Yeah I said it. I could give a FUCK less about going to school all day. I'm 28 years old and haven't fucking gotten CLOSE TO getting some ass. I'm WAY done with school, my friend.

You can start a fucking WAR with me, I'll STILL be thinking about fucking a bitch. What do you want from me in my life I ask you? Do you want me to just grow older and just well, never get some buns, never ever?

Shit has to be the saddest and most tragic turn of events in my life if I ever saw it. I NEVER thought while going to fucking high school that it'd be THIS ridiculously hard to get some pussy. I never thought...

BRING IT ON. I want you to get off your ass and try to twist and contort logic enough to make it seem like it's OK no big deal if a guy doesn't get some ass before he fucking dies off. By ALL MEANS bring it. I'm serious. Some how some way, try to make sense of this shit for me.

I'm not even thinking about Oh gonna have kids and shit. I'm still in that stupid 15 year old mentality of wanting to get some ass for the first time. SAD SAD SAD. You honestly should NOT by any means under the blue sky go into college without getting laid first and getting that shit out of the way. That's my goddamn thoughts on that. Get that shit out of the way, then college will be a breeze. Still sexually immature, don't step foot into college. Just don't...

Thoughts on black life

I mean I'm a dude who's really not like concerned with race honestly. never have been. I'm into pussy and titties prettymuch, not interested in anything other than that.

I mean damn, all the goddamn beautiful white girl ass in this world, good lord.

But now I really am waking up to the reality of this world, and boy do I wish I was fucking white, boy oh boy. Imagine it you're a sexually mature black male and in a room full of white people, white kids, things are not going to end well, and indeed that's how I feel when I look at the white world from the outside in, I'm looking at a world I do not belong to in any way whatsoever...

In fact, they look at me as this monster, freak, something foreign...

I guess that's why they had us read frankenstein in college, hilarious...

I wish I knew what to do about it, and indeed it's why so many black people get nose jobs and shit to appear more white so as to not freak out white people.

I mean that's what michael jackson did in the end. He knew he wasn't going to sell his black ass to white people unless he looked more pleasant to the eye.

Goddamn, never once thought I'd get older in life and have to live with fear of being persecuted for being a black dude. Not once did I think that as a kid. I figured I'd maybe be cool in this fucking world, but no. Like if I'm at work and I'm working with white people, there's going to be racial tension immediately. Sucks. Especially if you're working with a white girl. Then it's like, she's' going to be thinking all I want to do is fuck her ass. Which is true. I do want to fuck her ass.

Ain't going to lie. Can't fucking be a virgin forever, just stupid. Even a black dude got to get laid ONCE. Shit...

But yeah shit is crazy in this world beyond reason. I mean I never thought about what it would mean to be a black dude walking around and being amongst white people but I was way off in my estimations. It truly isn't going to happen, not today, not yesterday, and not tomorrow, are blacks going to be able to just freely walk around in a white neighborhood and nobody will bat an eye. No way under the blue sky. Yeah urkel was an interesting attempt at changing black perception in the public eye, but reality don't work like an episode of family matters.

 I don't know what to do about life anymore... really am lost. I remember just being a geeky teenager watching Morgan Webb's big beautiful tits on Xplay and tolerating Adam Sessler's Faggy ass.

Why shit got to change?

Why I got to be this black guy struggling to dodge punches from angry white folk all the time?

That's some bullshit...

Lol Didn't Read

And I never will. Bitch...

Everything is politics

Interesting quote from some guy in the airforce. What can I say about the Airforce, I still love the branch, all things considered since I've been having shit for luck in terms of finding a job, might just sign back up for them. But yeah if you're not in it for popping a dude's head off, get the fuck out, and I respect that.

It's just I believe you have to have something to want to protect in order to truly dedicate yourself to that kind of level of serious shit... And I've never fucking gotten a taste of a girl's fucking butt hole or anything yet... still jacking away to porn all day like I did in high school...

Which is yunno not a bad thing for me to do. I put up some hot as hell white girl on my screen and go for broke, let the juices flow... fun fun fun...

Been searching for a job night and day. Only thing I can hope for is truly getting back into fucking TSA. I'm in the running for that job. Just got to wait a couple of months, hell maybe a whole fucking year and we'll get the whole thing going there... Shit, didn't know they'd be on a hiring spree this holiday season. I'm hoping because the christmas season is upon us, that they look to hiring real quick because the volume of baggage is going to be through the goddamn roof no doubt. I've learned a hard lesson and that's even though you HATE your job, hate your boss, DON'T FUCKING QUIT. I bailed like a moron on a job niggas on the street homeless would die to have. I said FUCK YOU to a easy, high paying cushy job like an idiot. Who am I that I should feel like I'm above TSA? I'm nothing, a guy who grew up watching cartoons and watching porn all damn day, TSA is where I belong. Everybody working there is just as much of a nerdy loser as me, why did I leave?

Stupidity is the only reason.

But live and learn yunno, ya go along and make dumbass errors in life and that's how it works, you fail and then figure out how to not fail so fucking much isn't it?

So everything is politics. Just thinking about politics right now, something I never really thought about nor cared about, but was just going to these job interviews and like never really noticed how many fucking like homelss black guys are just lounging out in the subway all day but there they are. My own race of people looking like piles of garbage in the street...

It must be hard to be a sexually mature white person surrounded by this glutton of dark nappy headed race of people hanging around being useless.

Truth be told that's politics for you, how indeed can black people be molded into something more pleasant to the eye and the senses. Something I'm starting to get a understanding of is that yeah white people are trying to figure out the biggest question of all, how the hell  can they turn black people into quality civilized people instead of homeless bags of shit.

I never see black people like me homeless, only straight jet black super 300% nigga black people on the street looking like they failed in every way possible in life. Boy oh boy am I lucky some white person decided to turn black, or I'd be totally fucked. I mean not true, my cousin is truly black as it gets and he's doing fine in this world, working a job, making some kind of bread, but yeah it's not a world that gives two shits about really black people...

I honestly don't know what kind of world this is. Supposedly there are people in this world who have brains above and beyond what is humanly necessary and give us all amazing things as a result of their freakish intellect.

So I should be feeling like I have to worry about humanity suddenly failing or going to shit, because No, we have very super genius people working at these corporations who are coming up with amazing things, there's nothing to worry about.

I actually met one of them, and they're real. That stuff those people with super high intellects can do, is amazing, seriously... They lack common sense though. The thing that they do is try to figure out the complex physics of a fucking door swinging open before they open the door, that kind of shit. That girl I was working with at delta is dangerous as fuck to work with because she'll never act on instinct, she always tries to create logic behind her actions since that's what she was taught at college, but I come from this place called reality where you have to make gut decisions, lord knows how people who have to quantify everything get through the day... i wish I knew that shit...